Me, Naively Hopeful: Haha My Heart Is Racing. I'm Sure If I Just Sit Still For Awhile It'll Stop

me, naively hopeful: haha my heart is racing. i'm sure if i just sit still for awhile it'll stop

ID: a still from spongebob of the words "2 hours later" in pink all capital letters on a navy background with squiggly bright blue lines and pale blue flowers with cyan centers. end ID]

me, clammy and uncomfortable:

[ID: a still from spongebob of an exhausted spongebob on his knees dragging himself into the krusty crab. his eyes are heavily ringed and his mouth is slack. his legs are like noodles. end ID]

Okay, so I love sitting cross legged and it’s the most comfortable position for my body to be in except for the fact that it always makes my left leg fall asleep to the point that it’s extremely painful so I have to keep my leg out straight but that’s not comfortable and hurts other parts of me.

Does this happen to anyone else?

I have never felt more seen than this pallet jack makes me feel. This is what it feels like for me to be disabled. This applies to me in many ways but perhaps most literally I am physically very strong but my joints are shit so combine those two things and I come out as a pallet jack

Image/meme taken from @theconcealedweapon

This shit this shit right here is so true. I know I’m still young and what not but it’s taken me YEARS of dealing with chronic pain and fatigue and what not to be able to admit even to myself that I need help and that I can’t do everything that truly able bodied people can do because I am not able bodied

The truth is most people think being disabled is a death sentence but instead of advocating for disabled people they r convinced that they’ll never become disabled as if being disabled is some biblical punishment. Guess what? Accidents happen. You will get old and your body will stop working like it used to. Imagine if we live in a world where disability is seen as normal. Where we actually take care of each other.

Fuck pain and it’s ability to keep me from sleeping

I have a drs appointment on Tuesday to hopefully get evaluated for hEDS yay. I Hope i can get a preliminary diagnosis from her i stg. It would explain so much and then maybe just maybe I’ll be taken more seriously by other docs. Like seriously it would explain SO MANY of my issues like nearly all of them I stg