2 Weeks Out From HUGE Family Thing. It's Crunch Time People! I Need Tips! I Need Encouragement! I Need

2 weeks out from HUGE family thing. It's crunch time people! I need tips! I need encouragement! I need to not lose my mind!

My cousins are walking thisp@. So light delicate and elegant. Why did I get stuck being fat and ugly. We ate the same things today and yet I was the one who p@rged after every meal and snack. After this vacation we're getting strict #underwə!htoctober

Messed up already smh, that's what happens when family visits ig. Couldn't p@rge either, too suspicious. Tomorrow is straight liquid f@st tho.

Tw self triggering, b!nging, sarcasm XD

Did my 1st ever planned b!ng@. All properly p@rged afterwards.

-creamy chicken ramen

- medium rare steak

- keto turkey sausage and cheese eggwich (egg patties as bun )

- mini corndogs

- chocolate marshmallow bar

- iced sugar cookie

- protein shake

- water

Weird mix ik but it's what I had. I'm trying to be rid of the rest of the high c@l food I have (I'm broke so I can't afford more ) but I figure if it's going in the trash anyway why not just enjoy it first before it's tossed XD.

Welcome to :

Weird Meals my D!sordered Brain makes me eat!

So um sometimes my brain does some weird stuff and I end up with yummy abominations....like

Carrot noodle salad!

First use a spiralizer to make carrot noodles

(4 carrots 40 kcals)

Next chop up random protein for salad as well as any other veggies you want ( 4 pickles 10kcals, 11 shrimp 90kcals, turkey 70kcals)

Next stick the "noodles" in a pan for like 2 mins. You want them bendy but not soft.

Remove from heat and add to a bowl with the other mutilated ingredients. I topped my bowl with vegan mayo (70kcals) and cotija cheese (90kcals)

Ummm Happy unhinged mealtime.......

I am a failure

Today has been on and off eating and p@rging. Not even an actual bing@ (except for the one I had today because I already screwed up....)

I'm glad sometime that I know that fun little trick as a mi@ girl. Wish I'd learned it sooner tho.......

Stay safe people, drink water, take yer meds, have a nap.