Levi + Physical Touch = Me Blushing.

Levi + physical touch = me blushing.

You can't stop thinking about Captain Levi, whom you've had a crush on for a while now, helping you get on your horse by lifting you up with his hands on your hips. His touch lingering around your waist to help you get settled.

You've also noticed how your captain never misses a chance to pat your head. Sometimes, he goes so far as to ruffle your hair. Butterflies assume your stomach is a ballroom. Your cheeks redden, and the floor captivates you in a way like no other.

When the mess hall gets too crowded, your captain softly places his hand on the small of your back, guiding you through the gathering. Never leaving your side.

Besides, Captain Levi is often, if not always, sitting next to you. During meetings, he always saves you a seat. And if you must stand, then he would choose the closest chair to your being.

On special occasions, you would end up on the roof of hq. Seeking some peace and enjoying the view. Captain Levi ,having trouble sleeping, joins you when he spots you one night. It's become a recurring thing. You both meet on the roof after an exhausting day. One time, you end up falling asleep on his shoulder. You wake up at sunrise in the same state. One slight difference is that your captain is soundly sleeping, his head leaning on yours.

The sun was setting down, and the breeze was so comforting.

"Hyaah ! Nice, finishing this expedition with my 50th kill, "you shouted excitedly as you settled down on top of a roof.

Too caught up in your celebration, you failed to notice the 7 meter titan coming towards you. It wasn't until he was too close, obscuring you from the golden hour that you finally turned around.

Not losing your cool, you pulled out your blades, ready to fight. Suddenly, the titan collapsed, and blood streamed down its back.

"My lady," Levi was standing next to you, bowing slightly to kiss the back of your hand.

"You have to stop with your knight in shining armour act." he grinned, couldn't help but admire how adorable you looked, blushing and looking away.

"Makes you wanna pop the question, huh ?" His smirk was loud and clear.

You, of course, couldn't let him get away with this. "Makes me wanna pop a child."

Levi has never looked so taken aback. He was as red as a tomato.

"Hey, lovebirds, come on, we have to leave before it becomes too dark out." Moblit yelled while struggling to get Hange out of those filthy creature's mouths.

"Come on, you brat, let's fall back,"

He held your hand and took off. He was trying to look unaffected, but you could see the tiniest smile forming on his pretty face.

Before helping you get on your horse, he squeezed your hand and kissed your cheek.

"Congrats on getting your 50th kill. You did great out there, love."

"Thanks," you said, smiling softly, " need me to teach you some moves ?" You added jokingly.

"Don't get too full of yourself. Your head could get bigger," Levi replied nonchalantly

"Hey, not nice." You snapped

He just shrugged and took off.

"Come on, let's race," he said over his shoulder.

And you did just that. Of course, he let you win, and you knew it but still bragged and teased him like your life depended on it. And again, he let you, because how could he spoil your fun ? Especially when you smiled so brightly.

My take on the last episode of Merlin

Here's my take on the last moments between Merlin and Arthur after the battle of Camlann because I am seemingly too obssessed and I need someone to hear me out/ discuss this with. Sadly my entourage is not very familiar with the show 😔. So here it is for whoever is willing to read this.

"Why did you never tell me ?"

"I didn't want to put you in that position"

"That's what worried you ?"

This conversation was so hard to watch, Arthur asking that question means that he still sees him as a friend even though by this point he's still confused about the whole situation. But he cares to know why his best friend of 10 years never told him such an important truth about who he is. He cares to understand. He's been mostly silent and withdrawn and I like to think he wasn't afraid for long, but rather hurt obvisously and overly very sad and betrayed. But mostly he cared to know why Merlin thought he couldn't or even shouldn't tell Arthur about his magic. And once Merlin tells him he didn't want him to be put in that position, Arthur probably is generally going 'this idiot always putting others first to the point he denies who he is for the sake to not put his friend in a position where he will be hurt and confused to the point he doesn't know what to do'. And the he asks the question that haunts me at night, Merlin gives him the speech and the whole "I was born to serve you" .That's when it has finally dawned on him that this man hovering over him right now is no powerful sorcerer, no evil martermind who snuck into the castle, no traitor, it's just... Merlin. His idiotic, self sacrificial, beyond loyal friend.

"I'm not going to change now."

"I don't want you to change. I want you…to always…be you"

This right here altered my brain chemistry forever. But i specifically want to focus on the way Arthur says it: "I want you to all ways be you". Again, might just be me reading too much into it, I mean poor man was on the verge of dying, he can't be speaking properly but it is how I hear it. Therefore, I can"t help but think that it is just his own way of reassuring Merlin that even if he know the truth now, nothing changes for him, he still sees him as his dearest friend. The only friend he has and can't bare to lose him. It was maybe also more for him to vocalise his acceptance out loud. In the end It feels amazing to give in to his hopes, his doubts, his sentiments about magic. It's not evil, because if Merlin is born of it, it can only be wonderful. So yes, Arthur accepts Merlin fully with all his jokes, his clumsiness, his kind heart and his mighty powers.

"Everything you've done. I know now."

All i want to say is Athur, my dear you don't know half of it; and it's cruel because even if Merlin doesn't seek any credit, he deserved to be able to tell those tails of how he singlehandedly saved all the knights all of Camelot and Arthur numerous times. He was captured, stabbed, poisoned, punched, left to die alone in the middle of the forest. He could have told how he watched his father die right in front of him and couldn't even grieve properly, because he couldn't be revealed to even know the man let alone be his son. He watched his lover die in his arms and again couldn't speak of her because he would be beheaded if anyone came to know he had just laid eyes one her. He could have told Arthur about how he poisoned Morgana, freed Kilgharrah, caused his father's death, and manipulated him into thinking that he was the cause of his mother's death even after he learnt the truth. Merlin deserved to tell him all this and let him process it on his own to be freed from the weight of the lies and the guilt and the secrecy. And Arthur deserved to know.

"I want to say something I've never said to you before. "

"Thank you"

Now this is self explanatory, but it brought me some joy, like very little, but it also broke me because for all those years, Arthur thought his friendship with Merlin was quite equal in a sense. As in Arthur is the prince who lets his manservant do whatever he wants, say whatever he wants, and be however he would like. Merlin did protect him, help him, serve him but first and formeost he was his friend. And Arthur treated him as more than he ever was, protecting him, sending out search parties for him, a servant. He always thought they managed to trespass and see past the power imbalance in their relationship. But here he is, realising he actually never treated Merlin, his closest friend, the way he deserved, never properly thanked him for the sacrifice, for the life he had to lead whilst in Camelot, for everything he has endured and more. But he felt helpless, he was dying and there wasn't much he could do, so he opted to try and express his gratitude. Though words could never amount to truly convey hiw sentiments but he still managed to say it with assurance; Thank you.

And thanks for reading this, I know it's probably very silly but it has been torturing me for years and I just wanted to talk about this with someone and I finally got the courage to just do it so here it is 😊.

One thing that really broke my heart about sasha's death was how she said that she had heard something, which was gabi and folco hitting the airship. Usually, whenever she says something like that, they take it into consideration and then operate accordingly by investigating. But the one time they should have done so, they didn't. Like whyyyyy ???

Her death was actually heartwrenching. I'm really never recovering from it.

I really obsess over Levi's hair soooo much. It looks so silky and fluffy. The perfect colour and length, just drop dead gorgeous.

I really obsess over Levi's grey shirt(you know the one). It looked so soft and hugged him just right. The collar wasn't too slutty but it's the kind that makes me wanna reach out and trace with my fingers. The broad shoulders, sculpted biceps, slender waist, thick thighs. Perfect combo to end me.

I really obsess over Levi's eyes. Those grey shimmering gemstones. Somewhat calm and steady, or strong and unyielding, sharp and focused. And my favourite, warm and comforting. I would love to get lost in his gaze and never brought back.

I really obsess over Levi's mannerisms. His cold exterior, exuding an aura of assurance and unwavering resolve. His soft and muted attitude, whispering the secrets of a gentle soul. His resilient and determined personality.

I really obsess over Levi.

My comfort character.

My hero.

I can't even fathom how much happiness I felt once I learnt that bellarke actually got married both in the books and in real life. OMG, the actors are so cute, and from what I have seen in the books (can't buy because not available in my country🥺), their storyline is just too good for it to go to waste. The show really made me so angry when they didn't end up together, like how????