It's Gonna Be 8 Years Of That Hellish Eating Disorder Messing With Me. I Can't Stop Counting The Cals.

It's gonna be 8 years of that hellish eating disorder messing with me. I can't stop counting the cals. I can't stop wanting to lose weight but can't go back to eating as little as I did before.

Something deep inside of me is convinced that not eating is the solution to all of my problem.

Things I love to do when I am bored:

Drawing and filling colouring page

Play PS3, mostly games like Tomb Raider

Staying with my twin sister to laugh

Going to ride my bike

Going for a super long walk with my headphones

Reading distopian novels

I don't have time to be depressed, I'm busy running after usless academic success

My ED recovery is a nightmare.

So many health issues and teeth issues. I don't deserve what's happening now. I feel like I have been abused by my ED, telling me lies about how good I'd look underweight. Now, I am filled with regret, cause nothing can buy my health back. I'm too young for what's happening to me

Please, contemplate recovery for the sake of your future health.

ANGELINA JOLIE as Lara Croft in Lara Croft: Tomb Raider (2001)

I am not suicidal, because even in my deepest despair I still laugh at cat memes