Me: Welp, Time To Write S/I Into My First Selfship Fic With F/O! Cant Wait To See How Fluffy Its Going

me: Welp, time to write S/I into my first selfship fic with F/O! Can’t wait to see how fluffy it’s going to turn out!

~ one… fic… later… ~

me: As it turns out, S/I is barely breathing because of a stab wound and F/O is covered in their blood as they sob S/I’s name.

Imagine your villain f/o reminding you that you can talk to them:

-That when you're with them, you're allowed- no wanted-to be imperfect.

-That you are safe to be loud, and odd, and sad, and angry, and happy! With them, you're allowed to be.

-They don't expect you to be a ray of sunshine every moment of every day. They understand that some days will be better than others, and they want nothing more than to be by your side when the storm hits.

-You sit on the floor with your hair a mess, your face stained by tears, your knees pulled to your chest, and your body trembling.

-Your F/o stands above you as they try to process everything. In their head they seethe, who would dare make their y/n feel like this?

-But from outside they take a deep breath-

-and they fall on their knees beside you.

-"Y/n?" They whisper to you softly and they place their hand on your knee. "Can you look at me, my darling?"

-They gently pull your face to theirs by your chin and then move their hand up to stoke your cheek as they try to wipe away your tears.

-"What happened, my dear? Please tell me."

-Maybe you're not ready, and that's okay too.

-Maybe all you can do is shake your head and crawl into their arms.

-They will hold you, and they will hold you tight. They would place the softest kisses upon your head as they whisper words of love and comfort into your ears.

-But if you are ready, they hold you close as they listen to you intently.

-They rub their hands up and down your arms, and let you lean on their chest.

-Afterwards, perhaps false guilt begins to swell in your mind.

-You hide your face from them to say, "I'm sorry, this-this isn't your problem, I-I hope I didn't--ruin--interupt anything-"

-"Stop it, Y/n." They tell you sternly. "First of all, we're a couple, we're companions, partners, that means your problems are my problems, understand?"

-"F-F/o..."

-"Secondly," their voice changes to something soft as they press your foreheads together and place a soft kiss on your lips, "How many times have you been there for me in my darkest moments? How many times have you stuck by me through meltdowns, rages, and panic attacks?"

-Your face flushes, deep red spreading across your face, "A few..."

-They chuckle and wink at you with a smirk, "A bit more than 'a few,' I'd say."

-You smile as they look at you with the most loving gaze imaginable, cup your face in their hands, and kiss the top of your head, "So please, never think that you need to hide yourself from me. I love you, and I'll always be there for you, just as you've been there for me, my dear."

imagine your f/o caring for you.

they do that already, dont they? they love you and want to take care of you like you are a special little thing that needs protection.

imagine your f/o taking care of you during the times you desperately need it, the times you feel like their love for you is so miniscule, when they look at you and see the stars align. they see you and immediately go “you are my home”. their love for you is massive, its huge, they give their entire heart to you, and would show it to you every second of the day and even more so when you doubt it.

they will remind you every day that they love you and only you; why would anyone else take your place? youre their world, their home, their own safety net. they will reassure you even without you asking them to; they listen to your fears and help ease them away.

they care so much about you, they hate seeing you doubt their love, they hate seeing you so sad. they know there are bumps in the road, but you two will get through it. together!

trust me, I was scared too

(but you’re a puddle now so I guess I did a good job??) (you are hereby excused)

Imagine your F/O… but imagine them flawless.

Their dorky rambles you can’t help but pay close attention to, even if you have no idea what they’re about? Nope. The smirk you love so much, perhaps that chuckle of theirs? Forget it. All of those little “imperfections”: their tragic past, their cockiness, their flawed looks? None of that.

Except… It feels wrong now. This isn’t your F/O; this is a mundane, stereotypical, so-horribly-wrong shell.

You didn’t fall in love with a perfect being because your F/O is perfect to you. It’s a beautiful thing, isn’t it? To feel such a dedicated, yearning, unrelenting love for someone with their flaws, not despite them. Even if they can’t see it in themselves, you’d never dream of them being a regret or a mistake. Your F/O is just so imperfectly them.

… So why would your F/O ever wish for a “flawless” you?

Yes, all that was said about them in the paragraphs above applies to you. No matter how hard it may be to believe it, your F/O wants you with all your “burdens”. They want you through breakdowns and panic attacks, through triggers and relapses. They want to be your comfort, your light in the darkness, your strength.

They’re just so happy they get the honor of being with their beloved, someone who is so imperfectly you.

I’m a minor, and I have an f/o who is a minor, but what will I do when I become a legal adult and, in canon, their still a minor? Sorry if this is a weird ask

(You don’t have to feel bad for sending a “weird” ask! It’s a genuine question, you and the people who might be reading this are free to ask as many as you want.)

This is a question I’ve had to face various times before, actually. In all honesty, I’m also a minor (under 16), so I just wanna clarify that I don’t have any experience or solid answers for you, sorry. However, this is what I do know:

“Adulting” isn’t an overnight thing. It depends on the age of your F/O, but it’s pretty understandable to have someone who has very recently turned 18 still having feelings for a character that is 16 or 17, y’know? (As the age gap grows, however, it gets problematic. You’ve probably already witnessed the discourse yourself.)

I know this seems like the unfavorable option, but keep in mind that your opinion could change. Maybe you’ll love them differently once you're older and become more aware of the age difference (again, depending on your F/O’s age) or your feelings will naturally fade.

Once you’re older, you could also try to move this F/O into another position that isn’t romantic, such as seeing them in a more platonic light. Remember that friendships and (found) familial ties can be just as important as the romantic ones; you wouldn’t be changing the fact that you love this character, you’d just be changing how.

In my experience (especially if your coming-of-age is gonna be in over a year from now), I tried to think about it as little as possible. In the end, self-shipping shouldn’t be anxiety-inducing, but a part of your life that makes you happy. Things are going to be changing, and it’s alright to relax and let the current take you where it wants to go sometimes, as long as you’re not hurting anybody or yourself.

Yup, that’s my answer… sorry if it was less than you were expecting. Anyone who sees this and wants to reply with their own opinions/advice is free to do so!

If u get uncomfortable during periods imagine all the ways ur f/o would comfort you!!!

Cuddling with you whenever you ask for it because they know how much you need their presence rn

Soft and gentle touches, putting a hand over ur tum bc its warm and soft and you love it

Bringing your favorite comfort food! Nothing that would make cramps worse but just. Foods you enjoy a lot

Putting on your favorite movies while cuddling under 30 fluffy blankets, melting in their embrace. You basically fall asleep in their arms but they don’t care

If ur experiencing mood swings they get careful as to not be rude and always apologize if they make you cry no matter what they did because they know ur not feeling okay and that your emotions are going up to 280% atm

Bringing in a hot water bottle/hot gel compress/heating pad so ur cramps ease down a bit

If this makes you dysphoric they’ll keep saying how much of a great boyfriend/datemate u are because ur body is being a little bitch and they know it feels wrong™ so they try their best to assure you it has nothing to do with who you really are

Massages!!! Wherever your body aches most/wherever you like better. But usually on the space right under ur bellybutton; they knead on it like dough unless it hurts you too much but they try their best regardless

Bringing you comfy and big clothes (bonus if its theirs!!) so that you don’t have anything on that could make your cramps worse bc of tightness

Do you like stuffed animals bc they’ll bring you all your favorites for you to hug very tight!

Just. Generally being sweet, tender and adorable with you because they know you hate everything when you’re like this so they want you to feel okay with yourself again

If you happen to be on ur periods together they’ll be cuddling up to you 10x harder bc your presence makes them feel like themselves again if it makes them feel wrong

This post was made by trans dude gang :^)