Why Does My Brain Work Like This - Tumblr Posts
do u ever send smth in a chat thats not even risqué like “i luv salsa” but no one responds so u start overthinking it like…. maybe one of their parents died making salsa…… maybe they were all just talking abt how they hate salsa……. maybe salsa isnt evn real and they have no idea what im talking abt
No lie, when I’m tired and my head hits the pillow, my brain starts thinking about whole possible scenarios about everything and trying to arrange the timelines so everything fits...causing me to get NO SLEEP!!! But it’s okay sometimes, it’s where I get some of my best fanfic ideas.
What I say: "I'm fine"
What I mean: "How long had Maddie been suffering Doug's abuse? Like we know she'd been with him since she was nineteen but we have no discernable timeline for when the abuse started or for when it worsened. One of the only things we get is the comment Doug made about the chip still being there from the last time they used the wine glasses at their wedding. We also know there were things her parents never liked about him, things that even a teenaged Buck picked up on, that got worse over the last year or so before she fled, so she had to have been suffering some extent of the abuse from the very beginning which gives me a follow up question. Did she marry him to get away from her parents, she didn't want to leave Buck, but we're getting more and more evidence that the Buckley Parents are garbage so maybe she married him to get away from them. Maybe it was her escaping one toxic, abusive relationship and unknowingly hopping into a different one. If she married him at nineteen or twenty like I think she did then she'd had to have been going through this for a number of years, supported at least a little by the fact that Maddie says that the flue incident was their fourth anniversary. So basically I'm getting the impression that she was being abused pretty much from the start but stayed because A)she thought it was normal. B)wanted, or needed, to get out of her parents house. C)didn't see it as abuse. Or D)all of the above. And this is exactly why I can't sleep at night, because I'm awake crying over Maddie Buckley."
Love the fact I said I was going to be working on Buckley siblings content for Buckleysiblingsweekend, then immediately proceeded to not do the intended edit and go straight for Madney.
Um…what?
sometimes things get stuck in my brain sometimes it's songs very common normal even and sometimes it's fucking voices
I'll just have some random character or person narrating my thoughts it's kinda fun? but also annoying and I want them to stfu please