Let Me Put Titles On My God-damned Mobile Posts. I Will Burn The Tumblr App To The Ground

Let me put titles on my god-damned mobile posts. I will burn the Tumblr app to the ground

People keep telling me my job is supposedly easy, but it's not to me. It's so hard every damn day. and I feel guilty because I'm making more money than plenty of people who have it way worse, but I've gotten so depressed. I don't feel like it's worth it most of the time. I'm off 2 days a week, the building has air conditioning, and we get an hour for lunch, which is more than most people, but I'm still so upset all the time. And being so guilty about it is even worse.

Is spinning an autistic thing? Like I used to just spin until I was ready to fall over, then I would sit down until I regained my balance and then spin some more.... For fun. No other reason than because I thought it was fun.

Tw: suicide (dont worry, I'm not attempting. And please don't report me.)

Quick question for anyone who might have an answer.

How common is it for people to think of attempting suicide to avoid going to work? Like... Nobody ever seems to WANT to go to work, and some jobs feel like hell. It seems like it would be really common... But then again, I'm kind of fragile (emotionally), and can't imagine NOT being fragile. I'm not going to attempt. It's just something I thought about, because the thought of doing that popped into my head. If I succeeded, there'd be no more work, no ridicule or gossip, no worries about what might happen if I start hrt while working or worries about my future, being alone, or in pain, or being a failure. If I failed, I could probably get a psychiatrist, like I needed to years ago. It would be expensive, and I'd probably get sent to a psych ward, but still. I don't want to go to work. I would probably be content sitting in a decent psych ward for a few years. Idk. I hate being an adult.

Jobs for adhd/autism?

Does anyone know of any jobs someone with adhd/autism would do well in? Preferably ones that don’t require anything more than a high school diploma?

Why is it so hard to function as an adult?

I literally just want to be able to have some money and enjoy my life, but no. My job is too hard for me, and I'm bending over backwards to find a better one.

The problem comes in with why my job is too hard. Not only is it a very physically demanding job (I am not in shape, or used to doing a lot of physical labor), it also requires speed AND accuracy. I have trouble with both of those things, and it sucks.

I want to find another job, but most jobs have the same requirements, or require a degree, which I don't have. Those swedish artists need to hurry up with their "clock in at the train station and get paid to do whatever you want all day" project. Until then, I just want to be able to work as an artist. My drawing tablet comes in Friday, but I don't have time to do commissions or improve my art enough to even ask for a decent amount of money for commissions.