What If The Only Way To Not Feel Bad Is To Stop Feeling Anything At All Forever?

what if the only way to not feel bad is to stop feeling anything at all forever?

Reblog if..

● your parents called you fat

● your brother/sister called you fat

● your friends called you fat

● you called yourself fat

● a stranger called you fat

I'm going to the after funeral party now

And it feels like the whole world is in the vibe

I don't know if it's because it's Halloween or what but there's a fog

The whole time we've been driving to my grandma and then to the funeral there was fog giving the vibe

(if there is any sound, please ignore)

But the fog passed the vibe check for sure

It's fun to have ed friend

I have one

Why is that fun ?

Because we hype eachother

We remind ourselves that we have a goal

And for me it helps me to keep motivation for not eating or eating less

You should find someone like that

So today I've been at little competition that took place in my stable (I wasn't a participant)

And I got kicked by a horse in my hand

And my emotions after that were literally like that

And after I told my trainer about that "those plates" fell on the ground and shattered in million pieces

I've been crying for like 20 minutes

I felt bad about me crying, I felt weak, useless

I wanted to be buried alive that moment

My hand is okay btw....just swollen and bruised but fine

Please don't care about me

I am not used to that shit

I don't know how to respond

Don't do that

Please