A Lot Of Us Have Learned Astrology From Internet. I Do Not Have Any Books Or Teacher. I Started Browsing

A lot of us have learned astrology from internet. I do not have any books or teacher. I started browsing astrology and psychic stuff as a game when I was a young teenager. I kept reading astrology and watched YouTube videos until I got old enough to connect things on my own. Now I am a genuine astrologer. I give the whole credit to internet.

1. I wonder if all of us who have learned astrology from internet are ruled by some specific planetary placement?

2. How are we different from our previous generations?

3. What is internet? Is internet the manifestation of knowledge of some kind? Since everything in universe is constantly evolving, is internet the new evolution of "books and libraries"?

4. Is internet ruled by Mercury or Jupiter?

Does ketu in 5th house make you lonely?

I can't put my finger on what exactly the reason is, but I have grown lonelier and lonelier with age.

Having Sun in 7th house, I used to be quite a charmer during my school days. I was also a people pleaser.

During college days, I didn't socialize much. I spent more time on internet than in real life. I had 2 girlfriends.

I stopped talking to everyone during my Post Graduation days. I also did a lot of soul searching and self healing.

Now I wonder if it is my ketu in 5th house that is making me so lonely? Ketu gives detachment and disinterest from the subjects of the house where it sits. I dont know yet if I want to have children but I have so much loneliness around me.

I have my family and pet and some other people whom I talk to but I dont have any "friends" or "connections". Is this something I should try to change? It feels like the more I try the more it backfires. Something goes wrong when I go out of my way to socialize.

The only people who are close to me are the ones I am related to by birth or by marriage. Why is this happening? Why do I have so much disinterest in the material things? Is it because of ketu in 5th house?

Am I self sufficient? Self dependent? Should I stop fighting my loneliness and start trusting my solitude as a part of my story?

1. During my Ketu Antardasha from July 2021 onwards, I slept a lot. I used to sleep around 12 to 15 hours a day. I have slept so much that I have constant fatigue and headache.

2. I isolated myself and lived in loneliness. I only talked to my family and that too very less.

3. I studied astrology a lot.

4. My mania ended. It cured my BPD symptoms.

5. I feel like a part of me died psychologically.

6. I probably healed my intergenerational emotional issues.

7. I dont know how many mental illnesses I had, but it probably cured most of them.

8. I am calmer, self aware, stable, self secure and spiritual/Philosophical.

9. My libido didnt change but I can control it. I am not obsessed with sex anymore.

VENUS IN THE 8TH HOUSE AND OH-THE-TRAGEDY!

8th house is such a difficult house. With venus here, you feel like your emotions are so intense complex and deep. You see things that are not there. You are intense and passionate.

So what is the survival tactic?

I dont know.

Just focus on the things that go right. This 8th house is a karmic house so it is essentially like walking in the dark. Just see the silver lining and the things that went right in past. Forget the things that went wrong.

One step at a time.

Not every thought is intuition.

Some of these thoughts are mere anxiety and paranoia.

Some of these thoughts are mere your irrational mind doing irrational things.

Some of these thoughts are just you imagining the worst circumstances.

Some of these thoughts are just wishful thinking.

Intuition is:

1. Inner knowing

2. Synchronicity in your surroundings

3. Dream interpretation

4. Knowing that something is true but dont know how or why

5. That click of mind when something suddenly makes sense

6. Try writing down your thought and see if it seems valid

Learn to distinguish betqeen these.

Hey, just wanted to let you know how much I loved your 'how to move past trauma' post. There's something traumatic happened long ago that still hurts me. And I liked your post a lot. I'll practice all of those things :) Thank you 💕

Thank you for that.

Trauma can definitely stay in your mind for a long time. I dont know how most people look so happy (especially on social media, TV, glamour world) but the real plain ordinary life is just confusing and messy.

I dont think healing from trauma makes you forget it. It just does not affect you anymore. It doesn't hurt you anymore. You are indifferent to it. You dont care it happened. You don't wish what "should" have happened.

You fucked up? You fucked up. Shit happened? Shit happened. And dont think after reading this that I am super calm and smart. I feel anxiety 100 times a day over the past events.