Complaint That The Best Thing I've Ever Written Might Be This Fic Where Sukuna's Milk-dripping Tiddies

Complaint that the best thing I've ever written might be this fic where Sukuna's milk-dripping tiddies save us from the shibuya incident

Lunch date with Choso 💜

Rereading my own fics so I can finish the next chapter has 4 stages:

1) oh no I'm going to cringe so hard,,,, procrastinating

2) ykw... this is not so bad I actually enjoy reading it

3) scrolling past the smut if there is any

4) procrastinating to read the last chapter bc then I have to work on it again :(((

Gojo, walking into class: Alright, kids, I'll ignore that some of you are late if you ignore that I'm the latest.

Sorry to bring this back again but this page along with Mahito saying "after all, I was born of humans" just. Belongs here.

Edit to add: here's an elaborated post with more context and details that I'd missed

It makes me feel not insane for thinking that Sukuna's eyes look glassy and out of character for him during the scenes with Mahito (where Sukuna is in his innate domain. This is shown in the manga and the anime).

Edit 2: Mahito's domain - it resembles so strongly this picture that I cannot find (but I saw it somewhere 10 years ago I swear) of how it feels for survivors of csa - the ugly emotional flashbacks like hands are all over you (it's hard to explian, I'll link the source if I come across it, this stuff is draining to read about).

I think this feeling comes across in the manga better, with the hands stretching over the panels, breaking the fourth wall. It's so creepy and unsettling. The hands layered over each other in the top panel remind me of that picture - the hands were overlaid like that, almost like a... Idk fashion words, but like a sequin dress maybe? Only the layers are made with hands instrad of pieces of fabric or decoration.

Additionally, we could dissect the expression that Mahito makes while opening his domain. But I really don't want to go there. My skin is crawling too much. Take from this what you will.

Edit 3: I hate it here

So tbh I have not seen the human centipede, but I heard that it was created as a punishment for predators. Is that... The form that Mahito is taking here? Was it really hidden in plain sight?

Content warning for topic of SA

And how I think it's represented through a character in jujutsu kaisen.

I think he was very well written and that this was intentional.

He's on level with curses from the earth, forest and ocean (which are so big with so much negative energy directed at them that the curses gained consciousness without form) but Mahito is from humans.

He mutilates bodies and souls without consent. The transfigured humans beg for help, they beg for relief, even if it means death, to be put out of their misery, whenever they can manage to say anything coherent that's all that it is.

And these victims are seen as monsters themselves. Less than human, their consciousness tampered with, they die of asphyxiation.

All of these effects come from SA. the damaged body, brain, nervous system, feeling like air doesn't exist, like you're no longer breathing, that the state you've been left in is worse than death.

And in the end, when Mahito faces judgement and begs for mercy, it's easy to feel sorry for him. To want to give him another chance. And that might be the sickest part of all.

It's so real and such a good representation without actually showing SA on screen.

And the relationship that he had with Junpei was grooming. I could elaborate on that but honestly. I don't have it in me rn. Just, the intellectual conversations, the it's easy to talk to you, the manipulation and coercion and pushing boundaries with corpses and his mother and transfiguring him in the end.

Mahito is such a creep and I hate him but it isn't exactly triggering to watch, either. I got triggered by the night beyond the tricornered window, though - which I put on after hearing that it influenced jjk. And I do see where gege got the domains and pacts from, the art style was rly cool, but I could not keep paying attention to it omg. It wasn't even graphic, but a sort of spiritual rape, and the dynamics there were...

What I'm trying to say is that I think both jjk and this anime did a good job of showing SA without there being SA. (though tbf I didn't get through the other one, or like I did eventually bc I liked the art style so much but I could only glance up to it occasionally bc at that point I knew better).

Also I believe that elfen lied and banana fish inspired jjk, and those series are heavily about autonomy and sexual assault and the effects of abuse.

I started this fluff and crack taken seriously fic (like what if Geto was not involved in JJK0 so Kenjaku could never use him as a vessel, and what if Hanami gets the redemption arc they deserved) six months ago and I am still intimidated by the exchange event, why do so many vital moments to the plot happen then

So I researched hypothermia and made a chart of the symptoms when it sets in and is recovered from and I wrote a satosugu/reader hypothermia chapter that is. Months in the future from the exchange event ndjakxkajxkdlaldkcksk