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the mission statement

my name is rhi and i’ve been writing since i was 10 and started, probably like a lot of young writers coming of age in the dawn of harry potter, with fanfiction – most of it grown ass fanfiction that i had no business writing. while i’ve continued writing and still love to read fanfics, i haven’t felt inclined to write them myself in the last 5 years…until now.

i have greedily gobbled down well-written fanfics, imagines, etc but every time i have to read sentences about “pink nipples” and “creamy fair skin”, a part of me dies; not everyone in fandom is pink nippled and fair-skinned. like so many other people, black panther made me excited to be a part of something again and gave me a chance to see myself not just on the big screen but also in fanfics. (yes, before anyone tries to be that person and inform me that black panther isn’t the “first” black superhero, this was the first time we had a black superhero on this level, smashing expectations and box office records so leave me alone). as of late, i have seen an incredible outpouring of unashamedly melanin-ated stories and reader inserts, the likes of which i have personally never seen before and it has made me feel so proud and inspired. thus, this blog was born!

i plan on putting some writing here, taking requests for prompts/imagines/fics, etc. when i write ocs, they’re black; when i write reader inserts, imagine what you want but it’s intended to be a black!reader - this blog is going to be exactly what it says on the tin. so please reblog, follow, support, fan out with me, whatever.

xoxo

slowly but surely working on a few thangs

including:

part 2 to the filthy hobi headcanons

a lil sumthin' sumthin' with jyp 🍑

some worldwide handsome headcanons

I really want to thank you for creating your blog. The lack of diversity in the fandom for black and brown individuals is...discouraging, to say the least. Especially with the disrespect we face not only from kpop fandoms, but sometimes idols as well. We certainly need more people like you to remind us that we are beautiful individuals who deserve to be valued in all spaces. Thank you for sharing your talents with us. I purple you. <3

This message gave me a lot of emotions, so I hope you'll bear with me for this response.

Thank you so much for saying this. Like every black and brown person in fandom, I've noticed this for a long time and I specifically started writing HP fanfiction when I was younger just to insert someone who looked like me. I was so tired of the descriptors and the boxes that I couldn't fit, these daily micro-reminders that the space wasn't made for me or people who looked like me.

I noticed it again as I was getting more into kpop with my friend who is a WOC who has been into it for years. I'll be very frank about it: I've been the most annoyed because I've been thankful to see some cultural appreciation in kpop from certain groups/idols but a hell of a lot more appropriation and with that comes ignorant and sometimes downright racist fans that are willing to ignore and excuse anything negative that a group or idol or even their own fanbase does.

I usually just go through the tags or fic recs and read what I find to be well-written and what I like. I don't know about y'all but I have grown so accustomed to fandom being a white space that I just assume that unless otherwise mentioned, that's where I am. I'm just happy to find fiction that's well-written and not too overtly *not for me*. And that's sad. I've also seen, as I've been reading, writers that I thought were black (I think we have a distinctive voice and vernacular and I'm sure it's the same for other POC) but who just co-opted the language in order to sound cool. People love to sound like us, to look like us, to sometimes even pat themselves on the back for having one little poc story (and it's always something vague as hell) but the space and the stories are not FOR us. We're an afterthought when we're a thought at all.

I've been resentful of it in the past and I continue to find it disappointing - but now, also strangely inspiring. I have 5 unfinished drabbles/headcanon pieces in my drafts right now that I started but stopped working on because I started to become self-conscious of my writing style, wondering if people could relate, if I would sound "too white" or "not black enough" or if I would sound like I was trying too hard or not hard enough and afraid of being judged regardless of what I ended up doing but then I realized that it doesn't even matter.

The reason I wanted to start this blog is because I know I'm not alone. The number of likes and reblogs and this very nice message makes me see I'm not alone and I hope this response lets you know that you're not alone either.

I'm not saying that white fans can't follow this blog or read what I write when they find it in the tag if it's something that they like, but my writing is not FOR or about white readers - it is for black and brown readers in fandom - and I'd like to take this moment to make that clear.

Thank you for your message and your support.

You ARE beautiful and your value is absolute regardless of the ignorance and negativity you may face from others. This blog is meant to serve as a positive, safe space in fandom for me and I hope it can serve as one for y'all as well.

I purple you, too! 💜💜💜

so y'all remember when I wrote in the filthy hobi headcanons that - and i quote: "his dick is average"?

well, here's a new hot take based on the video above: i'm a stupid bitch and hobi has the receipts in his pants (because he sholl ain't got no draws in there).

222 followers!

There are 222 of you here (the numerology/angel number nerd in me is happy about this fortuitous sign)!!!

WHERE DID YOU ALL COME FROM?!

wherever you came from and whatever you came for, thanks for being here. 💜💜

and despite it being almost midnight here, i did NOT forget about our lovely chim chim's bday. as you know, we celebrate for MONTHS around here 🤣 so you know the drill: send in your jimin requests and asks.

i know i'm slow AF and it's difficult for me to interact as much as i want to because my weekends are wednesdays and thursdays instead of saturday and sunday like almost everyone else's so i think when i'm online, people are working or asleep 😢 but i'm here and always down to clown, even if it takes me a few days to post.

as an update, currently working on:

a bts headcanon request

a jk thirst ask

a very ambitious series focused on each member and massage (because i work as a massage therapist and have felt inspired recently)

several concepts

a reader x ot7 fic (yeah we gettin' real slutty in here 👅)

a surprise req for 🍑

a light bdsm namjoon piece

sorry i've been MIA!!

my bestie got married abroad so it's been a busy month but i've missed you all and i'm back.

it was very nice to see that folks have still been loving the stuff and i got some very hot asks in my inbox for requests for namjoon and jimin

SPEAKING OF -

i go away for a few weeks and the boys thot their way through LA and get IG accounts and like, will they ever let us breathe?

happy 2022 to all of my loves here!

for every black, brown, mixed, freckled, hued, tea-stained, sun-kissed, magical, melanin-filled, midnight-skinned, brown brass, red clay colored woman - past, present, and future, across all places, spaces, times, and dimensions:

may we always be a reflection of divinity.

may we remember our beauty, our worth, and our power.

-- "dedication" from pussy prayers by black girl bliss

and i basically stay lurking my own account rather than posting 😅 but i get notifications every day that people are liking and reblogging the posts from this blog and i love it. it's so very special to see that people enjoy my writing, of course, but even more special to see that people feel represented even when i'm not here on my a-game crafting a ton of content.

i try not to ramble about my personal life here bc i don't wanna bore anyone but i'd like to say that i've never thought of myself as a particularly ambitious person but i've been working to - when it comes to my career - be able to do more of my own thing and have more control over my life, finances, and time so for the past few months (with a schedule that's already all over the place) that's been taking me away from doing what fills my cup creatively.

HOWEVER

what i would like to make more of an effort to do is post more consistently and just generally be more present on this blog.

Of course as soon as I answered that it wasn't snowing, it started snowing again!

Catch me out here in my long puffy Korean idol coat 🌨️ 🧥

y'all really came through with the asks! my inbox overfloweth with some very interesting MTLs and reactions and i love it! i love being able to interact with y'all ☺ i'll be more present and back to answering more asks and such tomorrow.

i think i might just continue accepting things on a rolling basis and post between longer works while still answering non-prompt asks regularly as well.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

I hope your day is filled with love of all kinds, but especially some self-love. and whether you find yourself boo'd up today or not, know that I'm sending you so much love - today and every day! 🥰😘🥰😘🥰😘

i feel like i've always been pretty open and explicit about the purpose of fandomnoire but as it gains more exposure and more followers, i want to be even more explicit about it.

while i've seen how unkind and ignorant some people in the kpop fandom can be, i've received nothing but positivity and love from all of you and that makes me feel good and enables me to be more open in this space because i want to create a safe space for others but of course, also for myself.

i want all readers of color to be able to feel at ease here, whether you're black, latinx, aapi, mixed with those races in any combination or whatever. but a thing i feel like maybe i should note when i'm trying to be inclusive is to also be aware and to make others aware that i'm a black woman and so my writing and the language i use reflects that experience and that's my personal primary way of thinking. this isn't discriminatory nor is it exclusive, it's just unapologetically specific and i think/hope that all readers can find refuge here and take what they need from my writing - just like black women and other women of color have to do when they venture into all-white creative spaces in fandom.

tl; dr: i guess what i'm saying is sometimes what i write or put in the fic recs tag will be very general and easily palatable for all and sometimes it will be more specific. if you weren't offended when you were reading about pink nipples and being the sibling of some idol in every kpop fic (omg don't get me started on my hate for this trope) that was supposed to be reader insert fiction, then please don't be surprised if you come here and start reading about brown nipples, afros, curly hair, braids, wash day, and feeling like a fish out of water as the reader because these experiences are just as valid as any other.

anybody else have kids that won't let them do shit on their own? bc my little black boy stay GLUEDT to me, especially if he sees the laptop is out.

listen. y'all didn't ask but imma add my face bc if all I had ever seen of the owner of this blog was her feet, I'd be wondering about the "noire" part of fandomnoire 🤣

and AGAIN because i have seen white writers co-opt AAVE and slang and i hate that shit

the cat black, i'm black, we blackity black on this blog.

anybody else have kids that won't let them do shit on their own? bc my little black boy stay GLUEDT to me, especially if he sees the laptop is out.