Sorry Is So Beautiful She Makes My Eyes Sore. A Kaleidoscope Of A Girl Waiting For The Summer To Unfold

Sorry is so beautiful she makes my eyes sore. A kaleidoscope of a girl waiting for the summer to unfold before her, she smells sticky sweet like sage smoke. When I call out to greet her, her name leaves the taste of iron on my tongue, it reminds me of oxidation. She always visits under the cover of darkness. Her favorite hour is midnight, loves to watch the dark sky melt into oil drops and practice catching them between her nimble fingertips. She tells me they feel cool and slip through her grip easily. I imagine they feel something like hair feels under my outstretched palms, slippery enough it leaves holding on impossible.

In the morning I attempt to erase her. Scrub the spicy bite of peppermint into my incisors and vanquish the taste of her that tangles between my teeth. But when I look down at my knuckles clenched hard against white marble countertop I watch a palm slide into mine. It fits perfectly and feels placating. I have so much to learn.

It feels like I forever leave her waiting.

For the @drarrymicrofic prompt: Beguile, November 9th 2021

Rating: T, Words: 319

“Fancy seeing you here.” Draco attempts a casual and approachable smile as he slides up to Harry at the bar. 

“Go away Malfoy,” Harry grumbles. Draco watches as he knocks back the shot in front of him. The rainbow light from the dance floor glints off of the delicate curve of Harry’s jaw and he watches his throat as it undulates. Draco wants to touch him so badly his hands shake. He clasps them tightly under the bar where Harry can’t see them. 

“I heard you got information from Kingsley on the coveted dragon case,” He adds, trying to sound conversational and not at all bitter. 

“Oh Draco, jealousy doesn’t look good on you,” Harry responds softly. Draco’s eyes narrow as he watches Harry’s left hand drift down to his back pocket. There poking out is a thick wad of parchment. Really, Draco thinks,  Harry should know better than to wander around with important information sticking out where anyone could grab it. He steps closer moving his legs to bracket Harry on either side. 

“Let me buy you a drink.” He says slowly watching the way Harry’s eyes flicker across his lips. 

“Oh fuck off,” Harry responds refusing to meet his eyes. 

Forget the drink, Draco thinks. He crowds into Harry's space and uses his pale broad hand to cup Harry’s cheek. He leans in and their lips brush. Suddenly they’re kissing and Draco wants Harry in bed spread out beneath him. He wants him so much he bites down on his lip until he tastes metal. 

His head swimming, he commands himself to focus. Carefully he skims Harry’s waist with his hand before reaching further back. His long fingers twist against parchment and then he’s ripping away. Their gazes tangle for a second and Harry looks wrecked, his irises blown out and dark against his tanned skin. Draco forces himself to turn. Gasping for breath he pushes into the crowd, vanishing. 

Azkaban Escape 

Drarry Microfic, Rating: G, Words: 220

“You’re sleeping with Malfoy,” Hermione says, looking at Harry pointedly over the breakfast table.

“What?” Harry’s frozen in his seat, toast halfway to his mouth. His face is pale, guilty. He knows he’s always been a bad liar, so this is about to be the performance of his lifetime. He loves Hermione, loves her to death, and  obviously he’s fine with her knowing all of his secrets. All of his secrets except this one of course. 

“You. Have been sleeping. With Malfoy,” Hermione says slowly glaring at him. 

“I don’t understand,” Harry carefully sets his toast down on the plate in front of him. “Malfoy’s in Azkaban.”  

“Well,” Hermione draws out the word like she’s waiting for him to interrupt. “He was in Azkaban.” 

Watching his face carefully, she passes him yesterday's newspaper. The cover reads: Death Eater on the Loose: Draco Malfoy Escapes Azkaban in the Dead of Night. 

“Oh,” says Harry gazing at the paper. He widens his eyes and tries to look surprised, or enraged, or whatever he would have looked like if this had happened when he was a school-kid. “That’s too bad I guess.” 

“You’re sooo believable,” Hermione scoffs at him. She moves the paper slightly and gestures to one of the security camera photos at the bottom of the page. “Care to explain yourself?”

apology

Draco grabs the freezing handle of the bathroom door and slams the heavy wood behind him as loudly as he can. It’s not like anyone can hear him, he thinks, as the roar of the party increases. The bass pounds louder till it feels like the walls are shaking.

He slumps his body weight back against the solid door using it’s stability to ground himself but the white walls continue to spin slightly as he looks around. Groaning, he gives in, closing his eyes. His bare toes wiggle against the cool tiles. He wonders when he’d lost his shoes. He can’t quite remember anything after he’d stormed angrily away from Harry and downed about seven shots of firewhisky with Hermione cheering him on, he’d never thought she’d be such a bad influence.

After the shots the night had taken on a surreal blurry quality like nothing mattered. At least nothing mattered until he’d gotten up from his stool at the bar and turned to catch a glimpse of crimson red hair in a darkened corner of the pub. When he’d looked closer Ginny had been with Harry. His Harry. All tousled black curls and flushed cheeks.

Except maybe not his anymore, Draco thinks, head spinning, as he remembers the way he’d watched Harry’s tanned hands card through Ginny’s flaming locks pulling her closer. That’s when Draco had fled.

He tips his head against the door behind him and tries to convince himself not to punch something. The problem is he doesn’t know what he should do.

He’d never pictured himself like this, drunk and sad, and looking for an apology that might never come.

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Welcome! My name is Ravena. My pronouns are she/they, and my house is Slytherin. I’ve read fanfic for a long time but I’ve only recently felt confident to start writing my own. Since I’m new to writing I love hearing feedback on all my works! You can find my writing on my blog by searching #ravenawrote and my longer fics linked bellow :) Hope you enjoy reading!! Also please feel free to send in prompts using my asks, I love love love prompts and am always excited to write new things and challenge myself!

Fanfic: Regulus Black x James Potter 

when you go (leave your shadow behind) (WIP) (M) Summary: The door opens and the light from the hall pours through, illuminating a silhouette. Regulus feels the air freeze in his lungs as he tracks his gaze frantically over rumpled brown hair and wide eyes.

“James!? What are you doing here?” His voice comes out a croak, cracked and an octave too low. Hesitantly he steps closer only to find himself twisted backwards and slammed violently against the wall.

“I’m not James.” The boy says roughly, his green eyes flashing as he jabs his wand directly into Regulus’s neck. “James is dead.”

what a shame (2.4K) (M)

Regulus can’t look away from him. James is watching him searchingly, wonder in his warm eyes, beautiful, even red rimmed and desperate.

Regulus wants to take him home. He wants to grab Jame’s face and press their lips together so gently that James will forget his own name, will forget the war, will forget every time he’s pulled his hand away and left Regulus's palm empty.

He wants to take him to bed. He wants James so bad he bites down on his tongue until he tastes metal. He wants to crawl inside his body and pry his way under his ribcage, fingers cradling his heart. He wants to hear it beat against him forever. Safe.

Regulus wants to touch him so bad his hands shake.

Fanfic: Draco Malfoy x Harry Potter

Inexplicable Things (34.8K) (E) Summary: No way, no way in hell. Draco is supposed to be in France or America or, wherever else he’d deemed more important than Harry when he left five years ago. Draco is not supposed to be showing up at the DMLE out of the blue, forcing Harry to watch him as he struts confidently across the room towards him.

How to Say Goodbye (7.3K) (T) Summary: Harry dumps him. Draco copes. 

Infiltrate the Slytherins (8.9K) (T) Summary: Ron & Blaise started a liquor business. Blaise moved in. Slytherins took over the sitting room. Harry didn't know how to feel about any of it.

Bonded (16K) (T) Summary: Harry gets assigned the most boring Auror case in the world with the most horrible partner. Featuring a certain blonde nemesis, ancient magic bonds, a dragon, and a little too much Pansy/Hermione love (in Harry’s opinion).

Boy with a Dragon Tattoo (4K) (T) Summary: Draco and Harry get drunk at a party. Banter and kissing ensues.

Fanfic: Harry Styles x Louis Tomlinson

Falling (1.6K) (M) Summary: Louis has avidly avoided listening to Harry’s new album for so long. Now, it’s chosen to ambush him in a grocery store.

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2022.01.06

Complete fics posted on AO3 this day

1. How to Say Goodbye by @ravena-wrote [T, 7k]

►Harry dumps him. Draco copes. Featuring: protective Slytherins, awkward run-ins, and hard decisions.

2. Phases by @phoebe-delia [G, 1k]

►New moon: The moon is between Earth and the sun, and the side of the moon facing toward us receives no direct sunlight; it is lit only by dim sunlight reflected from Earth.

3. true things by @hogwartsfirebolt [T, 1k]

►All Draco’s ever known is how to guard his heart. But Harry sneaks in, anyway.