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two - not so great first impressions

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lee minho x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay, swearing

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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three - holy shit

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lee minho x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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she missed this feeling.

the moving rainbow lights, music that reverberated in her chest, and the mindless sway of bodies.

no one was anyone.

it was her heaven.

she smiled as hayoon squeezed her waist, making a kissy face at her friend as they swayed in unison. dahee and yuijin were right next to them, the two of them all but grinding on each other to the hyuna song playing. running her manicured fingers through her hair as she tilted her head back, letting hayoon's hands on her waist dictate their movement.

"I love this song!" yuijin yelled into some guy's ear, the shots they took earlier clearly hitting her.

"I love you!" an equally drunk dahee yelled back.

eva let out a genuine laugh at her friends' antics, the melodic noise counteracting the blaring base.

across the club, felix and his friends had just gotten their drinks from the bar, snagging a table near the dance floor.

"this place is cool!" jeongin said, looking around the place in awe.

"I know right! it's been open for like two years." hyunjin said, already grooving to the music, "Finish your drinks so we can dance!"

only a few obliged his request, including felix himself. he and hyunjin had been here many times before, so navigating the sea of bodies was easy. felix brought jisung into the mix with them by the hand, letting go once they found a spot to dance.

the beat shifted to something faster, and Felix lost himself in the rapid movements of the people dancing around him, letting it all take hold of him.

his eyes moved to hyunjin, who was dancing with a pretty brunette in a dazzling silver top and black pants.

he's fine

his eyes moved to jisung, making sure his other friend was okay. he nearly elbowed the person next to him.

jisung was dancing with eva, and the pair were quite handsy with one another, jisung's hands tight on her waist and her head cocked back on his shoulder.

he shouldn't be surprised. jisung did say his goal was to get a pretty girl's number tonight. and he wouldn't be able to recognize her from lunch earlier in the week, seeing as she ran away to the bathroom before he even was her face.

didn't make it any less weird for him.

unable to relax to the music anymore, he tried to move through the crowd towards the pair but found himself unable to move around the grinding bodies around him.

he'd find the pair later before it went any farther, hopefully.

four - i'm gonna kill you

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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five - hey

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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six - new friend

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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seven - studio lovers

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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eight - sunshine

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

note: content warning!!! - discussions of abandonment, hints at domestic abuse

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A few minutes later, Eva found herself gently knocking on the door to Felix's dorm. Anxiously fidgeting with her rings, she waited for the door to open.

The door did open, but it was an unfamiliar face at the other end.

"Hi- um, are you Hyunjin? I'm here for Felix."

"That's me," The taller boy smiled, "Come in."

Eva stepped into the dorm and was instantly surprised by the aesthetic and cleanliness of the room. The small living space containing a simple kitchenette and couch was decorated in a soft, cozy vibe, with various paintings hanging on the walls.

"His door is the one with the ivy on it," Hyunjin said, gesturing to one of the three doors attached to the small main room. "If you two need anything let me know."

"Thanks..." Eva awkwardly said, kicking off her boots and heading to Felix's bedroom.

Gently rapping on the door, she leaned on it.

"Lixie? It's me, Eva."

There was all the way, and then the door slowly opened.

Eva was about to complain about almost falling but stopped when she caught sight of her younger cousin. The hood of his jumper was pulled all-the-way up, obscuring some of his face. She hadn't seen him this sad since they were young when she was saying goodbye to them at the airport.

"Thanks," Felix said quietly, as she entered the room and closed the door behind her.

All the lights were off in the bedroom, but even in the dark she could see the clean and cozy decoration of the main room carried into Felix's bedroom.

Eva followed Felix to the bed, pulling him into a hug once they were seated.

"What's up?" She asked softly, squeezing him gently.

He pulled her closer, burying himself in her hold, head on her shoulder, as if he was trying to make himself as small as possible.

"Do you wanna lay down and cuddle?"

He nodded his head against her skin, "Hold me?"

Slowly, as it was more difficult while she was still hugging him, she shuffled back on the bed until she was against the headboard. She spread her legs wider on the bed before slowly pulling a stray blanket over-top of the two of them.

He shifted, so that he was laying in between her legs but left one leg sprawled over hers at an odd angle, arms tight around her waist. His hood had fallen off in their shifting, so she began gently combing through his hair, smiling softly to herself as he hummed against her skin.

They laid in silence for awhile before Felix finally spoke again, "Why'd you leave?"

"You know that already, my father couldn't stand Sydney after my mom died."

"No, why did you leave. You stopped talking to us completely after two years and never answered anyone's mail or phone calls. I love having you back, Ev, butit'ss been seven years since any of us heard from you. I didn't even know that you were studying dance or were attending University?"

She bit her lip, holding him a little tighter.

"I didn't have control of the situation, Lix."

"You reached out to my mom over Facebook, you could've done that years ago."

"I couldn't have, Lix."

"It's easy-"

"It wasn't!"

She hated that she raised her voice to Felix, body instantly tensing.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have raised my voice, please forgive me."

"You don't have to apologize," Felix said, finally looking up at her and moving away from her shoulder. "I just want to know why you abandoned us."

"You remember my dad?" Eva said, her voice quiet and meek.

"Overprotective and a little weird, but other than that he's alright?" Felix said, "Why do you ask?"

"He's- he wasn't like that after we moved. I don't know what happened after my mom died, but he... he changed." Eva said, "Overprotective is sugar-coating for what he was like."

"Was? Is he-"

"Dead? Yeah."

"What? How? Why?"

She curled up, avoiding her gaze as tears began to form.

"We-, it was normal-" Her voice broke as she was overcome with the need to hide, "Forget I said anything-"

"No." Felix pulled out of her hold, sitting up and cupping her face so she looked up at him. "Eva, what happened."

"He found my acceptance letter for Seoul Arts, and when we were in the car, he-" She sniffled, "He confronted me about it. He's usually mad, but was furious- about me breaking his rules. He took his hand off the wheel to-"

She cut herself off, pulling out of Felix's hold to curl away, out of view. But he was faster, gently tugging on her shoulders to pull her closer. She allowed it, curling into him and trying to focus on his heartbeat, his warmth, anything but what her brain was conjuring.

"He didn't see the car coming his way. T-Bone, on his side. Killed him."

She was so cold in his hold, so small and so scared.

"After all these years, he seemed invincible. In one moment he's threatening to leave me stranded on the side of the road, and next he's dead. He's gone yet I can't forget him, can't forget it."

"Did- does my mom know?"

"Yeah. My only emergency contact was him, but your mom was the witness on my birth certificate. They called her."

"Ev, I'm sorry what happened to you. I wish-"

"You wouldn't have been able to do anything. He had years to poison you guys in my mind, I only started unlearning when I went to university."

"But I could've been there for you."

"Lix, he had me on lockdown. I didn't even know you guys had been trying to reach me. We moved from Madríd after six months. Anything you would've sent would go to someone else."

"Nothing was ever returned to us."

"That's a question for a dead man then."

"Among many."

The two cousins sat in silence, holding one another as they cried, the world outside the cozy dark room forgotten.

nine - bros before hoes

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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ten - what does he know

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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eleven - she's a bitch

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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twelve - the fall festival

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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Eva was breathless as she left the stage, slightly sweaty but thankfully out of her performance clothing. Her arms were linked with Hayoon's, and Minho was on her other side.

Thankfully not linking arms with her.

As reached the bottom of the stairs, Eva went rigid at a loud squeal and sudden sound of cheers.

Waiting at the bottom of the stairs for the dance group were the other two bitches, along with the rest of Felix's friends along with her cousin in all his smiley glory.

Eva was promptly yanked out of Hayoon's hold, and lifted in the air.

"Aw! You did so good, I'm so proud of you!"

The rest of the group watched in amusement and shock as Felix (who was slightly shorter than Eva to begin with) swiftly picked Eva up and began squeezing the ever-living crap out of the elder.

"Felix."

"I'm so proud of you."

Chan couldn't hold back his laughter at Eva's complete deadpan while Felix continued to treat her like a personal teddy bear.

"Felix."

"You did amazing."

"Alright Felix, you might make her pass out if you keep squeezing them." Chan said, stepping forward.

Felix reluctantly set Eva down, pouting the whole time.

"Finally! Let me congratulate my bitch!"

Several of the guys looked over at Yujin's loud outburst, as she took Felix's place to smoother Eva. Instead of pulling her into a bone-crushing hug, she loudly kissed Eva on the cheek and spanked her on the ass.

Eva full-on ignored some the guys surprised faces, accepting Yujin's affections.

"Thank you for watching, Jinnie."

Dahee didn't make herself known by a loud outburst, instead coming over and giving her a kiss on the cheek after congratulating Hayoon already.

She turned to look at Chan and a still pouting Felix, eyes looking over the rest of Felix's friends. There was Seungmin who was watching everything with some sort of mischievous amusement on his face, Jisung who was watching everything was complete shock on his face, two guys she didn't know yet who were both speaking with Minho who had stepped away from her and Hayoon, and Hyunjin who was staring right at her in surprise.

Or rather, at Yujin.

"Club boy????" Yujin suddenly blurted, having noticed Hyunjin staring at her.

Her outburst caught everyone's attentions, and Eva got one glance at her cousin before he burst into giggles.

"Oh my god." Hyunjin said, completely stunned, before he rounded on Felix. "You knew this whole time that she was one of Eva's friends!?!"

It was Yujin's turn to round on Eva, suddenly looking more furious than her small frame afforded her.

"You knew club boy was Hyunjin!?!"

Eva grinned, shrugging slightly.

"We figured it would be better if you met in person."

==

The large group continued to wander the Festival as they waited for the time for 3RACHA to go backstage. Eva watched in amusement as Yujin, who was never shy, become a ball of nerves around Hyunjin, the two of them walking at the back of the group together. It was only her, Chan, and Minho at the back of the group, her walking between the two guys.

"How are you enjoying Seoul, Eva?" Chan asked suddenly, breaking the silence between the three oldest.

"It's nice. I haven't seen much to be totally honest, but its good. A lot colder than Madríd though." Eva hummed, sipping on her boba happily.

"You've been here for over a month though, haven't you been out?" Minho asked.

"With the exception of the club-" There was a brief pause where Eva diverted her eye-contact from Minho. "-and the mall, the only time I've been somewhere other than campus or my apartment is when Felix drags me somewhere."

"That's a shame, you should get out more often," Chan said.

"Hayoon's been very vocal in making me aware." Eva sighed, looking up at her friend who was engaged in a very (playfully) heated conversation with Seungmin. Knowing her, it had to do with literary takes or movies.

"What did you like to do in your spare time in Madríd?" Minho prompted, making Eva's head turn back to (finally) look at him.

I didn't particularly have any spare time...

"I was pretty much in the dance studio non-stop to be totally honest..." Eva sheepishly admitted. "I went clubbing quite a bit to be totally honest... But I did go for walks around the city a lot and feed stray cats I came along! Neither of those are exactly hobbies, but I can't think of much else that I did."

"Those are past-times." Chan said, "I can tell you enjoy clubbing."

Eva ignored the playful wink that Chan sent her.

"I suppose you and Minho have more in common than I thought."

Eva tilted her head slightly, and Chan held back a grin at how Minho suddenly completely avoided eye-contact with either of them.

"Well, I knew that you both practically live at the studio. I can't call that out since I know I'm the same, but Minho goes to the park a lot to feed cats."

"Right, you have three cats?"

"I do."

"Huh..."

I didn't think we had much in common to be totally honest...

thirteen - yujin ON MAIN???

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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fourteen - instagram

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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fifteen - what actually happened

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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sixteen - bye-bye mid-terms

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lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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seventeen - second times a charm

lee minho x fem!oc | hyunjin x fem!oc

tags: Uni!Au, smau, pining, eventual smut, drugs, descriptions of past violence, people are complicated and that's okay

Felix remembered the Eva of nine years ago, when he saw her off at the airport. Overjoyed at the prospect of seeing his cousin again has made his friends curious about the mysterious cousin. Even more so when she's nothing like he described.

Eva remembers Felix, the only cousin close to her in age, who lit up every room he stepped into. He's the only thing that doesn't hurt about her family anymore. And he's still the same as he was nine years ago, like he had been frozen in time. She's not.

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She had felt his eyes on her the whole night, from the moment she and the other girls walked into his, Changbin, and Chan's apartment; to the moment she got into one of the two large cabs they called.

"I haven't said it already, but you look absolutely amazing," Jisung said, leaning over slightly to whisper it into her ear.

Eva had sat closest to the car door, so only Jisung was sitting next to her, but she didn't keep her attention on the younger guy. Raising a practiced brow, pulling away from her conversation with Chan for a moment, she turned to look at him. 

Their faces were close, so close, and Eva had to keep herself from smirking at the way he flushed ever so slightly. One small jostle from the car and they'd be locking lips.

"Thank you Jisung." Eva said, "You look good as well, planning on hooking tonight?"

Jisung thankfully leaned back a little bit, smiling a little at her.

"I am. Are you?"

Eva smiled back at him finally, even if the smile was a bit wicked.

"What do you think?"

Chan watched his two younger friends interaction with a discerning eye, able to hear the flirtatious attempts from Jisung but unable to hear the last thing that Jisung said to Eva before the car pulled to a stop in front of the club.

Eva found herself latching onto the words Jisung whispered to her, even as she danced with Dahee and Felix.

How could she not? How he kept his eyes on her, even from the bar where he sat with Jeongin and Seungmin.

You know, Minho loves leather.

She was so wrapped up in Jisung's words and the sudden insatiable urge in her that she failed to notice the very man at the centre of her thoughts taking Felix's place as her dancing partner in an instant.

"You look beautiful..." He spoke into her ear, his words hidden from others due to the loud music of the club.

"I think you're selling yourself short, Minho."

He was positively delectable in the silken black shirt he wore. The slim fit of his black trousers highlighted his agile body, and the smallest trace of glitter he had dabbed around the corner of his eyes caught the lights of the club at certain angles.

They only stayed on the dance floor for one song, before she tugged him off to the dance floor and led him to the bar.

"Do you want something to drink?" She asked, looking up at him.

"Not particularly, I think I had enough in whatever Jisung made back at the apartment." Minho said, before pointing out an empty table, "Want to rest for a bit?"

"Please." 

The silence that oft settled between them fell once more, blanketing her in its comfortable nature. She found herself stealing his job, watching his every move as he gently led her to the table, keeping a hand turned out slightly to her and making sure the crowd didn't separate them.

A sudden surge of bodies in their direction had her grasping his upturned hand and pulling herself closer to him, close enough that she could now walk beside him.

"Good?"

"Good."

Silence settled as they reached the table, and Eva let out a soft moan of relief when her mostly bare back touched the cold cement of the walls.

She didn't notice the way Minho shifted slightly closer at the sound leaving her mouth.

Her eyes stayed shut, focusing on the cold against her skin. From behind her eyelids, she could imagine the way Minho was looking at her right now.

"Why keep your eyes closed?" Came his low voice.

"Thinking."

"Thinking about what."

She opened her eyes a little, meeting his eyes for the first time in a while. 

"I thinking about how scared I am. Scared that I'm going to mess whatever this is up." She said slowly. "I'm scared how much I like you."

"If you're scared I'm Hyunjin in a haunted house."

A bittersweet smile broke out on her face, "Not that time, Min."

"I'm sorry, I'm deflecting."

He took a half-step closer to her, his frame obscuring her view of the swarm of dancing bodies as he settled right next to her. She could feel his warm breath on her face slightly.

"What I'm trying to say is that I'm scared shitless, Eva. But I'll be damned if I don't say something because you are doing something to me right now."

She smiled coyly at him, "Hopefully not just right now?"

"All the time, both in the way right now and just in the normal way too."

A small, but genuine smile, fastened itself on her face, permanently etched there as she let a content humm.

You know, Minho likes leather.

"I've been told you like leather." She offered, her tone turning coy.

"What-"

"Jisung told me."

"Fuck- he's not wrong." There was something so damn attractive about the way he pushed his dark hair back. "I'm so close to fucking you in the shitty neon bathroom but I don't wanna put you through that again."

"It's not the act, Minho—I've done it countless times—it's the public nature of it. That's the one thing I can't handle."

"So you're saying that if we ditched our friends right now and went back to the comfort of a real bed you'd let me ruin you?"

She was pretty sure she'd let him do anything he wanted right now because god was he effervescent. 

"My place preferably," She attempted to offer in a coy manner. "I know Yujin's going home with Hyunjin tonight."

"Fuck you don't have to tell me twice, princess."

The cab ride back to her and Yujin's dorm was a silent one, full of tension and longing. She felt as if the hand on her thigh would etch itself into the very fibre of her being.

His eyes barely scanned the surroundings of their common area when they stepped into the two girls' dorm. When she pushed open a door covered in a brick decal, he let himself admire her bedroom as she guided him inside.

It was both cozy and cluttered, with a large tapestry covering the ceiling, and strip lights hidden somewhere closer to the floor to illuminate the room from below. The queen bed was tucked into the corner and covered by a very pretty chunky knit blanket and countless soft-looking pillows. A beat-up record player sat on a crate placed upright, and the box for a microwave sat next to it, filled with records. A couple of empty bottles of alcohol were seated on the dresser, and an almost confusing amount of unlit candles were placed around the room.

Her interior decorating choices aside, his attention still remained focused on her, watching as she pushed him gently into sitting on the edge of the bed as she stepped away and shrugged off the cropped leather jacket that did little for coverage or warmth.

It didn't matter much, she'd have his warmth enveloping her very essence soon. For now, he seemed content to sit on the bed and watch her with those heady eyes of his.

So she gave him a show, taking even more time to unbuckle all the straps that made up her top until she was completely topless. Her skirt and fishnets came off quicker, her heels already deposited in the main room when they came in along with his shoes and jacket.

She felt no shame or embarrassment in sitting herself down on his lap, completely nude save for the thick leather collar adorning her neck, while he was still dressed. Her hands reached behind her neck to the hidden clasps holding it, intent on taking the collar off-

"Don't."

His eyes were deepened with lust, his voice soft yet rough as one warm hand splayed across her lower back, pulling her closer to him. The other hand reached up, a single digit coiling around the large metal loop affixed to the collar and tugging softly.

"Haven't you heard?"

She smiled innocently back at him, "It's the talk of the town."

His lips were hot against her, soft and pillowy yet entirely demanding. She made work of unbuttoning his shirt as his lips travelled downwards, leaving scarlet marks dotted across her skin. The sweet sound of her moans joined the soundscape as the hand that had been near her neck travelled to her cunt.

"Min-"

"Mmm, yeah?"

"Good, so good."

She had pulled his shirt out of his pants to unbutton the last buttons but succeeded in the effort as she slid the shirt off of his shoulders. He pulled away for just a moment to let her fully remove the shirt from him, watching as her eyes immediately began tracing every bit of skin and muscle. He pulled her back in for a tight kiss and her hands roamed his chest endlessly.

His breath hitched as her hand traced over the ancient scar across his stomach. Unknowingly he pulled back, startled in a way he couldn't explain.

"Minho?"

She was looking at him, with those eyes he adored, snapping him out of his mind.

"Sorry."

"Don't apologize," Eva murmured softly. "Put your hands on my back."

Without question, he did it. His hands found purchase once more on her lower back, right above the swell of her ass.

She smiled softly, "Higher."

His hands slowly traced higher, and then he was met with the familiar feeling of raised skin and pebbly scar tissue. He kept eye contact with her as his hands, splayed, mapped out the scar decorating her back.

It was large, so much bigger than his own. A jagged continuous line spanning from lower-mid back to just below her left shoulder. It was not singular, other smaller ones branched off from it but remained connected.

"How?"

She leaned forward a softly pecked him on the lips.

"That's a story for another time. One that calls for a lot of tears and Felix."

He nodded, still taking in the feeling of her raised skin against his hands.

"But we're here right now. Together."

His eyes focused back down to her body as she canted her hips forward slightly. A physical sensation to remind him of what was happening. It was like a switch flicked within him as he hungrily pulled her into him, rolling them over and causing her back to land against her soft blankets and sheets.

She looked up at him with awe and delight as he leaned over her, unable to not kiss his beautiful face. She watched him as he quickly discarded his pants, belt, and boxers almost effortlessly. Shameless in her admiring, she grinned in delight when she felt his skin against hers once more as he returned to make love to her unblemished skin. 

"You're clean?" She asked as her hands slipped lower on his body.

"Yes. You?"

"Clean and with an IUD." 

He hummed in response, grinning as he sucked a particular spot on her breast that made her whine. But she got her payback, causing him to groan against her skin as her hand found its desired target.

"Fuck-"

"Mmm, feel good?"

"Yes." He breathed, "Does this?"

Her toes curled against the blankets as he slipped two fingers to the knuckles into her soaked walls, curling them deliciously and making her whimper with passion.

"Yes-"

They were quickly lost to the throws of pleasure, chasing their lust and aiding one another to completion. Bodies were covered in light sheens of sweat as they smiled deeply and shared secretive kisses.

One of their hands clasped tightly together, lying next to her head. Her legs wrapped around his waist, an arm around his back leaving scratches in their wake. Moans were shared between hovering mouths as they spilled into and onto one another.

He admired her beauty as her manicured nails dug into his shoulder as she rode him at a tantalizing speed, breasts jiggling and the metal ring from his collar bouncing. She continued until she was spent, pulling two orgasms from him until they were simply too tired. 

Softly pulling out of her and cleaning the both of them up gently before joining her under the covers and softly smiling against her skin.

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Fifty-Nine- this happens once every few lifetimes.

(a/n: she's here and she's finally yours. thank you for waiting and enjoy <3)

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“You look pretty hot right now,” you tease, a similar breath of sarcasm colors the tilt of your lips into a smile. A sparkle taking its place right into your gaze that settles on the back of Hyunjin’s figure. Arms crossed on your chest as you learn on the doorframe of your kitchen. He turns to look back at you, your hello kitty headband pushes the strands of his inky hair back, it has your smile growing into an even prettier display of your emotions.

“I’m glad one of us is having fun at least.” He fights the urge to roll his eyes but it is deemed difficult when he ends up doing it anyways.

Resuming the task of scrubbing your dishes clean. It has been on his mind ever since he walked into your apartment last night. Too busy comforting the pain that has settled in your chest and wiping your tears for you he only got to finally do them this morning. Had been awake an hour earlier than you, he took it upon himself to pick up the few scattered clothes of yours. After cooking you a simple breakfast of eggs and toast. He finds himself in front of your kitchen sink, your headband in his hair and your pink dishwashing gloves covering his hands.

“I told you; you don’t have to do them.”

“Yeah? and wait for you to be eaten by a giant parasite that has formed on your mountain of dishes?”

“That’s not gonna happen Hyunjin,” you reply, a soft chuckle of yours that has his chest warming up with affection.

“Better safe than sorry baby.”

You feel warmth courses through your insides at his endearment for you. at his acts for you.  It’s overwhelming. almost big enough to cover up the blue that has taken place on your heart. It has your feet following a too familiar route that leads to him. You find a rare comfort in the fact that you don’t need to fight it this time, you don’t need to hold yourself back from longing for him and so you follow, blindly and overtaken by fondness for this man. You wrap your arms around his waist hoping to have this same fondness dripping from your fingertips and into his skin. Hoping to have this buzzing comfort that settled in you just from hugging him to last, for evermore.

Hyunjin stills for no more than a second, the feeling of your alive body against his has his heart picking speed as if he’s running down a track field but he’s not, he doesn’t need to be aching to get to you anymore. He has you. in the amidst of his pain it’s more than a little flicker of succour to have you.

“You okay, princess?” he inquires, and you hum against his neck, placing a soft brush of a kiss there.

“’m okay. Just feeling thankful for you.”

“For me?” There’s a faint joy coloring his tone and you squeeze him tighter.

“Always for you. thank you for taking care of me honey.”

“it’s what I do best.” He grins, turning to wrap his arms around your waist after turning off the running water and taking off his gloves. He places a kiss atop your nose, and you giggle, caught off guard by the unexpected tenderness of his gesture.

“I know you’re sad too. So, the fact that you still took care of me despite everything means a lot to me.” one of your hands curls in his dark hair, doused in comfort.

“Having you next to me is enough for my sadness to vanish.”

When your eyes lock you stop thinking entirely, you forget the ache in your chest and instead you’re losing yourself in him. his gaze never wavering from yours and it has your heart hammering against your chest. As if falling in love for the first time you wonder how is it possible. For the world to still and stop spinning just to glance at the sparkles in his eyes. it should feel unfair for him to exist right at same time as you. or were you simply lucky enough to be here? Right between his embrace and his loving fingers that trace over your brows, under your eyes and atop your cupid bow.

“Having you next to me is enough comfort for my aching heart. You numb my pain.” Your mind almost laughs mockingly at you, at the way he manages to steal your words before you even utter them.

A different ache nestles itself upon you, in a differently painful way. It’s the way it is for him. A dalliance of your desires against his cheekbones has him closing his eyes and you lean in. with unsaid want etched on your lips when you place them on his. You hope to set free all the trapped words in you, you hope they reach him, and you hope they are meticulously engraved onto his heart. The same way his words are engraved onto yours. You hope for his heart to keep answering yours in the same way it does now.

Your moment is interrupted by the sound of your doorbell ringing. You and Hyunjin share a confused look “were you expecting anyone?” he asks, untangling himself from you and heads for the door. You shake your head, following close by.

Both of you blink in surprise when you’re welcomed by the sight of Felix, Wooyoung and Yeji right outside of your door. Bags of what seem to be junk food in their hands.

“Surprise!” Wooyoung speaks first with an overly loud whistle.

“I thought I told you we’re not doing the whistle thing, woo.” Felix sighs rubbing the space between his eyebrows.

“Fuck you, you don’t control me.” Wooyoung retorts and you can’t help the amused giggle you let out.

“What are you guys doing here?” Hyunjin asks with a raised brow.

“We thought we all need a little cheering up so we’re here.” Wooyoung declares, walking past you and Felix follows with an eyeroll. When it’s just Yeji, she lingers by the door. Fidgeting with the hem of her shirt.

“I hope you don’t mind that I’m here too?”

“Oh! Not at all. Please come in.” you reply with a forced tilt of your lips, peeking over your awkwardness.

And that’s how your night passes by, almost in a blur with happiness and laughter. It all started with you five watching movies and somehow ended with you singing karaoke songs. Empty bottles of beer and bags of chips circle you in the living room. Your sadness is momentarily forgotten in between the funny stories Felix spills and the awful acting of Wooyoung as he tells you about his favorite scene from harry potter. It all ends with Hyunjin leaving to buy cigarettes, Wooyoung and Felix dozing off on your couch and you’re in your room grabbing blankets for them. It’s when Yeji finds you. An awkward smile on her face as she knocks on your open door to capture your attention.

“Just wanted to tell you I’ll be leaving. It’s gotten late.” She says and you pauses with pillows between your arms. The same awkwardness crawls onto your features.

“Are you sure you don’t wanna stay over as well?”

“Oh I don’t wanna intrude.”

“You’re not. I’m sure Hyunjin would appreciate you staying as well.” You reassure with a smile that she returns almost right away.

“I am too lazy to drive back home honestly.” She goes to silently take the blankets from between your arms and you throw her a thankful nod.

“I’m sorry about the whole Yuna thing. It’s still so crazy that it was her all along.” She speaks again when you have walked into your bathroom to rummage in your cabinet for a spare toothbrush. A twinge of pain strikes at your heart at the mention of her name, and you barely manage to hold yourself together.

“It’s okay.” You say, barely audible enough. Followed by you clearing your throat. You force a smile when you face her “part of me thinks it’s karma for what I did to you.” you attempt to joke, a strained chuckle and yet it comes out dry.

It hangs in the air when Yeji’s eyes soften in something so akin to pity you wish to shrink into.

“I’d be really sad if that was the case.” She replies with raw honesty that has you looking away, scratching at your elbow awkwardly.

“Why? You don’t think I deserve it?”

Yeji is silent for a few seconds; it ticks by slowly and you feel it weigh down on your heart. Adding even bigger weights of despondency on your shoulders and you’re weak, broken down so easily it’s the only real thing in this fable existence of you.

“I don’t know how to answer that, but I do know I never want you to suffer because of me.”  

When you look at her, she smiles, raw and candid. Pushing you into a corner with how honest she is. You don’t think you’ve ever met anyone who displays their emotions so shamelessly that you once again find yourself growing jealous. Yearning to be someone that isn’t anywhere close to you.

“You’re so kind.” The words escape you before you can stop them, Yeji’s eyes widen slightly with surprise and you nervously chuckle “I just wonder how you are this kind.” You push past her, walking back into your room to grab a different pillow for her this time and she follows blunderingly “I guess I wish I was more like you that’s why it amazes me every time.” You continue, a faux lightness laces your voice.

Yeji’s hands are on yours, halting your movement to capture your wandering attention and you yield to it. Your eyes flit between hers and her hand.

“Why do you think you’re not kind?”

“I don’t think someone kind would do what I did to you.” you whisper, your voice breaks at the end and despite your promises to forgive yourself, you find yourself drowning in similar hatred instead. The same black eyes that stare at you in the mirror are constantly haunting you. reminding you of how awful you are to even be breathing.

“There is some truth to that, but you can learn to be kinder every day. Even kind people can make mistakes.” She says, and something about her tone indicates that she isn’t saying this just to comfort you. but it is like a known fact that she delivers to you instead. You welcome it pathetically, wishing to at least be worthy to take it.

Your words betray you, leaving you silent until you’re downstairs and showing her the guestroom. You’re about to leave when you still in your steps. The darkness aids the blush creeping up your neck when you ask.

“How do you do it?” You don’t need to specify what you mean, the smile growing on her face tells you she understands.

“The world has enough hatred as it. I don’t wanna add more to that.” Her words follow you for a few more days, it keeps you awake just a few extra minutes at night like a revolution. You didn’t know you didn’t need to be losing parts of you to be something bigger than your anger.

There’s relief in believing in simpler things, in knowing you also can be freed from the cages of cruelty. That perhaps if you couldn't die completely satisfied with you, you could allow yourself to leave warmed by the thought of who you tried to be. It is to leave with scabs adoring your hands because you tried rather than hideous claws drenched in blood that isn't yours.

Amidst the mess you find yourself in somehow you manage to find relief right by the corner.

“How was it?” Hyunjin asks as soon as you’re out of your therapist’s office. Your reddening nose and the growing puffiness under your eyes are enough evidence for him not wait for your answer.

Instead, he pulls you closer to him. Closing the very small distance between you two, away from the coldness of your blues and into the warmth of his. It envelopes you as his palms cup your heated cheeks. A soft empathy colors his eyes and he drinks you in, fliting across your beauty that cannot be drowned by a couple of tears. The brush of his thumbs under your eyes has you letting out a shuddering breath.

“I’m sorry. We talked about yuna and I guess everything just hit me again.” You explain, shaky and vulnerable, your ragged breath eludes against each word.

“It’s okay. No need to apologize, angel.” His quieted whispers are akin to still waters, just under the burning sun of summer. It’s profuse in warmth, affable. And you jump right in.

“I feel like a mess.” you mumble, resting your forehead against his shoulder. And his palm is now on your back, rubbing soothing circles on it. The jumbled-up thoughts in your head seem to settle one by one. Falling back into a comforting song that follow the rhythm of his hand. It’s tender and nothing like the windy weather outside.

“It’s okay to be a mess sometimes.”

“I feel like a mess all the time though.”

“Mhm. You know I love taking care of this mess.” he remarks casually. Catching your eyes when you turn to look at him. He smiles at you, a rare innocence clings to his lips, in the light swimming in his eyes and it feels like a raw display of unyielding affection for you.

Rather than a monster who destroys everything it touches, rather than a selfish being who takes, takes and takes. Swallows everything in sight you feel more like a flower that’s coming back to life. Saturated so generously with his feelings. It’s in the way he looks at you, lenient enough to have you melting between his embrace and your ever-growing emotions and intense enough to constantly ensnare your attention.

“What?” he asks with a breathless chuckle when your eyes linger on his. Overtaken by the beauty of you, only amplified by the deepening of your gaze. It’s only ever for him and it’s a trophy he will flaunt proudly.

“I love you.” you tell him, in the busy waiting room and in the amidst of the seemingly endless chatter of the people around you, you tell him.

He feels oxygen flee from his being, leaving him nothing but a mere soul that is yearning for you, unable to do anything but gaze at you. Your eyes take him back to when he was a teenager, pulled together by chaos and a rather immense need to belong somewhere. To someone. And right now, it all falls in place. He’s no longer waiting by the door, no longer cutting edges to maybe catch a flicker of you someday. By contrast he’s here, next to you and entangled with you. You’re mixing with the blood running through his veins. His partiality for you takes over every particle in his body. They morph into fragments of you and Hyunjin never had a choice. From the moment your name had stumbled from your pretty lips into his heart. Taking space, inflating and then it was only you.

He's finally home.

“I love you, always.” he tells you too and you smile.

You leave feeling much lighter, your sadness stolen by the hands of Hyunjin, and you only think about where does he take them when he’s driving in your car and his palm is sprawled on your thigh. Its tenderness courses through your body. Almost has you falling asleep if you didn’t notice the route you’re taking isn’t too familiar.

“Are we not going home?” you ask, your fingers finding realm within the spaces between his.

“I wanna take you somewhere first.” He winks at you, a glint surrounding his piercing eyes and so you only nod.

It shouldn’t be a surprise that he ends up taking you to the beach, yet you’re still overtaken by happiness as if coming home after a long tiresome day. When Hyunjin helps you of the car, his hand on the small of your back and you shiver. Due to frigid air and him being so close to you.

“Babe it’s so cold.” You whine, a pout forming on your lips, and he’s weakened by it. Leaning down to place a peck there. Your gasp hangs in the air and he only smirks at the darkening color of your cheeks.

“Shh, I know I got you.” He takes your hand in his and you bury your burning face in your scarf.

You spend your afternoon there, poorly executed jokes thrown at each other, followed by a recalling of your old high school days then eventually it ends up in a heated discussion because he insists that I didn’t start crushing on you right away! No way I did!. Ending with messy kisses that last a tad too long for it to be deemed pure. setting ablaze your entire body with the fervent touch of his hands. They’re everywhere yet nowhere close enough when they tighten around your hips.

By the time the sun sets you’re breathless with need. Aching for him and in between every shade, pink arises coloring his eyes and swirling with the whispers of love you told to him this morning. They’re almost as pretty as the colors of sunset, if anything is close to compare anyways. The sound of waves almost resembles the beats of your hearts combined. As if they’re happy their favorite couple is back.

“You’re not proposing to me, are you?” you joke when he stills, his hands engulfing yours. He blinks and you almost choke on your own spit.

“Are you?”

“No no,” he shakes his head with a choked laugh “but I kinda wish I was.”

“Don’t say crazy things.”

“I thought we got over the fact that I’m crazy about you.” You go to hit his shoulder with your freed hand, and he holds it before it makes contact with his body. A charming smile adorns his face “Besides, how is it crazy if we’re gonna end up married someday anyways.” When his fingers graze your knuckles, you grow quiet only because you know it’s true.

“Do you remember what you told me last time we were here?”

“I said a lot of shit.” You mumble, the distance between you two growing smaller and smaller and then you’re wrapping your arms around his neck. You’re close enough for him to behold the adoration you hold for him.

“You told me you want to die next to me.”

“I meant it.” You reply immediately. Easily.

“I’ve been thinking about it ever since. I’ve been thinking about everything you ever said to me on this same beach.” His gaze moves languidly across your features “there’s a lot of stuff I want to say to you, but they all feel worthless compared to the way you look at me. I’m afraid of being unfair.” he says earnestly, and you drink every word as if you were on the verge of dying out of thirst.

“Nothing you ever say is worthless to me. please tell me.” he pauses for a minute. His words faltering at the beauty of you.

“I’m so thankful you never gave up on us angel. I’m thankful I got the pleasure to fall in love with every bit of you, it’s always been you. and I always knew it but thank you for reminding me. Thank you for choosing to love the very foolish and stupid kid back then. Thank you for choosing to love me again.” Your vision turns blurry with tears, building overwhelmingly fast alongside the tightening of your throat. It resembles your feelings for him with how quick they come, how stubborn they are with leaving.

“I’d never dreamed of meeting somebody like you, but it is my reality, we’re here. It’s you and I so thank you for helping me find my home.”

Your sobs escape you forcefully, not in pain or sorrow but in a rather unfamiliar gentleness. Unknown to you but it isn’t something you can’t grow accustomed to. You realize the invisible string you felt around your ankle was not holding you back after all. Perhaps it was leading you back to him all along. And if you’ve been asleep for what feels like decades you have finally awaken.

It’s you and I .

“I feel like my soul has loved you since the beginning of time so in my next life I want to be me again just so I can meet you.” he smiles as if you’re anything akin to the light emanating from him. In the way his lips move across your cheeks, kissing your salty tears away. It’s sugary sweet like honey, like peaches and it’s so warm. Almost indistinguishable from your sixteenth summer.

“Thank you for not giving up on me, Hyunjin.” Your voice is soft enough for your words to be stolen away by the wind, however he’s only ever known to be selfish, so he takes them. Saves them in the pockets of his heart. As his lips captures yours, his love spills into you, mixing with yours and you know it too. As if the younger version of you two are watching over you, somewhere in the stars and they’re chanting. Cheering.

Because the story never ended, it was alive all along. In the stars and in the waves. It’s in the water, in the sand beneath your feet and his waters your garden love right back to life. As if not a day has passed with them dead. Just like you, they have been waiting along and just like you their waiting have finally came to an end.

It’s you and I.

Your feelings that you fought against for a long time are no longer mad at you, they’re not blaming you for not getting over the boy who’s blessed with the light of the universe in his smile. You are not too darkened for him. And instead, you’re privileged enough to matter to him. Not to be tucked away between his abandoned clothes but rather a favorite necklace that he wears around his neck.

How kind of the sun to lend its light to the moon, tinged with warmth. Apprehensively there is room for you to shine. It is thanks to him, you exist.

Your desires end up overflowing like an explosion as soon as you’re home. Hyunjin has you against the nearest wall. Lips melting against yours in a kiss that feels too good, too criminal. Like a reminder he tattoos; you were made for each other.

“You sure about this?” he whispers upon your lips, your breath mixing in all too familiar lustful song.

“I want you. please” you answer, your hands trace wordless reassurance across his shirt “make love to me please.” He groans at your choice of words, and you pull him closer into your body. Tilt your head to meet the plushness of his lips falling back into a fever-like kiss.

It is frighteningly easy to have you moaning under him even without all his teasing. He doesn’t have time to spare nor energy to drag this out. As if a need to have nestled in his blood and it takes over. An unbridle want that have you falling into your bed, and he follows. Your clothes lie abandoned on the floor evidence of your arousal. And it all spills into him burying himself inside of you with a strained groan.

“Oh my god,” you throw your head back onto your silk pillow, the length of your neck calls for him and he kisses it, sucking to leave remnants of his peach scent on you.

“Yeah? you like that?” he detaches his lips from your neck, eyes locking onto yours instead and you nod your hand scrambling for purchase in his locks.

“Yes! Yes please don’t stop.”

If this was any other day Hyunjin would still just to watch your tears spill over your cheeks beautifully. However right now his heart is beating way too fast that it feels ferocious. He wants to say he’s strong enough to resist you, that his mind isn’t growing blank with the way you seem to grow wetter the harder his cock dives in you. the way your voice only seems to grow louder and louder akin to a sweet, sweet melody. That his mind is sure to record, it will play it back to him at random times of the day.

“I-I want you more, more.” You mumble, almost incoherent.

He can’t help the smirk taking over his face at how hungry you are for him. How starved you sound when he’s here, right with you and in you. and so he’s setting a new, relentless rhythm, rocking the whole bed with every smack of his hips against yours. His fingers cradle yours lovingly, too virtuous. And then he’s kissing you, etching the same love onto your body, the marks on your neck and your breast are his. You are his and the thought only has you convulsing under him.

“You feel amazing baby. I could fuck this pussy all day.” Profanities tumble from his lips effortlessly, you are clenching around him and it is only encouragement that pushes him to grind against you faster, sweeter “So perfect.” He praises, sealing them with kisses and you could only moan his name. Like a prayer that you didn’t even need to memorize.

“I’m gonna come jin-oh god- I’m gonna come “you whine, your mouth heavy with pants.

“Yeah? come with me baby.” He rasps, fucking into you harder and you grasp at his shoulders with a breathless gasp “wanna feel you all over me.” he spits out mindlessly, his own mind turning fuzzy with pleasure.

“P-please so close.” He lines his lips over yours as he thrusts into you. untangling your hands from his neck and intertwining them with his instead.

You whine into his mouth as he deepens the kiss until your whole body is tingling, it goes taut. Your high approaches like crashing waves washing over you and he follows right behind you. moaning against your lips. his forehead meets yours as his hips rock into you until they’re coming to a stop. Your body shakes in oversensitivity. You’re breathless, dizzy and yet he keeps kissing you as if trying to find purpose in softness of your lips. His mouth opens wider, your tongues meet in the middle.

When he finally pulls back, he’s grinning down at you. There are stars in his eyes when he brushes the strands of your hair away from your forehead and places a tender kiss there instead.

“That was amazing.” He says and you can only hum back. Drained of energy but filled with a gentle affection for him.

“Tired?” he muses, the pad of his thumb wipes lightly at your lower lip and he chuckles at the way your head lolls to the side. Barely able to keep your eyes open.

“Get your dick out of me Hyunjin.” You whisper, shivering when he slightly moves, and you feel it.

“Whatever happened to please don’t stop.” He laughs and you flush like wine splashed across your cheeks. Your hands covering your face and you whine. His laugh only grows, echoing in your room and in your heart. you cannot conjure a response to say and instead you melt against the sheets and atop his chest when he rolls off you and pulls you into him.

The morning after comes with a pleasant feeling swimming across your chest. As days pass by Hyunjin spends more time by your side than anything else. Soon enough little bits of your apartment hold place for fragments of his. His toothbrush mingling next to yours and his clothes imprint their scent on yours. There’s a fervent clinging to your being, it has your heartbeat kicking upwards at the sight of him in your bed. Opening your eyes to his and closing them to his lips on your cheeks. The obstruction of your fears melts away along with the seasons. Running from winter into spring. And it’s nights when he’s in your kitchen, cooking dinner for you and you linger by the door.

Not because you’re unwelcome and not because you’re waiting for a glimpse of him. Not anymore. There’s no desperation clinging to your eyelashes when he looks back at you and instead there is only ever one feeling. Love. Strong, and more than anything hopeful.

Big enough to know that sometimes believing isn’t what you need. In between the folds of destiny, a game fate had started you believed you were deemed to lose. It carved a gaping hole right where your heart is, and you believed there was no way for this scar to close. You wish you could go back and recount the tale of you to your older yourself. You would tell her how your beliefs have withered away only with the touch of a boy. You’ll tell her all about the boy with the sun in his smile and how he helped flowers grow in the void in your chest. Little by little it closes, rewriting your beliefs into newer ones and they bloom into an even bigger specks of hope.

it’s in the way he shows you one other night his sketchbook, papers upon papers filled with pieces of you till they're completely you. He tells you about each one like they happened yesterday. As if your face was everything he was able to remember. It’s the same way that both of you admit that you still kept your bracelets all those years. Tucked away into safety just like you kept your feelings.

It’s in the light of the moon sneaking in through the window and in the smile, he sends your way when you tell him;

“I love you.”

“I love you, always.” He tells you back, a promise that shall never die and instead it lives on and on. Just like how you’re sure the waves of the ocean will tell your story someday, how the stars have always been witnesses of the day your heart was stolen away. It is these moments that have you growing into beliefs he whispered to you one night.

It’s you and I.

You know it now; this happens once every few lifetimes.

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