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Food Log 12/2/2021
Breakfast:
None 0cal
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
None 0cal
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Baby bel (70cal)
Chicken Swiss wrap (160cal)
Seaweed (20cal)
Chicken veggie dumplings half a serving (114cal)
Total: 365cal
Todays total: 365 cal
Notes:
I was shitting a fuck on over this. Dairy on an empty stummy <. But cheese is so good. I took out the chicken from the wrap bc I’m trynna go vegetarian but Idk how many calories it would’ve been without it so it’s whatever. Rlly happy abt how low my calorie intake was.
Food Log Dec. 6, 2021
Breakfast:
None
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
None
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
2 Strawberry wafers (85cal)
Caramel rice cake (50cal
Strawberry jam 1tbsp (50cal)
Baby bel (70cal)
Seaweed (20cal)
2 servings of chicken veggie dumplings (460cal)
Ginger sauce (20cal)
Ginger tea (19cal)
Total: 774cal
Todays total: 774cal
Notes:
Im on my period so im extra bloated and having a fuck ton of cravings n just wanna eat everything. I’m cramping the fuck out and going to school is a pain in the ass I wish we had an option to not go however long our period is.
Food Log Dec. 7, 2021
Breakfast:
Half belvita (115cal)
Ginger tea (19cal)
Total: 134cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Half ribeye steak (423.5cal)
Half baked potato (80.5cal)
Garlic bread (206cal)
Sour cream 2tbsp (20cal)
Total: 730cal
Todays total: 864cal
Notes:
Purged out my dinner I hope it was enough. I really wish I could do better and not just with this ED but as a person for everyone in my life. This existence is so fucking burdening.
(Forgot to take a picture of ginger tea)
Food Log Jan. 4, 2022
Breakfast:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Beef ramen (370cal)
Green tea (0cal)
Total: 370cal
Todays total: 370cal
Notes:
Started my period during school today but I kept telling myself it was discharge. I knew my period was coming cus I’ve been cramping before n then today plus my moods been off the hinge. I want affection but then I’m like gtfo u disgusting mf n then there’s the need to cry even tho there’s nothing to cry abt n my overthinking gets worse like I thought I annoyed the homie today bc I was all moody n he could tell but at least he gave a hug. Safe hugs fr. Im extra bloated during my period so I get more self conscious with my body dysmorphia plus I’m sick all the time so it kinda helps with restricting but it also just makes me feel worse. Got up to shit after napping n almost passed out on the fuckin toilet. So at least I ate something.
Didn’t get a picture of my tea my bad
Food Log Jan. 6, 2021
Breakfast:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
2tbsp kimchi (20cal)
Half of large blueberry muffin (300cal)
Baby bel cheese (70cal)
Chamomile tea (0cal)
Total: 390cal
Todays total: 390cal
Notes:
I love how organized it looked. I love kimchi so much it helps with not eating hot Cheetos n pickles. I’m trynna avoid eating chips.
I forgot to take a picture of my tea again my bad.
Food log: Aug. 17, 2024
Breakfast:
Menudo, 1 1/2 cup (195cal)
Total: 195cal
Lunch:
Baby carrots, 1 cup (34cal)
Celery, 2 stalks (14cal)
Cream cheese, 1tbsp (35cal)
Total: 83cal
Dinner:
Nothing (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Exercise:
3,120 steps (103cal)
Total burned: 103cal
Todays total: 174 cals
Notes:
Rlly glad I ate low today, menudo hits ALWAYS n it’s low in calories. I ate the veggies while watching mukbang n I kept thinking abt how much I hate having an ED bc I can’t enjoy the food I love especially after relapsing. I’ve been pacing around the room or walking/running in place to get steps in. Tmrw I’ll get more steps in.
Food Log: Sep. 5, 2024
Breakfast:
3 egg omelette (237cals)
3 bacon slices (177cals)
1tbsp ketchup (18cal)
Cheese (100cals)
Onion (46cal)
Total: 662cals
Lunch:
Nothing (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Nothing (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Snack:
Ten tbsp chocolate brownie ice cream (328cals)
Total: 328cals
Todays total: 990 calories
Notes:
My bf made us breakfast it was really goooooood but supa high in calories. I blame the bacon. I’m rlly annoyed with how high I ate BUT it’s fine bc I lost weight around my belly and I can wear my waist trainer at its tightest setting now 🙂↕️. The ice cream was so fucking good but I have to pace myself so I don’t binge. I rlly want to eat more rn.So I’m gonna finish an assignment and then watch some movies that has super skinny ppl n it for inspiration 🫡
Food log: Sep. 9, 2024
Breakfast:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
Nothing
Total: 0cal
Dinner:
Rice cake (35cals)
Half tbsp, mayo (50cal)
Half tbsp, relish (10cal)
Half, can tuna (50cal)
Total: 144cals
Todays total: 144 calories
Notes:
Ate really low this day which I’m vv happy and surprised abt it bc I almost fully gave in to a bite of my bfs taco. And almost had a break down bc I hate not being able to eat. But I did it yay. This is your sign to recover I hate not fucking eating.
Food Log:
Breakfast:
Lemon water (0cal)
Total: 0cal
Lunch:
Celsius energy drink (7cal)
Total: 7cal
Dinner:
Ham and cheese hot pocket (269cal)
Cornish hen (220cal)
2 tbsp, ketchup (40cal)
Total: 529cals
Todays total: 536 cals
Notes:
I forgot to take a pic of the lemon water. I’m gonna stop drinking Celsius bc apparently I thought it was the only energy drink that doesn’t give me anxiety but it’s the only energy drink that’s 200mg of fucking caffeine. I also had a rlly bad dpr episode today during school so I’ll stop drinking energy drinks n go back to coffee n tea juST IN CASEEE it may be influencing my dpr episodes (enhancing it) a whole ass mini chicken is lower in cals compared to a goddamn cup of noodles hell yeah
Help me choose what to eat tomorrow!
Option 1🍏:
Gerber apple cinnamon puffs ( 150)
1 cup unsweetened almond milk (30)
*I would eat this like cereal for a total of 180 calories
Option 2🐟:
3 packets of lemon pepper tuna (210)
pickles (0)
* I would mix together for a total of 210 cal
Option 3🍄:
mushrooms (~15)
1/4 cup of Jasmine rice ( 160)
2 tbsps of low sodium soy sauce (20)
* I would stir it all together to make a mushroom rice for a total of 195 calories
Option 4🥣:
2/3 cup of Greek nonfat plain yogurt (130)
1 green apple (95)
1 tbsp of cinnamon (19)
*I would stir it all together for a delicious apple cinnamon yogurt for a total of 244 calories
you’d think I’d run out of tears by now
does anyone else hold off their bodily functions until they accomplish something?
like earlier I held my pee in for almost 2 hours until I finished my math homework
I just need a month
A month to just fucking lose myself
A month of not being able to get out of bed
A month of not taking care of myself
A month of barely eating
A month of no responsibilities
A month of SH
A month of substance abuse
A month please
And then I’ll get my shit together
I promise
I am in a constant state of mourning
sleep is my only solace
✨🌕✨
guilt consumes me every second I’m awake
the urge to kms in front of people when they yell at me
