People Keep Telling Me My Job Is Supposedly Easy, But It's Not To Me. It's So Hard Every Damn Day. And

People keep telling me my job is supposedly easy, but it's not to me. It's so hard every damn day. and I feel guilty because I'm making more money than plenty of people who have it way worse, but I've gotten so depressed. I don't feel like it's worth it most of the time. I'm off 2 days a week, the building has air conditioning, and we get an hour for lunch, which is more than most people, but I'm still so upset all the time. And being so guilty about it is even worse.

I hate when some "Chosen one" stuff happens in a dream right before I wake up and happens to be connected to the real world.

Like the other day, I was sleeping because I had to work that night. I see nothing but I hear a deep, disembodied voice say something like "Even the youngest Gods may have trouble managing their planets. You should help them."

I wake up and my cousin (a toddler) is screaming because she woke up from her nap and doesn't know what's going on. She doesn't know how to regulate emotions. She needs help managing her planets.

If you have adhd AND autism, you know that although the symptoms can be VERY similar, they can also clash and then team up to piss you off.

Example:

ADHD: causes me to be a bit disorganized

Autism: craves order and structure

You see where this is going.

I'm bad at looking for things, but I have like five minutes to find it before I start losing my mind. I literally put my work clothes in a specific spot to avoid this, but I don't have my own room so it happened anyway because people like to move my stuff while I'm sleeping. It's always in an obvious spot, but that's the last place I would thing to check because IT'S TOO OBVIOUS.

Yes and now I have no work ethic and I work slow as hell :D

Gifted kid burnout? More like “you have undiagnosed adhd or autism (or both) and because you did well in school as a child no one knew there was anything going on and now school has become more challenging both content and structure-wise to the point where your normal methods for succeeding are no longer working and everyone around you just thinks you’re being lazy”

Someone please tell me what kind of things are normal to talk about on dates? I'm going on my first date tonight (we're watching Venom) and I have no clue what to talk about. I'm currently into Genshin and Jojo's bizarre adventure. He's not into JoJo and only casually plays genshin. I can't really talk about spiderman or any other marvel characters because I don't know much about any marvel heroes. I can't just info dump about my obsessions the whole time please help.

Is there a name for being that person who is always reprimanded for "wasting potential" or "not applying yourself" constantly, until one day, you magically outperform your usual self. But it never lasts. It lasts a day, at worst and maybe a few months, at best. But everyone is finally proud of you and they come to expect it from you and you're just thinking "No...please. I can't do this with consistency... This was just a fluke." And then once you're back to normal production (maybe worse if you tried to keep overachieving), they're back to "You're not trying hard enough."

Is there a name for it? Am I the only one?