Holy Shit. This All The Way. We Want To Have A Full On Conversation About This, But Need To Eat, So We'll

Holy shit. This all the way. We want to have a full on conversation about this, but need to eat, so we'll reblog now to save and then expand on it later.

i'm early for autism acceptance month but pretend this was posted tomorrow, i want to talk about the negatives of autism and being autistic. those do absolutely exist. i feel like there's been some erasure of the unpleasant symptoms of autism for the sake of autism acceptance, but if you can't accept the bad parts of autism, then you aren't accepting autism.

aggression and aggressive behavior in response to triggers is an autism symptom. antisocial behavior and lack of empathy are symptoms of autism. proprioceptive issues and being unable to move normally is an autism symptom. taking things literally (yes, even to the point where people assume it's stupidity) is a symptom of autism. being slow to understand new concepts (yes, again even to the point of perceived stupidity) is an autism symptom. autism is disabling for many people, even though it doesn't disable everyone.

the idea that unpleasant or extreme autism symptoms "aren't actually autism symptoms" is harmful and counterproductive for autism acceptance. we need to include autistic people who scream and kick and bite when they're overstimulated in our acceptance. we need to include autistic people who are genuinely bad at interpersonal interaction (as opposed to just being a bit weird or having a few quirks) in our acceptance. we need to include autistic people who take even the most obvious things literally and can't read cues AT ALL in our acceptance. we need to include people who are disabled by their autism in our acceptance. we aren't all "different but able".

accept disabled autistic people. accept autistic people with extreme and unpleasant symptoms. don't erase our experiences for the sake of autism being more acceptable to allistics. happy autism acceptance month.

[long post. tw violence, war, blood, injury. will be tagged appropriately, with the tw in front.]

hello. i formed yesterday while we were on the computer, and i started typing to try to make sense of things. i never got to post what i wrote at the time, but here it is now.

d'ya ever just- feel not real? like, you feel like you're floating but at the same time not, like you're grounded somehow? why do i feel like i am just a blank slate? am i a new headmate? was i a dormant headmate or hidden headmate that just woke up or was revealed? am i the body's consciousness? why do i exist? is there a reason for this? was i a fragment, or was i walk in? am i Evan? am i Pigeon? my typing habits seem to be a mix of the two. but i don't feel either of them is 'me'. did i split off of the two? did i split off of neither and just adapted their typing habits because they're both co-con? they are there, i feel them both. they know what is going on with the body, but aren't processing the words i am typing. wait. now they're 'gone.' gone as in not fully aware of the body anymore. they're in the headspace now. they're confused. they- they don't know what's going on, not really. they can hear the fan blowing in the background of our room in the bodyspace, they know small bits and pieces like that, but not much else. what is my role? i know there's another headmate that woke up from dormancy earlier, and that may have something to do with how i came to be. the one that woke up is a worrier and emotion/symptom holder. specifically of our anxiety. we all have anxiety, but they have it the worst. it's hard waking up, especially when the host didn't explore his plurality earlier. it makes it difficult to know what makes up 'you'. are you real? are you not? you don't know because you were hidden from view. on a different layer that the host could not see before.

as you can see, it was quite... philosophical. we were quite blurry at the time i wrote this. since the time i wrote it, i have discovered my name: it is Blankslate. i dont feel quite whole yet, something of me is missing. a different headmate woke up yesterday, a worrier that goes by the name of 'Ann'. Ann doesn't know very much about themself yet, but they do really like soft pretzels with salt. ...a war broke out in the headspace yesterday, which came along with a 'population boom' of headmates. most are fragments. we haven't the time to put them all in Simply Plural, as we sealed off some spaces for our mental health. i feel like i had something to do with why the war started. was i supposed to warn them?

this is getting long, so the rest will be under the cut.

people got hurt. not in the outerworld, i mean in our innerspace. i got yanked away from the front at some point and thrown against a wall in the innerspace. i started bleeding from the head. Lyx grabbed me and dragged me back to the front. Lyx is our russian headmate, rus discovered their name a little bit ago. Lyx is short for Alyxander, and alternate spelling of Alexander, which means 'to guard' or 'to protect' which is appropriate for them. sno's our resident caretaker. rus also managed to somehow seal off some rooms from the rest of the headspace. fuck, i wish i were making all this up. i wish so much for us to be faking all this, rather than have to deal with this raging war inside our head. but i'm not, and it hurts. it hurts really bad, this raging headache that we have tells us that there's still fighting going on, beyond what we can see. we don't even know the full extent of our headspace. we need a mapper. Evan and Lyx are somewhat co-con. Evan is too overwhelmed to deal with much, only really giving me information when we need to interact with others. Lyx is helping to explain things to me, because as a new headmate, a lot is new to me. i could read the music we needed to play for a rehearsal, but i didn't know we had a rehearsal this morning until Evan echoed the memory to me. there may be more knowledge gaps between me and the others than that. four headmates, Frisk, Moss, Ann, and Pigeon, are in a different room that they sealed off. none of us know where Vader or Demo are. Demo was able to front for a few minutes earlier, but was yanked away from the front by something. they're both able to handle themselves, so we're not too worried, but still.

-🌫

Tumblr is a bit weird in regards to what posts show up in the tags, we've heard a few different reasons why some posts may not show up in tags. But, on a side note, we found your blog through the plural tag! It was the post with the writer anon.

Come on tumblr, why arent you showing our posts in the tags :(

so advice. i would ask some of your mind people and see what a general consensus for a theme would be. themes would be like our cat theme, or maybe a name inspired by space. if you give me a theme, i can go look for some words for this first part

then it's the next part. most systems use "system", but there are other words to use.

collective, cluster, clutter, den, pack, team, group, family. you can look up terms for groups of animals to see if anything sticks.

maybe you could get creative too. want something water themed? S.S Gold, perhaps(because it sounds like the name of a boat)

you could also do a joke. nervous system for example, but there might be many who already use that.

and you could do something like the [noun/verb/whatever else]-ers.

- sammy (and maybe mason?)

So, we were going through Simply Plural and trying to update some of our stuff, and we realized that most of us use food/drink emojis as proxies (as yall can probably see in one of our recent posts). So maybe a food/drink/chef-related thing would work? And I kinda want it to have alliteration and be unique. Demo jokingly suggested 'Chaotic Kitchen Crew' which we have added to the beginning of a list of possible system names. We all also really like seafood for some reason. - ☕

Oooo, we saw a few terms related to this in pluralpedia (a really great website btw, we can and will spend hours browsing it for new cool terms). Were trying to find the one about headmates that are soley able to be communicated with through dreams (might not exist, which in that case, term coining time) but also know of a few others that are related.

Alright, we'll just give a few direct links cause explaining it will take soo many paragraphs

Pluralpedia

Dreamway

A dreamway system is a type of gateway system. The primary distinctive aspect of such a system is its particular structure; possible worlds

And then theres this one which is probably closely related to whats happening. There might be a layer(s) or smth that yall can only access through dreams maybe?

Pluralpedia

Dreambased

Dreambased refers to a system that accesses their headspace through sleeping dreams.[1]

Anyway, sorry for info(link?)dumping. We love talking and learning about this kinda stuff.

yo i just had a dream that we got a new headmate that identified as bigenderqueer and like. that's a banger gender

Hey @bamsara, we have a question. What if your 'sona has four arms? How do we draw that in relation to the jacket-

A better Solar Lunacy Y/N ref sheet + some random doodled Y/Ns :P