We Have Love-hate Relationship....more Like Hate-love But Okay

We have love-hate relationship....more like hate-love but okay

Do you have a song with which you have this relationship ?

I'm going to the after funeral party now

And it feels like the whole world is in the vibe

I don't know if it's because it's Halloween or what but there's a fog

The whole time we've been driving to my grandma and then to the funeral there was fog giving the vibe

(if there is any sound, please ignore)

But the fog passed the vibe check for sure

Why everyone makes such a big deal out of death ?

Like some relative just died and I asked my "parents" if I could turn on the music (we're in a car going to visit my grandma)

And they say "it's inappropriate now after hearing such news"

What the fuck man ?

It's not like she was so close to you or so

You actually hardly ever met her

You shouldn't care so much about that

I don't want to go to the funeral, I hope I have school that day so I'll stay at home

Don't make such a big deal out of death

It's not that scary and important

Reblog if..

● your parents called you fat

● your brother/sister called you fat

● your friends called you fat

● you called yourself fat

● a stranger called you fat

So today I've been at little competition that took place in my stable (I wasn't a participant)

And I got kicked by a horse in my hand

And my emotions after that were literally like that

And after I told my trainer about that "those plates" fell on the ground and shattered in million pieces

I've been crying for like 20 minutes

I felt bad about me crying, I felt weak, useless

I wanted to be buried alive that moment

My hand is okay btw....just swollen and bruised but fine

⚠️tw idk what's that, it might be triggering⚠️

I can't stop eating

I see food and I eat

Even if I am full, even if I feel like I'll vomit in a second

I'm eating

And eating

And eating

Like I've never eaten anything

And I feel bad

I wanna cry

I wanna vomit

I wanna disappear

I don't want to be here

I feel obsessed with food but also obsessed with not eating

Like I wanna be skinny as fuck but at the same time I eat

Please someone help me

Help me

Because....

I can't do that anymore