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this was an experance from the late 90′s. my friends and I had a “spirit friend”. i wasn’t paying attintion to the fact Ildon from Saga Frontier was blind and gay. before that I wanted someone to be in love with me. anyone. and it was a mess. flash foward a few years. early 20 aughts. and I discovered the soulbonding community. but what we were doing was not soulbonding.

if demons exist how do you know it's not a demon fooling around? those who believe tell us not to consult mediums and such, due to the fact a demon will just claim they are who you seek out. that is what they do. they lie, and maybe eat our energy, if "that kind of energy exists"

With the amount of positive relationships that soulbonders and soulbonds have it is very unlikely that this is true. A relationship with the kind of demon you are thinking of would not be positive for very long since it would be built on lies and one person would be drained the whole time. Every single soulbonder would be in distress constantly, which they are not. It just doesn’t really add up.

However, this is not to say that demons themselves can’t be soulbonds. Soulbonds can be literally anything and there have been cases of people bonding with demons or beings that resemble demons that are often less destructive than the traditional demons you seem to be thinking of.

There can also be deceptive or dishonest soulbonds which is important to keep in mind and watch out for. Just like the people that live here, there can be really nice soulbonds and there can be ones that are horrible. Soulbonds can lie and can do things for personal gain just as easily as anyone else potentially can.

In the back of my mind I keep thinking I need to completely break, and then I will get bettter. Mental health Phoenix

But that is not a thing. Only struggling with IFS, CBT, DBT therapy and medication does. Maybe diet ….

And I almost feel like I a, going to break.

I am in between wanting to subconsciously trance and another part of me takes over, and also terrorfied of dissociation and if possession were real. Iguess on one hand I expect there is something that has all the answers,and my awake self lacks. That I want a magical experance. Maybe a true me is sleeping, or the fake me is awake. Even when ever virtualboy came out. Errrber I rerember I wanted that takeover, there was a demo at Sears r something, and there was a drawing game ? I wanted that takeover . Loss of me. Whoever that is.shattered, missing. I can’t make sense of it. It hurts so much .