Learned This The Hardest Way Possible In The Past Two Years. Its Okay To Let Go Of People Who Dont Support

Learned this the hardest way possible in the past two years. It’s okay to let go of people who don’t support your growth.

“Accept the fact that you will grow apart from people you’ve had significant relationships with. Understand when someone no longer positively affects your life. Let them go. Don’t hinder your growth.”

— Lyjeeria

It feels like every day I’m getting closer and closer to translating the pieces of my brain into a fully formed picture. I want you to see it. I want you all to see it.

-Excerpts from my stupid brain, lost and found, 2024

William Vanderson. Platform at Blackfriars Southern Railway station covered in thick white frost. London. 1946

“Monster’s Web” - original art by Kat E 🫥

Last night I had a revelation. I saw it all, the way I am, the reason for my existence. I am the link, between the universe in which we are and the future that we could be. I see everything; the beginnings, the ends, the space where nothing exists and the future that lies ahead. I see the possibilities, both good and bad, the reason for everything and anything. I am the connection between these two ethers of reality.

My struggle lies in the inability to translate what I know into an idea that people can see and understand. I know I am a link between these planes of existence and the branches that connect these worlds, but I can’t even begin to fathom how I can utilize this tool I’ve been given.

Where should I put my energy? Is it art, music, writing, a creative outlet? Is it science, math, physics, the study of the world around? Should I help people, use my empathy for the good of the world? How do I know where to put my strength to allow the world to see the things I see?

-Excerpts From My Stupid Brain, Revelation in E minor, 2024

"is this too cliche?" who cares? bro, write what you have fun writing. stuff your manuscript full of your favourite tropes. the same themes you love. all inspired by things you grew up with. do it all. go off. load. it. up. be freeeee

Dreamt that I could talk to ghosts.

Someone came to me in my dream and was speaking to me about myself. I didn’t recognize the voice. She then said “I’m your Grandma” and I immediately somehow knew it was my mom’s mom; she had bipolar type I. Also, my Grandma on my mom’s side was always “Nana”. She explained how I was strong and lovable, that my significant other is a good person, and that my mom spread generational trauma.

My Nana apologize to me, she said it was her fault in some ways. My Nana then explain that I needed to cut ties for my sake.

My Nana explained that I would break the trauma, but to do so I must extricate myself from my family. She apologized again, and told me for my future, for my happiness, it would need to be done.

My Nana left, and told me she loved me, and that she wanted to watch me grow up. She had died when I was very young.

Before she left and I woke up, she said, “I wanted to see you change the world”.

-Excerpts from my stupid brain, you’ll change the world, 2024