One Day Ill Hold You For Reasons Other Than Holding Onto Anything That Could Keep Me Here
one day i’ll hold you for reasons other than holding onto anything that could keep me here
i really like candles
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i guess maybe i would've said goodbye differently if i knew it was the last time
hugged you tighter
cried even more
would you?
i still stay up at night wondering who left who
and surely i wasn't the same to you as you were to me
cause relationships like that don't break so easily
hello
please be okay
sweet strawberry child
you can swim almost ten metres
climb all the highest trees without falling
you own the forests and the lake
the sky and all the caves you’ve only ever heard about in stories
you know the world like it’s only yours
dancing after your hand
like a wizard and his white rabbit
you can make it disappear whenever you like
i don’t feel trapped here
under layers of familiarity and routine
where everyone knows my name
and the changes are so slow you don't even notice
i don't feel trapped
not yet
but i will leave
as soon as i get the chance to i will leave
been counting down the days for as long as i remember
like snufkin when the leaves turn
from green to yellow
from yellow to red
it'll eventually be my turn
slip on soon to be worn out shoes
heave my backpack onto my already aching shoulders
but not aching in a bad way
aching from excitement
from anticipation
aching to carry
carry the weight of few belongings
everything, my whole life now
tossed together in a 30l backpack
enamel mug in a string from the back
a one way ticket please
tw/blood + implied sh
i had a dream again
that i was covered in blood
my hands
my arms
my eyes
and something was wrong
but when i woke up i forgot to ask
if that was normal
it flashes before my eyes every so often
like a reminder
-something i wrote a while back about experiences even further back, im doing alright and this isn’t anything that should make anyone worry (just making sure)
