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The subtle changes make me smile.

The softness in my legs

The delicateness of my eyes

Smoothing skin freed from rigour

As my muscles let go of false life.

Carried aloft these earthly highs

I recognize myself

And give in

To this vision from my dreams.

Today has been my 31st birthday, but it is my first as Ananna.

This is so strange to think about. I have said it, but, it is only in this moment impressing itself upon me.

It hasn't been an easy time. Especially over the last several weeks. My mental state has been all over the place. However in this moment I am experiencing a certain elation that transcends all the pain and confusion I have been in (my mental state, not my identy)

Throughout the recent hardships, the one thing that has continued to grow is my sense of womanhood. I have been truly feeling it in my heart and thoughts as that trepidation born of a life of hiding and denial passes away. That ingrained shame and judgement I internalized for all those years, it is a dwindling power, as daily I am brought closer into step with my own existence.

There are so many in this world who have gone through the same things I have, who are fighting the same fights that I am. Some are making their way though harder times, others with happy smiles. Yet we are all climbing towards that life we hold in our hearts as a prayer, hope, and dream.

I am happy right now. With this breath. I can't speak for tomorrow, or the day after, or any of the myriad days to come, but right now I am smiling and feeling hopeful. I wish the same for everyone making that climb to the light of their own true person.

We deserve a little smile

There are times when I am moved by the notion of my being trans.

A smiling thought "is this real?"

I love that I exist as I am

And that I found my way home to it.

How I ever ran I cannot understand.

It was a long time coming

Blessed discovery.