I'm Going To The After Funeral Party Now

I'm going to the after funeral party now

And it feels like the whole world is in the vibe

I don't know if it's because it's Halloween or what but there's a fog

The whole time we've been driving to my grandma and then to the funeral there was fog giving the vibe

(if there is any sound, please ignore)

But the fog passed the vibe check for sure

what if the only way to not feel bad is to stop feeling anything at all forever?

I can't hide it anymore

I just feel bad

And everyone can see that

I'm not hiding it

I can't

I don't have energy to do so

And no one can change it or help me

I don't even want this help

I can deal with it on my own

And if I can't then what ?

I will die or so

Please don't care about me

I am not used to that shit

I don't know how to respond

Don't do that

Please

We have love-hate relationship....more like hate-love but okay

Do you have a song with which you have this relationship ?

Yesterday I realized as normally I'm bottom then after alcohol I'm getting bossy

Maybe not a top but bossy switch it will be