My Friends Are My Family.

My friends are my family.

I was born an only child, but my family adopted my cousin (who is now my brother) when I was ten. My family on my father's side are across the country, and we've never been keen on visiting them. My family on my mother's side don't like us, for the most part; my grandparents on her side are the only real family I have outside of the household.

That's it. Six people at best, and I haven't seen my grandparents all that often. I'm not here to complain about it; this is just the life I've known.

I've heard stories about other people's families. Stories about great uncles and second cousins, three sisters, great grandparents who are still holding on. Visiting the grandparents for Thanksgiving, sleepovers at the aunt's and uncle's, being an uncle at twelve years old. Family newsletters. I might envy it if it didn't sound so foreign to me.

So instead of these things, I made friends. Friends at church, friends in the neighborhood. There were no friends at school, because I was homeschooled. We moved about every three or four years, so I lost these friends on a consistent basis. And to make matters worse, we didn't have internet access, so I didn't know I could keep up with them. After a while I just stopped trying too hard, because there was really no point.

Then I went to high school, gifted school. I made friends that actually stuck. I messed around on the internet and made friends here too. There's a few people I still talk to despite being out of high school for a year now. I'm much more comfortable making and keeping friends; now they fill the void where my "extended family" would be. I may not have many friends, but I love each and every one.

If you're reading this and you'd like a new friend, shoot me an ask or something! I'd love to chat. Just because I don't go and ask people myself or start conversations, doesn't mean I'm not willing to do so... I'm just a little shy a lot of the time. This goes for my friends too, just because we don't talk all the time doesn't mean I don't think about you.

One last thing: I am fiercely loyal to my friends family. You can insult and attack me all you want to, but do not so much as look at them the wrong way or I will make your life miserable.

Plenty of hookers die each year.

Best out of context quote of the day (we were actually talking about rugby)

Things I have learnt this year from university

1. NOTHING has a concrete definition.

2. EVERYTHING is a combination of genetic and environmental factors.

3. NOTHING has a binary system. EVERYTHING is on a spectrum.

50 followers!

Hooray for arbitrary milestones! shoulda waited til 64

I've nothing to offer for this occasion but immense gratitude and appreciation. Thank you to the 30 legitimate followers for making me feel special, and thank you to the 20 bots/spammers for making me feel like I'm making progress now and again.

And let's not forget those of you without Tumblr accounts who visit my blog regularly. You're awesome too.

“All people dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their mind, wake in the morning to find that it was vanity. But the dreamers of the day are dangerous people, For they dream their dreams with open eyes, And make them come true.”

D.H. Lawrence (via vaatividya)

Whoa, it's an update!

Hi there! Just wanted to check in, I've been pretty busy lately!

I know I don't exactly update regularly, but the past few weeks have been especially distracting for me, and that's been reflecting in my post schedule. I'm hoping to change that and start updating more regularly. Maybe even daily!... Okay fine, I couldn't type that with a straight face. But I will try to post regularly enough to seem like I'm not dead half the time, even if it's just a single post on Twitter. This goes for the music blog too, which has been dormant for several months now; I'm hoping to have a new song up by the end of the day.

Secondly, I'd like to get back into my hobbies again. I haven't been so busy that I don't have time to enjoy them, but I've been falling out of my hobbies in favor of other kinds of time-wasting. I'd like to change that, but I can't seem to get myself back into it, so I'm going to try something new: I'm going to start doing Let's Plays and streams in the future. It's something I've been wanting to try for a while now, and hopefully it'll refocus my attention on games and level design, rather than refreshing the same eight websites over and over. I'm certainly not starting this today or anything, but hopefully I'll start sometime next month.

Finally, as an update on the paranoia/depression posts, I started seeing a counselor about my issues. We're working through finding the root of all the problems I outlined, and it's going quite well. If nothing else, it's good to rant about my problems and mental musings to someone every week.

Thanks for reading my blog! You're why I keep writing. ^_^