I Don't Have A Dead Dove OC Lore In My Mind Currently But I'd Love To Hear About Yours!

I don't have a dead dove OC lore in my mind currently but I'd love to hear about yours!

okay, i'd like to give some preemptive content warnings for: stepcest/pseudocest, stalking, emotional abuse, sexual abuse, gaslighting, major character death, and attempted suicide. please note that this story is a work in progress, so i haven't yet figured out every detail and much of this information is subject to change.

touma is the one who steps up to help akemi work through her grief over losing her biological mom. the pair get to know each other better over the following weeks and months and develop a close bond before eventually confessing to each other and pursuing a romantic relationship behind their parents' backs. at first, the relationship is almost idyllic. touma takes akemi on after-school dates, buys her plushies and other small gifts, promises to protect her and keep her safe, and just generally dotes on her as both his girlfriend and his little sister. but then akemi begins to notice small items disappearing from her room — a notebook here, a bracelet there, an eraser off her desk. her phone doesn't go missing, but she does find it in a different place than she'd left it. her friends are more distant, making less and less of an effort to include her in activities and conversation.

the story i'm writing is called the red spider lily blooms before dawn (ヒガンバナは夜明け前に咲く, lit. higanbana wa yoake mae ni saku) and the idea behind it is that it starts off as your typical unassuming tropey high school shoujo romance fare, but gradually turns into a psychological horror, similar to doki doki literature club. our protagonist, akemi niratani (韮谷曙美), fits the archetype of the shy, naïve, airheaded female shoujo lead to a t. she loves bunnies and all things cute and pink and she has a crush on her popular, charming, charismatic senpai, touma higa (比嘉灯守). akemi's parents are separated, so she lives with her mom full-time, but at the beginning of the story, something happens to her mom that results in her death, forcing akemi to move back in with her dad, who lives in a different prefecture. her dad introduces her to his new wife, who just so happens to be touma's mom.

one day, akemi gets paired up with her classmate, seiji kikumi (菊実誠士), for an assignment. at first, she's intimidated by him due to his delinquent appearance, abrasive demeanor, and the rumor that he gets into a lot of fights (hence why he always comes to school all bandaged up), but she soon realizes that the rumors are baseless and he's actually a kind, patient, upstanding guy with a good sense of humor, albeit a distrust for authority, and all that's beneath those bandages are cat scratches. he attempts to warn her about touma, telling her not to get caught alone with her boyfriend and to lock her bedroom door to prevent him from rummaging through her belongings. akemi wonders how on earth seiji could possibly know she and touma are dating, since they haven't gone public with their relationship yet, but seiji refuses to elaborate.

unbeknownst to the two of them, however, touma was eavesdropping on their conversation and he doesn't like how close they're getting or the ideas that seiji is implanting into akemi's mind. akemi and touma's parents won't be home tonight, giving them free reign of the house, so touma suggests that they have a sleepover in his room, to which akemi agrees. they go on a convenience store run and buy cup yakisoba, potato chips, popcorn, candy, and juice before coming home. touma lets akemi take her bath and change into her pajamas first, then puts on her favorite cartoon while he goes to take his own bath, but conveniently forgets to bring a change of clothes into the bathroom and also conveniently forgets akemi is in his room when he goes to grab them while wearing nothing but a towel. he then decides to take the opportunity to show akemi “something boyfriends and girlfriends do to show their love for each other.” he explains to her that she should have listened to him and not gotten so comfy with another guy, but it's okay — he'll just have to drill it into her mind. this is for her own good; she'll realize that soon enough.

from that point forward, akemi's brain chemistry is irreversibly altered. no longer as bright-eyed or bushy-tailed as she once was, she convinces herself that what touma did was just a one-off — that he just wasn't feeling like himself that day, that he didn't mean to hurt her and they could go back to the way things were before and never speak of it again. how wrong she was. the sexual abuse becomes recurrent from then on, touma taking all of his frustrations out on akemi and akemi dissociating each time it happens, retreating back into her mind to protect herself from further trauma, after which touma always apologizes for hurting her, tells her he loves her, and showers her with gifts and affection, leading her to develop a codependency on him. by now, she feels completely isolated from her friends and peers, and she has no frame of reference for what a healthy relationship is supposed to look like, since she's never been in one before.

this is the point at which there's a massive gap in the story where i'm not sure what direction i want to take it in. all i know is that akemi will eventually find out that seiji and touma have some sort of history — maybe touma dated or had a crush on seiji's sister in the past? — which is how seiji knows about touma's yandere tendencies, and seiji tried to go to school administration and tell them what happened, but no serious disciplinary action was taken and the event was brushed under the rug because in their eyes, touma was a young man with a promising future who didn't deserve to have his life ruined by one incident, or perhaps their line of thinking was moreso along the lines that it would reflect badly on the school if word got out that one of its top students had sexually harassed, stalked, or even assaulted one of his classmates (like i said, i don't have all the specifics worked out quite yet). akemi will also learn that touma was the one responsible for spreading those rumors about seiji, so seiji decided to embrace his delinquent image because it was easier than trying to combat it and neither he, nor his family had the financial means to sue the school.

in the end, touma dies protecting akemi (from what, exactly, i'm not sure). having already lost her mom and now her boyfriend, akemi attempts suicide, unable to imagine life without him. her attempt fails and she's rushed to the hospital. that's the point at which her dad and stepmom realize how dire her mental state has gotten and that they haven't been nearly present enough in her life. after making a full recovery, she's enrolled in regular mandatory therapy sessions, where she begins to deconstruct and come to terms with the abuse in addition to her own grief. the process is arduous and non-linear and akemi probably relapses a few times along the way, but she ultimately perseveres, and in the future, she marries seiji.

my ideal medium for this story would be a webcomic, kinda like killing stalking, but unfortunately, i'm not a very good artist. just know that the characters look more or less the same as they did in the picrews i showed before except the ties and bowtie have a diagonal stripe pattern, seiji has more than one bandage, akemi's hair is shorter (falling just below shoulder length), and her hairclips look more like this:

and as a bonus, i'll tell you what each of the three main characters' names mean!

akemi niratani

韮 (nira) — perennial plant of the lily family ¹

谷 (tani) — valley, ravine ²

曙 (ake) — dawn, daybreak, sunrise

美 (mi) — beautiful

touma higa ³

比 (hi) — compare, learn, favor

嘉 (ga) — praise, auspicious, excellent

灯 (tou) — light, fire

守 (ma) — protect, defend, observe, caretaker

seiji kikumi

菊 (kiku) — chrysanthemum ⁴

実 (mi) — fruit, reality, truth

誠 (sei) — sincerity, honesty

士 (ji) — samurai, warrior, gentleman

[1] in the language of flowers, white lilies symbolize innocence and purity.

[2] the literal meaning of this kanji is valley or ravine, but it can also be read as, “to reach a point of no return.”

[3] the name "higa" is a bit of a play on words, as "higan" is the japanese word for the buddhist idea of "the other shore" and higanbana, or red spider lilies, symbolize death. also worth noting is that higanbana are toxic to both humans and animals and there's a superstition that if you bring one into your house, it will burn down.

[4] chrysanthemums symbolize longevity and rejuvenation.

i pulled these names off of japanese-names.info, so i really hope the definitions are accurate, but if not, feel free to correct me or offer alternatives!

repost to scare an anti!

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I'm seeing this legal argument a lot and it's tiring me.

Do antis know laws are different in different areas of the world, right? It's almost like they forget there's a world outside of the USA!

Not saying where I live, but I can tell you it's not in the USA, and as long as it's not realistic it's fine where I live 🤷‍♀️

Additionally, maws aren't the end all be all of morality, otherwise they'd be the same everywhere, don't you think? /g

i had a pretty good birthday! i had sushi for lunch and then my mom, aunt, brother, sister-in-law, and i all went to olive garden for dinner and i had chicken alfredo, salad, breadsticks, and raspberry lemonade, and my mom also made chocolate cupcakes with nutella frosting. my brother and sister-in-law got me a new frog plushie because they know how much i love frogs, but kuronekocon, build-a-bear, and the xiao shirt and phone case were all early birthday gifts from my mom, so i kinda got spoiled this year. 🥰

i did get very overstimulated, though, not only because it was noisy at the restaurant, but because my aunt wouldn't stop talking for the entire car ride, so i crashed basically the minute i got home. ^^;

helloo u seem so cool 🥹 it's rare to meet a proship genshin player, wanna be moots? or if u dont thats ok too!! have a nice day!!

i'd love to be moots! you seem really cool, too! (⑉◜▿◝⑉)

I thought this would be fun so send me a “❤️” and I’ll answer the ask with a character I have a crush on but I haven't added as an F/O yet!

today's been a really long day.