Sometimes Reading Fanfics While In Love And Not In A Relationship Is Hit And Miss, Sometimes You Smile

sometimes reading fanfics while in love and not in a relationship is hit and miss, sometimes you smile and think "wow i cant wait to do that with them, we're gonna cuddle and grow old together"

other times you get hit with angst thats too relatable, that leaves a gaping hole in your soul, that leaves you in tears, straining to keep quiet at 2:50am

the crushing weight of reality comes down onto you and you overthink and overanalyse everything "he doesnt love me" "he only thinks of us as friends" "my parents would never let us anyway"

you're left empty and wondering why you arent able to be happy, why god cursed you to always have horrible luck with love, unrequited, wrong place wrong time, faked, you're left hurting, yet so madly in love

(im sorry, its just late/early (3am) and idk what to do)

my friend fits all these rquirements, but im pretty much like the ppl u described first, skinny, young-ish, fit, but i enjoy playfighting with my friend, i enjoy running circles around him while he takes a break, i enjoy doing challenges he sets for me when he cant do quads bc of his messed up wrist, yall chubby therians/quadrobists are awesome, and i want yall to feel happy even though you cant do quads like other ppl, ur still amazing ppl and i love yall

i’ve been watching a lot of nonhuman shorts on youtube lately, and i feel the need to say that i’m quite sad (and then pissed off cuz of that) about how many of them are just skinny, in-shape young kids (around my age or a few years younger than me).

i wanna see my fellow chubby out of shape teens who don’t do quads that often, because of how out of shape and chubby they are, even if they love quads.

i wanna see my fellow out of shape teens who pull a muscle when doing quads, or are out of breath right away, or are completely sore afterwards for days.

i wanna see my fellow chubby teens who’s quads are clumsy and not graceful because we have all that extra weight on us.

i wanna see my fellow queer chubby teens who bind and who don’t do quads that often cuz their chest doesn’t stay in place right or stay flat and it makes them feel gender dysphoria.

i wanna see my fellow chubby, out of shape teens doing this stuff. or not even teens! anyone of any age! that isn’t skinny as hell and that isn’t in shape!

i just would like to see some more nonhumans like me please.

yeah, that’s about all. *goes to lay down in my little den again*

real

i’m such a tranny

doing this bc im bored also i need motivation to actually get through life rn lmaooo

5 notes - ill get up and make a sandwich for dinner ✅(thxs entity)

25 notes - ill finish all my assignments ✅ (YIPPEE JUST A MATH EXAM THEN IM DONE)

50 notes - ill work on my art wips ✅ (not done but im getting some good progress)

75 notes - ill shower for a week straight (Mon, Tue, Wed, Thu, Fri, Sat, Sun)

100 notes - ill try to eat three full meals a day for a week (Sun, Mon, Tue, Wed, Thu, Fri, Sat)

150 notes - ill work out again ✅(stronk)

200 notes - ill get vocals recorded for some songs (hafta do this one when i get back home, a fortnight away)

250 notes - ill organise my clothes (back home)

300 notes - ill deep clean my room (back home)

500 notes - ill text my crush first

1000 notes - ill try to talk to my parents about gender

2500 notes - ill tell my friend who my crush is

5000 notes - ill confess (GOD PLEASE NO)

10,000 notes - ill call the bank to resolve all of the finance issues and get my card working again

15,000 notes - ill get rid of THAT addiction (its gonna be so fucking hard but i swear ill try if we get to it)

I gave up, I'll get my shit back together over the holidays, one more week, probably wont, but this was a nice effort ig, just fallen off on everything, craving routine but cant even hold it

Ronny Arendt

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hes an ice hockey player so extra points ig

ur government assigned gender for the day is the first thing u get when u click this link to a randomised wikipedia article. NO REROLLS . i am the  trollsteineggje mountain in norway

smiles in aroacespec

yall can stay i have cookies

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