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this one’s for all the haters out there 💙
breaking my own rule but it's over on twitter so it doesn't count.
reminder to myself i shouldn't post in response to any other posts today because a bit of a migraine is making it hard for me to actually read and comprehend lol
museums should be open till like midnight, i don't want to go to the club i want to go look at art or fossils.
the first gif always gets me
the moment he realizes it's all going to come crashing down and Korn is going to find out everything. and he expects the worst.
reminder to myself i shouldn't post in response to any other posts today because a bit of a migraine is making it hard for me to actually read and comprehend lol
ok no one told me there would be a whole ass thing with wwx and lwj and a child. no one warned me that there would be a child involved and that they would be eating a meal and there would be a child there also and lwj would smile a little and let the child (there’s a child there btw) sit on his lap and buy him a toy and wwx would comment on lwj’s parenting ability after claiming the child was his son. ANYWAY
HI HERE’S AN EDIT OF KATHARINE HEPBURN AS BUNNY WATSON IN DESK SET (1957) *runs away and trips*
💥🙌👏
wait okay so. if you stop viewing adhd as a focus issue and frame it as a internal dopamine functions aren't working issue. and if you need dopamine to do things. then. instead of thinking how can i make myself focus. you can just think how do i get external dopamine sources to make my brain machine go.
im not focusing because im not getting my internal reward im biologically supposed to get. that's why im unmotivated. i brush my teeth and i get no internal sense of satisfaction. so now i don't want to brush my teeth. if i'm not getting an internal sense of satisfaction for doing things then most tasks feel worthless. which can look like or turn into depression.
but then i find one source or one task with a bunch of dopamine like a certain fidget or hobby (recently it's been diamond painting for me) and suddenly im fine again because my brain is no longer starving. suddenly i can focus on my lectures playing in the background when im getting little hits of external dopamine from putting diamonds in the right spot. im getting the sense of satisfaction that everyone else was already getting.
or like. one day im trying to read a textbook and the words are just. not getting into my brain. so i give up and play genshin for a bit. i get dopamine in my brain. i turn back to the textbook. and suddenly. i can read again. i read for a few minutes and i'm not comprehending it anymore. i play genshin for a few minutes and then turn back to the textbook. and then i can read again. again.
people have already been saying this but it really clicked yesterday when i was trying to read a textbook for a class i love bc it's connected to a special interest but i didn't like the current chapter topic. so i wasn't getting any dopamine from the content. and of course i wasn't getting any dopamine from the act of completing the task of reading. and i was trying to think of ways i needed to multitask to focus. but i noticed i kept switching from tiktok to reading which helped. like id watch some tiktoks and there would be like a mental feeling of "okay we're at 100%" and is just toss my phone and start reading. like i didn't have to tear myself away from it.
i was literally feeding my brain. and just stopped once i got full. like putting gas in the car.
that's why i only use things if they have pretty colors or some sort of pleasing sensory input. that's where my dopamines coming from. that's why a sticker chart and playing music while brushing my teeth helped so much. to give me the sense of satisfaction i wasn't getting from my own brain.
that's why giving myself the rewards at the end of tasks didn't always work. you can't reward a car with gas if the tank is empty. i needed the dopamine to start the tasks, and more dopamine intermittently to continue longer tasks.
anyways. i'm gonna stop holding off from doing fun shit until after i finish tasks. bc in hindsight i always did better work when i put the fun stuff first. and i'm gonna stop wasting time waiting for my brain car to go when the tank was empty the whole time.
i left mid post for a little bit and came back and i didn't proofread this and it's also unfinished but i'm posting it now bc. i have DID i don't member exactly what i was tryna say. and personally i'm not reading all that.
TLDR: stop treating adhd like it's mainly a focus issue. treat it like dopamine is an external resource and it acts as gas for your brain car. how can i focus better❌ what satisfying thing can i do to help my brain initiate/focus on this task✅
sassy safehouse pete you will always be famous
I'm only letting myself do this until my grocery delivery time today but I needed some stress relief so i'm playing
i've been really interested in how Beyond Evil connects each scene to the next so I'm trying to dcoument episode 1. maybe later i'll figure out how to make it look better
the way you answer your asks about korntonkla is so beautiful, idk ive seen a lot of people say things about them, but YOU. you really get them. their relationship, their dynamics, i love reading your answers 🤍 and i also love your posts about them, especially the (hot!) gifs.
Thank you so much, anon!! 😭😭
Everyone is entitled to their own feelings and interpretations. All I can do is talk about what I see! And I love them so much!! I love romance stories, and how they're written, and how they make us feel. I just try to get all that across as well as I can!
Apropos of (almost) nothing: I'm the kind of pedant who dislikes calling tentacle porn "tentacle porn" not because I think it's aberrant but because, 98% of the time, what's being depicted are octoform arms or tendrils, not tentacles. Tentacles are defined by the clubbed ends, which are the only part that have suckers. If it's tapered and has suckers all the way down, it's an octoform arm; if it has no suckers at all, it's a tendril.
You're welcome.
It doesn't matter if that fic has been in your drafts for years and is now self-indulgent to the point of parody. If Steven Moffatt is allowed to do it professionally, you are allowed to do it for fun.
I reread my answer and I guess it is a little unclear. I think I wrote it too quickly before I'd even finished coffee and the thoughts always come flying wildly when I think about these two 😩
The first scene was hot, yes! But it also had sweet moments, too, some which I've posted about. Their overall intimacy and confort with each other has grown since the first time, since they've been together for years. The sweetness isn't as overt, I guess? because they've different ways of showing their affection and care for one another. But it's a lot more complicated, too.
Tonkla asking for sex wtihout a condom was really asking for emotional intimacy, but Korn couldn't fully give that while this was a secret relationship. Not the way Tonkla needed. And Korn is also missing the kind of emotional support from Tonkla he could use because he can't be honest about his work.
In the Ep 1 scene they have romantic moments. They have sweet moments. It's also just sad because these two people love each other but can't fully be there for each other. Because Korn can't or won't be open about the relationship. Because Tonkla can't assert his needs because of his trauma. And I think the sex scene reflected that beautifully.
Not sure if u talked abt this but i also want to get ur opinion on korn and tonkla's first sex scene because ive seen some posts how it wasnt a sweet moment bc tonkla is vulnerable at that time n korn is taking advantage of him. Hm.. I have some thoughts abt it.. But i wanna hear yalls thoughts
I don't think i've posted about this. I talked to a few people in dms about it though because i saw those posts too. i don't agree with them.
In terms of character development and what it shows us about the characters and their relationship, I think it shows how Korn has slowly closed off because of the pressures of his work, his father, and the whole situation.
In the flashback scene Korn is very emapthetic & emotionally supportive! He's there for Tonkla at an incredibly difficult time and has good advice. Tonkla maybe hasn't had anyone ever taking care of him that way.
So we get to see a different aspect of their relationship and understand why Tonkla loves Korn. And I think the show as a whole and the ending supports that.
I did feel like sometimes the way people talked about it removed Tonkla's agency completely. Because he was a victim of abuse and in present time he does have less social power, less economic power than Korn and Korn has set certain limits on the relationship that Tonkla doesn't like, people tended to only see him as a powerless victim. And they put Korn in the villain box and interpreted everything he did in the worst light.
As for like the mild dom/sub nature of the scene, I understand why it might make some people uncomfortable. BUT i really dislike the whole idea that only totally vanilla sex is healthy and cosnensual while other dynamics are inherently abusive or unhealthy. In real life of course you should have more communication and negotiation but this isn't real life.
It's a creative portrayal meant to communicate things about the character and their relationship. And it does speak to Korn feeling more comfortable when he's in control. And Tonkla was taken care of, told he was taken care of, that he wouldn't be hurt. And that says a lot about the beginning of their relationship and what they both got out of it.
And feeling safer as the one in control is NOT the same as feeling good about having power OVER someone or wanting to control them in an unhealthy way.
This was a bit of a ramble, I have a lot of thoughts lol. And it can be nuanced and hard to say exactly what I mean. Curious to hear from others!
trying to organize my thoughts and write clearly when i have so much to say a;lksdfj
need to sit and write an essay for tumblr
(edited to correct a terrible typo jfc)
The symbolism of using handcuffs as the red string of fate that binds Lee Dongsik and Han Joowon to each other holds so many layers.
Part of it is that they’re inextricably bound together because of crime—one that took the two of them finally joining forces together to solve after 21 years—but the handcuffs as the thing that binds them holds more connotations than the obvious.
One is that: all handcuffs have a key. Meaning—if they choose to, they can let each other go.
What’s also interesting: being in handcuffs also ultimately means that you allowed someone else to cuff you.
In the show, nearly all of the moments they were handcuffed by each other had been voluntary. Even this moment when Joowon had to suddenly cuff Dongsik to stop him from going after Jaeyi, he cuffed Dongsik to himself, and voluntarily let him go after Dongsik agreed to cooperate.
In every other moment: they surrendered to each other voluntarily. Knowingly.
I think that’s what’s fascinating about using handcuffs in place of the red string to bind them.
They voluntarily surrendered. And they have a key.
They way they chained themselves to each other had always been their choice.
They won't allow each other to be alone ever again.
I really love the complexity of Beyond Evil's story, but most of all, I love its framing of the messages within the scenes.
When the Manyang police officers were discussing the Busan case where the man suspected of killing his girlfriend was released due to lack of evidence, several things were happening at once:
Minjeong sneaking out of the substation as the narration is going on by the news broadcaster about a woman suspected of being killed but whose body isn't found just yet, which is a chilling foreshadowing of what would happen to Minjeong herself;
Jihoon's incredibly innocent and ironic tirade about the need to punish a criminal and to not let go of the suspect despite the lack of evidence all while Dongsik is perfectly within earshot, because punishing a suspect despite the lack of evidence is exactly what happened to Dongsik himself;
Joowon coolly pointing out that a murder without a body cannot be prosecuted in Korea, with Dongsik turning to look at him meaningfully, which will then serve as a stark reminder later on for Dongsik as a motivation for his actions in tampering with Minjeong's murder scene, because he cannot convict Jinmook without evidence of her dead body.
The layers upon layers of meaning in each scene in Beyond Evil is so masterfully done. Every scene is there for a reason.
And when you rewatch it, you realize: every single clue had been there from the start with every foreshadowing, if you as the audience only know how to look—and how to listen.
the real test of what you were like as a kid
1. which barbie movie was your favourite
2. what period of history were you obsessed with
3. which book/series you have the most distinct memories of reading for the first time
I believe even healthy&wholesome ships need a distinct note of fucked upness to them that does not negate the otherwise positive nature of their relationship but enriches it by giving it nuances that prevent it from becoming too saccharine. Yes, maybe their love is ultimately good for each other, but if they don't become deranged about it and willing to kill or die for it I won't care.