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third time to make the same "regret(?)"

ottoke?! inatake na naman ako ng aking katangahan! i was too impulsive for sending the first two message. && now, i apologized through the same method. what was i thinking when i know that he'll either ignore it, get annoyed or maybe even laugh at it (worse he'll laugh at me and call me a crazy, dimwit girl). gosh! these mistakes are piling up and idk what to do anymore. i think i only make the matter worse. he'll hate me forever. i said i was sorry but somehow i did it partly because i want him to notice me even for just a few seconds. ahhh ano na lang pagkakaiba ko sa mga sasaeng fans nya?! i feel so pathetic for even telling him what i really feel. confession kung confession talaga?! ahhh i bet balewala lang sa kanya un. normal lang na may nagcoconfess sa kanya. I bet he's so used to having girls throwing themselves at him everyday. he'll never know how sincere i am. bakit kasi sya pa? bakit ngayon pa? bakit nangyari pa ito? ayaw ko ulit magdrama and mag-isip na i am hurting. di kasi tama ito. pero paano ko ba macocontrol feelings ko?? paano ko sya makakalimutan? ahh baliw na nga ata ako... EMJH, wala ba talagang pag-asa na mapansin mo ako??? Sana lang di dumating ung day na sasabihin ko sa sarili ko na... "mahal na ata kita..." sana magising na ako sa kalokohang ito para sa ikabubuti mo. sana matauhan agad ako para di na kita maistorbo. E, sorry talaga ha. One day, i hope you'll forgive me.