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I forgot October third AGAIN

Kangaroo.

Honey, there is not a thought behind those…

I love my best friend, but they keep using narcissist as shorthand for abuser and I’m loosing my fucking mind about it

My friend is saying I need to get proof of “intellectual disability” and like. He’s right. But has he also considered the most noteworthy thing about all my silly goofy brain functions is how funny they are? It’s like. I’m aware I’m “describing masking”, and it’s all clearly impacting my day to day life to the point I “think” it’s normal, but also do u know how annoying it would be to acquire proof of all these things. Also would it even help? Like would it really. I feel like people knowing all the ways my brain sucks wouldn’t do anything. What do amendments actually even look like. Yeah no. I’ll just keep doing what I’m doing, or kill myself about it, thanks.

I just had a dream where my biggest fear comes true. It was so cool! That shit never happens. It’s always trauma this and trauma that, and never I know this is the thought that most Jeeves you out so what if that happened!!!

My brain is getting weird in real time and it’s good that I’m able to tell it’s happening now, but I don’t know how to stop it so the next half hour or something is going to suck really bad I think

How do they forget the bun on a burger???? Is that a thing people ask for the burger without???? This McDonald’s sucks ass.

Two Othelloverse characters exist basically to have very irresponsible sex utilizing magic, but they’re not important or on screen in the main story or any of the side stories, so it isn’t important. They’re literally just dead parents. I keep accidentally making my dead characters really interesting. This is exactly Charlotte all over again. She was meant to be nebulously the fourth child of her line, but then I wanted to flesh out the asshole siblings that die, and now I love love them horribly and keep forgetting Charlotte exists

Consuming bad media is so much more bearable when ur drunk wow

I don’t wanna redesign Ices or redo comic stuff about it, but it occurs to me error has been made. The point was to make him pretty because he sucks, and his hair doubles as a wacky halo. But like. A lot of people don’t think black people are pretty because they’re blind. So I really should have gone with something that met more conventional beauty standards. Aryan even. Hmm. But I’m really attached so I probably won’t do anything about it. Just got keep that in mind for later I guess…….

Gonna rewatch Miraculous so I can figure out my au better. The timeline is most of what’s bugging me, but this au, as most do, started out as a fix-it, so I wanna do a proper critique again. Be able to remember all the stuff my notes are referencing.

Tried to watch One Piece again and it was so entertaining my heart couldn’t take it. Had to stop to take a breath every two minutes so I didn’t throw up. I am now too mentally ill to handle good media.

My tooth has hurt for the past few days and I figured it would fix itself or I’d just be miserable forever. I woke up from biting down to hard and bits of my tooth came off. It doesn’t hurt anymore. Success? I should go to a dentist but dentists are expensive so that gonna have to wait at least twelve weeks.

My leg has been terrible today my God

I always forget I’m miserable until I’m not

The place I’m staying has a slug infestation and weird floors that let them hide, so you can’t be downstairs at night and also everything on the counters gets “slugged”

Anyway, a slug came out early and I named him Fred and watched him eat the tortilla bit I gave him it was adorable he was so fat and slimy and gross he’s just like me for real

I wish I could keep Fred

I’d trade all the slugs in the world for just one Fred

Wow I just had a whole moment

I’m gonna throw up the backgrounds are all so detailed and beautiful and textured

The dialogue is really good too. I was apprehensive at the start. But this is just a fun time.

My god the tottmnt animation is beautiful

The Dissociative amnesia literally doesn’t even bother me, I can write stuff down and ask other people about stuff my brain purges. The real problem is how hard it can be to retain media. And it’s stupidly selective. I can’t remember a damn thing that happened in Assasination classroom nor any of the characters barring the one, in spite of having rewatched it only like a year ago. Even with media I engage in regularly, the trivia of my hyperfixations elude me. It was nice exactly once, because I got to rewatch Banana Fish blind by actively pretending it didn’t exist for a while, but it’s generally a nuisance. It’s not that big a problem and it’s not exactly hard to recap stuff, but specifically rn, I forgot I was rewatching tmnt 2012, and reading over my notes, I remember like 5% of this. I don’t wanna have to read through the wiki to pick it back up. That’s annoying and the nuance of my observations is gone. It fucking sucks

I wanna complete all my Dream SMP and Lovejoy WIPs so I can stop feeling shitty about them, but I’m aware I’m gonna think about them and feel shitty about it whether they’re finished or not. I’m still gonna do them for the record, I’m just also gonna whine and bitch and be generally pissy about it

Just found out the term girlboss is based in the misogynistic idea that it’s out of the ordinary for a girl to be boss, and is in fact not just women are cool so what if we used girl as a prefix to boss to call people like. Cool squared. But no. It’s apparently incredibly gendered also. Which okay yeah I get that me not realizing that was enby stupid moment. I’m taking massive psyche damage about this