Something We Hate About Being Plural Sometimes:

Something we hate about being plural sometimes:

Online: We’re all separate people and are extremely open and want to be our authentic selves as much as possible

IRL: Literally no one knows we’re plural and we never bring it up and never make it noticeable because we’re all trying to act as our singletsona. We make small comments about being plural (especially the freaking memory loss) and the one person who knows (our brother) shuts down the comments because he’s probably doubting our existence as a system because we never actually act like we’re a system irl.

We wish we could all be our authentic selves when fronting, but jeez we really can’t… everyone (and I mean everyone) has to act as our singletsona when fronting (gonna have some fun with that here in a bit. We’re coming up with singletsona lore and acting like it’s a fucking story we’re all collaborating on XD). Granted, some alters find it easier than others (Blue is a natural at it. But then again they got the most say in our singletsona since they’ve been the host of our system the longest and are the one people mostly expect our singletsona to act like so… yay…)

Anyway yeah. Singletsona content because we’re all bored and wanna show off our collective stupidity when it comes to this shit?? Absolutely!!

-🩶👻

Being abused by an intimate ex-partner who tells people that you’re a bad person is being stripped of your validity of feeling pain.

I have this ever-growing feeling inside of me that I need to prove to people that I’m being abused and I’m worthy of their consideration. I need them to trust me, please, and maybe I’ll allow myself to be a victim too.

I gave people glimpses my old scars and opening them up so I can convince them that I bleed.

I dug a knife under my skin, “I swear that I’m human, can’t you see? Can’t you see? Why can’t you see me?”

I haven't read all the responses but i will say: sometimes people won't forgive you even if you've changed for the better and frankly that's just whatever. forgiving you is up to them whether or not you've changed but self-improvement is an important thing. however it is kind of shitty that they keep smearing you and your friends after you've changed

Yeah. That’s the hardest part of it all (and frankly why I kept feeling so fucking guilty about what I did). Because the whole story behind it is, I had apologized for what I had done. I said I was sorry, I explained why I did it, I bettered myself, learned what I could do differently if put in that situation again in the future, and did my best to make amends still moving forward.

But then again, this person emotionally abused Blue (our host), and played on their trust issues and explained system responsibility as “no alter should be trusted,” because some of us saw through the bullshit and realized they were being manipulative. They constantly downplayed our boundaries, constantly used mistakes against us despite constantly reassuring Blue that mistakes are perfectly fine and you’re meant to learn from them! X3 (which… like yeah. You learn from mistakes. That’s the entire point), and constantly threatened to end the relationship saying that their alters in front kept fighting about whether we should remain friends or not. Hell, they even asked us for stuff constantly and never gave anything back (which isn’t a requirement but like… they even got so pissed because we had no money to buy them something. You’re an adult. Autism isn’t an excuse to get so fucking pissed at us that you trigger our trauma of our ex abuser).

And then we ended the friendship because we had enough of it. Blue was in agreement, which is why we finally broke it off. They threw a tantrum, forced a mutual friend to block us, and then proceeded to drag our system through the mud by pulling out what I had done a month prior to the ending of the relationship without even giving context to what happened or explaining how I had apologized and attempted to make amends.

Now some people are mad and wishing us dead. But… clearly it’s not about us or us making amends for them. Something I’ve realized while reading through this. Because that entire group of people see accountability as taking the blame and being shamed for it. They don’t care about if I get better or worse. They just care about having a perceived moral high ground above us.

That realization alone has helped so much because it’s just… they don’t actually care. The people who are mad at us and refuse to listen to our side don’t actually care. They just want the perceived moral high ground.

Needless to say, these replies have helped so much because it’s helped me process that (especially since a lot of people have given me the proper definitions of system responsibility and accountability)

-⛈️

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~ Alters With Side Blogs ~

🍓- any pronouns, prefer they/them - 21 yo, caretaker and host, brainmade, in a relationship with 📖, 🔦 is their twin brother, has many other siblings and children within our system - blog: @bluestrawberrybunny

🔦 (formerly 🩶👻) - 🏳️‍⚧️he/him or they/them🏳️‍⚧️ - 21 yo, host and protector, Introject of Johnny Ghost from Venturiantale, 🍓’s twin brother, in a relationship with 🍞 - blog: @gh0stp13

🧸 - 🏳️‍⚧️she/her🏳️‍⚧️ - 18 yo, mood lifter/mediator, factive, 🍓 and 🔦’s little sister - blog: @anonymouswhitebear

🧡🐍 - he/him, they/them, or xe/xem - 21 yo, mood lifter and host in case something happens to 🍓 and 🔦, brainmade, 🍓’s best friend, in a relationship with 💅 - blog: @theaffsbiggestfan

📖 - any pronouns, I am bigender and use both masc and fem terms - 22 yo (age slider), protector and soother, Introject of Sick Simon from Cry of Fear, in a relationship with 🍓, ⛈️ and 🩸’s older brother - blog: @depressedwriter25

~ Other Active Alters ~

⛈️ - 🏳️‍⚧️he/him🏳️‍⚧️ - 20 yo, ex-persecutor now caretaker, introject of the played Simon Henriksson in Cry of Fear, in a relationship with 💊, 📖 and 🩸 are his brothers.

🍎 - she/her - 24 yo, caretaker, introject of Applejack from An Apple Sleep Experiment, loves cottage core and outdoorsy things, everyone’s big sister

🔵 - he/him - Mid 20’s, protector, introject of Swap Sans (loves to talk shit about his source. Despises his source with a burned passion), in a relationship with 🚬

🎪 - he/him - adult, introject of Caine from the Amazing Digital Circus, easily bored and says out of pocket stuff in headspace (never out loud. He knows how to behave when fronting. You will see a lot from him in Real Shit Said in Headspace)

💊 - he/him - 24 yo, in charge of body’s medications, introject of David Leatherhoff from Afraid of Monsters, in a relationship with ⛈️, 🐹’s brother

☠️ - he/him or they/them - ageless, ex-persecutor now protector, brainmade but also introject of the personification of death, 🍓’s eldest child, in a relationship with 🗝, has a list of people he likes

🩸- he/him - an age (adult most of the time but age regresses), protector, introject of Book Simon from Cry of Fear, in a relationship with 💉, 📖 and ⛈️ are his brothers, he likes to act childish even when he isn’t little (when he’s little he has the actual capacities of a child)

☀️ - 🏳️‍⚧️she/her🏳️‍⚧️ - over 1000 yo, caretaker and mood lifter, introject of Dream from Dreamtale, everyone’s Auntie Dream, 🌑’s twin sister, in a relationship with 🎯 and 🪐

🗝️ - he/him - 23 yo, caregiver, brainmade, in a relationship with ☠️

🔥🐰 - he/him - 62 yo, protector (ex-persecutor, may slip up every now and again) and trauma holder, SamGladiator introject from an old AU, in a relationship with 🌟, demon alter and is trying to heal from past trauma

🪓 - he/him - 28 yo, protector, Introject of Horror Sans, in a relationship with 💟

🎭 - he/him - 45 yo, goofball/caretaker/protector, Introject of Handsome Jack from Borderlands, in a relationship with 🦾, accidentally become the second system dad

🎳 - he/him - 22 yo, system expert, Introject of Jax from the Amazing Digital Circus, knows anything and everything about our system

📺 - he/him - introject of Mr. Puzzles from SMG4, in a relationship with 🍄, very flamboyant and openly gay

💥 - he/him - early 20’s, protector, Introject of Kiyoka Kudou from My Happy Marriage, in a relationship with 🌸

🌷 - he/him - mid to late 20's, introject of Luigi from both Nintendo and SMG4, 🍄's twin and 💻's older brother

🍄 - he/him - mid to late 20's, introject of Mario from both Nintendo and SMG4, in a relationship with 📺, 🌷's twin brother and 💻's older brother

💚❤️💛💙 - genderfluid, any pronouns - adult, MatPat introject (please refrain from comparing me to my source)

🌑 - he/him - over 1000 yo, head caretaker and protector, Introject of Nightmare Sans, everyone’s dad or grandpa, ☀️’s twin brother, possibly in a relationship with ❌️??? (Have not received confirmation or denial)

🗑️ - he/him, trash/trashcan - adult (maybe in my 30’s???), funny little trash man/internal persecutor??, Introject of Remus from Sanders Sides, been here a very long time, 🍓 yells at me in fake anger because of my intrusive thoughts I share :)

👑 - he/him, Prince/princey - adult, the one they shove to the front when shit hits the fan and one in charge of taking care of the body’s appearance, Introject of Roman from Sanders Sides, in a relationship with 🌩, drama queen and ✨I OWN IT✨

🦾 - he/him - 36 yo, unknown role currently, Introject of Rhys Strongfork from Tales from the Borderlands, in a relationship with 🎭, certified goofy goober

💀 - he/they - 24 yo, introject of SMG3 from SMG4, in a relationship with 💻, 🔦 and 🍓’s older brother

💻 - he/him - 24 yo, introject of SMG4 from SMG4, in a relationship with 💀, 🍄 and 🌷's younger brother

🐹 - she/her - 21 yo, Introject of Sophie from Cry of Fear, 💊’s little sister, best friends with 📖 and ⛈️, close friends with 🍓

🍞 - 🏳️‍⚧️he/him🏳️‍⚧️ - early-mid 20’s, caretaker and protector, Introject of Johnny Toast from Venturiantale, in a relationship with 🔦, writes a bunch

There are other alters in this system, and that have emojis attached to them, but they don’t want to be listed. We use emojis instead of actual names for anonymity

!! ASK GAME !!

I guarantee no accuracy lol

👥 - How many people are in your system

🎨 - What's everyone's favorite colors?

⌚ - Most common fronters?

🧾 - Collective pronouns?

📚 - Everyone's pronouns?

🍼 - Most common age group?

🎞 - Do you have any fictives?

💖 - Are there any romantic relationships in your system?

🔢 - Does anyone have a favorite number?

🧠 - Are any of your alters neurodivergent?

🏳‍🌈 - How many people are LGBTQIA+

👽 - Do you have any non-human alters (including hybrids)?

🏓 - What are some common hobbies?

😋 - What is the most liked food between everyone?

👀 - Current hyperfixations?

📖 - Do you guys have any collective interests?

🗺 - What is your headspace like? (If you have one)

🐕 - Does anyone have a pet?

🏷 - Does your system have a name?

💭 - Does anyone wanna share something about their source? Feel free to ramble, anyone can answer too!

💥 - Most chaotic group?

😇 - Any demon/angel/god alters?

👴 - Who is the oldest?

🏥 - Are you diagnosed? If yes, was it difficult? If not, do you want one & why or why not?

🏡 - What is your system dynamic (ex, family, friends, complete strangers, etc)

🔂- How do you keep track of your system? (Members, switches, etc)

🐣- Any childhood things that should've tipped you off to being a system?

👍- Do you like being a system?

📤- Do you know any systems IRL?

💕- Do you prefer in-system dating or out-of-system dating?

🙄- What's the most annoying thing about being a system?

❔ - How bad is your amnesia?

💬- Best quote from an alter?

🎮- Do alters have separate accounts for games or do you all share an account?

⬇️ Joke ones ⬇️

🐎 - how often do your alters think about the Trojan empire?

🔮 - do you believe in gravity?

Does anyone else have that one friend whose sleep schedule is like an ever-evolving mystery? One day they’ll appear to be asleep for the entire 16 hours that you’re awake, but the next three they won’t appear to actually sleep at all. Sometimes they appear to be on Australian time, other times their schedule has adjusted to somewhere in the middle of the Pacific ocean. (I call this Cthulhu time.) You go a week without seeing them and you have no idea if they’re just really busy, dead, or if their sleep has simply synced up to the exact hours you’re awake and online. The only indication that they’re still in this mortal coil is vague posts about grocery shopping that pop up on their blogs at 4:12AM.