I Also Often Wonder Why People Dont Approach Me, Even When I Feel Like They May Be Interested. Am I Unapproachable?

I also often wonder why people don’t approach me, even when I feel like they may be interested. Am I unapproachable? Or is it just because I am good at deflecting things when I feel too involved. Like how people get nervous with intense eye contact, I get nervous with intentional behavior?

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Hiiiii I am just a girl who needs to express how she feels through written words and visuals because that is all I know how to do. Not all of what I share is chronological <3 Enjoy

I like:

~ Pinterest

~ Listening to music 25/8

~ Reading

~ Writing

~ Being alone

~ Nature

~ Various different handsome actors

I would like to start a sociology class hate club. In what universe is an assessment of 40 questions a quiz? Call it an exam or test because then I will take it seriously and not tank my 4.0 on a class that has nothing to do with my major. I am done with your hypotheticals and trick questions

Sociology

More like kiss my ass loser

Maintain GPA!

That is my haiku to destress. Sociology taught by an old white man has nothing on me. Especially since he comes to class late sometimes. Not my problem.

Why I could never date a frat boy? Because they are too busy having homoerotic relationships with the other frat members.

Feelings are such a colossal waste of time. They make you irrational, obsessive, and inefficient. It doesn’t even take me an emotionally destructive experience to say that. That is just what I think all the time. I wish that I didn’t have feelings so that life could be easier. Most of the time I feel like I don’t. I kind of feel like my heart is empty except for a few people. And I feel a total absence of any romantic feelings. I don’t know if I can have them. They seem way to embarrassing. I guess I can admire people and want them to like me in some way but I feel gross when I think of them in a romantic way. It sounds totally sociopathic, but the times I have let myself get carried away I become obsessive yet avoidant. I don’t know how to be casual. It’s not even romance, it’s obsession, so I stopped that fast because that is embarrassing. Now, I feel like I have neither obsession nor romance. There might be a little bit of interest and thought but ultimately, because I can never read people, it feels like a waste of time. Also, no one is good enough. I get icked out so fast. Like I can think about the idea of having a boyfriend all I want and how great that would be, but whenever there are actual men it is so gross. I will always find something to criticize. Forget having “standards”, it will take one thing for me to want nothing to do with you ever again. I have to force myself to be nice. I don’t even know what my love language or if I even have one. I have had friends ask me, and I never know what to say. I would say the only one that really appeals to me is quality time, but I love being alone. I feel awkward receiving gifts, and I always find it hard to pick stuff out for people. I don’t like just be touched, and I feel awkward touching other people, like I don’t feel like myself. I have to make an intentional effort to hug people and it shows. I get awkward when people compliment me or tell me good stuff about me and I always feel like they are lying. I am bad at giving intentional words of affirmation because I am too in my head to form words that I feel like are actually meaningful. Also, I like my independence too much to let people help me with tasks. I have a way I do stuff and I don’t like people trying to interfere with that. I just can’t imagine anyone feeling attracted to me in the first place. When that has come up in the past I always assume it’s a joke or something. Also, when I find out, I never reciprocate because that is too gross to me. I can never see myself and romance so I just seem to avoid it. I don’t think I am unlikable, I have friends and family I know loves me, but romance is different. It feels unrealistic and unattainable to me. Those feelings make me feel way to out of control to be appealing.