Feelings Without A Name

Feelings without a name

I think I couldn't provide too much Angst or any if that but I'd compensate it in prompt 20, hope you still like it anyways.

I'm gonna do both of them btw-

Dialogue Prompt - 22. Look he/she wants you, just make him/her happy | MILD ANGST | FLUFF | DOMESTIC|

" could you scooch a little ?" Draco asked harry with two wine glasses in his hands.

Harry took his legs off the couch, shifting over and making some space for draco.

" thanks " draco murmured as he collapsed down next to harry and handed one wine glass to harry.

" white ?" Harry asked and draco nodded.

" what did I miss ?" Draco asked he he shifted to bring his back supported against the arm rest and his feets tucked beneath Harry's thighs.

" they're trying to set me up on a date with someone and apparently making a deal of how long I would be single for " harry rolled his eyes with a little playful grin over his face.

" oh, count me in on the bet " draco announced to the room full of their friends raising his wine glass.

" you're supposed to support me " harry playfully hit draco before he raised his right arm and adjusted himself to lay his head over draco's chest. Draco very casually circled his arms around Harry's available torso and gave him more space so harry was cuddled into him.

" I mean it only makes sense, you've been single for more longer than my parents are married for " draco joked. Harry nudged draco by his elbows before laughing it off.

" how about the guy from the flower shop ?" Blaise asked cuddling Ron into him.

" eh, he gives straight vibes " harry mumbled

" okay how about the guy you met in IKEA, he gave you his number didn't he ?" Ginny asked eating from her bowl of popcorn

" nah, he's too lanky " harry shook his head pouting.

" what about " Hermione paused thinking of someone " oh right, the guy from your quidditch practices "

"mione I saw him making out with Megan" harry raised an eyebrow at her to validate his point

" date a rabbit, you won't find flaws in it " Seamus suggested

" as good as it sounds, I wouldn't make a nice humping toy " harry joked.

" harrrry, eww" everyone cringed throwing some popcorn at him before the room dissolved into laughter giving up the idea of setting harry up with someone.

Almost 2 hours later, harry was wandering about the house trying to find draco and ultimately realising he wasn't on the floor and decided to check upon their sneak up spot, the terrace.

Harry almost smiled when he caught glimpse of draco standing against the railings before harry stepped on another stair and caught full glance of draco and theo kissing.

Until that moment harry had never realised how much draco kissing someone might've effected him until he saw the very look of it and couldn't bring himself to look away and only broke his trance when he heard his name being yelled and in all abruptness harry went downstairs a strange feeling constraining his heart.

" where were you ?" Hermione asked but harry only shook his head not trusting his voice. Hermione frowned at him before she tried asking if everything was fine and harry responded with a nod.

But everything was far from fine.

Harry always knew he somewhat felt differently about draco but until now he never knew how differently or what kind of different and now when he saw him kissing theo, he knew it was a strange combination of sadness and jealousy forming a strange chemical reaction inside of him.

But he tried not be effected by it everytime after that he saw draco. The more he saw him, the more he was faced with harsh reality that draco liked theo because if he didn't, he'd had never kissed him. And in all sanity harry maintained his distance until he figured what he felt for draco. Of course it wasn't love, but it wasn't nothing either, it was something, it just didn't had a name.

Although it was very vividly clear to everyone that harry was partially ignoring draco. It was clear in the ways that harry sat now on the floor rather than on the couch with draco even when it has space, or even when draco offered but nobody dared to ask because everyone knew better that if harry wanted to talk about something, he'd be clear about it and if he didn't, he's just waiting for the right moment but draco played the only exception in his life. He didn't take Harry's shit and more often called him right out which created a lot fights between them in past and present and perhaps this was also the reason why harry always felt draco was one of a kind.

" you're ignoring me " draco said one day when he dropped by Harry's office before they went home.

Harry was stuffing back his bag when he heard draco but didn't stop and continued keeping his things in the bag " I'm not "

" yes you are " Draco snapped as he slammed the door shut and dropping his bags on the floor.

" I'm not " harry replied zipping his bag and wearing his coat.

" don't lie to me. You've been keeping distance. I want to know if there's something I did wrong ?" Draco asked following after harry as he walked in the room, locking things away.

" you didn't do anything draco and I am not ignoring you " harry replied more sternly as he casted the curtains shut.

" don't fucking lie to me " draco snapped as he whirled harry around to face him

" you think I don't know you're ignoring me, I can see it. You won't even look at me as if I've done something wrong " draco scrunched his face as if he was disgusted.

" yes,fine, you have. I thought we're best friends and supposed to tell each other everything but somehow I think it may have slipped your mind to mention that you're snogging theo now " harry Snapped jerking away from draco's hold and collected his bags of the table.

" oh " draco only replied as he too slowly turned around " I " he breathed " I didn't know you knew that "

" I saw you two kissing " harry sternly replied facing draco properly now.

" it was nothing act-"

" then why didn't you tell me ?" Harry crossed his arms over his front.

" because it meant nothing- or- I don't know- it doesn't matter. You don't like theo and I would never date someone I know you hate " draco hastily replied decreasing the distance between them.

" do you like him though ?" Harry sucked in his cheeks waiting for an answer.

" do you ?" He asked again when met with silence.

" I- I don't know " draco replied shrugging. Harry exhaled heavily before he picked up his bag and almost left the room when Draco stopped him.

" wait- I- I really mean it, I don't know. If it were something I'd had told you before "

" do me a favour draco then, if you know then tell me " harry replied and Marched out of his office.

The next time they saw each other was 2 weeks later at Luna's birthday and harry was sitting at the bar talking with the bartender, when his eyes fell upon the door of the bar and people outside who seemed to be fighting. Harry frowned trying to get a clearer image when he finally saw the other man walking away, theo and in an instant harry realised it was draco standing abandoned. It ached harry to even find the sight of a draco looking hurt. And Before he could even process anything, he was making his way Outside to draco.

" hi " harry titled his head for emphasis.

" hey " draco sighed as he turned around to face harry.

" saw you two fighting " harry reduced some distance between them.

"yeah- we- well we haven't started dating yet and everything and he already have issues " draco sighed leaning against the wall before sitting down over the ground, his knees pressed against his chest.

All of Harry's anger, jealousy evaporated when he saw draco. Didn't he Always swore to be the best friend he could ever be?!

Without much thinking harry went and sat down next to him.

" I mean I am no one to say but if he's already fighting do you think he's the one for you ?" Harry asked as he side glanced draco.

Draco inhaled sharply leaning his head over Harry's shoulder before speaking up " I don't know. I like him harry but I - I can't date knowing I'm dating Someone you absolutely loathe and it's not because of how he's an asshole or anything but because he treats you like shit-"

" draco- wait- stop, you can't not date him because of me. If you like him date him " harry egged him on

" but-"

" no. If you like him don't let me be a reason to stop you from dating him. I'll deal with it. So what If I'll only meet you guys twice a month or call his name wrong every single time, I'll deal with it " harry Chuckled. Draco gave a small laugh before he raised his head from Harry's shoulder and looked at him.

" you'll be fine with it ?" Draco asked

Harry wanted to say no, how could he be fine with everything, how could he be fine knowing that he doesn't have draco to call his own even if he didn't know what he felt for him. No, he wasn't fine with seeing him being someone else's boyfriend. He wanted draco to be his boyfriend but he wasn't selfish enough to stop him, he'd never be.

" does he like you ?" Harry only asked

" yeah, I think so " draco raised his eyebrows for emphasis.

" does he want you ?" Harry asked again

" yeah " draco nodded.

" then be with him " harry replied

" harry -"

" look he wants you, just make him happy alright " harry cut him off.

" and what about you ? Does that make you happy?" Draco asked looking into harry's eyes.

Harry heart skipped a beat, his eyes travelling from his eyes to his lips and then again to his eyes and he whispered " yes. I'll be happy if he makes you happy "

Draco brushed a strand behind Harry's ear before he rested his head against his shoulder again, draco arm encircling around Harry's muscles in comfort.

" what kind of a boyfriend do you think he is ?" Draco asked after a while.

" a shit one compared to me" harry gave a small laugh

" really? And you'd be a good boyfriend ?" Draco asked amused.

" oh yeah for sure " harry nodded before he laughed it out with draco.

It took them moments to calm down and draco snuggled closer to harry and looked at him through his shoulder.

" if you were my boyfriend, how would you be ?" Draco whispered.

Harry swallowed not Daring to look at draco, his thoughts running wild with everything he had thought of until now, how he'd treat him, how he'd like to be treated, how he'd want to wake him up with breakfast in bed and several other things that he had in Denial thought of, but really did.

" I'd be like a friend, only better.. I'd take you on a fancy date every Friday, spend the Saturday at the animal shop because you love animals and have a lazy Sunday because we work too hard all week, and feed you cooked dinner on Sunday nights. We'd do the staying at each other's place for a while, one weekend at yours, one weekend at mine until we move in together and I'll snap at you for leaving your towels over the floor "

They laughed.

" then what ?" Draco bit his lip still watching harry from his neck..

" then " harry breathed roughly as his heart raced Faster and he fumbled with his fingers " then I'll cage you away in a den and make you my prisoner" harry joked away to hide away his feelings but draco didn't laugh and only Stared at him until harry gazed back at draco. It might've been the moment harry had been waiting for, the one where they stared at each other Long and the dissolved in a small kiss but harry remained in his senses even if draco wasn't and cleared his throat looking away.

Draco gulped, shifting away from harry and soon standing up, clearing his throat too " I- I'm go-"

" yeah, you go ahead. They must be looking for you " harry hastily replied as he stood up shrugging his back of his clothes to dust it off.

" yeah. You're joining right ?" Draco awkwardly asked.

" oh yeah- ofcourse I am. I'll be inside in a second " harry nodded his head vigorously .

"great-i- I'll see you then " and with stumbling over his feets draco walked back inside.

Harry released the breath he had been holding on for far too long and finally walked back inside too, wishing the night didn't happen.

Things remained strangely awkward between harry and Draco for a while which included awkward head bobs, nodding at each other randomly, weird hand shakes, and stolen glances which left everybody else confused. Meanwhile draco had began dating theo and harry had tuned into little isolation for his feelings to go away.

And perhaps everything was working fine until the common Saturday night when Harry had friend's over and was getting out of the washroom when he met with draco standing just at the door.

" hi"

" hey" harry replied.

Draco bit his lip while Harry clicked his tongue, waiting for Someone to say at least something first.

" you want to use the washroom ?" Harry finally asked pointing inside.

Draco nodded Before he shook his head " no I'm good " and practically ran away..

Harry shut his eyes for a moment, sighing to himself knowing the Time had come to talk to draco and dreading it all the way too.

Nearly an hour later harry finally decided to talk to draco and made his way to the terrace because he knew he'd be there and so he was, alone this time.

" draco " harry called him before he went and stood next to him..

" am I needed downstairs or-"

" no, I Just" harry breathed turning to draco " I came here to talk to you actually "

" oh " draco awkwardly breathed in before he urged harry to go on.

" nothing happened that night between us right. And it's just- it's getting weird and I was wondering if we could just work on it "

" of course, yeah, I was gonna do the same thing" draco rambled.

" right so " and they both stopped talking waiting for the other one to speak up until they both did simultaneously

" whatever happened-"

" nothing happened-"

" let me, maybe it'd better ?" Harry asked after the dead silence and draco nodded.

" nothing really happened that night.. we were just caught up in the moment and there's obviously no feelings involved so it shouldn't be this awkward right. Besides you're with theo now so " harry pressed his lips in thin losing his vocabulary to further go on.

Sensing harry had come to a stop draco nodded vigorously " of couse, yeah, totally agreed "

" then we're sorted, that's cool " harry raised his shoulders

" definitely " draco nodded.

" good. I'll be going then. I- well I have nothing to do but I should wind up downstairs " harry pressed his lips in thin line, earning no response and finally turning to walk away.

" harry- wait "

" what ?" Harry asked as he turned around to see a restless draco.

" there's" he breathed " there's at least something involved. I don't know what or how or when but it's just there. It's something which only comes sometimes or maybe it was always there but I never really realised but Its there, like I can feel, not with theo of course if you're worried about that, it's you, like that night when nothing happened, on technicality of course nothing happened but something did and i don't know what-"

" I like you too " harry chuckled, interjecting draco's ramble holding his arm.

Draco released a heavy breath before he rested his head against harry's shoulder and waited for his breathing to get back to normal.

" merlin thank you do or I would've flipped out "

" you were already flipping out draco " harry chuckled holding draco by his waist now..

" well, I mean-"

" shush " harry whispered cupping draco's face and pressing their foreheads together.

" all the questions and answer can wait till after this "

"may I ? harry whispered and draco nodded and Harry cupped draco's face and kissed him softly, letting his consciousness subdue in the pleasure and pulling draco closer to him.

It doesn't matter for how Long they kissed or for how less they kissed, they focused on the breathlessness and the need to keep kissing but they did break it away only to kiss again as of their life depended on it, maybe it did, they didn't know but the answers Could've waited for after this and the questions Could've waited for after the answers. It was their moment and the holocaust could've happened, they still wouldn't had broken away from their blissful moment.

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Day 96: Bargain

"Two for one coffees," the barista said, "A bargain for you and your boyfriend," he added winking at Harry.

Draco felt his face heat up and was sure that his cheeks were beet red.

"Perfect," Harry replied. "I take mine black and he takes his with two creams, three sugars, and a dash of cinnamon."

The barista, Matt according to his name tag, smiled, "You got it."

As he went to preparing their coffees Draco glared at Harry and said, "Why do you always do that?"

"What?" Harry asked, amusement crystal clear in his voice. "Order you your coffee the way you actually like it and not the way you think is respectable?" he asked, grinning cheekily at Draco.

Damn him for knowing that. "No," he said. "You never correct people."

"About what?" Harry asked.

"You know what," Draco replied.

"Here we are," Matt said, "One coffee black, the other with two creams, three sugars, and a pinch of cinnamon."

"Dash of cinnamon," Harry teased the man sliding their coffees across the counter. "Thank you," he said, "How much do we owe you?"

"Eleven sickles," he replied.

Harry handed over a galleon, "Keep the change," he said. "Have a nice day," he added, handing Draco his coffee.

"You didn't have to do that," Draco said as they started back out of the shop, "Again."

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Harry chuckled, "I don't mind."

"I can buy my own coffee, you know," he said as he took a sip.

"But you always order it wrong and then you spend the rest of the day grouchy," Harry replied, taking a sip of his perfectly respectable black coffee. "It's for my own good."

"I don't order my coffee wrong," he grumbled.

"You do, too!" he exclaimed. "You order your coffee with one cream and then you make that face every time you take a sip." He nudged him with his shoulder and Draco's stomach flipped, "And, I'll repeat, you spend the rest of the way grumpy."

He huffed but couldn't actually find it in himself to be annoyed. "But seriously," he said, switching back, "Why don't you ever correct people?"

"Are you really not going to let that go?"

"Harry," he said, grabbing his wrist and making him stop.

"Does it matter?" he asked, not quite meeting Draco's eye.

"Yes."

Harry looked up at him for a moment before looking back down, "Well it's a bit easier, isn't it?"

"What is?"

"Not getting hit on everywhere," he said with a shrug.

He felt like his heart turned to ice and shattered. "Right," he said, releasing his hold on Harry's wrist. "Right. Of course," he said as he started past Harry.

"Draco," Harry called, following behind him, jogging a few paces to catch up. "Draco-"

"No. It's fine," he said, taking a sip of his coffee and realizing that it tasted like ash in his mouth. "I asked."

"Draco," Harry said, reaching out to take hold of Draco's hand. "Wait. Please."

"What?" he asked, spinning around and looking at Harry.

Harry rubbed that back of his neck, "That's not actually why."

Draco raised an eyebrow and waited.

"Are you really going to make me say it?" he asked. When Draco said nothing Harry blurted, "Fine! I like you, okay? Is that what you wanted me to say? Now you can go ahead and tell me what a complete moron I am, thinking that you could ever-"

Draco kissed him. Right there in the middle of the sidewalk on the way to the Ministry. He pulled back before Harry had a chance to react.

Harry blinked at him, "You kissed me!"

"Well spotted."

"Why?" Harry asked as though the answer wasn't obvious to him.

"It seemed like the fastest way to make you stop talking."

He stared at him, "But-"

Draco kissed him again, "There are no buts," he said. "You sound like an insane person." He slid his fingers through Harry's and started off toward work once more. "As though anyone wouldn't like you."

"But you're not just anyone," Harry said, tugging Draco's hand until he stopped and looked at him again. "I'm serious about you Draco."

"As am I," he replied, feeling steady in a way that he wouldn't have imagined he might at confessing something of this magnitude.

"Yeah?" Harry asked.

"Yes," Draco replied, leaning in to place one more soft kiss on Harry's lips. "Now, let's get a move on before we're late for work."

And if they both walked in with big, ridiculous smiles on their faces, well, no one could say they hadn't seen this coming.

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Day 95: Petty Fighting | Day 97: Mine and Dark

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Is drarrywords still receiving hate?

I hope not. We haven't talked in a day or two and she haven't told me anything like that so I'm really hoping not..

@drarrywords are you?

Long story short, I lost the actual request.

Violinist in the rain

Maybe they were all right or maybe they were all wrong, who knows, love stories are born when they're written, only in tales but only few are born the way the way this one came into existence in the times of all that had been gone.

He was in love, he called it love, people could call him fool, an obsessed idiot maybe too but harry was in love with the enigmatic man he'd Always stalk from his window who'd only play violin when it rained. There was something so beautifully strange about the way that man so sleek and slender with his lanky coats would set a chair in the middle of the ramp and the way he played. No matter how breezy the rain was, no matter how harsh, no matter how soft, no matter the thunder, he'd play and he'd only play with the intensity of the rain. When it poured heavily, he'd play the most intense of tunes harry had ever heard and when it Rained in soft bliss, he'd play the softest tunes to ever exist. It was all as if in rain, he was trying to tell a story or Maybe understanding the story of the shower. Harry was in love.

To all whom he asked, they called him insane, called him a fool, called him naive for claiming he loved the boy across the street with no name, no identity, just referred as the violinist in the rain but harry was deterred to know who he was, how he was and why he was. He was often faced with a question as how could harry possibly be in love with a stranger but only if he could answer. It was as if he knew the violinist but then again he knew nothing but in all the times harry would stare from his window, it felt as if he was listening to him in ways that no one to walk upon the place we called Earth would've known. It was personal and it fastened Harry's heartbeat whenever he used to think about intimate everything was with so much distance.

Every inch of his body ached when he knew he couldn't see him or that he Only saw him in the rain. It only made his curiosity grow inside him, why must he only play in the rain ? Why must he only play in thunderstorm ? And harry was curious to find answers but he never understood how to. He was afraid that if he ever went to face him, he'd Run away and never come back but if he didn't, he'd never know who he is. He was dangling by a thin string and it was on harry how to balance.

And to him the idea came in the most bizarre ways while he was working in his office and he'd recieved a memo.

" OF COURSE " harry had yelled and excitedly say down once again.

The next time when it rained, harry made sure he wrote the simplest of memo " I like how you play " and sent it through his window to the violinist in the rain. Harry awaited like a passenger waiting for him to open the memo and only when the rain had stopped did he open the memo, read it and stashed it away on his pocket.

He did everytime it Rained for as long as he remembered adding something new each time, sometimes sent drawings harry occasionally drew of him and even sometimes song suggestions which he'd play in the next rain, but he never replied. He never did.

6 months, exactly 6 months it took harry to finally receive a reply back mentioned with thank you and small doodle of smile. Harry has squealed all day, smiling like a loon but could he blame. A man in love had finally received something more than a song and to him it seemed like a progress.

Another 3 weeks later when it rained, harry waited by his window waiting for the mystery man to arrive but it Rained for 5 hours, he never showed up. Harry only frowned till he slept.

Another 1 week later when it rained, he didn't show up again.

It was 3 more weeks in total when he didn't show up and harry drove crazy. It drove him too crazy that he stood in the rain like a maniac waiting but he never showed up. Frustrated with himself harry stashed all the remaining memo's he'd kept for future into the trash can and slept rather uncomfortably but harry knew better than to give up. He waited again the next night when it rained, and the night after and the night after until harry had enough. He was filled upto the brim that he bought the violin himself and played it in screeches with no tune or melody just for the satisfaction of it. But he didn't show up.

Harry wanted to give up but 3 more nights later the violinist in the rain showed up and immediately casted a stopping spell on Harry's fingers.

" I get your point. I only broke my violin and didn't had the money to buy new one" the man said as he remained under the hood, rain pouring down over every inch of his robe.

" will you play for me ?" Harry asked as he got up offering the violin to the other man.

With little hesitation the man took the violin, sat down on the chair and started playing while he remained there listening to him play like a child does when they are recited bed time Stories. To this day it was one of the best nights of his life.

The world might've called him a fool but his love was never wrong. His love was as strong as the thunderstorms that have remained hovering above us and the mountains in the Alps. He loved him with every fiber in his body and not once did he regret. This was his love story and the world could call him a fool but the Only foolishness he ever did was not asking him earlier.

He fell for the violinist in the rain and there Never existed any better love story.

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I never understood why I wanted this to be so perfect that I waited an entire month to post it and I still don't think I'd ever meet what I'm looking for in this fic. Anyways here we go.

i will admit that i'm still pissed at draco!bottom stans because of the horrid things they said in the comment section of ao3 harry!bottom fics. i feel incredibly bad for all the writers who received death threats, hurtful slurs thrown at them etc. but to base a few idiotic people on the whole fandom and sending others more hurtful things and death threats and all that over again is too much. thank you for speaking out on it.

I'm much glad to have spoken up on it. I wish I could add more but over the span of few days I think I've said a lot about it and this specific message has gotten slightly old and the matter have died out a little.

Thank you for the support though.