In Season 4 Of BBC Merlin, The Episode Where They Have To Face The "Lamia" Is Probably One Of The Biggest

In season 4 of BBC Merlin, the episode where they have to face the "Lamia" is probably one of the biggest monstrosities I have ever witnessed. The way the knights treated Merlin was so mean, so appalling, so cruel. It broke my heart.

I am fully aware they were enchanted. Still when Leon starts coming for merlin saying that he's not a Knight, not a physician, that he's nothing but a servant, I seriously considered homicide.

I mean, technically, merlin was the court physicians apprentice first before Arthur's servant.

It hurts even more when I remember that at the beginning of the episode, Elyan stood up for him in front of the elder of the village.

I also can't help but think if Lancelot were there, Merlin could have used his magic to get him disenchanted or something, then help him find a way to slay the Lamia. But he was left alone.

Same goes for the episode where they visited a shrine the druids had made. The Knights made fun of it. Merlin looked so upset because they were making fun of his beliefs, his religion in a way. Alas, they couldn't know they were doing so, but it still doesn't make it any less hurtful. Especially when you remember that the victims the shrine was made for were probably unjustly executed at the hands of Uther. And again, if Lance was there, he probably could have said something to appease the air. But no, Merlin was left alone.

Damn it, I'm really in my feels(　＾ω＾)

What is really ironic is that the episode "Lancelot du Lac" is one I just can't get myself to watch, even though one of my most adored characters is coming back from dead. But the episode where the insufferable Uther comes back brings me actual joy.

They really brought Lance back to paint as this dishonourable homewrecker who would kiss the knigdom's soon to be queen literally the night before the wedding, ruining his reputation forever. They also made Gwen appear as a cheater who would betray her soon to be husband literally the night before her wedding day. The scene in which her and Arthur fight in the courtroom broke my heart. They don't explain that the monster was sent by Morgana as a shade version of our beloved Lancelot or even that Gwen was drawn to him because of the enchanted bracelet. Also, the fact that Melrin had to say goodbye to his friend again. The way I sobbed when Merlin performed the spell to free Lancelot from Morgana's control. The way Lance said "Thank you" broke my heart for he at least got to die as himself, next to his friend and peacefully.

Now for when Uther comes back, I just really like the fact that Arthur finally realises that his father has always been and will always be an abusive piece of $h!t, as well as a murderer. Arthur gets to let go of those expectations he had set for himself thinking that he could get his father's approval, that he would finally make him proud. He decides to set his own path, as he himself says "You've had your turn. Now it's mine.". Camelot is his to rule now and to command as he sees fit. He knows he can't please his father and has to be true to himself. What is also great is Merlin ,later on, says that Uther did what he thought was best for the kingdom (which i believe in his own twisted mind could be true) mainly trying to appease his friend, but Arthur just deadpans "It doesn't mean he was right." And I believe it stuck with me because it felt like the first time Arthur truly acknowledges his father's faults, especially in front of another person. I truly loved it. This episode is also so precious because of the poetry scene iykyk lol.

"How silly." he mutters under his breath as he takes off his cloak and drapes it over your shoulders.

Levi understands, better than anyone, why you were pushing yourself so hard. Your dreams and hopes for a better, happier, free world. One he wishes he could see himself, though he's not one to talk about his aspirations. But you know, you've always known.

Therefore, when he finds you sleeping like a log on all those damned scattered documents. He just can't help but chuckle and let you rest for a bit.

You wake up with an awful headache and your neck hurting due to the uncomfortable position you've been in for God knows how long. Scrubbing your eyes, you hear a thud. Looking back, that's when you notice a cloak. No, his cloak. You would recognise it anywhere. As you get up to retrieve it, a tiny cup of tea jingles on its plate. Finally, you set eyes on your desk. All the documents are arranged neatly in one corner, and next to them, the cup was placed with a note.

"Oy brat, there's an extent to how lazy one can be. Since you decided to miss the morning meeting, the least you could do is take care of the horses in the stables today. L"

You smile to yourself, remembering the day you told him how much you loved those elegant creatures. Even when he's teaching you a lesson, he ought to be so gentle.

Wearing his cloak and clutching the note, you gather the documents that Erwin asked for and head out. A new day you could spend with all your precious comrades and him. Fighting for a better, happier, free world.

Levi's main love language is acts of service. It's all about the smallest things, which would be second nature to him. You're having trouble with your gear, he will have it fixed without you even knowing about it. You said you were hungry, and a peeled apple would be waiting for you on your desk. If he ever sees you crying, he would simply wave his tissue in front of your face, prompting you to take it. If you try giving it back he would wave you off claiming that it's too dirty with your tears. But the truth is he just wants you to have something that's his, something that would remind you of him. If your horse is acting up ? No worries, Levi will calm it down and even help you get on it again. Right, he wouldn't miss a chance to get close to you.

So, moving on to his second love language: physical touch and proximity. Levi is very much touch deprived. Hence, he seeks comfort in your touch or at least in being close to you. If there's a meeting, he always makes sure to sit next to you. If you all are on mission in the woods and there's a bonfire, just know that no matter how close to the fire you could be or how far, Levi will be seated right next to you. He couldn't care less about the cold because one look from you and he's feeling so warm, inside and out. He would always pat your head. Once you start dating, hugging you would be his favourite thing to do, from the back with his arms draped around your waist or shoulders as he kisses the top of your head or nuzzles your neck, (I'm blushing so hard right now ).

Next in line is quality time. He just adores being with you, by your side, giving you his undivided attention, though very subtly that you don't even notice. But he does. He listens, and he cares, storing everything you say somewhere in his memory. He watches so carefully and takes many pictures with his grey eyes that he stores deep in his heart. Also, if you're ever focused on him, he would get a tiny bit flustered, and his ears would go red. He solely cherishes the way you look at him. He wouldn't, couldn't look away.

Levi doesn't strike me as much of a gift enthusiast, but like always, you're the exception to the rule. I believe he would treasure the littlest thing you could gift him, and in return, would give you the world. If there's a pretty flower or leaf around, he would pick it and march towards where you're seated and would place it on your lap, muttering about how it reminded him of you.

Levi doesn't really vocalise his affection much. But, one day you would be training and pushing yourself a bit too hard and when Nanaba asked what was wrong, you would explain how you've been feeling useless due to all your comrades dying and you not being able to do much about it. Levi ,who witnessed the whole scene, came by your quartes later, looked you straight in the eyes, took your hand in his caressing them, oh so softly, "You are enough, you are doing good by staying alive and fighting in the name of all that we've lost, don't you start questioning yourself after we- after I have put my trust in you. You who has always been so bright and hopeful, don't doubt that we'll make it in the end, together, "he whispered, looking so fond. He then turned around and left you awestruck and teary-eyed.

I really obsess over Levi's hair soooo much. It looks so silky and fluffy. The perfect colour and length, just drop dead gorgeous.

I really obsess over Levi's grey shirt(you know the one). It looked so soft and hugged him just right. The collar wasn't too slutty but it's the kind that makes me wanna reach out and trace with my fingers. The broad shoulders, sculpted biceps, slender waist, thick thighs. Perfect combo to end me.

I really obsess over Levi's eyes. Those grey shimmering gemstones. Somewhat calm and steady, or strong and unyielding, sharp and focused. And my favourite, warm and comforting. I would love to get lost in his gaze and never brought back.

I really obsess over Levi's mannerisms. His cold exterior, exuding an aura of assurance and unwavering resolve. His soft and muted attitude, whispering the secrets of a gentle soul. His resilient and determined personality.

I really obsess over Levi.

My comfort character.

My hero.

The sun was setting down, and the breeze was so comforting.

"Hyaah ! Nice, finishing this expedition with my 50th kill, "you shouted excitedly as you settled down on top of a roof.

Too caught up in your celebration, you failed to notice the 7 meter titan coming towards you. It wasn't until he was too close, obscuring you from the golden hour that you finally turned around.

Not losing your cool, you pulled out your blades, ready to fight. Suddenly, the titan collapsed, and blood streamed down its back.

"My lady," Levi was standing next to you, bowing slightly to kiss the back of your hand.

"You have to stop with your knight in shining armour act." he grinned, couldn't help but admire how adorable you looked, blushing and looking away.

"Makes you wanna pop the question, huh ?" His smirk was loud and clear.

You, of course, couldn't let him get away with this. "Makes me wanna pop a child."

Levi has never looked so taken aback. He was as red as a tomato.

"Hey, lovebirds, come on, we have to leave before it becomes too dark out." Moblit yelled while struggling to get Hange out of those filthy creature's mouths.

"Come on, you brat, let's fall back,"

He held your hand and took off. He was trying to look unaffected, but you could see the tiniest smile forming on his pretty face.

Before helping you get on your horse, he squeezed your hand and kissed your cheek.

"Congrats on getting your 50th kill. You did great out there, love."

"Thanks," you said, smiling softly, " need me to teach you some moves ?" You added jokingly.

"Don't get too full of yourself. Your head could get bigger," Levi replied nonchalantly

"Hey, not nice." You snapped

He just shrugged and took off.

"Come on, let's race," he said over his shoulder.

And you did just that. Of course, he let you win, and you knew it but still bragged and teased him like your life depended on it. And again, he let you, because how could he spoil your fun ? Especially when you smiled so brightly.