Guyyyysss I Just Got Back Home From Hanging Out With My Besties. We Ended Up Not Going To The Beach But

Guyyyysss I just got back home from hanging out with my besties. We ended up not going to the beach but went to a night market, and we took a lot of pictures. I look like shit. I thought I looked good leaving the house but I look so ugly on the pictures. I look so fat my face looks so fat my arms look so fucking fat. I have GOT TO lose weight before Halloween. Me and one of my best friends r gonna be the white and black swan, I can’t look fat in such a beautiful costume. More motivation, but I wanna hide everything abt my body. I feel so fucking ugly. God I just wanna be beautiful :(

I was literally just 137lbs, I checked my weight this morning and I’m at 127lbs now, but I don’t look like it :(

Food log: Sep. 9, 2024

Breakfast:

Nothing

Total: 0cal

Lunch:

Nothing

Total: 0cal

Dinner:

Rice cake (35cals)

Half tbsp, mayo (50cal)

Half tbsp, relish (10cal)

Half, can tuna (50cal)

Total: 144cals

Todays total: 144 calories

Notes:

Ate really low this day which I’m vv happy and surprised abt it bc I almost fully gave in to a bite of my bfs taco. And almost had a break down bc I hate not being able to eat. But I did it yay. This is your sign to recover I hate not fucking eating.

Lacking in some meal logs bc I’ve been eating like kaka. Only 1-2 meals but still big ones n I hadn’t been counting but I restarted today :/ FUCKIKKK

Food Log: Sep. 12, 2024

Breakfast:

Celsius energy drink (10cal)

Total: 10cal

Lunch:

Chicken & bacon salad (357cal)

Total: 357cals

Dinner:

Asada quesadilla (393cal)

Total: 393cals

Snack:

Celsius energy drink (7cal)

Green tea mochi (100cal)

Total: 107cals

Exercise:

3,551 steps (117cal)

Total burned: 117cal

Todays total: 750 cals

Note:

I love Celsius so much it’s the only energy drink that doesn’t give me anxiety while still giving me good energy n it’s low in cal. This is A NEEEEED if ur a full time college student with anxiety n sleeping problems, I highly recommend.Today was nice I love spending time with my friend (literally only have one college friend) and I found a nice spot to study at if I want to study in nature 🥳

tropical summer .✧🌺 🥥✧⁠⁠.

★ (request) its summer!!! the sun is warm and relentless against your skin, outfits are getting tinier, and responsibilities are fewer. don’t let anything keep you from going to the beach in your cutest swimsuit, and work hard to be your own dream b0dy!

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guidelines:

🌺 - find your favorite 0c cold drinks and sip on them all day long <3 iced tea, flavored sparkling water, energy drinks, etc! make sure to also have some water to beat the heat.

🌺 - wear swimsuits, tank tops, shorts, etc. and use that as motivation to work harder. get used to wearing clothes you dream of wearing in the future, because the future is starting now!!

🌺 - do cute tropical activities to fill the time. go outdoors a lot, though be mindful you don’t get heatstroke.

🌺 - eat later in the day, because the sun sets later! follow the sun and take photos of every sunset and sunrise you see. take cozy naps in the natural warmth, before it slips away to autumn

🌺 - eat all the yummy fruit that are in season. pineapple, watermelon, bananas, etc

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spo:

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meals:

start your day with some fruit. have a serving of pineapple, peaches, oranges, or anything you enjoy and have on hand!

once things get a bit more exciting, have a 0c drink and chop up a small cucumber. dice a tomato, then mix that with the cucumber. take a small ball of mozzarella cheese and slice it however you'd like, then add salt, pepper, and a tiny bit of balsamic!

for a late night dinner, either buy a poke bowl from a place that sells them, or make your own. go light on the rice and add lots of veggies!!

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activities:

🥥 - swim in a pool or the ocean!

🥥 - have a painting picnic, take your art supplies and a blanket and paint something nice :) invite a friend if possible

🥥 - get a tan

🥥 - go to the farmers market to buy your fruit and veg

🥥 - go hiking

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credits: photos from 📌