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Stronger than this...

I have never been so disappointed in my life like the way I feel today. I honestly admit that it is so disappointing to be rejected especially when you have put so much hope and energy to get into this. All my life I have never been rejected in anything I sign up for. I sure know how it feels like to lose, but being rejected is something different.

It feels new for me, to be rejected. It is like I always get what I want in life and it then becomes a habit that I grow up to be a person who doesn’t know how to deal with rejection. I guess rejection is supposed to make me feel bad right? If it is, then the rejection must be doing its job well done on me.

God I thought I was ready for whatever the result is. I thought the time was right. I thought this time was going to be my time, but I sure know nothing about what the future brings. I tell myself to believe and not to give up, but deep down inside I know it is tearing me down.

But I know I am stronger than this.

I send prayers from the deepest part of my heart to heaven. I will build up my faith in You. I am learning to understand that Your time is perfect and Your plans are so much better than mine. My soul is growing up. I personally bring this disappointment into Your hands, hoping that one day You will turn it into victory. I bring my tears to You, believing that You will multiply them into joyful smiles and cheerful laughter.