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What a terrible night.. anyone wanna talk? I'm watching the walking dead.

My heart has 'Fragile' stamped on it.

tw: anger attacks l autism l mental health

It's maddening how little things that alter my routine or how I articulate my days fill me with anger and anxiety, it puts me in a spiral of intrusive thoughts and makes me unable to consciously regulate my reactions as I normally do, it makes me feel so useless and small that I just want to cry and hit myself in the head as if that will shut up my thoughts.

It's all laughter when talking about autism until this point where literal a change in my routine make me cry and wish it didn't exist without being able to control it.

this anger is never directed at anyone but me, i never did or would hurt anyone in these situations it is purely a breakdown and overstimulation. (i have to clarify because of this stereotype that people with autism are as a rule dangerous in these situations, for god sake the worst that can happen is that i stop talking)

I have managed to learn ways to get over it faster but unfortunately I can't avoid them or stop them just try to survive them and not feel so guilty or ashamed.