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genuinely I can't fanthom otto has nothing more than being an emotionally grieving individual whose too traumtized to realize what things he is doing to noon honestly. like he has already invested himself where he tries to remain professional but always crosses a line just for her and I feel like it isn't just because of what happened to cece but because of the fact on some level he sees' she is in the same situation and she is Slipping Away. and him going even ' I want to see it ' to find cece likely but also it's like. noon can disappear like cece and it is actively happening in front of his eyes.

and he is trying to give her coping techniques, the breathing, everything, it's showing that he does have a lot of care for noon but I don't think he knows really how to properly separate himself from the trauma because what happened is now involved in his work.

otto to me is so stuck in one part of his mind and you can see it because he was trying to calm down noon during her panic attack over rusty but throughout ALL of that, he was still wanting her to continue. and you know that had a strain because we didn't get the usual ' sweets for my sweet ' shit.

so to me, otto and noon need to repair what dynamic they have because it is getting worse the more these sessions go on. not just on otto's part but on noon's because she is right to be upset that he had ulterior motives and intentions, but he did open up and that is a step towards understanding and I just think they're so disconnected it is really hard for noon and otto to understand each other because one has an experience tied to their trauma and the other doesn't want to dwell so hard onto it to the point of going overboard and connecting with a world that actively scares her.

like. I just don't know, I can't see otto has being an ill-intent person in my eyes. like this entire bit just confirms to me how he feels. because he wouldn't treat noon like that if he didn't care.

" you were squeezing so tight " this man is genuinely scared about experiencing the same thing happening to one child to another and he can genuinely prevent it but he also wants to know more. and I think it is a thing of this man is grappling with trying to do both as if that is genuinely possible when it probably isn't.

I do think otto is really suspicious but I don't know, he seems like one of the few adults within the little nightmares world who CARES and that's important. but I feel like something IS going to happen that fucks him up majorly and he does become horrible in some way. like he is spiralling and you can tell. and noon is just someone who unfortunately is witnessing someone who wants to help her but needs an equal amount of help

ramblings time but on god, I love how twisted otto actually does get because you can tell what IS affecting it : he hasn't been sleeping. he has been so obsessed with noone's nightmares not just because of cece ( cici ?? I don't know ) because of the potential to dream, to actually rest, something he neglected doing by CHOICE even after looking after noone and you can tell what toll it has taken on otto and his behaviors, like the abnormal aggression just isn't entirely trauma relative, it is genuinely out of the fact he has not been resting and even then, he couldn't sleep, for some reason he couldn't even though he actually SHOULD'VE been tired around the point of noone's story.

and honest to god, I genuinely see both sides of the coin on how upset noone is and how upset otto is but I feel like without saying it they both have been crossing some dangerous ass lines recently. and otto trying to make up for it in the beginning is sweet but he REALLY misses the mark because he neglects noone's own needs to try and talk about her parents, to mention the tumor in her brain, but on the flip side there's noone trying to say that otto's own sister wanted to be taken away because she wanted to get away from otto and how he like mumbled about how he was " just a boy " it's so. they're hurting each other and they don't know how to not do that, and the last bit of the episode really puts it all in perspective with this because it shows the dynamic between the two that is front and center :

" each wanted what the other had " with noone wanting to stop the nightmares and to not be sick and otto wanting to continue them for knowledge and to know where his sister had went.

I know this story is going to have a really horrible end to it but I know more than anything that I just want better for both noone and otto