My Ocean

My ocean

It's odd. When I'm truly sad about something I can't cry. No matter how much I want to, my body won't let me, it's some perverted form of torture. The pain wells up inside me but never finds release, the tears never fall. So it keeps building up and building up until I've reached my breaking point. Then it all tumbles out at once. I breathe so much that I suffocate on air, I cry so much that I drown in my own tears and I scream so much my throat swells and closes. I'm violently thrown into the crashing waves of my emotions that have been forced into isolation for so long. And every time, I almost die.

@protect-the-smol-wizards Did you seriously take a photo of my dvd case and post it on tumblr. I'm so weak 😂😂😂😂😂😂

@jugheadjones94 my friend suggested that we watch flatliners and when I remembered that Kiefer sutherland was in it I thought of you

-To my emotions, sincerely me- I buried you a long time ago, And somehow you won't let me go, I feel you crawling at the back of my mind, Trying to take control all the time, Your presence haunts my thoughts at night, But I hold you back with all my might. Because what use is a machine when it begins to rust? What use is paper if it turns to dust? Why are you still here when I'll never find trust? Since all you've ever done is destroy My success, my friendships, other people's joy, So stay in your box and it will soon be time, For you to finally die.

Love you too, dork. <3

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Like you.

I will never have silky, long hair that cascades down my back, I will never have gorgeous eyes that are the perfect shade of black, I will never be so kind that the world is grateful, I will never be so beautiful that the world is hateful. Simply put: I will never be like you. My abnegation barely runs skin deep, My emotions are something that only I keep, I won't do something to get his attention, No one ever knows I'm feeling tension. Simply put: I am not like you. I have never dreamt of a simple life, Pretty pinks are something I've never liked, I've never been as gentle as a soft breeze, I've never been able to make his knees weak. Simply put: I have never been like you. But I've at least been like me.

At least I'm connected to my bloodline.

@jugheadjones94 my friend suggested that we watch flatliners and when I remembered that Kiefer sutherland was in it I thought of you