Wtffffff Math Doesnt Make Sense Anymore

Wtffffff math doesn’t make sense anymore

I asked the teacher something and he was like: well… there must be an explanation

Like there must be, somewhere, he doesn’t fucking know, he’s a damn university professor

And no matter how much I think about it, it doesn’t make any sense, the more i think, the less sense it makes

The thing i liked about math is that things always had an answer, always that one and only explanation, now it’s just shit

And the more i think about it, the more ways i find to apply this bs to more things

Aaaaaa send help

The glorious battle has ended.

But now… I’m back alive

Again.

Yesterday, as I drifted off to sleep, i was entrusted with the task of saving the world from the monsters in my nightmares. Fate dragged me out of this pitiful state and made me feel alive for once.

But now, I’m awake

And the world is the same as it has ever been

Except for the seeping melancholy of a forgotten soul.

Hell is over, now I have to go back home.

I don’t want to, so I’ll make this brief

If only I could …

I’ll finish this once and for all.

Ah… to feel a love so strong that it brings you to tears

The quiet whispers and warmth of each other

To cry out of something other than distress

So strong, yet so gentle and graceful

A love that surpasses every other feeling

Blooming in the middle of a field of loneliness,

To find the meaning of happiness in an embrace

Still, being far from happy

Once you get drunk on that gaze

There’s only tears, my love…

For no other could move my heart like this

I had a weird dream one of these days

So basically my parents, some stranger and i were in a car accident? And then it was like this place between life and death, it was an ocean where each person had like a little paper or something and you had to swim to the shore and bring it, and if it wasn’t damaged, you got a chance to come back to life. Some people had a thinner piece of paper, and some had like cardboard or even some sort of cloth? Idk, and some people had to swim further. Oh, and before you did that, there was like this long af intro where there was text like on the sky explaining things, but i was high as hell on adrenaline and didn’t give a shit about what it said. Anyway, after getting to the shore, there was like a loading screen or something and it had like information on your current state, like if your heart was beating or not idk, and mine and my mom’s were but my dad’s was like loading still and i was so anxious or something bc like apparently his guts were ripped out of his body and shit, and also my skull was like broken and my brain was like half exposed idk about my mom tho i don’t remember.

So anyway why do i dream such things? That was so weird and gory like ahh whyy

At least in the dream i had a will to live? Idek

The urge to say goodbye

It’s been a long long day

And sleeping is only temporary

I continue to fumble over my words

Wishing for an ending.

It’s you who brought me here

It’s you who made me like this

So, just why?

Why can’t I resent you?

Why don’t i hate you?

Why can’t I blame you?

Why is it that i bear the blame

For your mistakes

And I don’t even fight back

I don’t even feel mad.

Why can’t i…

Say goodbye

Why is it that i feel guilty?

The crime of existence wasn’t mine

I can’t even make things right

And go back to the start.

Why do I punish myself…

For the urge to say goodbye

My head doesn’t feel right, Idk what is going on but it just feels wrong

Seriously please help wtf is this i feel like my insides don’t fit correctly into my skull I don’t know