Why Everyone Makes Such A Big Deal Out Of Death ?

Why everyone makes such a big deal out of death ?

Like some relative just died and I asked my "parents" if I could turn on the music (we're in a car going to visit my grandma)

And they say "it's inappropriate now after hearing such news"

What the fuck man ?

It's not like she was so close to you or so

You actually hardly ever met her

You shouldn't care so much about that

I don't want to go to the funeral, I hope I have school that day so I'll stay at home

Don't make such a big deal out of death

It's not that scary and important

⚠️tw idk what's that, it might be triggering⚠️

I can't stop eating

I see food and I eat

Even if I am full, even if I feel like I'll vomit in a second

I'm eating

And eating

And eating

Like I've never eaten anything

And I feel bad

I wanna cry

I wanna vomit

I wanna disappear

I don't want to be here

I feel obsessed with food but also obsessed with not eating

Like I wanna be skinny as fuck but at the same time I eat

Please someone help me

Help me

Because....

I can't do that anymore

⚠️tw sh

I had a dream where I hit beans !

But like my leg was almost torn open in two

So it was more than beans

And I found nurse who agreed to stitch it and I btw met my classmates...and a handsome doctor

But I don't know how this ended because I was in short coma and then I woke up

⚠️tw meanspo

Is it self control ?

YOU REALLY CALL IT SELF CONTROL?

Eating too much

Taking another piece of cake

And another

Why ?

WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT, YOU UGLY PIECE OF SHIT?

What about your goal ?

You fucked it up, you fucker!

You're worthless

And ugly

And stupid

You're not better than a pig

Piglets are at least cute.... you're not

Why?

Because you eat all the time!

You're fat!

You better quit

Stop eating, motherfucker

You want to be skinny ?

Stop eating

I'm so proud of myself today

Look at it

It's my the best day ever !

That's for sure not only me but still

Is it only me that when I am sad I go on Tumblr just to feel even sadder ?

Because it's fucking working, guys