Time.

Time.

I’m at home alone with COVID, which is giving me time to naval-gaze and empty my inbox. In that inbox, I discovered that my friend Alex Gorosh (director of my series RoadFood) sent me this little documentary short on the topic of time.

For some reason, the unfathomable magnitude of space and time has always been a great source of comfort to me. I remember feeling miserable as a teenager and looking up at the stars of the night sky and taking great comfort in the fact that I was just a speck on this tiny blue planet in an ever-expanding universe of quintillions of planets. Looking up at the night sky on a clear night in New England as a kid I could see faint glow of the milky way—hundreds of billions of stars so distant they ceased to be points of light, but together they added up to a dusty smudge of luminosity across the sky—and all of the stars the Milky Way are in our own galaxy! And there are hundreds of billions of stars in hundreds of billions of other galaxies in this universe. To my high school mind all of this comforted me, because how could my little problems ever feel big when held up to the enormity of everything.

I always remember being soothed by the vastness of the universe, but when I was 40, I read “Annals of the Former World,” a tome on geology by John McPhee. The book beautifully illustrated the great expanse of geologic time, which so often exceeds the limits of our comprehension with this simple quote, “Consider the Earth’s history as the old measure of the English yard, the distance from the king’s nose to the tip of his outstretched hand. One stroke of a nail file on his middle finger erases human history.”

When I remember to remember, this too comforts me. The infinitesimally-small-smallness of my troubles helps them fade into nothing. Watching these few minutes on Youtube this morning, it was comforting to see that I am not alone in this perspective on our blink of time in this world. 

https://youtu.be/nOVvEbH2GC0

The Character Setting of Harvey Dent in CW Gotham Knights

After I finished reading Cameron West’s “First Person Plural: My Life as a Multiple, 1998”, and Detective Comics #1062 - #1068, I think Harvey Dent’s symptoms of DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) described in CW “Gotham Knights” are quite accurate and well written. Losing time and the memory during that period, slowly losing grasp of the reality, anxiety, even the spiraling camera move while listening to the trigger piano music (the shot which implied that Light!Harvey was fading into somewhere else)... these symptoms and feelings were also described in Cameron West’s book. Fugue Harvey (his alter ego) was a piece of Harvey’s mind, split during Harvey’s childhood trauma event to protect himself from the hurt and painful memory. He kept down his burning rage and was capable of being violent to “do what needs to be done”, sort of like the combination of “Switch (one of West’s personalities who was full of anger and the tendency of self-harm)” and “Leif (one of West’s personalities who was a smart and tough action guy)”. Anyway, as Misha said, Harvey’s character setting in the show was really grounded, well thought and felt real to me, kudos to Misha Collins, the writers and showrunners! I truly hope one day there’ll be a chance for us to see how Misha’s Harvey develops the OCD (Obsessive-compulsive Disorder) of flipping the coin to make decisions, instantly changes between himself and his alter ego while bickering with each other in one scene, and becomes the iconic super villain Two-Face who rules half of Gotham City’s Underworld. :)

In My Blood (Fanvid) Lyrics Translation

我的血液中　歌詞英翻中

將自己剪輯的影片，歌詞翻譯成中文，歡迎指正，Enjoy~ :)

—– 1 00:00:33,703 --> 00:00:36,417 ♪ 我是個夢想家　但越來越難以承受 ♪

♪ I'm a dreamer but it's getting hard to take it ♪

2 00:00:36,417 --> 00:00:39,273 ♪ 有些夜晚不知道我能否成功 ♪

♪ Some nights don't know if I'm gonna make it ♪

3 00:00:39,273 --> 00:00:42,802 ♪ 心情沉重　但沒有什麼可以讓我崩潰 ♪

♪ Heart is heavy but there's nothing that can break me down ♪

4 00:00:42,802 --> 00:00:45,055 ♪ （讓我崩潰） ♪

♪ (Break me down, down, down) ♪

5 00:00:45,055 --> 00:00:47,875 ♪ 冷血　如同造就我的外面世界 ♪

♪ Cold blooded, like the world outside that made me ♪

6 00:00:47,875 --> 00:00:50,767 ♪ 從它給我的火焰中明亮閃耀 ♪

♪ Shine bright from the fire that it gave me ♪

7 00:00:50,767 --> 00:00:53,960 ♪ 深吸口氣　覺得現在是時候寫我的故事了 ♪

♪ Breathe in think it's time to write my story now ♪

8 00:00:53,960 --> 00:00:55,148 ♪ （現在寫故事）  ♪

♪ (Story now, now) ♪

9 00:00:55,148 --> 00:00:57,862 ♪ 染血指節　敲打著我的胸口 ♪

♪ Bloody knuckles, got 'em banging on my chest ♪

10 00:00:57,862 --> 00:01:00,736 ♪ 視野狹隘　人們說我太著魔 ♪

♪ Tunnel vision people say that I'm obsessed ♪

11 00:01:00,736 --> 00:01:03,290 ♪ 我是個戰士　與眾不同 ♪

♪ I'm a warrior, I am not like the rest ♪

12 00:01:03,290 --> 00:01:05,667 ♪ 而且我不會退縮 ♪

♪ And I won't back down ♪

13 00:01:05,667 --> 00:01:09,605 ♪ 我的血液中沒有投降二字 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood to surrender ♪

14 00:01:09,605 --> 00:01:11,095 ♪ 我不會折斷 ♪

♪ I won't break ♪

15 00:01:11,095 --> 00:01:13,702 ♪ 我會記住我是誰 ♪

♪ I'll remember who I am ♪

16 00:01:13,702 --> 00:01:17,303 ♪ 面對我的恐懼（恐懼） ♪

♪ In the face of my fear (fear)  ♪

17 00:01:17,303 --> 00:01:19,609 ♪ 它不在我的血液中 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood ♪

18 00:01:19,609 --> 00:01:21,046 ♪ 我堅持不懈 ♪

♪ I'm relentless ♪

19 00:01:21,046 --> 00:01:22,553 ♪ 我不認輸 ♪

♪ I don't quit ♪

20 00:01:22,553 --> 00:01:28,673 ♪ 不會忘記是我的痛苦讓我走到這裡（這裡） ♪

♪ Won't forget this that my pain is what got me right here (here)  ♪

21 00:01:28,673 --> 00:01:31,795 ♪ 它不在我的血液中 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood ♪

22 00:01:31,795 --> 00:01:34,030 ♪ 哇　喔　喔 ♪

♪ Whoa, oh oh ♪

23 00:01:34,030 --> 00:01:37,719 ♪ 它不在我的血液中 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood ♪

24 00:01:37,719 --> 00:01:41,852 ♪ 哇　喔　喔 ♪

♪ Whoa, oh oh ♪

25 00:01:41,852 --> 00:01:44,247 ♪ 邁向巔峰的路上我咬牙前進 ♪

♪ Cut my teeth on the road up to the top ♪

26 00:01:44,247 --> 00:01:46,961 ♪ 我保持敏銳　因為磨礪永不停歇 ♪

♪ I stay sharp 'cause the grindin' never stops ♪

27 00:01:46,961 --> 00:01:51,041 ♪ 我目標高遠　且我不想墜落地面 ♪

♪ I aim high and I don't ever wanna hit the ground ♪

28 00:01:51,041 --> 00:01:52,797 ♪ （墜落地面） ♪

♪ (Hit the ground, ground) ♪

29 00:01:52,797 --> 00:01:55,812 ♪ 下雨也無法澆熄 ♪

♪ The rain can't put the fire out ♪

30 00:01:55,812 --> 00:01:58,721 ♪ 我心中烈火正狂暴 ♪

♪ Inside my heart is raging now ♪

31 00:01:58,721 --> 00:02:03,581 ♪ 而且我會讓它燃燒 ♪

♪ And I'm gonna let it burn ♪

32 00:02:03,581 --> 00:02:06,153 ♪ 染血指節　敲打著我的胸口 ♪

♪ Bloody knuckles, got 'em banging on my chest ♪

33 00:02:06,153 --> 00:02:09,346 ♪ 視野狹隘　人們說我太著魔 ♪

♪ Tunnel vision people say that I'm obsessed ♪

34 00:02:09,346 --> 00:02:11,901 ♪ 我是個戰士　與眾不同 ♪

♪ I'm a warrior, I am not like the rest ♪

35 00:02:11,901 --> 00:02:14,455 ♪ 而且我不會退縮 ♪

♪ And I won't back down ♪

36 00:02:14,455 --> 00:02:18,109 ♪ 我的血液中沒有投降二字 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood to surrender ♪

37 00:02:18,109 --> 00:02:19,617 ♪ 我不會折斷 ♪

♪ I won't break ♪

38 00:02:19,617 --> 00:02:22,348 ♪ 我會記住我是誰 ♪

♪ I'll remember who I am ♪

39 00:02:22,348 --> 00:02:26,002 ♪ 面對我的恐懼（恐懼） ♪

♪ In the face of my fear (fear)  ♪

40 00:02:26,002 --> 00:02:28,113 ♪ 它不在我的血液中 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood ♪

41 00:02:28,113 --> 00:02:29,656 ♪ 我堅持不懈 ♪

♪ I'm relentless ♪

42 00:02:29,656 --> 00:02:31,004 ♪ 我不認輸 ♪

♪ I don't quit ♪

43 00:02:31,004 --> 00:02:37,231 ♪ 不會忘記是我的痛苦讓我走到這裡（這裡） ♪

♪ Won't forget this that my pain is what got me right here (here)  ♪

44 00:02:37,231 --> 00:02:40,459 ♪ 它不在我的血液中 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood ♪

45 00:02:40,459 --> 00:02:42,907 ♪ 哇　喔　喔 ♪

♪ Whoa, oh oh ♪

46 00:02:42,907 --> 00:02:46,507 ♪ 它不在我的血液中 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood ♪

47 00:02:46,507 --> 00:02:50,144 ♪ 哇　喔　喔 ♪

♪ Whoa, oh oh ♪

48 00:03:01,496 --> 00:03:04,263 ♪ 下雨也無法澆熄 ♪

♪ The rain can't put the fire out ♪

49 00:03:04,263 --> 00:03:07,119 ♪ 我心中烈火正狂暴 ♪

♪ Inside my heart is raging now ♪

50 00:03:07,119 --> 00:03:12,902 ♪ 而且我會讓它燃燒 ♪

♪ And I'm gonna let it burn ♪

51 00:03:12,902 --> 00:03:16,662 ♪ 我的血液中沒有投降二字 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood to surrender ♪

52 00:03:16,662 --> 00:03:18,223 ♪ 我不會折斷 ♪

♪ I won't break ♪

53 00:03:18,223 --> 00:03:20,813 ♪ 我會記住我是誰 ♪

♪ I'll remember who I am ♪

54 00:03:20,813 --> 00:03:24,396 ♪ 面對我的恐懼（恐懼） ♪

♪ In the face of my fear (fear)  ♪

55 00:03:24,396 --> 00:03:26,755 ♪ 它不在我的血液中 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood ♪

56 00:03:26,755 --> 00:03:28,174 ♪ 我堅持不懈 ♪

♪ I'm relentless ♪

57 00:03:28,174 --> 00:03:29,575 ♪ 我不認輸 ♪

♪ I don't quit ♪

58 00:03:29,575 --> 00:03:35,819 ♪ 不會忘記是我的痛苦讓我走到這裡（這裡） ♪

♪ Won't forget this that my pain is what got me right here (here)  ♪

59 00:03:35,819 --> 00:03:39,030 ♪ 它不在我的血液中 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood ♪

60 00:03:39,030 --> 00:03:41,336 ♪ 哇　喔　喔 ♪

♪ Whoa, oh oh ♪

61 00:03:41,336 --> 00:03:44,919 ♪ 它不在我的血液中 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood ♪

62 00:03:44,919 --> 00:03:47,384 ♪ 哇　喔　喔 ♪

♪ Whoa, oh oh ♪

63 00:03:47,384 --> 00:03:50,808 ♪ 它不在我的血液中 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood ♪

64 00:03:50,808 --> 00:03:53,007 ♪ 哇　喔　喔 ♪

♪ Whoa, oh oh ♪

65 00:03:53,007 --> 00:03:56,449 ♪ 它不在我的血液中 ♪

♪ It isn't in my blood ♪

66 00:03:56,449 --> 00:04:00,191 ♪ 哇　喔　喔 ♪

♪ Whoa, oh oh ♪

—–

BGM: The Score - In My Blood

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Zc4EjdYHjk

CW Gotham Knights - Harvey Dent & Misha Collins Tribute - In My Blood (Fanvid)

【原創】【哥譚騎士】Harvey Dent 及 Misha Collins 獻禮 - 我的血液中 In My Blood

My tribute to the beloved D. A. Harvey Dent, and the amazing actor Misha Collins. This took me about 3 days to plan, search for materials, and edit. As a diehard Misha fan, this shows what kind of fighter Harvey was. Hope you'll like it. Enjoy! :)

為紀念 DA Harvey Dent，和感謝出色的演員 Misha Collins，花了三天剪輯完成的作品。身為死忠 Misha 粉，這影片展現出 Harvey 是個怎樣的戰士，希望各位喜歡~ ^^

Subtitles 字幕： English / Chinese lines and BGM lyrics 英／中文對白及 BGM 歌詞

Related Other Fanvids Playlist 相關其他作品播放清單：

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLLttIMdZhz5UUqPi09HqcT4QyfiwYYCTv https://space.bilibili.com/1534665633/channel/seriesdetail?sid=3210682 https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLLttIMdZhz5W-dbwvLhu5XyIAR_e-DUuO https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLLttIMdZhz5VlwtGET351V-oxUMFDV4AL https://space.bilibili.com/1534665633/channel/detail?cid=161733 https://www.instagram.com/egoismht07/channel/ https://www.tiktok.com/@egoismht?lang=zh-Hant-TW https://www.threads.net/@egoismht07

Show: #CWGothamKnights

Software: VideoPad Professional v11.80 格式工廠 X64 v5.14

BGM: The Score - In My Blood https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Zc4EjdYHjk

Finally!

My precious Harvey set and Cas coin finally came to Taiwan today! I'm so happy about their design and quality, thank you so much @Stands @mishacollins @sketching-fox ! Love you all! 🥰❤️👍👏

It happens to be my birthday. Usually I try not to make a thing about it, but I realized that I do want something for my birthday…

I would love it if you would  contribute to this de-mining effort to help save Ukrainian civilians. It’s a pressing and super impactful way to spend a few dollars. Donate for Ukraine to make me happy for my birthday?

Thanks. 

bit.ly/DemineUkraine