(Lost My Will To Live Around Page 5 So Screw Shading The Rest Of This)

(Lost my will to live around page 5 so screw shading the rest of this)

As if this family doesn’t have enough problems I’ve decided to create some more! Based on that one bit of trivia that Pepa was worried bc Antonio was too quiet

And because I got it bad here’s some headcanons I had drawing this

He's pretty blunt, and only gonna get more blunt from here on cause animals, wild animals at that, don’t care about being polite or civil. He will be very well-versed in 2 things due to all the animal wrangling: spotting if someone's hiding their hurts, and processing death and loss. Skills that, if Mirabel hasn't reached her boiling point, will prepare him for dealing with the trauma once he's old enough to notice it (now that's an AU concept...). He's the magic's contingency plan in getting this family therapy.

Antonio and Bruno are/were both Weird Kids, but different types. Antonio’s type is Build Different (autism) while Bruno’s is “life already sucks might as well”

This one's drawing from personal experience but: Bruno, on account of being 1. childless 2. ND as fuck 3. a pretty unhappy person most of the time, is extremely unconcerned ab kids being weird and not sunshine-and-laughter 24/7. Wanna go bury a rat? Sure. He does intervene if the kid starts sounding a little too much like him

Superstitions aside, he was the steadiest of the triplets, in the resigned way of someone who had to stare down his lot in life and continue to live with it since 5. Was, cause Julieta (2nd place) took his place by gaining more emotional support in the form of Agustín

And now, fun facts:

And now, fun facts:

5yo is pretty hit and miss when it comes to grasping the concept of death and grieving. Antonio gets what it is, but he hasn’t quite get that everyone and everything dies all the time

I did look up popular playing card games in Colombia, but Uno’s funnier

Brunitico (a diminutive of a diminutive, -ico and not -ito bc Colombian) Pepa’s just absolutely lording her elder child status and height over him. The wedding hurricane was extreme but normally they do exercise every last shred of Cain instinct they have at each other

How dare you call me out like that

do you ever make memes abt ur paracosm but like u can’t even talk abt them bc no one else will get it 😭😭

i see many ppl in the MADD community saying things like "well if MADD is a coping mechanism, why do i make my paras go through so many bad stuff???? wasn't it supposed to feel good?"

well, i have a theory for that.

daydreaming is a coping mechanism, but not in the sense of "this is my happy place where everything is sweet and perfect".

it's a way of channeling feelings we don't want to face directly "in real life". so we reproduce imaginary events in our heads as a way of expressing all bottled up anger, sadness, and hatred, and also to produce for ourselves feelings of adventure, romance, accomplishment and even glory (come on, let's admit it) without needing the help of external events.

it's like our little world of heroism, antagonism, tragedy, and everything else we find the need to feel or express.

“Aside from myself, there was no sign of me.” ― Nicole Krauss

1.Rumi | 2.Holly Warburton | 3.Maggie Stiefvater | 4.Fyodor Dostoyevsky | 5.Nickie Zimov | 6.Clarice Lispector | 7.Nigel Van Wieck | 8.Georgia O’Keeffe | 9.Andrew Wyeth | 10.Mary Oliver | 11.Ilenia Tesoro | 12.Sylvia Plath | 13.Walt Whitman | 14.Nickie Zimov | 15.Jean-Paul Sartre | 16.Lydia Roberts | 17.Natalie Wee | 18.Lew Thomas | 19.Albert Camus

me: hey... so I have this mental illness in which i dissociate about fake universes and people to the point that i only feel happy or alive when im in that universe and it actually feels more real than reality, and i prefer it over reality, i love my paras more than any real person i know and i would rather die then not have this disorder even though i can barely function, maintain relationships, or even get/maintain a stable job... i feel like i am a shell that just houses these people/worlds and that earth is not my home and i'm restrained phisically to a world and body/face i dont belong to. i am very disconnected from the world/people, and sometimes i pace until my feet hurt really bad, and i might go deaf cause i listen to music at such a high volume, i feel generally apathetic around real people, madd makes me so emotional. sometimes my daydreams are so gross and messed up it traumatizes me and i can't control it and it goes on and on... and i know if i went to a therapist they'll just tell me i'm psychotic and not be able to really help cause this is not very known about and i'll probably only be able to get diagnosed or get help in like 20 years cause there's not enough research, and i wanna die, i feel so alien and nobody is taking this seriously because barely anyone knows what it is....it's called maladaptive daydreaming....

some rando from tiktok or something: OMG i am TOTTALY a maladaptive daydreamer, i daydream so much. like, whenever im in the shower, i win fake arguments omg. its so fun lol. i thought i was the only one. I'm so QUirKy, it's a really good coping mechanism lol owo uwu i love my ~original characters~

me: uhh.. that's not-

*sigh* you know what? good for you ://

I've been in this state way too long

pov you're waiting for your daydreams/paracosms to get interesting again