Zen Rambles - Tumblr Posts

Ya know what im panicking over something stupid so imma just make a ramble post

Yep, so this is so i dont accidentally break the mini promise i made with leo of "dont hit yourself when stressing, having a panic attack, angry or feeling stupid, just type something out" soo this is probably gonna be filled with alot of typos but eh, uh anyways today i went to the zoo and i wish they had more shaded areas CUES IM A GINGER AND I WILL HECKIN BURN IF I AM IN SUNLIGHT FOR TO LONG, AND BEFORE YOU ASK YES WE FORGOT TO BRING SUNSCREEN SO AH, i dont think i have any sunburns tho which is good uhh another thing but this is the reason why im stressing, so im following a rotumblr account and usually i use tumblr to just yeet all my stress into a small contained jar(even tho thats why i use all social medias and chat websites XD) BUT WHAT I DONT WANT IS MY TRUAMA TO GET PRETTY MUCH CALLED OUT EVEN THO ITS SLIGHTLY DIFFRENT, so 1 thats a problem and 2 sending an ask to someone you dont know, so uh now im just patiently dreading them saying leave me alone or something uhh idk what else to say even tho im still stressing, i might just open google doc and do an rp with myself to try and chill so uh ye

Im tired as heck so you get zen rambles

So me, my sibling and my mom were at my grandmas house cues its my mom's birthday and my grandma's cat(named ella) came over to me and basically just let me give her pets and attention and idk why i suddenly remembered we had 2 stray cats that visited us when i was younger at 2 different houses so uh imma tell some stories about them, the first one was a orange tabby cat which kid me named Margaret(yes little me liked daniel tiger) and she would stop by once in awhile she did seem to trust me the most out of my family hiding from anyone who wasnt me(atleast from what i remember i dont remember much cues i was like 3 or 5 when margaret visited XD) and one day i was inside looking out a window and margaret came up with i think 2 little kittens which was wholesome, but uh after awhile she stopped visiting which kinda made me sad and uh the second cat was a black cat who at first we named raven but our neighbors named him magic so we combined the 2 names into mavic, and mavic first started visiting in like summer and sense my family didnt want him to overheat we started giving him water, food and some pets, but uh my dog very much disliked him XD so he would skitter off alot, he did come and visit the house for food and water and then leave but uh one day his little tuna dish was full(yes i know tuna isnt good for cats but we didnt fully know this) which worried me cues like he stopped by alot even if none of us saw him and he didnt come by for like a week and i still dont know where he is, which now that i think about these 2 cats again i miss them alot like sure we have alot of stray cats visiting our backyard now but like idk maybe my tired brain is just making me miss them but uh thats mainly it XD

My brain is randomly making me remember cringey stuff

So, the cringey memory thing is, back in like 2020 i remember sending an ask to a random tumblr user(i forgot their username) to draw scar i think, and obviously the person was confused, and lil me was offended??, honestly i dont remember but, i wanna find that tumblr user and fuckin apologize cues, i feel so bad for them now like they probably dont remember this shit, BUT I SURE DO, so uh ye, this is what happens at 4am my tired brain says "fuck you" and makes me remember this stuff

So everyone seems to very much like steven and mike incorrect quotes

I just made the incorrect quotes posts just cues i was bored and wanted to do silly sibling chaos AND NOW JUST A FEW OF THE POSTS ARE GETTING ALOT OF LIKES AND REBLOGS, LIKE HOLY SHIT CALM DOWN, but uh anyways yeah i will make more of the incorrect quotes just cues, mike and steven are way to chaotic XD but uh ye thats mainly it

Shit has been rough

So alot has been happening this month and, i just dont feel okay, i thought this year would be better then last year but it really isnt, i just want my friends to be okay, i want one day where my friends are doing horribly, i just want them to be happy, why cant i just have my friends be actually okay, and its not just friends im worried about its pretty much everything, everything is shitty and i just want a day where things arent shit, just 1 day is that no much to fucking ask for? Just a day where it doesnt feel like everything is burning itself down, just one day where people can actually relax, just one fucking day, i want one fucking day where it doesnt feel like im a lab rat trying to find the fucking cheese that doesnt exist

Sorry that this just seems like im rambling cues i kinda am but, everything has just been horrible, this month has been shit and i just want stuff to get better, im probably gonna take a mental health break soon cues i fucking need it at this point, but anyways yeah cya later i guess

So i may have a personality disorder??

So this is weird cues i swore i didnt have one but then today, i suddenly felt like i was choking and i got weirdly excited seeing blastoises, so the guess with my friends that it was mike, and somehow the only way to get him to go away and i swear this isnt a joke, it was saying mike was a catboy, but uh ye mike gave really bad soup brain, im good now(i won the battle >:]), but ye thats interesting i guess, but ye thats mainly it

Ya know what time for me rambling cues i have alot on my mind today

Okay so 1 i got an allergy test today and turns out im allergic to nothing(not food wise cues they couldn't do a food test), EXPECT FOR DUSTMITES??, WHICH ARE WEIRD BUG THINGS THAT ARE VERY RARE WERE I AM CUES IT DOESNT GET HUMID ENOUGH FOR THEM TO APPAER, so uh yeah that's weird, anyways 2 i dont post about shorts wars on here but imma ramble about it, so me and unknown like to discuss stuff about shorts wars on discord mainly theories, and i never make those theories public cues im anxious and most of the theories people didnt 100% agree with at the time and i wasnt about to get insulted on tumblr, so me and unknown kept those theories private, but i realized me and unknown usually predicted the sibling parts of the series, like johnny and the boss being brothers, and slightly recently despite not 100% being confirmed(yet atleast) clone riggy and normal riggy being brothers, tbh for me that theory was more of "hey they act alot like siblings" and now THEIR ACTING EVEN MORE LIKE BROTHERS SOO IDK IF I SHOULD USE THAT AS PROOF OR NOT, and now i guess this goes into point 3 but i've somehow predicted alot of things, like idk if anyone remembers this but awhile back when i was really into watching the sun and moon show, when earth was introduced everyone insulted her, while my first thought was "earth and lunar show?" i think i worded it different tho like lunar and earth show but, a couple months later THAT BECAME AN ACTUAL CHANNEL, I ENDED UP PREDICTING A WHOLE NEW CHANNEL, LIKE W H A T, i havent predicted anything else yet but if i do then uhh, idk actually maybe i'll just say im a psychic or something, anyways thats mainly it this ramble is way longer then usual XD

So i went down a rabbit hole

Yep, and now im dragging all my followers down with me(which isn't alot but fuck you)

SPORKS, yes sporks were my rabbit hole journey, so me and the unknown friend were chatting and idk why i decided to look up sporks, andd then the rabbit hole started

This is a normal spork, we know this

This is a weird spork, with no handle, but still TECHNAILY a spork

This is not a fucking spork, this is a splayd(yes thats a real thing) cues its a sporf(again another real word) with a knife, so there for it is a splayd

NOW WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?, this is not a spork, i dont know what its called but this is not a fucking spork, cues sporks are ment to be tiny, and have SMALL TINES, NOT BIG ONES

Calming down from that rant, again this is a splayd, just replace sporf with spork and boom, its a splayd, anyways for now that concludes "zen now knows to much about sporks"

Sad pumpkin spice(and also sort of a life update?)

Okay i drew this before i got anxiety meds, so i was gonna draw pumpkin spice shaking but meds sorta help, not fully rn probably cues im new to them, uh with the bandages on the eye for some reason my eye(its actually the right eye mainly but eh to tired to fix it) it randomly twitches and hurts alot, idk what's up with that, anyways why do they look really tired? uhhh my insomnia has been a pain in my ass again not fun but melatonin helps, anyways other life updates that aren't in this art, i haven't really been all there mentally, so uh yeah another reason i haven't been posting shit, anyways that's mainly it