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so dark content in fiction "normalizes" crimes irl, but harassing and sending death threats to real people doesn't "normalize" harassment? between me shipping fictional siblings and you threatening to ship me with my actual sibling, between someone writing noncon and you sending them wishes of rape, which one "normalizes" doing more harm?

i cant believe kabukimono from genshin impact is a proshipper! waow!

what's robin and sunday's ship name

A big difference between proshippers and antis is that I feel way more comfortable around the former. And I just think it's funny that antis claim to be super wholesome, pure, accepting. When it's the complete opposite. With antis, I'd always feel extremely ashamed, embarrassed of sharing anything about my interests, even the ones they consider acceptable. I'd never talk about a fanfic I read because it contained something weird, I'd never talk about a ship because it was weird, I'd never talk about a movie or show because it was weird. I rarely ever participated in conversations about my interests online, because what if they find out I like this one thing? With proshippers tho, I was allowed to share so much, to think so many thoughts. I even became less bored because I didn't private myself from anything. I started exploring talents and artistic abilities because I was allowed to express myself the way I wanted.

So many antis say that you shouldn't feel ashamed or scared to be cringe, let yourself be, express yourself, to whatever you want to do but they will shut those who are cringe, who express and let themselves be down.

has anyone noticed how some antis will try to trigger every proshipper they come across? i once got "its under your skin/theres something under your skin" or something like that. insane coming from the side who claims to support victims and mentally ill people

The next time an anti annoys you by saying your ship is incest coded (found family etc)!

Stop

Think

They're giving you an incest AU for completely free...

The world is kind

When life gives you lemons :]

With how antis have literally bullied proshippers and comshippers to suicide idk why I'm seeing some people act surprised that a girl had a hit on her because she was a proshipper.

Like if that system was a thing people would absolutely put hits on people over ship discourse lmao people literally dox and harass and get people to kts over it

I seriously feel so safe in proship spaces bc like when I click on a blog I don’t have to worried about being to told to kms immediately and I know like everyone is super chill

does anyone wanna trade [dead dove] oc lore? i'd be more than happy to hear about your ocs if you ask or let me talk about mine!

pictured (from left to right): akemi niratani, touma higa, and seiji kikumi

picrew link

I don't have a dead dove OC lore in my mind currently but I'd love to hear about yours!

okay, i'd like to give some preemptive content warnings for: stepcest/pseudocest, stalking, emotional abuse, sexual abuse, gaslighting, major character death, and attempted suicide. please note that this story is a work in progress, so i haven't yet figured out every detail and much of this information is subject to change.

touma is the one who steps up to help akemi work through her grief over losing her biological mom. the pair get to know each other better over the following weeks and months and develop a close bond before eventually confessing to each other and pursuing a romantic relationship behind their parents' backs. at first, the relationship is almost idyllic. touma takes akemi on after-school dates, buys her plushies and other small gifts, promises to protect her and keep her safe, and just generally dotes on her as both his girlfriend and his little sister. but then akemi begins to notice small items disappearing from her room — a notebook here, a bracelet there, an eraser off her desk. her phone doesn't go missing, but she does find it in a different place than she'd left it. her friends are more distant, making less and less of an effort to include her in activities and conversation.

the story i'm writing is called the red spider lily blooms before dawn (ヒガンバナは夜明け前に咲く, lit. higanbana wa yoake mae ni saku) and the idea behind it is that it starts off as your typical unassuming tropey high school shoujo romance fare, but gradually turns into a psychological horror, similar to doki doki literature club. our protagonist, akemi niratani (韮谷曙美), fits the archetype of the shy, naïve, airheaded female shoujo lead to a t. she loves bunnies and all things cute and pink and she has a crush on her popular, charming, charismatic senpai, touma higa (比嘉灯守). akemi's parents are separated, so she lives with her mom full-time, but at the beginning of the story, something happens to her mom that results in her death, forcing akemi to move back in with her dad, who lives in a different prefecture. her dad introduces her to his new wife, who just so happens to be touma's mom.

one day, akemi gets paired up with her classmate, seiji kikumi (菊実誠士), for an assignment. at first, she's intimidated by him due to his delinquent appearance, abrasive demeanor, and the rumor that he gets into a lot of fights (hence why he always comes to school all bandaged up), but she soon realizes that the rumors are baseless and he's actually a kind, patient, upstanding guy with a good sense of humor, albeit a distrust for authority, and all that's beneath those bandages are cat scratches. he attempts to warn her about touma, telling her not to get caught alone with her boyfriend and to lock her bedroom door to prevent him from rummaging through her belongings. akemi wonders how on earth seiji could possibly know she and touma are dating, since they haven't gone public with their relationship yet, but seiji refuses to elaborate.

unbeknownst to the two of them, however, touma was eavesdropping on their conversation and he doesn't like how close they're getting or the ideas that seiji is implanting into akemi's mind. akemi and touma's parents won't be home tonight, giving them free reign of the house, so touma suggests that they have a sleepover in his room, to which akemi agrees. they go on a convenience store run and buy cup yakisoba, potato chips, popcorn, candy, and juice before coming home. touma lets akemi take her bath and change into her pajamas first, then puts on her favorite cartoon while he goes to take his own bath, but conveniently forgets to bring a change of clothes into the bathroom and also conveniently forgets akemi is in his room when he goes to grab them while wearing nothing but a towel. he then decides to take the opportunity to show akemi “something boyfriends and girlfriends do to show their love for each other.” he explains to her that she should have listened to him and not gotten so comfy with another guy, but it's okay — he'll just have to drill it into her mind. this is for her own good; she'll realize that soon enough.

from that point forward, akemi's brain chemistry is irreversibly altered. no longer as bright-eyed or bushy-tailed as she once was, she convinces herself that what touma did was just a one-off — that he just wasn't feeling like himself that day, that he didn't mean to hurt her and they could go back to the way things were before and never speak of it again. how wrong she was. the sexual abuse becomes recurrent from then on, touma taking all of his frustrations out on akemi and akemi dissociating each time it happens, retreating back into her mind to protect herself from further trauma, after which touma always apologizes for hurting her, tells her he loves her, and showers her with gifts and affection, leading her to develop a codependency on him. by now, she feels completely isolated from her friends and peers, and she has no frame of reference for what a healthy relationship is supposed to look like, since she's never been in one before.

this is the point at which there's a massive gap in the story where i'm not sure what direction i want to take it in. all i know is that akemi will eventually find out that seiji and touma have some sort of history — maybe touma dated or had a crush on seiji's sister in the past? — which is how seiji knows about touma's yandere tendencies, and seiji tried to go to school administration and tell them what happened, but no serious disciplinary action was taken and the event was brushed under the rug because in their eyes, touma was a young man with a promising future who didn't deserve to have his life ruined by one incident, or perhaps their line of thinking was moreso along the lines that it would reflect badly on the school if word got out that one of its top students had sexually harassed, stalked, or even assaulted one of his classmates (like i said, i don't have all the specifics worked out quite yet). akemi will also learn that touma was the one responsible for spreading those rumors about seiji, so seiji decided to embrace his delinquent image because it was easier than trying to combat it and neither he, nor his family had the financial means to sue the school.

in the end, touma dies protecting akemi (from what, exactly, i'm not sure). having already lost her mom and now her boyfriend, akemi attempts suicide, unable to imagine life without him. her attempt fails and she's rushed to the hospital. that's the point at which her dad and stepmom realize how dire her mental state has gotten and that they haven't been nearly present enough in her life. after making a full recovery, she's enrolled in regular mandatory therapy sessions, where she begins to deconstruct and come to terms with the abuse in addition to her own grief. the process is arduous and non-linear and akemi probably relapses a few times along the way, but she ultimately perseveres, and in the future, she marries seiji.

my ideal medium for this story would be a webcomic, kinda like killing stalking, but unfortunately, i'm not a very good artist. just know that the characters look more or less the same as they did in the picrews i showed before except the ties and bowtie have a diagonal stripe pattern, seiji has more than one bandage, akemi's hair is shorter (falling just below shoulder length), and her hairclips look more like this:

and as a bonus, i'll tell you what each of the three main characters' names mean!

akemi niratani

韮 (nira) — perennial plant of the lily family ¹

谷 (tani) — valley, ravine ²

曙 (ake) — dawn, daybreak, sunrise

美 (mi) — beautiful

touma higa ³

比 (hi) — compare, learn, favor

嘉 (ga) — praise, auspicious, excellent

灯 (tou) — light, fire

守 (ma) — protect, defend, observe, caretaker

seiji kikumi

菊 (kiku) — chrysanthemum ⁴

実 (mi) — fruit, reality, truth

誠 (sei) — sincerity, honesty

士 (ji) — samurai, warrior, gentleman

[1] in the language of flowers, white lilies symbolize innocence and purity.

[2] the literal meaning of this kanji is valley or ravine, but it can also be read as, “to reach a point of no return.”

[3] the name "higa" is a bit of a play on words, as "higan" is the japanese word for the buddhist idea of "the other shore" and higanbana, or red spider lilies, symbolize death. also worth noting is that higanbana are toxic to both humans and animals and there's a superstition that if you bring one into your house, it will burn down.

[4] chrysanthemums symbolize longevity and rejuvenation.

i pulled these names off of japanese-names.info, so i really hope the definitions are accurate, but if not, feel free to correct me or offer alternatives!

Some of you guys will now unfollow me for this, but hey atleast I got it out sooner then later! I'm pro-ship, your media illiteracy and general disrespect to grooming victims like me is insane, all over pixels on screen, you guys say fiction effects reality but have a HUGE revenge complex despite fiction over and over depicting it as a bad thing, its almost as if fiction doesn't have effect on morality like you think it does... Not to mention, your "DNI problematic sources" list is full of things that are full of autistic, disabled, disordered, poc and queer communities, who are more likely to expirience any sort of abuse in real life! But things like Game Of Thrones I fail to see in any of those lists despite having incest in it on full blast- maybe cuz the whole community liking it tends to be cishet non-disabled white folk, its like you guys spesifically want to harm people weaker then you and bully real victims of abuse just for fun- oh yeah, cuz thats exactly what you do. Big corporation makes something problematic? You complain about it for maybe 1-2 posts and then forget it, small artist made by a kid who has maybe 30 followers max and draws enemies to lovers? You make a blog dedicated to harrassing them till they literally end their life. Antishippers are not some sort of heroes, you are the abusers, HELL, i literally got GROOMED BY AN ANTISHIPPER!!! You guys DO realize that actual real pedos walk in the shadows, right? sure you got the few fools- but even proshippers kick them out, so what do you think actual pedos will do, go to the group where they are less trusted by default due to all the rumors and bs, as well as most proshippers being victims themself and knowing how to detect people who dont keep that in fiction, OR, the group where you simply gotta make one post saying "omg they drew a cookie with a croptop" and everyone trusts you arent fucked up- especially with the idea that antishippers are anti-pedophilia so OBVIOUSLY no pedo would use that against anyone! And thats a group where abuse and judgefullness is engouraged, where being shunned is normal, where you always gotta doubt your actions, especially as a child, you think they'll not use that to their advantage? and that sounds a lot like christian extremists I'll be honest. and before you say "thats now how we are" fuck you, I was an anti for years, I KNOW what it was like, and I wasn't just in one group, I was in many groups and kepth joining multiple different servers with antis in them, being on social medias with antis in them, all of that BS, dont hide the fact you are a fucking breeding ground for grooming and pedophiles.

I LOVE BEING A FREAK!!!

I love how antis all call us freaks and shit, but ynw? I love being a freak! I love being abnormal! Cuz it means I'm free! It means I don't have to worry about what others judge and argue about being "morally correct" for things that are outside of morality entirely. I'm allowed to be whoever and whatever tf I want, and antis can bitch, whine, piss, and cry, and I don't give af about it. We're allowed to be who we are and we shouldn't feel guilty about it We know what's wrong and right We aren't the ones harassing, doxing and strait up threatening other ppl for shit that ain't even fuckin real Anti's don't give af about "protecting kids". They're bitches with superiority complexes who will harass whoever they deem below them.

I want you to listen to me and remember what I say. If you ever are having doubts about your worth or whether or not you are a bad person come back to this. You are not a bad person! You are allowed to enjoy things that are "wrong" in fiction. You are allowed to be turned on about it. You are amazing! You are beautiful! Your trauma is not your fault. As long as you try to be the very best person you can be and treat REAL ppl with respect they deserve, than you are doing more than ok. Dont let what antis say get to you. You are loved. You matter. and you deserve to be happy! Keep on living to the fullest and being true to yourself. And Thank You for being YOU! Hope you have an AMAZING day!

The best thing you can do is block antis. They’re going to not change their minds. They’re going to go out of their way to trigger you, to interact with you, and at worst, doxx you and even send triggering material to you. An anti sent me gore and irl csem once when I was a minor and shipped Sebaciel. They do not give a shit about real victims. They do not care about people who use fiction as a tool to cope with trauma or whatever they have going on.

They want to make things like loli and shota illegal so that would harm irl kids in the process, never mind that there are irl pedophiles who use loli and shota to cope with their condition so they don’t harm irl kids. They want fictional things illegal so that normal people will be registered as a sex offender and mistreated and even raped and killed in prison bc they got “caught” with something that’s just fictionally pornographic.

They will call you a pedo even if you’re not because you’re not attracted to real kids, which fictional children =/= pedophilia and an actual therapist would tell you this. Block antis. Report them for harassment, and keep yourself safe.

Guys I'm actually dying inside 😭. I'm so proud of this drawing I'm making since it's the first time I've drawn ppl kissing. But I can't show it 2 my friends because it's fcking stancest and they're anti's

YUKI TAKEYA...

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The struggle of being profic and a hater