Hi, I Like Your New Url 'Hizerain'. It Has A This Really Nice Tragic, Poetic Tinge To It. But What Does

Hi, I like your new url 'Hizerain'. It has a this really nice tragic, poetic tinge to it. But what does it mean? Or is it a name? Or what does it mean to you? I was just wondering about it.

I loved your last url too, cause in my head, I said it something like "Mathe-mafia" and so it was really badass.

Thank you! It's just a word I made up so no actual meaning, for me it signifies a rebirth. I've been going through a lot personally and therefore I've been craving a new start. I can't really get that irl because life is kind of shit, but I can get it on here and that's how we ended up here.

Stalker | Andrei Tarkovsky | 1979

Fountain of the goddess Diana (Artemis), Royal Palace of Caserta: Reggia di Caserta, Italy.

la reine bacchanal by fritz zuber buhler: details.

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After some anger fueled journaling I came to the conclusion that I am in fact trans. I.e. I've always been/felt like a boy but repressed that once puberty came around because I was told a small infinite times how my feelings were completely invalid and spend all my time trying to please my abusers, who obviously have a daughter. It makes sense now, just like when I first realized I was being abused emotionally. Realising this doesn't solve how I feel right now, but it's a step. (Featuring my current reads)

I graduated highschool cum laude and got one of my grail pens, a Pelikan Souverän M405. It's the pen I'll use for a lifetime, or at least the next three years of university. To all other people who graduated, congratulations! And to those currently struggling, I have spent the past 6 years battling a variety of mental illnesses and personal problems and yet here I stand. Spring will come.