When You're Being Clean From Sh Because It's Summer And Your Parents Found Your Cuts And They Are Almost

When you're being clean from sh because it's summer and your parents found your cuts and they are almost begging you to stop cutting and that's when you find out how desperate you are for someone to fuck you....

You realise that getting fucked or just being needy is as good way of stress relieving as cutting....

I'm in that state that I want to go ice skating at 11pm in the summer even though I am not so good at skating....

I just want to slide on the ice....

I don't know why but I feel it will calm me down so good.....

Sometimes I regret lying to the psychiatrist in the hospital....well, maybe not actually lying more like hiding stuff and playing this whole 'I am strong and not mentally ill kid' role.

I've read some books about being in psych ward and I personally think it's not that bad as we see it. For sure you feel safer there than in the world out here, you have people who actually care about you (doctors and nurses) and you might meet some people who are a lot like you ...

I really want to go there, even just for this protection and understanding. That might help me a lot...

Me: wanting to have someone who I can tell everything and take everything off my chest

Also me: not telling anyone about myself and how I feel because I think I am being a burden

Your dad looking at your breasts is another level of disgusting

We are always amazed by the couple where we have mentally ill and mentally stable person.... couple where the stable person helps the unstable one find the way out of the labyrinth in their minds and stuff....

But what about couples where both are unstable ? Where they both need to find ways out ? Where they are both lost in their minds and thoughts but still help eachother not to get lost even more....

I think it's so amazing that they CAN help eachother find lost path in life and not loose themselves.