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Live and Learn to Live

In life we learn that things don’t always work out the way we plan or want them to, and sometimes some things just don’t end up well because they were never meant to on the first place.

We all learn that everything can change; people and things, both are capable to change themselves or even change each other; things change people, or vice versa.

We also learn that we can’t turn back time no matter how much we want to fix the past or how much we want to have something or someone back. Learn the truth that we can’t change what is behind us, and some things just never happen twice or second chances are rare to find. No matter what we are capable of, we can never control the time.

We learn that sometimes things happen when we least expect them to happen, and those things could be anything: happiness, sadness, forgiveness, disappointment, success, failure, or even love. That’s why people say life is full of surprises, because it surprises you in ways that you have never imagined before.

And this list of what we learn in life still goes on and on…

The point is that life will always give things for us to learn, even when we don’t want to. As long as we are alive, just make sure we never stop learning to live.

(my personal consciousness) 

Take Time To Pay Attention

Today when I was reading something with my cell phone at my desk in my room, my brother suddenly came into my room and asked if I saw his watch or not. I was very focused on what I was doing that time that I didn’t pay attention to my surrounding and I just quickly answered “No” to him, when actually his watch was just there right in front of me at my desk. After looking at my desk, he found his watch and then took it from my desk and said “You don’t even pay attention. It’s just right in front of you.”, and I laughed because he was right, I didn’t pay attention because I was too busy with what I was doing at the time, that I didn’t see his watch right there in front of me.

When I think about what happened today I can say that it often happens to us. We are sometimes so focused on what we are doing that we forget and ignore about our surrounding that actually needs our attention; family, friends, unfinished business, even God, and sometimes our own self. That story above is just a very little example, but I am pretty sure that we all have been or are going through condition that is similar to the story in a much bigger scale. 

So the message today is whatever we are so focused on doing right now, make sure we take time to pay attention to our surrounding that needs or demands our attention. So have a blessed day. God bless you all.

I realize that some people just easily break down the wall that you always build inside yourself to keep that safe distance from people. They don’t just come into the wall through an open small gate, just like most people you let inside the wall do, but they just come and break it down, like it was never been there all the time. 

No matter how strong you think the wall you build inside of you is, some people really know how to break it down and make you feel defenseless. Once you feel defenseless, they instantly gain access to your trust, your mind, and even your feeling. The problem is that sometimes you don’t know what are their intentions of breaking down the wall, or the reasons why they care enough to break it down. I think you just need to find the answers - perhaps if you are lucky enough, you will get the answers of those questions just in time, or if you are not, maybe a little too late.

thinking about me in a way i never did before

I have been wondering what is wrong with me lately. It is like suddenly everything gets even blurrier from this point. First I thought I knew what I had always wanted in life, even though I never had real plans, at least I always knew what I want or what I thought I wanted. And suddenly things just changed.

Right now I don’t even know what I want to do, like suddenly I just fall into a total confusion, and lose my consciousness about what I have always wanted for myself. I don’t even know what I feel right now. I am numb, but I feel dumb. Everything has been going on very well lately, and I know there is a say “you can’t always get what you want”, but lately I feel like I always get what I want, until I don’t know what I want anymore. The problem is that I don’t have a list right now, and I hate to think that I need to make a new list of things I want. Maybe I only want too few things in life that when I get everything I want, I get bored and I just don’t know what I want other than things that I already have right now. So I am stuck. Or maybe I actually want more but I am just too afraid to admit that I want more than what I have right now, or just too lazy to think about it because it sounds complicated. 

I believe life is still full of surprises though in a good way. So I will just sit and wait for that kind of surprises. Well I can’t expect too much, but I can always sit and hope right? I guess when you expect too much you might get hurt, but when you expect too little or nothing at all, you might end up being bored like the way I am right now. And it is a new thing that I need to keep in my mind.

Some people make you feel a little scared. They come without a warning and then show you a lot of things that no body has ever shown; they tell you stories that you never get bored of listening to and they are not afraid to show you who they are and what they believe in. First you thought it was all nothing. You thought you could handle yourself until you realized what they have brought into you, which is comfort. One day that comfort helps them undress your soul until they see what your soul is made of piece by piece. 

You know that there is a little danger in that comfort, and you just feel a little scared of that comfort, so you hold back. But how long will you be strong enough to hold back?