I Swear Its So Hard Sticking To This Not Eating Shit When Your Brain Is SO GOOD At Convincing You Its

I swear its so hard sticking to this not eating shit when your brain is SO GOOD at convincing you it’s ok to be a fat fuck. Like I’ll see other people who are even slightly bigger than me with good lives and a partner and people who think they’re hot and I’m like.. ok maybe you can just give up control and let your life spiral!

But I always end up back here. So I KNOW it’s not true. It’s my dumb brain/stomach trying to fuckin trick me. Life is ALWAYS EASIER the thinner you are. I can’t forget that. Just because life could be ok as a thicker girl, doesn’t mean it wouldn’t be BETTER as a skinny beautiful girl. ✨

I swear id be so fucking skinny if I wasn’t a fat fuckin drunk

It motivates me so much that I have her body type but fatter and that I could look like this if I tried hard enough…

Getting Christmas gifts that are food items that your friends know you love really sucks. Like great now I either have to eat this and get fatter or throw away a thoughtful gift from someone I love 🤙🏻

My bestfriend is constant th1nspo. I look so fat next to her. I’m tired of being the frumpy funny gay friend.

Does anyone else like, not believe the scale sometimes? I feel like I’ve been eating over my limit for the past few days so I avoided weighing myself but I did today and I’m still losing????? Apparently I’ve lost 15 pounds since July but when I look in the mirror I still look exactly the same. Fat.

Like I don’t know if it’s cause I’m not losing in the right places or if it’s body dysmorphia and I do look different or if my scale is fucking broken and I haven’t actually lost anything.

It’s just so irritating because I thought I’d be happy to see a lower number on the scale but it’s just stressing me out because I feel like I’m not seeing ANY change or results. After losing 15 pounds I feel like I should look a little different?! I’m going crazy.