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✑ pairing: soulmate streamer!beomgyu x youtuber!g.n reader
✑ genre: soulmate au, enemies to lovers, angst, fluff, social media au, college au, neighbors au | warnings just language and mentions of alcohol/being drunk and parties rating: 16+
✑ summary: you know who this person is, you think. you’ve seen him multiple times in your dreams and it’s been happening since the moment that you had turned 16. however, you have never put a name to a face at all considering you’ve only woken up to the memory of his soft hums. soulmates exist for a reason, right?
✑ started: 02.14.22 | ended: 07.01.22 | updates are spontaneous!
✑ a/n: teehee hello helloo!! if you’d like to be added to the taglist for beomgyu’s story, or any of the other members’ stories click here to add yourself or send an ask/dm!! i’m really excited to start my first (big) txt project and i hope you guys are ready for what i have intended for you guys!!
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YOU’RE IT FOR ME: MOTIVE - CHAPTER THREE
summary: something about him never sat right with you from the moment that you’ve locked eyes with him on campus. you’ve even gone as far as throwing your drink at him at his own release party, yet somehow the universe always brings the two of you together whether you like it or not. but what’s so special about him that makes you associate everything in sight to your hatred towards him?
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YOU’RE IT FOR ME: MOTIVE - CHAPTER SEVEN
summary:something about him never sat right with you from the moment that you’ve locked eyes with him on campus. you’ve even gone as far as throwing your drink at him at his own release party, yet somehow the universe always brings the two of you together whether you like it or not. but what’s so special about him that makes you associate everything in sight to your hatred towards him?
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YOU’RE IT FOR ME: MOTIVE - CHAPTER ELEVEN
summary:something about him never sat right with you from the moment that you’ve locked eyes with him on campus. you’ve even gone as far as throwing your drink at him at his own release party, yet somehow the universe always brings the two of you together whether you like it or not. but what’s so special about him that makes you associate everything in sight to your hatred towards him?
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YOU’RE IT FOR ME: MOTIVE - CHAPTER TWELVE
summary: something about him never sat right with you from the moment that you’ve locked eyes with him on campus. you’ve even gone as far as throwing your drink at him at his own release party, yet somehow the universe always brings the two of you together whether you like it or not. but what’s so special about him that makes you associate everything in sight to your hatred towards him?
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you’re it for me: nasa - teaser
✑ pairing: soulmate!soobin x g.n reader
✑ genre: fake dating au, humor no warnings | rated pg-13
✑ wc: <500
Soobin is used to the things that are said about him.
There’s often times where people on his management team would have to send out statements, especially towards false made ones, to ensure that his image was protected. However, he wonders what life could be like if he didn’t have them at all whatsoever, because as he was sitting in front of his manager’s desk, he feels his heart sink into his stomach.
The odd feeling of having to be in a fake relationship didn’t sit well with him, when anybody that he personally knew could find out.
Even at the big campus that he attends to.
“Soobin, I want you to meet the person that you are going to ‘go out with’ for the time being. At least until your name is cleared up for now.” He hears his manager say to him, but it all sounded muffled to his ears.
How did he mess up this badly?
YOU’RE IT FOR ME: NASA - CHAPTER ONE
summary: soobin often thinks about what his life would be like if he didn’t choose this career path. in anybody else’s eyes he was set for life, but there’ll always be consequences for choosing such a luxurious life. one of the biggest obstacles that he has probably encountered in his career? having to keep up a fake relationship with the public’s eye candy; his first love and ex.
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YOU’RE IT FOR ME: NASA - CHAPTER TWO
summary:soobin often thinks about what his life would be like if he didn’t choose this career path. in anybody else’s eyes he was set for life, but there’ll always be consequences for choosing such a luxurious life. one of the biggest obstacles that he has probably encountered in his career? having to keep up a fake relationship with the public’s eye candy; his first love and ex.
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YOU’RE IT FOR ME: NASA - CHAPTER THREE
summary: soobin often thinks about what his life would be like if he didn’t choose this career path. in anybody else’s eyes he was set for life, but there’ll always be consequences for choosing such a luxurious life. one of the biggest obstacles that he has probably encountered in his career? having to keep up a fake relationship with the public’s eye candy; his first love and ex.
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YOU’RE IT FOR ME: NASA - CHAPTER FOUR
summary: soobin often thinks about what his life would be like if he didn’t choose this career path. in anybody else’s eyes he was set for life, but there’ll always be consequences for choosing such a luxurious life. one of the biggest obstacles that he has probably encountered in his career? having to keep up a fake relationship with the public’s eye candy; his first love and ex.
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❦ all I think about is you | c.sb — k.th
𐐪𐑂 pairing: choi soobin x fem!reader (x kang taehyun)
𐐪𐑂 genre(s): fluff, crack, slice of life, angst, suggestive, college au (during summer), coming of age || written + socmed
𐐪𐑂 warning(s): a few mutual pining chapters, two-timing at some point, a couple of suggestive scenes, innuendos here and there, cursing, mentions of a broken family, more specific warnings will be mentioned in future chapters.
𐐪𐑂 synopsis: the third year of college is coming to an end, and so is your final summer with your closest group of friends before preparing for graduation year. as an honor student suffering from nbsb (no boyfriend since birth), you’ve spent your past summers studying and solely concentrating for the next academic year. but who would have thought you would eventually, and unexpectedly, experience falling in love and a broken heart in the space of three and a half months.
𐐪𐑂 note: here’s the short series to celebrate hitting 700+ followers a while ago and now close to 1k <3 this is a first of my many series ideas that I’m actually progressing with writing. also, this is partially inspired by the netflix series never have I ever. lmk if you want to be added to the taglist. I’ll continue to post other drabbles for now and between the chapters c:
𐐪𐑂 update: I’ve hit 1.4k followers and I’m so grateful! I’m sorry that I haven’t posted the first chapter yet, I’ve been indecisive and I’m not happy with it but I will try my best since I’ve found a bit of time in between to post.
𐐪𐑂 release date: 20th dec ‘21
𐐪𐑂 status: irregular updates
CHARACTER PROFILES & PROLOGUE
CHARACTER PROFILES SOCMED: three 🧸’s // sunshine protectors 🧍♂️🌞🧍♀️ // twin flames 🔥
CHAPTER 1: who said I loved you?
CHAPTER 2: oh, it’s bad
CHAPTER 3: what did you do?
CHAPTER 4: simmer down
CHAPTER 5: left on read
CHAPTER 6: what a simp
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Hey guys! Here are all my fics and imagines so far!
Seokjin
Hidden Behind a Smile:
Y/N befriends a masked stranger who shares a similar interest in her favorite band. As they get closer, what will she discover through him about the idol she's admired for so long?
CH1 - Card Declined
CH2 - Coffee Shop
CH3 - The Ticket
CH4 - The Fan Meet
CH5 - The Message
CH6 - A Blissful Day
Yoongi
Series: Coffee and Violets:
What will happen when Y/N becomes friends with the owner of the flower shop next door?
CH1 - Hoseok
CH2 - Yoongi
CH3 - Visiting the Flower Shop
CH4 - I’m Not Going
CH5 - Not Quite a Date
CH6 - Spilled Milk
CH7 - Yeongsun
CH8 - Soft Rain
CH9 - Love Letter
CH10 - Golden
Oneshots:
The Concert part 1
The Concert part 2
Hoseok
Seeds of Hope:
When Y/N's mom needs to move to Korea for work, she finds herself in a completely new environment. As the boy next door tutors her in dance, what will he teach her about herself?
CH1 - The First Seed
CH2 - Sunlight
CH3 - What?!
CH4 - An Unexpected Morning
CH5 - Your Number
CH6 - A Traced Reflection
Oneshots:
Falling for You
Namjoon
Written in the Pages:
A quiet girl who only knows love as something in books meets an equally awkward boy struggling to find his place in the music world. Is there a chance their friendship can turn into something more?
CH1 - Crush
CH2 - Your Comfort Zone
CH3 - Oops
CH4 - First Fan
CH5 - I Like Someone Else
CH6 - Save Me the Pain
CH7 - Just One Day
CH8 - My Phone Died
Oneshots:
Purple Ink
Beomgyu
Just Pretend:
Y/N meant to ask her crush to prom, but ended up in a fake-dating situation. As more people find out about their "relationship", they find a true friendship. But is that all it'll ever be?
CH1 - Promposal
CH2 - Ivory Petals
CH3 - New Moon
CH4 - The Group Project
CH5 - Favorite Color
CH6 - Another Faded Polaroid
CH7 - Back at It Again
CH8 - I Need You
CH9 - Star
CH10 - Define Love?
CH11 - The Moment I Knew
Thank you for checking out my master list! As always, please check out my WATTPAD account for the most recent content!!!
Just Pretend (BEOMGYU) CH1 - Promposal
"...huh?"
"I was wondering if you could pretend to be my date!"
Just Pretend -The Beginning-
I blend the blush outwards from my face. Reaching into a drawer, I open a similar color of pink lipstick and add just a bit to my lips. Glancing at myself in the mirror, I smile. A simple, natural look.
Then I notice my hair.
"Ugh! No matter how much I brush it out, it still looks all weird!" I run my fingers through it a few times before giving up.
I heft my bag onto my shoulders and walk out the door. As I walk to the bus stop, I contemplate my plans for the day. I had it all figured out. I was going to ask Beomgyu to prom.
Worry builds in my mind as I think about it. What if he says no? Or that he's already going with someone? What if he lies that he's going with someone in order to spare my feelings, when in reality he's not going at all?
I need a way to ask him without really asking him. Feel out wether he likes me or not before I make a move.
I ponder this as the bus rolls up to the small corner. The crowd of students around me flood into the tiny bus, most moving to the back of the vehicle. It's a bumpy ride to the school. I put in my headphones to block out the chattering students around me.
When I finally get to class, I slump down to my seat in the very back. My classmates make their way into the classroom as well. It was the first lesson of the day, and luckily, it was only 30 minutes long. We took notes as the teacher lectured. If it weren't for my messy handwriting in my notebook, I'd have no memory of what we had learned today, because I spent the whole time staring at Beomgyu.
He turns to talk to a friend sitting behind him, accidentally catching my gaze in the process. I tear my eyes away from him. I hide my heated face with my hand and try to focus on the notes. What has gotten into me? He's just a guy... He is just another student at this school. I have no reason to be so obsessed with him. This is not like me at all.
"Okay class, that's the end of the lesson for today. Remember that your homework is due at the beginning of class this Wednesday!"
Everyone is rushing out of the room as I stumble to get close to Beomgyu. He's not scary, I have no reason to be afraid of him. Yet I find my hands shaking as they grasp my textbooks. I stare at the ground as I walk past the rows of desks.
"Uh, Hi" I smile at him.
He turns to me, "Hey Y/N"
"I was wondering if you could go with me to, um, prom" I force myself to keep eye contact with him, despite wanting to run away.
"What?" he asks, a blank look on his face.
Internally, I cringe. Trying to regain my confidence, I continue, "well, I wasn't going to go to prom, but everyone keeps talking about it, and, um," I read the confusion on his face. He's going to say no. He is absolutely going to say no. I can't do this. What can I say to avoid the rejection? "I need help lying to my parents!"
His face contorts, "...huh?"
"Yeah! My mom, she has this weird fascination with my social life, and she really really wants me to ask a guy out to prom! But the thing is, I don't like anybody," I lie, "so I was wondering if you could pretend to be my date so she stops bothering me about it!"
He pauses in thought. Eventually he meets my eyes again, "I wasn't originally going to go, but I can help you out"
"Really?!" I gasp in shock that my crazy plan even worked.
"Yeah, just text me the details" he smiles softly, "wait, do you have my phone number?"
I pretend to think, "Uh, no... I don't think so"
"Here, let me give it to you" He pulls out his phone.
-----
The rest of the day I mindlessly go to my classes. I'm going to prom with Choi Beomgyu!!! Except... not really. My lie about my mom being too concerned with my social life was just supposed to soften the blow of him rejecting me. I was hoping to leave with him rejecting my promposal, but not rejecting my feelings; I figured it would be easier to handle if he didn't know that I liked him. If he thought I just asked him because I was asking everyone, and that way I would save my pride.
But he said yes. He agreed to go to prom with me. Or pretend to, anyways. So... he must like me some amount to agree to go, but I'm guessing he doesn't like-like me. my feelings aren't shared.
And that hurts.
Ding!
I turn to the kitchen table where I set my phone. As I turn it over, the screen lights up with a notification from Beomgyu:
Choi Beomgyu: What do you want me to wear for prom?
Me: I don't know... I haven't actually picked out what I'm going to wear yet haha
Choi Beomgyu: Okay
I knit my eyebrows. He must be a dry texter. Unless... Does he hate me?!
The door opens as my mom walks in, "I'm home"
"Mom!" I jump, "Hey, I have to ask you something"
"What is it?"
I take a deep breath, "Can I go to prom this Friday?"
Just Pretend (BEOMGYU) CH2 - Ivory Petals
"Can I go to prom this Friday?"
My mom drops her bag by the door, "Prom? Do you have a date?"
"Well, yes!" I say, "I do. Can I go?"
"But... aren't prom dresses mostly sold out now?" She asks.
Shoot. I forgot about that part.
"I'm sure it'll be fine"
-----
"Well, you still have that dress from your 6th grade recital"
I sigh, "this is a disaster."
"Let me check my closet and see if I have anything," My mom says as she leaves the room. We just got back from the mall, empty-handed. It turns out you're supposed to buy your prom dress a few months in advance, not a few days before. Who knew?
"Y/N! Y/N!" My mom calls as she rushes back into the room, "You'll never believe what I just found!"
"What?!"
She shows me a stunning red dress, sequins sparkling, even in the dim light of our living room.
"Where did you find that?" I shriek.
"I found it in the back of my closet from an old friend's wedding. It's your size too! Isn't this a miracle?"
I smile.
"Thanks, mom"
-----
Tap. Tap. Tap.
The rain falls around me as I wait in the driveway. I protect myself with an umbrella as I hope to see a pair of headlights pulling onto our street.
"I'm sure he'll be here soon" My mom reassures.
"I hope so," I sigh. Soon enough, a black car turns onto the street and stops in front of our house. Beomgyu jumps out of the driver's seat and runs up to us.
"I'm so sorry I'm late!" he gasps, "there was a lot of traffic getting here"
"It's fine" I laugh.
"So this is your date" My mom muses, "it's lovely to meet you..."
"Beomgyu" He answers, water dripping down his bangs and onto his face.
"Beomgyu," she repeats, "well, you two better get going if you want to make it in time!"
He lifts his sleeve to check his watch, "You're right! We're already late"
"Bye mom" I whisper as we hurry to his car.
He opens the door for me, smiling, and I slide into the passenger seat as he closes the door behind me. He then gets back into the driver's seat and starts up the car.
It's a quiet drive to the venue. I try and think of something to say or some way to thank him for agreeing to go with me. Maybe it would've been better to just confess to him... that way, wether he agreed to go or not, I wouldn't feel indebted to him.
"Thank you for doing this, by the way" I mutter.
"Of course!" He grinned, "to be honest, I'm kinda looking forward to going"
I laugh, "me too"
Soon enough, we've arrived at the location. We can see people filing into the venue through a small set of double doors.
"Wait!" He exclaimed, "I forgot something!"
He quickly parks the car and turns to the back seats, searching through various papers and receipts for something.
"Found it!" He displays a small, clear box. Inside is a delicate arrangement of ivory flowers, so bright that they seem to glow.
"Wow, it's beautiful" I admire.
"I wasn't sure what color your dress was going to be, but I figured white would probably match it, right?"
"Absolutely," I continue, still in a trance from the dream-like petals, "Beomgyu, I-"
"Here," He gently takes it from the box and adjusts it around my wrist. His warm hands graze mine as he traces my skin. He looks back at me, "perfect"
The corsage was pretty, yes, but it paled in comparison to his eyes. They had this depth to them, warm and sweet that seemed to spark a million emotions in my chest. He looked at me like he could see right through all my disguises. A cinnamon-tinted gaze that felt like coming home.
"We should go inside, huh?" He murmured.
"Probably"
The car door pops open as he walks over to my side, opening the door for me once again.
I laugh, "Y'know, you don't have to pretend when no one else's around"
"I'm not pretending," he drawled, "it never hurts to be a gentleman"
I giggle. We walk towards the venue, only centimeters between us. As we inch closer to the doors, we're welcomed by someone I only vaguely recognize.
"Beomgyuuu~" He calls, "I thought you said you weren't coming?"
"Yeonjun!" Beomgyu greets, "I wasn't planning on it, but then Y/N asked me, so I agreed"
"OoOoh," Yeonjun teases, "Good for you, man. I'm glad you could make it"
"Oh, I should introduce you two. Yeonjun, this is Y/N, my date. Y/N, this is my friend Yeonjun"
My face heats up as he calls me his date, even though I know it's just pretend.
"It's nice to meet you," I call.
"You too. I have to say though, you're too pretty to be with someone like Beomgyu. Wanna be my date instead?" He flirts. If I wasn't blushing before, I definitely was now. "I'm kidding, just a joke. So, you two got your tickets, right?"
We both pause in unison, hit with the same haunting realization. We turn to each other.
"By any chance, did you..." He asks. I shake my head no.
"Damn, I'm sorry" Yeonjun laments.
My first time going to a school dance and I forget to buy the tickets. Just great. Beomgyu's going to think I'm such a fool and never talk to me again.
"What should we do?" I ponder.
As we reach the front of the line, Yeonjun apologizes, "I'm sorry guys, it's my turn so I really should go. I hope you figure something out though!"
We thank him and choose to exit the line, walking back into the parking lot. The rain decided to take a pause, so we sit on the curb in silence.
"This is all my fault, I'm sorry. I ask you to go with me and fake this whole thing only to not plan enough to buy the tickets"
"Hey, it's okay," he comforts, "It was an accident. I didn't think of it either."
"Yeah," I mumble as I rest my head in my hands.
"Besides, you were just doing this so your mom stopped bothering you about it, right?" I nod. He continues, "So, if we just kill time for a few hours, she'll have no idea that we didn't actually go to prom"
I chuckle, "yeah, but... I don't wanna waste your time on something like lying to my mom"
"I already agreed to go with you, didn't I?" He jumps up and walks over to the car, "let's go somewhere. It'll be fun"
Just Pretend (BEOMGYU) CH5 - Favorite Color
"So, do you want to start on chapter five and I'll do chapter six?"
Me and Beomgyu sit alone in a corner of the library. It's fairly quiet where we're sitting, a snug corner filled with books.
"Yeah, then we'll start on the slideshow?"
"Sounds good!" He says.
We both open our textbooks and begin reading. It's silent, but a soft silence. The kind that's easy to fall into, forgetting how long it's been since someone spoke.
It's hard to think that someone who I'd only watched from afar is now my boyfriend. Even harder to remember it's only pretend.
However, I'm still proud of myself. All this time I've spent, closed-off, not connecting with anyone around me. Look at me now. I have a friend. And I think it might last this time. Even if I never tell him how I feel, having him here is enough.
I think back to what he said at prom: "I don't know if they'd like me if they really knew me." I wonder if no one's ever tried to get to know him. He has friends, but maybe he's never felt like those friends got to know the real him. Maybe he never let them. Maybe he's scared. Maybe I am too.
"Hey, Beomgyu," I start.
"Yeah?"
"What's your favorite color?"
He looks up from the textbook.
"Why do you ask that?" He questions.
"Just curious"
"Hmm" he pauses in thought, "pink"
I gasp, "pink? Really?"
"What's wrong with liking pink?" He grins.
"Nothing, it just surprised me. You only ever wear black"
I turn back to my book. It's true, he's always in dark colors. I figured that's what he liked, but apparently not. Such a bright color for someone so reserved. Like he's always trying to mask something.
"What's yours?"
"My favorite color?" He nods. "Yellow!"
He lights up, "wow, I figured your favorite color would be blue or something. Yellow isn't a common favorite, is it?"
"Not common, no," I reply, "but I like it. It doesn't try to make itself palatable for others. I respect that"
"I never thought of it that way," he said.
All of a sudden, Beomgyu's group of friends is walking up to us. I recognize Yeonjun, but the rest? I'm not sure.
"How's it going, you two?" Yeonjun asks.
I stay quiet. Beomgyu answers, "it's going well. What about you?"
"We haven't started yet," Soobin says.
They sit by us and we try to get back to our project. Their group is chattering on and on. Beomgyu lifts his head occasionally, but he mainly continues reading his chapter. Something Yeonjun says catches my attention:
"So she said one of her friends actually has a crush on Beomgyu"
Huening Kai jumps, "but he's dating Y/N?!"
"Well, they're not really dating, right?" Yeonjun turns to me.
My thoughts are racing, I guess there's nothing stopping Beomgyu from dating someone. Is it stupid to feel like we have something even though we only went to prom together?
"No, we aren't" I mutter.
"What do you think then, Beomgyu? Wanna give her a chance?"
I look to Beomgyu, but his smile has faded.
"Wether me and Y/N are actually dating or not, the rest of the school thinks we are. So, no. I'm not interested"
"I'm sure the school is not that invested," Taehyun states, "you can go on a date with someone else if you want"
"I'm not interested" Beomgyu repeats.
"Why not? Please, just give her a chance! What am I supposed to tell Minji, her friend will be so upset" Yeonjun insists.
"I've got a lot going on right now, I don't have time for something like that"
Soobin spoke, "like what?"
Beomgyu shuts the book closed, "I have a ton of schoolwork. No time for a girlfriend"
"That didn't stop you from going to prom with Y/N"
"That's different"
"How is it different?" Yeonjun commands, "honestly, I'm starting to think that you and Y/N are actually dating with how you're overreacting"
"I'm not overreacting," Beomgyu groans, "I'm just not interested. Why can't I say that? I'm allowed to not want to date your friend"
"Fine" Yeonjun says.
It goes quiet. Everyone is now doing their work, or at least staring at their laptops pretending to. Beomgyu taps me on the shoulder.
"Wanna go work somewhere else?" He whispers. I nod.
We stand and leave the library without a word to his friends. Silently, I follow him past the classrooms and out the doors. We find an area with few students. Sitting down on a bench underneath a large oak tree, I speak.
"I'm sorry. The whole fake dating thing is turning into a problem, isn't it? I can break it off, if you want. I don't want you to be fighting with your friends because of me"
"No, they're always like that" he says, bringing his knees to his chest.
"Really? It seemed like it was getting kind of..." I hesitate, "aggressive"
"They just-, don't listen to me. And will try to persuade me into doing stuff for them, or questioning stuff like why I don't want a girlfriend"
"Haven't you told them about your dad?"
"No" he states, "they wouldn't listen. If they did, it's not like they'd get it. Not like you would"
It makes me happy that he trusts me, though it shouldn't. He's talking about his problems with his friends. I add, "I'm okay if you want to date that girl. If you're worrying about my feelings, don't"
"I don't want to date her," he clarifies, "I'm not interested in dating right now. Everything in my life is already a mess, I don't need more... more things to feel like I'm messing up"
"Well, we've been pretend dating for a few days now, and you haven't messed anything up yet!" I joke.
He laughs, "you're funny"
"Oh, I know, Beomgyu."
Just Pretend (BEOMGYU) CH6 - Another Faded Polaroid
*NOTE: THIS STORY IS NOT REPRESENTATIVE OF THE MEMBERS IN REAL LIFE, IT IS PARTLY BASED ON THE CONTENT FROM THE MUSIC VIDEOS AND COMPLETELY FICTIONAL!! They're not actually mean it's just for the story 😭
(BEOMGYU POV)
It's lunch break, and I walk behind my friends on the sidewalk. I force a laugh and smile whenever they turn to me, but for the most part, I'm in my own world right now. I enjoy talking to Y/N, it's the only time I can talk about myself without judgement. My friends... I haven't tried talking to them about it. I have a feeling they wouldn't know what it's like to walk into a room and know everyone, and yet not a single seat has been saved for you.
As for my father, he always seems angry at me. I think he thinks I'm on the wrong track, and forcing me to think 'practically' is helping me so I don't regret my choices later. I just wish he had more faith in me, so he wouldn't assume that my choices are ones I'd come to regret.
I don't know Y/N that well. I don't know why she asked me to be her date to prom, she could've asked anyone. Maybe she figured I wasn't going with anyone else, which starts my racing thoughts. Worries of can everyone else see my insecurities? Is it obvious? Can everybody tell that I don't know what the hell I'm doing? I don't know.
And I do feel sometimes like I shouldn't be so honest with her. But, every time I turn to her, she always seems like she's listening to every word I say.
And right now, I just need someone to talk to.
"Beomgyu, you listening?"
"Huh?" I lift my head.
"So, I wanna give you another chance. I haven't told Minji yet, so you can still go out with her friend!"
I stumble over my words, "I-, I thought I said I wasn't interested"
Yeonjun laughs, "well, yeah, but that's just cause Y/N was there. It's nice of you to try to spare her feelings, but she's holdin' you back, bro"
"It had nothing to do with her. I just don't have time for something like that.. right now" I stammer.
"C'mon man, we all know she has a crush on you"
My face flushes, "why would you even SAY that? Y/N just-"
"You can be so oblivious," Yeonjun sighs, "Y/N is WAY obsessed with you. But don't miss out on something good because you're pitying her"
I grit my teeth, "I'm not pitying her. And I don't want to date your friend. I already told you"
Under my breath, I mutter, "sometimes, I don't even want to be your friend"
My friends stop as Yeonjun takes a firm step towards me, "what did you say to me?"
Suddenly, I no longer feel like the lost boy who stuck with friends who were no good for him because he was lonely. A rush of confidence takes over as I smirk, "Yeonjun, I'm starting to think you have a listening problem.
Or is it just your ego?"
He strides towards me, "what makes you think you can talk back to me? You think you're so cool now that one girl looks your way?"
"You always walk all over me like I'll come running back. Like you're better than me. What makes you think you can talk back to me?" I mock, "last I checked, this is just how you and me talk to each other now, Yeonjun"
He pushes me down to the sidewalk, "c'mon guys. Let's go"
And they follow behind him. Just like I knew they would. I look at the scrapes on my hands, then to their backs as they walk away.
Well, I knew this was going to happen eventually, right?
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(2 Days Later)
It's been a while since I've been to school. I didn't want to have to face Yeonjun. Or the others. I wanted them to think I was strong, and that their words couldn't hurt me. I felt like... if they saw me cry, they'd use it against me. In the moment, I felt like none of it hurt. Like it was the end of an era of pain and bottled-up feelings and tolerating it because it was all I had. They were all I had.
It was more than any one moment could capture, it was the culmination of many moments that I told myself weren't worth fighting over. Times when I'd get talked over. Times when I wasn't invited, and they'd come up with some excuse as to why. When there was a separate group chat. When I wasn't there for the inside jokes that, apparently, can't be retold. But it wasn't always this way.
Me and Yeonjun had been friends for years, way before the rest came along. We would spend so long just talking. I felt like he got me better than anyone else could. Then the rest came. It wasn't all at once, but slowly, more and more people were added to our friend group. I no longer felt like I was Yeonjun's best friend, even though he was mine.
Up until a few days ago, he still was.
He didn't use to care so much about what other people thought of him. Something changed. He wanted to be cool, he wanted respect, he wanted to get the girl he'd been chasing for years. And I was just someone from his past. Another faded polaroid. And he never wanted to take a new one.
So, I tried to make new friends. Tried to talk to others, break into the conversation. It seemed like having friends that treated me poorly was still better than being all on my own.
I went back to them. I accepted that I'd be walking in the bike lanes while they stayed on the sidewalk. I learned how to look busy when they were telling a joke I wasn't there for. I learned to be less so they could be more. So they could take more. Because on the outside, no one can tell that I don't have friends. No one can tell that inside, I'm still on the outside. And I thought that could be enough. It would have to be.
I haven't told her, but I noticed Y/N from the beginning. It was all so familiar. The panicked glances at the announcement of a group project, the seat in the back of the room, the headphones that weren't plugged into anything. Maybe that's why I felt so comfortable talking to her, it was like I already knew her.
I hope my friends-, er... I hope my old friends didn't notice that my hands were still shaking as I talked back to them. I wanted them to think I was indifferent about it all, I wanted them to think that. But... I'm not strong. Once they'd fled, I cried my eyes out. Because even if it was for the best, it still hurts. So I haven't been to school in days because I don't know how I will act when I see them again.
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For the first time today, I pull myself out of bed and walk into the kitchen. I reach for a glass and fill it with water. Then my dad walks in.
He clears his throat, "are you feeling any better?"
"Yeah" I mutter.
He walks to the stove and begins cooking something.
"I heard you were having some trouble with your friends"
"Who told you that?" I ask.
"Your mom" he clarifies.
"Oh" I said.
I sit at the counter and slowly drink my water. It's silent, besides the sounds of him cooking. However, it isn't tense like it has been in the past. Just a normal father and his son.
He breaks the silence, "Y'know, I get how you feel"
"You do?"
"I've had fights with friends before too. It's hard when you had people you could be yourself around, and then you have to walk past them like strangers" he continues, "did you fight, or just fall out of touch?"
"Well, Yeonjun's not the same anymore. He used to be so fun, but... now he's just weird and obsessed with being cool. I was getting annoyed at him walking all over me, so I told him that. And..."
"Yeah. 'S probably because he's insecure, lots of teens act that way" he turns down the heat on the stove, "but you shouldn't be around people that are bringing you down"
"Mhm" I stare into the glass.
It's not common for me to go to my dad for advice, but I'm finding that he does actually know how I feel pretty well.
"Hey dad?"
"Yeah?" He answers while turning to me.
"Will... will I ever make real friends?"
He ponders on it for a moment, "it's hard when you're young. I think as you get older, you'll meet new people and it's easier to find friends that you actually have fun with"
Then, I think of Y/N. She always listens to me, and she's funny and kind, and when I talk to her I never feel like I'm putting up an act.
"How do you get closer to someone that you're only kinda friends with?"
"Hmm, that's a hard question," my dad answers, "ask them questions. Get to know them. People like talking about themselves." He finishes the food he's cooking and grabs a bowl from the cabinet to put it in, "just be open to people. Don't close yourself off. Let people get to know you, and you'll find people that like you. People that you can be yourself around"
He passes the bowl to me, "I made you some soup"
I look down at the steam rising from the soup, "thank you, dad"
He nods and walks out of the kitchen. Just before he leaves, he says, "I hope you feel better soon"
I smile, "thanks dad"
Just Pretend (BEOMGYU) - Series Masterlist!
Here's all the chapters so far of my Beomgyu fan fiction, Just Pretend!
Y/N meant to ask her crush to prom, but ended up in a fake-dating situation. As more people find out about their "relationship", they find a true friendship. But is that all it'll ever be?
Chapter One - Promposal
Chapter Two - Ivory Petals
Chapter Three - New Moon
Chapter Four - The Group Project
Chapter Five - Favorite Color
Chapter Six - Another Faded Polaroid
Chapter Seven - Back at It Again
Chapter Eight - I Need You
Chapter Nine - Star
Chapter Ten - Define Love?
Chapter Eleven - The Moment I Knew
Just Pretend (BEOMGYU) CH7 - Back at It Again
(BEOMGYU POV)
It was time for me to go back to school. I'd stayed home for a while, but I have history again today, and I can't leave Y/N to do all the work on her own. At this point, I can no longer avoid my old friends. I have to go. I have to be brave enough to try.
I throw on a baggy gray sweatshirt and shove my phone into the pocket. Then I grab my backpack and walk out to the doorway, tying the shoelaces of my yellow converse.
"Ready to go?" My older brother asks.
"Yeah" I open the door and we leave. The jingle of his several keychains can be heard as he unlocks the car door and we hop in.
He turns up the volume of some rock song. We drive in silence to school. As we wait to turn into the school parking lot, he speaks.
"So, finally going my back?"
"Yeah, can't hide from my ex-friends forever" I say.
He nods, "I think you'll be okay, Beomgyu"
I look to him in confusion, "Really?" I ask.
"Yeah, you're pretty tough. You've been through a lot, but you always pull through. I mean, look at your music. Even with everything else, you can work really hard when you want something"
I look away as a smile forms on my face, "thanks"
We slow as he parks the car. I grab my bag and close the door behind me.
"Hey," my brother says as he pats my back, "you got this"
I smile, "thank you, bro"
Then I walk to my class. When I go with my brother to school, I'm always a little late. The halls are empty, just the other late kids rushing (or not) to class.
I gently open the door to the classroom and walk in. I try to be quiet, but even the lightest of footsteps seem loud. I notice Yeonjun first, a dark glare from the seat next to mine. Then I see Y/N. She gives me a happy, reassuring smile. And I smile too.
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The bell rings. As my old friends walk past, most of them ignore me, or give me a cold gaze, or even pretend to be happy and distracted. But Yeonjun... the look in his eyes is different. I knew him well enough to know.
It was forced, it wasn't even mean. It was almost, pained. Lonely. He looked sad. Like he was trying to seem cool and unfazed, but the shock in his eyes and the bags under them proved otherwise. I drop my head back down to my desk.
Once everyone had left, I pulled my backpack over my shoulders and walked out, alone. Except as I exit the room, I'm met with someone else.
"Hi!" Y/N greets.
"Oh, hey" I say.
"You've been gone a while, I was worried"
"Yeah, I'm sorry. I'll catch up on the work for our project, I just-"
"Not about the project!" She stammered, "about you"
I look into her eyes. My shoulders slump down at her expression.
"You were?"
"Y-yeah," she blinked, "so, is everything okay? are you feeling any better?"
"Well, It's still been rough," I sigh, "but I'm doing better"
Her eyes light up, "that's good! While you were gone, I-"
She stops as her eyes widen, "n-nevermind" her expression falls flat and she purses her lips, "I should get to class"
"What? Is something wrong?" I grab her shoulder.
She turns to me. Her face has significantly paled, "no, everything is fine. I have to go"
I watch as she runs away. She isn't even moving in the direction of class, just away from me. What's going on with her?
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After school, I head to the library to meet Y/N and work on our project. I set the table with my laptop, textbook, everything we need to get to work. Then I watch the clock and wait.
Tick. Tick. Tick.
Minutes go by as I sit alone. My mind wanders, has she stood me up too? Did Yeonjun spread some mean rumor while I was gone? And I flinch as I think, does she hate me now, too?
But... she was worried about me. And I know she was. Her feelings emanate from her like an aura, so genuine, you'd be stupid to doubt them. She's my friend, probably my best friend these days.
So I open her number on my phone, typing out a quick message:
Me: Where are you? We're still working after school today, right?
I wait even longer. But it's been 40 minutes now. I even try calling her, but no one answers. Panic builds in my stomach, did something happen to her?
I decide to pack up my things and try going to her house. Something's up, she's been weird all day. I need to make sure she's okay.
Just Pretend (BEOMGYU) CH8 - I Need You
(Y/N POV)
"Sara told you to stay away from him. It's your fault now for not honoring that"
"Sara can tell Beomgyu how she feels! I don't see why me avoiding him is going to help. You need to deal with that on your own" I defend.
Sara scoffs, "how am I supposed to talk to him when you're always lurking?"
Remembering the fact that, as far as they know, I am his girlfriend, I continue, "YOU'RE the one that needs to stay away from MY man"
"He won't be your man for long" Sara begins rolling up her sleeves.
"Woah, woah," I panic, "you aren't-like, actually going to fight me, are you?"
They just continue walking towards me. I step back, but they speed up. Before I know it, I'm running away at full speed. Who knew that they really weren't kidding when they confronted me before. "Stay away from Beomgyu! He's mine!" I remember them saying. Oh well.
I can hear their footsteps pounding against the pavement behind me, catching up. I run way past the school, shoving past people walking by with "sorry!"s. That is until I slam face-first into something.
I breath in the scent of the soft fabric, relieved that my marathon is over. Then, I realize that I ran into a person. Whoever it is seems awfully familiar.
"Are you okay?" He asks nervously.
I look up into his eyes. Those same warm eyes that I fell in love with. Beomgyu couldn't have come at a more perfect time.
He wraps his arms around me, slowing down the thump thump thump of my heart. Time seems to slow, the people passing around me fading into a bokeh blur. I can only see him, and his dark, sparkling eyes passing over my face. Like he's making sure I'm okay. Is he? His gaze is wide, eyebrows knitted. He seems panicked, and he's also out of breath. Did he run here?
Then, his eyes shift to the two girls chasing me.
"Are they... following you?" He asks.
I nod quickly, "We gotta go"
He grabs my hand. As we're running, he looks back at me and gives me a smile. We go past buildings and houses, into side streets and alleyways. Until they're long out of sight. I'm not sure where we are now, in some neighborhood I don't recognize. Finally, we slow down to a walk.
"Beomgyu, where are we?" I laugh.
He exhales, "well, I know it seems like the middle of nowhere, but I swear this leads to my street"
"Your street?"
"Well we still have to finish our project, don't we?" He joshed, "you didn't show up to our study session today"
"Yeah, 'cause some girls were harassing me about you! Don't blame this on me" I ranted.
"Okay, okay" he laughed, "wait, about me?"
"Yeah, those two girls. Minji from our English class, and her friend's name was... Sara? I think"
He faltered, "wait, why were they chasing you, anyways?"
"Well, I was just trying to walk home after school-"
"Walk home? What about our study session?"
I pursed my lips, "I forgot"
He groaned, "Okay, continue"
"So, I was walking home, and they stopped me and tore me away from the sidewalk into this weird alley. Then, they began telling me off for talking to you today because I was 'ruining Sara's chance', and I was like, 'what does that have to do with me?'" I told, "So, after that they began threatening me. So I began running. And I just so happened to run into you!"
He seems to take it much more seriously than I try to, "they threatened you?"
"Well, they just started telling me how 'he won't be my man for long' and stuff. Then they were rolling up their sleeves, and, I don't know! Why would they act like that? Weirdos..."
All of a sudden, he's pulling me closer. As I wrap my arms around the thick material of his sweater, I find myself tearing up in his embrace. The unwanted interaction did hurt me, I guess I've spent a long time trying to pretend nothing ever did. But... he sees me. Better than I even do.
"Please tell me when anything like this happens," he breathed, "I don't want anything happening to you"
I cry, burying my face into his sweater. He just keeps holding on.
"I'm worried, beomgyu. If they do that just from me talking to you, how far are they willing to go?"
He separates from me, holding me by the shoulders, "then you call me"
He looks at me, and if I didn't know better, if I didn't have years of experience telling myself that he would never love me, I would say that he did. In his eyes, he looks like he loves me.
He swore, "I'll always protect you. You're one of the most important people to me right now, I...
I need you, Y/N. I need you to stay safe"
NEW CHAPTER OF 'JUST PRETEND' COMING MARCH 27