Okay Asmo

Okay Asmo

Asmo, Asmo, Asmo

When Asmo was an Angel, this was the general view of him:

And Simeon says:

Imagine being raised with this image of yourself hanging above you.

Imagine living with this image of yourself for thousands of years.

Imagine being raised under the implication that the closest thing you have to a parental figure, keeps you close because you're beautiful. Under the implication that it was solely your beauty that made him praise you and keep you by his side.

Imagine how much that would have fucked you up.

Satan & Asmo are so fucking similar.

Satan believes his ability to provide knowledge is what makes his existence meaningful.

Asmo believes his beauty is what makes him important to Lucifer (and possibly to everyone)

And it's all so fucking sad.

This whole family is so fucked up I can't deal with this shit

Asmo is someone who desperately wants to be loved.

And he works hard for it in the only way he knows how. In the only was he was told would make him loveable. By making himself look attractive.

But there's a huge con to being as beautiful as Asmo is:

It's very telling that the people Asmo spends time with are always referred to as his "fans" and never his friends

He's put on a pedestal by everyone around him (hell he puts himself on a pedestal ) and he's always expected to look and behave in a very specific way and because of that it'll be rare that someone will be able to reach high enough to ever understand him

Not to mention that the fear of being "so beautiful that no one ever understands me" can easily be dismissed as being shallow by a lot of people.

Plus, these "Shadows" which are their inner fears seem brutally honest so,

when Asmo says he hates himself...

This also reminds me of the creators' first drafts/ideas about the characters. How they were supposed to have more demonic looking forms and how Asmo was supposed to hate his.

Because he made himself look good in the Celestial Realm because he was told that's why Lucifer brought him into and kept him in the family

But then they Fall and he looks like a demon. Like a monster.

And in Asmo's eyes, this means he could lose his family.

So as a demon, he goes above and beyond to make himself look good and I'm gonna fucking cry because with this context, Asmo's desperation during the S2 popularity contest is heartbreaking.

In Asmo's eyes, he was fighting against Lucifer himself to prove he deserves his place in his family

So with all of this context,

Levi calls Asmo "his adorable younger brother" and says he's going to find a way to turn him back to normal

Asmo realises that Levi sounds like his older brother and that he actually sounds cool

And that changes Asmo back to normal

Levi doesn't call Asmo "beautiful". He calls him adorable. And there's such a difference between the two.

You can hit none of the marks for conventional beauty; you could look like a very literal sewer troll but someone could still genuinely find you adorable. Your older brother could still see you as his adorable younger brother.

Being adorable doesn't even have to rely on your outer features. It could fully depend on your personality. Unlike when you call call someone "beautiful", by calling someone "adorable" you're being ambiguous about which aspect of them you're specifically referring to. Usually, you mean them as a whole.

Not to mention that Levi easily stated that Asmo was part of his family without associating it to Asmo's beauty

Anyway, I have a lot of feelings about this lesson :)

:

Miscommunication & Misunderstandings: Angst

Satan's Sense of Worth & his Quest for Knowledge

Satan's Hidden Feelings

Trauma and Recovery

My hand slipped and I drew the Trojans! I’m so in love with these characters and I will most likely be drawing them again a billion times! I drew them as I envisioned them in my head, so if it’s wrong with any descriptions or something please let me know !

holy fuck, that hits hard

185 pages through the sunshine court and I can safely conclude that Jean and Jeremy are just solangelo

obsessed with jean’s colorful insults/descriptions so here’s a compiled list of them in order

you arrogant fool (abby)

you imbecile (kevin)

your ball-battered brain (kevin)

you feckless child (kevin)

those clowns (trojans)

pet goalkeeper (andrew)

the tiny bastard (neil) [LMFAO]

kevin’s pet monster (andrew)

the sunshine court [derogatory]

wholesome in an unsettling, unhealthy way (the trojans)

unhinged optimist (renee)

some plump shrink (bee)

that creepy little goalkeeper andrew minyard [PLEASE i was fucking DEAD he has no idea how funny he is]

you tedious malcontent (neil) [probably my favorite one]

an abominable cockroach (neil)

the wayward child (neil) [jesus christ he is not taking it easy on neil]

andrew’s twin

worthless trash bags (foxes, past tense)

a rabid little fox (neil) [hey. remember when neil described andrew as a ‘rabid goalkeeper’ ???]

annoyingly easy to look at (jeremy)

strange and misguided (the trojans)

the cruelty of these nonstop temptations (kevin, renee, jeremy)

the sunshine court [less derogatory]

“I was hoping he would bite his tongue off in the fall and save us both some grief in the long run.” (lucas)

wretched beast (gr****n)

your ignorant mouth (lucas)

“Your apologies are as useful as perfume on a frog.” (lucas)

neil, being the person he was,

you ignorant child (neil)

miserable wretch (neil) [giving his everything to neil’s insults]

ok that’s all. unless i missed some. and if i did you have to add them it’s just law

I love this family so much it's making me insane. It also means so much that it's Levi's relationship with Asmo that is focused on after S4(?) showed that it was Levi who was able to help Asmo through his breakdown (as seen here)

Me honest reaction after watching cool-phool people of Tumblr: 🌹

ben-10 ke ghar se bahar bhi nikalna chord diya hai... 🥹 😂