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I wondered if I shouldve told you all thatI I couldn't, the words that were on my lips but never dared to leave. I wondered if you'd had stayed to hold my hand a little longer if I had told you that you feel like the sun to me, if I had told you that you feel like my favourite sweater I don't ever want to throw, if I had told you that you felt like that first snitch I caught pasted in my memories so vividly, if I had told you that you feel like the river I had never been to but always felt like home, if I had told you that you felt like the track I'd listen to without ever getting bored or the music that I'd always dance to even when my legs stop working, if I had told you that being with you felt like going to the end of the world just to breath because you helped me breath when the rest of the world wouldn't let me breath, if I had told you that being with you felt like floating in a galaxy full of stars that Only I had known, if I had told you that being with you felt like the simplest of Infinities come true. I wondered if you'd had stayed if I had told you that your silver eyes shone brighter than the moon in the dark night, I wondered if you'd had stayed if I had given you my heart and never asked for it back, I wonder if you'd had stayed if I told you that I want to grow old with you, that I want to spend the rest of my life with you, that I want to share all the rest of my dances with you, that you can have my heart and keep it with yours so we're together forever.

I wonder if you'd had stayed if I had stopped you. I wondered if you'd had stayed.

I'm so sorry for running so short on updates, I've been working on something new and big, so my updates would remain microfics for a few more days despite the fact that I'm trying to work on a new chapter. I apologise for the less frequent updates from me, I'm sincerely sorry.

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The Butterfly effect 

- Part 4 

“ Boyce- Hi” Harry announced as he walked into the bakery the next time he paid him a visit. 

Boyce looked at Harry strangely as he should’ve, walking closer to the counter to get his order “You’re here again- What can I get you ?” 

Harry tried to dissolve the unknown tension with a smile and whatever absurd thing that came in his head “ I want to take something that’s soft but also something to take on a date type thing” 

The man looked at him weirdly and Harry was sure that by the looks of it he was going to hand him a random cake or muffin but for the progress to be made he knew he had to do what it takes. 

“ You didn’t answer my question the other day you know “ Harry said as he took out his wallet to pay for the thing he knew he wasn’t going to eat. 

“ What question ?” Boyce lied.

“ You know- If you believed magic was real or not ?” Harry smiled 

Boyce sighed “ Listen- are you writing a children’s book or what ?”

Harry immediately got confused and picked up the cup cakes he packed him “ why would I write a children book ?” 

“ Why would you ask a random person a random question ?” he questioned back.

Harry shook his head then without putting out a defense gave up and walked out of the bakery with a dissatisfied sigh and dropped the cupcakes back at his place for ginny. 

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“ Hermione- I really need the allowance” Harry snapped, once again, the 3rd time this week.  

“ And I’ve been consistently saying I’ve been trying to do my best- Merlin Harry you can be so impatient sometimes “ she snapped back. 

Harry collapsed back down on the chair, breathing rather raggedly “ It- its just I’m running out on time” 

“ How long do you have ?” Hermione countered 

“ I don’t exactly know but I’m taking a week off for wedding- so that leaves me with only 3 weeks” Harry answered. 

Hermione looked at her watch on the table knowing fully well their time together had ran out and she had another meeting to go to. She finally looked up at him “ I’ll try to get the allowance in two more days okay- can you do that ? In the meantime try thinking out of the box- from a different perspective” she suggested

“ I’ve already done that- several times but it leads nowhere except for why most of Draco’s statements end with L’appel du vide “ Harry sighed 

“ What does it mean?” 

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Harry hunched over the chair once again, his hands supporting his head as he read the highlighted words he made with a disappointed and dissatisfied expression. 

“ Why do you keep saying those words by the end ?” Harry whispered in the air. 

“ Need a break ?” he heard from the door and Harry looked up to find Ron standing at the doorway, his hands in his pocket. 

“ I don’t need a break- I need to break into Azkaban and get the visitors register- that’s what I need “ Harry sighed. Ron chuckled, shutting the door behind him with a kick of his leg and taking the chair before Harry’s desk. 

“ I know Hermione is working on the allowance- just trust her, you know how slow the ministry can be” Ron shrugged. Harry thought about it for a moment then nodded knowing exactly how ministry can be. 

“ Just talk to me about it- anything but the case “ Ron suggested 

Harry sighed again “ I haven’t done my wedding shopping yet- I know Ginny have but I’ve just been trying to complete cases after cases so I can take a couple of days off you know but it’s getting a little exhausting “ 

Ron nodded understandably then as if something struck his mind he said “ I’d do your clothing shopping “ 

“ What ?” 

“ Of course I can do that- I’ve done your shopping before and we’ve practically grown up together so I know what looks good on you and what doesn’t and what you like- I can help with that, How does that sound ?” Ron suggested 

Harry frowned impressively “ Really insensitive on my part for the wedding but it takes a load off me, so yeah that would just be fantastic “ 

“ Anytime mate, I’m here for you “ Ron smiled and Harry grinned back knowing he really had his back for everything. 

“ Apart from that everything is fine with you- right ?” Ron asked, concerned. 

Harry nodded his head “ Of course” 

“ So anything else I can help with- maybe a treacle tart, running lose in Azkaban, bombarding those cells, casting john on fire ?” 

Harry laughed “ Believe every single one of them is what I want to do but I can’t, apparently I need to think outside the box “ 

“ Outside the box? What do you mean ?” Ron asked 

“ Hermione is suggesting that I’m missing out on something but I’ve already read the files over 5 times, not just Draco’s but his fathers and even his mother but I’m really in a puzzle because Lucius is dead and Narcissa is nowhere to be found, at least according to me” Harry explained 

“ What about any family friends ?” Ron asked 

“ Been trying to track down Parkinson but I don’t even know if it’s the right Parkinson I’m even tracking” Harry told him 

Ron frowned “ Pansy did run out of sight “ Harry nodded, agreeing. 

“ What about the goyle or the Crabbe’s ?” 

“ Lost contact after the war” 

“ Zabini ?” 

“ Out of continent “

“ Theodore Nott ?” 

“ Out of- Wait, who ?” Harry confusedly asked 

“ Theodore Nott, the 4th member in their group, well not really-really but Theodore used to be Draco’s friend till 5th year- don’t you remember the Tall guy- black hair, used to wear really expensive shoes-Oh- Draco and him used to laugh a lot together- well insulted but still- why again are you trying to defend that douche ?” Ron questioned with a distasteful look 

“ It doesn’t matter why, I just think he’s innocent and incapable of committing a murder- but I don’t remember any Theodore “ Harry frowned 

Ron poked his chin thinking then something struck him again “They used to go to the library together- he was good at studies” 

“ Tall, black-haired you say?”

“ As I can recall “ Ron shrugged 

“ Guess, I’ll pay him a visit- where do I find him ?” 

“ London Real estate, last where I heard of him” 

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“ I don’t know why you had to bring me with you “ Ron grumbled by Harry’s side. 

“ I didn’t want to be embarrassed alone” Harry mumbled. 

“ Mr. Potter- He’s ready to see you “ His assistant smile and they gave her a firm smile and walked through the doors into the large maple wood loft-like room, which was just his meeting office.

” I know why you’re here, “ he said before Harry or Ron could’ve even said Hello, even though they had planned that they would but apparently easier said than done.

” I really need your help “ Harry sighed

” I haven’t been in the wizarding world for almost 7 years now- I know you got Draco’s case- trust me I have sources- but even if try to convince that he is a murderer- he’s innocent, he wouldn’t ever-“

” Exactly- I know he’s innocent “ Harry interjected

Theo frowned then pulled himself back into the chair. Ron and Harry finally sat down in the chair in front of his desk and leaned forward.

” I want enough proof to convince that Draco’s innocent-“

” But you’re running against him “ Theo interrupted

” it’s a long story- right now- all I need is everything that you can tell me about Draco’s childhood- his gardener if you remember?“

” bloomy Ben ?“

” the what Ben ?“

” The Bloomy Ben- that’s what Draco used to call him at least- he really looked upto him. He told me he was heartbroken the day he told him that Ben needed to move away for a while for his study-“

” what study ?“

” I really don’t know- Draco and I were never close friend’s alright, we just had crappy conversations Sometimes okay but I only know that Ben moved away for a while- it happened during the school break and by the time Draco even heard from him- he was already running his own botanist farm or something like that-“

” A botanist farm ?“ Ron interjected this time

” yeah- His botanist farm- he used to study- botany there- a lot of different cures for a lot of magic went wrong- and used to make potions out of his plants but that is the most I know- he used to stop talking about Ben after a while “ Theodore explained, ending with a shrug, expressing that he never understood why Draco did it.

” anything you can think of why he’d suddenly stop talking about him ?“ Harry asked

” I think because it hurt him talking about Ben- as I said he really looked up to him “ Theo shrugged.

Ron and Harry nodded after a while understandably.

” are you perhaps in touch with Narcissa ? Draco’s mom?“

Theo shook his head ” but I know Pansy is- they were really good friends and not just because of Draco “

” what do you mean?“ Harry asked again

” just- they had their own stuff- Narcissa never had a daughter so Pansy was almost like a daughter to her “

” are you in touch with Pansy ?“

” as I said- I’ve been out of wizarding World for almost 7 years- I have no relationship with anyone I used to have with “ Theodore disappointedly sighed.

Harry understandably looked at him then offered his thanks for helping him out with everything he could.

” Pansy would definitely know “ Ron said on his way back and Harry nodded muttering what Theo had said in the room.

” You wanna take a cake ?“ Ron suddenly asked

Harry followed his line of sight then immediately shook his head ” oh no- Boyce pretty much Hates me- He thinks I’m weird “

Ron shrugged ” Fair enough “ and they walked back to the office once again.

When Ron finally left to work on his own case, Harry put a pin on the pinboard.

” Draco Malfoy “

And the next pin he made on the board was “L'appel du vide ”

“ Ben ”

“anonymous statements ”

Lastly “ why did John visit ?”

This took me forever to write due to lack of motivation and I’m still so disappointed with the way the chapter even turned out. Anyways Thanks for cooperation with my busy schedule and less frequent updates.

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5,6,19 in one single fic of draco being in azkaban

The Butterfly Effect

It lacks my skill to make it into a one shot and I apologize for it. This will be continued in parts. 

Dialogue Prompts - 5 - “ Why are you doing that ?” “Doing what ?” “ Treating me like a person” //6. “Sometimes memories are the worst form of torture” // 19. “ I lo–” “ No, please.. Don’t say that. You love her/him, not me” 

Cold stirred inside the cell, a heavy cloud of mist settling in and the grey walls screeched as he scratched another day over the walls. Day 150. He dropped the stone over the ground making sure to make no noise but the rustling of the door awakened the beast and it crawled towards him. He shimmied back into the corner until no corner was left to fit into and he whimpered begging the mercy from the beast to let him go but what a deaf beast would know.

The beast took its bite, sucked his memory and left over the ground was a filled with tears Draco Malfoy waiting for the numbness to settle in. His life was becoming more meaningless than it ever had been, only now, he didn’t had anything more left to offer.

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To the guy at the cafe

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His life was as simple as they say that comes and goes with little to zero obstructions in life living in a closeted small muggle suburb in this all white and black apartment enjoying his life, partying with friends, having a secure job, family like friends and no money crisis until he had met him in the randomest of moments in a cute little cafe down the wilmont valley when having lost his way during one of the work meetings. It was a random subtle friday when he had stopped by to get a coffee and call someone from work to ask for directions when his eyes had laid upon the guy in the denim jacket behind the counter with a dimpled smile and circled glasses he never changed. He remembered how he had lied that day and the day after and the day after that because he loved to see him everyday with his new designs on his coffee mug and he lied about living not far, lied about having a cool job until the day he had came into the cafe and it was empty and Harry had said with his charming smile" i get free at 7, call me i'll come to your place so you don't have to come here every morning just because you want to see me. I want to see you as much as you want to see me, okay"

Draco had walked off grinning that day and then he realised , he never knew what love was, until he met him; Again and he never forgot what Love was anymore.

I can hardly believe I wrote something this cheesy

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No strings attached

"You asked me the other day whether i thought that I the concept of soulmates was just a concept of consolation for people who had bad love experiences and I didn't had an answer then but I do have one now. No I do not believe that the concept of soulmates is a matter of consolation because then perhaps a lot of people might have never met, like you and me. I think somewhere you think that the whole soulmate concept is stupid but I think otherwise. You see if we weren't destined then we would've never forgave each other but soulmates are platonic too. I think you and I are platonic soulmates with no strings attached who just enjoy being with each other and understand each other like no one else does but I can't help but wonder if you'd always see me like that. I see you, Harry, the way you are, the person you are and in whole who you are and wonder how can someone like you not believe in love when love is right here in front of you. Yes I love you harry and not platonically or pretend boyfriend kind of way. I know I wasn't supposed to fall for you but I have, and all I wonder is if you'd ever see me as more- "

Harry read it 4 more times before he put it away in his pocket with a heavy sigh escaping his lips.

" what are you doing here ?" Draco asked as he peered from the room door

" just searching for my watch, I left it last time " Harry replied with a fake smile in a haste clearly hiding the fact that he just found out Draco's secret confession letter.

Draco nodded leaving him alone and all Harry thought of as he left was that how much he could love Draco in the most simplest ways and with strings attached.

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salt 

Harry covered himself under the shade of the umbrella he bought and the sunlight hovering over the rest of his body. It was finally nice being at the beach to relax and to just be around nature. This was a much needed break from the over tiring work he had at the office, seeing files after files of immense amount of cases he had lost count of and everyone still fanning over him as soon as he’d walk in. It was just him, the beach, the sun, the soft music, nice wind, and natural sound of the trees wailing and the seals making noises far off in distance. He had laid his head back and closed his eyes after reading the magazine and had gotten only 5 minutes of relaxation when he heard the water whip harshly with something. He groaned to himself and raised his head, pushing his shades at the bridge of the nose and watched as his menace of a boyfriend walked towards Harry, embarrassed. 

Harry raised his eyebrows just as he stood by his bench. 

“ In case you didn’t know the water was awfully salty and definitely not tasty” 

Harry shook his head and laid his head back against his bench again smiling to himself “Menace” 

“ In my defense the fish was very very beautiful” Draco rolled his eye and collapsed on top of Harry. 

Harry let out a small laugh wrapping his arms around Draco’s torso instantly “ of course it was ”

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Picture in the Wallet

Request by @flakeyakey : Draco being obsessed with kittens

Everyone knew, to say Draco wasn't as subtle as he pretended himself to be. Underneath all the layers of his leather jacket and floral shirts and the rugged jeans he wore so often along with the tattoos scarred over his body and the mean boy earring hooked on single ear, he was a softie. He was as soft as the pashmina shawl and despite his attempts to convince others he wasn't soft, he failed repeatedly. It was like he'd walk around the halls, the street's, literally anywhere with his chin held high and the hair that didn't move even a little bit from the Initial position but when left alone he was just another boy who liked fuzzy socks and soft pink sweaters he bought online and a good hot cup of cocoa in his bear shaped mug he hid from everybody but literally everyone knew. One look at the kittens and he'd melt like a chocolate in the microwave.

It happened really early on during Harry's date with Draco when he discovered that Draco was terrible at trying to control himself from being around kittens when they had got a weekend off and went to the beach. If Harry vividly remembers, he went down to the truck to get the left over basket and upon walking nearer to the place he saw Draco cuddling and rubbing the back of the kittens ear he found around the bushes in the back but when Harry had finally arrived near him, Draco had refused of having even seen any kitten. Harry had let it be assuming that it was perhaps just because they had Just started going out.

The second time Harry secretly noticed Draco being lovable with kittens was when they had decided to set up a late evening date at the park. Apparently due to halloween the work load in the office had been too much that they had barely been able to see each other and so they had decided a little outdoorsy date for a while which however Harry still came by late but he didn't regret it when he saw Draco playing with the kitten behind the tree and laughing and giggling. Harry had stood away for a while just watching Draco for a few more moments locking it away how his face just lit up when he was around kittens. Harry assumed that I might be possible that Draco like dogs or puppies too but his questions were answered that he wasn't as fond of the dogs as much as he was with kittens, Harry could work with that. However Draco still refused of being around any animals.

The third, forth and the fifth time Harry noticed was when he deliberately ran by late to the morning run. After having discovered that Draco liked being around kittens, Harry would try to find any opportunity to see him with kittens as much as possible but it seemed as if that to Draco his love for kittens wasn't supposed to shared with or told, like a secret love only the kittens and him knew and Harry admired that but he wished that sometimes Draco would stop pretending to be such a toughie or to pretend to be strong all the time but no matter how many times Harry pointed at a kitten while on their runs or their dates or anywhere else, Draco would just shrug as if he didn't want anything to do with them. Harry waited for him to tell one day but an year went by and Draco still didn't tell Harry about his Love for kittens. Now, Harry was a patient man and a caring man but he'd do anything to see the smile on Draco's face he saw secretly when he was the kittens, so, on the date after they had celebrated their one year anniversary a week ago, he surprised him.

" where are we going ?" Draco asked Linking his arms with those of Harry's and shoving them in his pocket.

" you'll see " Harry smiled.

They took a few more turns and walked a couple more blocks when Harry finally spoke up.

" remember how I told you I had a post anniversary gift for you ?" Harry asked.

Draco nodded " I told you that you didn't had to get me anything though"

" I want to- anyways- I know that it is secret between you and youself but I always see you around them and I couldn't help it so-"

" animal shelter ?" Draco asked as he looked up at the sign.

Harry nodded " Don't be mad at me alright- my friend donates here and he told me about this place and if it feels like I'm invading your privacy I'm sorry but I just want you to have fun and not trying to conceal yourself " Harry spoke softly.

" I don't conceal myself " Draco shrugged even though he knew he was lying.

Harry smiled at him then linked their fingers and Walked inside the place.

" You must be Wally- I'm Harry, we talked over the phone " Harry said to the guy standing near the entrance.

" oh of course- I can't thank you enough for-"

" don't mind- we're just here to be with them"

Wally nodded grinning " right this way " and led them to the back.

" Are you mad ?" Harry asked as he turned his head toward Draco.

Draco shook his head but Harry knew he was upset that he found out.

When they finally it out in the back Wally had already managed to release a few kittens and puppies in the back running around behind each other and Harry didn't fail to capture Draco's lips curving a little when he saw those animal's.

" it's for you- you can stay here as Long as you want" Harry smiled.

" Harry-"

" it's my gift" Harry nodded. Wally left them alone.

Draco turned to the animals then to Harry " you know I'm not happy you figured this out"

" well you won't be happy to know that Basically everyone knows you're a softie" Harry chuckled watching as Draco kneeled down and picked one of the nearest kitten and rubbing it's nose lightly chuckling at the kitten.

" Well- if everyone knows I can't help it- awh- look at you" Draco swooned and this time he sat down cross legged over the ground cuddling another kitten in his arms and kissing the top of its head.

Harry watched as Draco cooed and cuddled with as many kittens as possible and he had to say he had never seen Draco more happy, more alive. Harry had always known that behind the facade that Draco had managed to put up every day without a single fault, he knew there was a part of him that yearned for more but as Harry sat there with puppies in his own hands and watching Draco with kittens, he realised this was probably one of his favourite memories from every moment they spent together. They had amazing moments, not deal broken but this right here watching him completely lose himself with the kittens and laughing in his own self, kissing the kittens and scolding them even and then taking in his arms and apologizing to it, Harry had never felt himself falling more in love with this man than right now. He clicked a picture of Draco with the Polaroid he carried when he wasn't watching and safely kept it inside his wallet knowing whenever he'd go from now, he'd be with him and that worked pretty well for Harry even though it was this moment that he knew he probably never even wanted to walk away from him, ever but even if someday they did separate, Draco would still be there, in a picture in his wallet.

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The Decoration Disaster

Prompt Day 1- Holiday Decorating 

Harry peeked at the list once again and sighed in satisfaction upon realizing there’s only one thing left to buy and so without delay he entered the last shop. 

“ Christmas shopping huh ?” The shopkeeper smiled at him when he was billing his item. 

Harry nodded smiling knowing the man saw his other bags “ You know how it can be” 

“ Tell me all about it kid, been doing it for 30 years ” He chuckled and handed him his items and Harry left the store after wishing him a good day and a good christmas. 

He walked back down the streets, nowhere else to go but home. Christmas was probably the one time of the year Harry seemed to enjoy the most now despite of how much he didn’t enjoy it when he was a kid. In his life he had no complaints anymore, infact he have never lived a more merry life, especially now that he was finally settled in a good stable relationship and was infact their first christmas since they moved in together. As they all say when you meet the one, or when you fall in love, everyday seems like another day worth waking upto, he definitely took it seriously. But honestly after everything that Harry had been through he belives he deserved it now more than ever and he was more than Happy to share this holiday time with the man he loves too much. Sounds cliche, I know.

Harry entered his loft aka apartment, and settled the bags down over the kitchen isle and just then the door opened and the love of his life walked in.

" got the tree ?" Harry asked pacing towards him.

" of course" Draco smiled and he pulled Harry closer to himself making Harry circle his arms around his neck, tipping over his toes a little and placing a soft kiss on his nose.

" I missed you today " Harry smiled bumping his nose side by side with Draco as if he was a baby.

" I was only gone for a few hours, so were you. Geez if you can't survive a few hours without me then you'll die the moment I leave you " Draco teased.

" Well you can't leave anymore, because- you're mine " Harry replies placing a kiss over his lips for a short second " and if you'll leave I'll probably die so you know I'd only have to survive a second without you, I can handle that "

" Are you sure ?" Draco teased again.

Harry smiled then kissed him again, properly this time " No " he mumbled and resumed kissing him again.

They Only broke out of their session of making out against the door when the bag of bells and licorice dropped from Draco's hands to the side creating the sonorous sound.

" wow- you really went on it " Draco whispered against his lips.

" well I was giving you an example of what you'd miss if you leave me- so now you can't leave me- ever " Harry replied titling his head and grinning then stepped away and collected the bag from the ground, Draco joining along.

They walked into the kitchen and dropped the bags Draco bought over the counter and started looking briefly through things to make sure nothing was forgotten.

Just as Draco noticed Harry was about to speak up, he spoke up himself " the tree will be delivered, don't worry about it"

Harry shut his lips then smiled " I knew I chose the right man " Draco chuckled over it.

They spent the rest of the hour unpacking the bags and segregating the thing's they had to decorate the house with and the one's to decorate the tree with. After having done the final segregation Harry left to decided to get his toolbox and get started with the decorations.

Apparently decoration wasn't as much of a piece of a cake they assumed it to be because Draco liked all the wreaths to go on one wall but Harry liked one on each wall and since Harry was up on the ladder he could barely keep in mind the aligning of the tinsels they were trying to put in a shape of Christmas tree of and despite the fact that to Draco it seemed fine when Harry got off the ladder, they weren't.

" you said you were looking " Harry sighed

" I was " Draco whined " but your body was blocking half of it- and you know I can't resist looking at your body- so technically it's your fault " he shrugged taking another bite from his chocolate.

" oh put down that chocolate- it's already your fifth one " Harry scrunched his face snatching the box of chocolates away from Draco's hands and tossing them over the kitchen isle.

" again your fault- you bought them " Draco shrugged taking another bite from his chocolate.

Harry could had so easily been mad at him for being distracted instead of helping him out but with a face like Draco and him eating chocolate, the combination of getting mad didn't go so well and instead he started laughing and wrapped his arms around Draco from behind, keeping his chin over Draco's shoulder and kissing the side of his neck. Draco too covered Harry's hands with his own, interlocking their finger's.

" what do you say we don't change this decoration and let it be imperfect?" Harry suggested.

Draco frowned, impressed " I'd say I like that very much- It'll be like our improvised shit Christmas decorations "

Harry laughed " it would be- besides I like it the imperfect way- what matters is that we did it together- well you more than me, you just stood here eating chocolate " he strolled

" hey" Draco sang " I did help you- I didn't try to tackle you down the stairs despite my very very high desires to have you in your grey sweats "

Harry shook his head blushing. Draco still had that affect on him, even after two years but then it wasn't something he ever really complained about, he rather enjoyed it, especially when Draco him blush.

" Can you do the fire place for me ?" Harry asked unwrapping his arms from around Draco's.

" me ? Seriously- I'm not good at it " Draco complained.

" perfect then- we're going the bad way so It works perfectly well " Harry shrugged and 20 minutes later when he came back to check the fire place decoration he knew he was right to think that Draco had a talent of making anything look beautiful.

" thought you'd do it the bad way " Harry teased taking one chocolate out of the box and eating it.

" I did it the bad way first but then if someone comes over and asks who did the bad decorations it'll be easier to blame you- so- you're going down Harry Potter " Draco ended the sentence with a heavy challenging voice which only made Harry laugh harder than he thought possible.

" Baby trust me- that voice sounded like a 5 year old tried to do the monster voice " Harry said between laughs.

Draco rolled his eyes " one day you're gonna regret making fun of that voice- be ready to be scared one of these nights "

" then I'll be sure to sleep with my safety pillow" he still didn't stop laughing and at some point even though Draco tried to be mad he couldn't be so he ended up laughing at himself. But that was them, in their imperfect love bubble and it wasn't so bad after all.

At the end of the day when they had finished decorating the House with lights, garlands and few more tensils they had managed to make their apartment look perfect in their own way which they stored away in a small Polaroid and set it over the fire place.

The apartment had seen many holidays but this, it was the best Holidays that ever happened because after all Christmas isn't about the perfect tree or the perfect decorations or the perfect parties, sometimes it's just about having a few people over and making the best of Memories to carry on in the future.

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Day 2 - Man in the Sketch

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Today marks the first day of the HP de-stress December i’ve decided to do. I’ll try to be as regular as possible even if I have to push things aside. I know how things had been lately ( busy ) but because I'm back to feeling slightly motivated. So Here’s to a christmasy December and Great holiday season.

Man in the sketch

Day 2- Butterbeer for @hpdestress December fluff fest

Typical December.

The snowfall outside took on slight of a rage before anyone could have even thought of an aid making them drench in mist and snowfall covering their eyelashes but Harry had been cleverer than the rest and saw it coming. It was typical of December especially around the holiday time to take such a turn but It didn't stop him from spending his afternoon in the Mama bouchè cafe at diagon alley.

" Its snowing pretty strong outside" Merwin, the waiter who was cleaning the table next to Harry said.

" same thing, another year" Harry chuckled.

Merwin nodded knowing he was right " How's the Sketches coming along ?"

Harry titled his head towards him " Honestly I got fed up of doing at home so I'm going to draw here today- sort of typical Before Christmas December here I guess-"

" or you can always draw me " Merwin posed with his right leg behind the left leg and leaning over the table.

Harry softly laughed then shook his head " As good of a poser you are I still have some incomplete works to do"

" Then I'll go back to my boring job" Merwin distastefully nodded then bid his byes.

Harry had known Merwin for long enough now to know that he apparently didn't like his job that much but the money here helped him pay his rent and his college fees which worked hand in hand. And despite that Harry would suggest him to leave often, he would only end the statement with " to get something , you gotta lose something. In this case, I lose my beautiful charm ". Merwin was an absolutely amazing guy but so out of reach for Harry and not because he couldn't date him or had anything wrong but Merwin was a couple years younger than Harry and that made them see each other more as brother-friend's than someone you'd date.

Harry took out from his bags the folders and files and lastly his case of brushes, pens and pencil and began working on his incomplete works. As something once his healer adviced him, to distract himself with something new once, he took it seriously and eventually created more than just a simple hobby for art. Now he drew almost every hour of his day he wasn't working, even on the trains he used to travel. To his friends it seemed a bit frustrating because he spent more time with his Sketchbook than them but at the end of the day, Art made Harry happy no matter how or why, it just did and he was glad that he had at least one thing nobody could take from him.

Halfway through the drawings he was doing, he had craned his neck to straighten his posture up when he looked around the cafe and noticed the guy on the other side of the table, his back facing Harry but there was something about the elegant way he was sitting that he reminded Harry of someone very vividly. The straight posture, elbows over the table and one leg crossed over another reminded him of Someone so strongly yet he couldn't pin who. Before he even knew he was abandoning his works and started a new drawing, of the guy sitting across tables.

Harry's hand worked faster by each second and his finger's running on mile high. His eyes moved from the man to his sketch book too fast that it seemed like he was only catching glimpses until the moment the man's head turned a little and Harry was able to notice the sweet, perfect shape of his nose, the pointed nose and the shape of his lips, very blurred but a peek was enough for Harry that he might be the most handsome man he had ever laid his eyes upon. He stared at him for a little too long and then longer than that, finding himself lost until the man turned again and Harry went back to his Sketchbook and erased the side of the head and started drawing the shape of his nose and small portion of lips he caught his eyes on. He worked very carefully on the miniscule details when suddenly he realised he needed to look again to just notice something but when he raised his head, he was gone.

" This is from the guy you were drawing" Merwin said with a smile and kept the mug of Butterbeer in front of Harry.

" who ?"

" him "Merwin pointed Harry's drawing.

Harry looked at the empty chair again and then sighed, he'd probably never see him again.

" did he say anything else ?" Harry asked

Merwin shrugged " I don't think so, just told me to give you a Butterbeer"

" Do you at least know his name ?" Harry asked

Merwin shook his head, apologising right after.

Harry shook his head too, giving him a smile.

Over the next few days as Harry visited the cafe often, stopped by to ask of that guy, even sat for long hours in hopes to see him again but it didn't happen. All his attempts unfortunately were failing and he couldn't do anything about it until the day when Harry was alone in the cafe and Merwin had taken a loo break when the door chimed and Harry instantly looked up. The man's head was covered in a scarf and hat but he knew it was him, he knew he was the man from the Sketches.

Harry had stared at him as he came and sat down, his back facing him and taking off his hat and the scarf. Harry could swore it was him but he will couldn't see him.

Just one look, one look is all he was asking for.

But as this day Harry started working on the eyes he saw as the man had walked into the cafe he felt the chair on his side being pulled and someone settling down.

" Butterbeer ?" The man smiled.

Harry smiled back " I knew it was you"

" of course it was me" He laughed lightly

" it's always you " Harry mumbled smiling.

" it's always me " he repeated.

" so Butterbeer ?"

" Sure " Harry smiled.

Day 1 - the decorations disaster|| Day 3- All I want For Christmas Is You

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All I Want For Christmas Is You

Day 3- Holiday music 

The place swamped more and more as the snowfall grew stronger minute by minute. It was almost as if a blizzard had come but it was just typical Britain snowfall. Harry served minute after minute, keeping a content smile over his face as he served to people after people even though his feets were killing him and his back was practically dying to be stretched out but with the snow outside and the Holiday season overhead he barely had anytime, not even to stretch and like a cherry on top the new waiter just dropped the muffin and the coffee of a customer. 

“ You look at the counter, i’ll clean the- your mess” Harry told the new waiter and picked up the mop and the dustpan. The waiter scurried away in a slight fear that he was going to lose his job and went off to the counter like Harry had said so.

Harry stretched his back as he cleaned the floor along with the spill and took it to the back and stood there for a few moments, letting his exhaustion wear down a little but not even a second later the same waiter came in and asked for Harry’s help. 

“ Its one heck of a day” Harry mumbled to himself as he followed the waiter to the counter. 

“ How can I serve you today sir ?” Harry asked kindly

“ I ordered a blueberry muffin, instead I got a vanilla cupcake and I definitely did not order a latte yet somehow I have this “ The customer slid Harry the order the waiter had messed up. 

Harry looked at the waiter who held an apologetic look. He shook his head. 

“ Here- take this- chocolate brownies are our specialty- on the house and i’ll be right with you with your order” Harry easily said.

The customer smiled hesitantly at Harry then went back to his seat.

" Olli- I thought you were getting better" Harry scolded him a Little.

Olli, the new waiter Apologised again " I'll take the correct order"

Harry sighed then served the correct order on the plate and made him deliver.

He was about to tend the next customer when his phone kept on the counter rang, "Ferret". He pushed the ignore button instantly and rendered the needs of the customer but five more times in a row made him impatient and he was forced to leave the counter and to go in the back and pick up the call.

" what ?" Harry snapped lightly.

" Wow- wonder if every boyfriend treats their boyfriends like this or is it just me- a special treatment" Draco muttered.

" Draco- dear I don't have the time- I'm running on a very tight schedule- can this wait ?" Harry asked impatiently.

" I- Nevermind " Draco replied disappointed.

Harry sighed knowing he had ruined whatever Draco was about to say and even his mood.

" I'm sorry but it's just, the cafe is filled with people and the snow isn't helping either- I'm gonna be stuck here for a long time I suppose- I wish I could come home early"

" But this was supposed to be our dinner night" Draco whined a little

" I know- and I know I promised but I'm stuck- I wish I could do something but- yeah one second I'll be there- yeah- I wish I could come early, I really do but I'm just stuck " Harry explained.

Draco sighed on the call " I understand- I wish you could make time- it feels like you have a much more stressful job than I have when I am the one who have to look after students making dangerously new potions everyday "

Harry smiled to himself " I love you"

" I love you too" then eventually unwillingly they cut the call and Harry got back to work.

Almost 45 minutes later of still ever-growing crowd and serving back and forth, billing and cleaning the mess, the door chimed again and Harry had almost lost it if it wasn't for the familiar man turning the sign board of the cafe to closed.

" we can't be closed yet" Olli Whispered to Harry.

Harry shook his head and the man turned around and walked right upto the counter.

" Since you couldn't make time for me- I came for you- this goes two ways " Draco smiled at Harry.

He shook his head at the absurdity but he couldn't deny that seeing Draco had lit up his day more than anything had today.

" listen up everyone- this- all of you- tonight is a special night with my beloved boyfriend but apparently he couldn't make time for me- but I could and here I am and I know this is a very crowded place and everything but God- this is getting dull- so-"

" Karaoke " Olli whispered yelled.

Draco turned his head to Olli and nodded, smiling " jukebox- I know how much you love your work Harry but I want to be with you even if it means being with you here all night just watching you- so here I am even if you want to throw me out of the cafe but-" he paused and put in a quarter in the jukebox machine he bought, the song beginning to sing and Draco pointed his finger at Harry then sang along " All I want for christmas is you "

The place dissolved in short laughs and a warmer surrounding as Draco continued singing while watching Harry who was just leaning on the counter watching him sing his heart out. It wasn't long before Harry shook his head and jumped over the counter to Draco and pulled him closer by the scarf around his neck.

" You're an idiot you know that?"

" an idiot in love perhaps ?" Draco suggested.

Harry shook his head smiling " An idiot I love" and kissed Draco with everything he had, everything he had to hold himself back from the entire day and the love that ran in his body for Draco, all poured out into that one moment. The thing was that sometimes they can't make time for one another, Sometimes the work becomes too much that they end up not even seeing each other but no matter what happened or no matter what may come, Harry and Draco were sure of one thing, that Love doesn't just happen and end up in happy ever after. There are moments that hurt, there are moments that leads to fights, there are so many more moments of disappointment but instead of finding a reason to not be with each other, they'd run back home knowing that if love was somewhere for them, it was in each other, even if it meant that they had to work hard and put through a lot and they were proud to do whatever they could do be with each other, even if that singing in the middle of a busy cafe along to the Christmas songs. At the end of the day when they'd curl into each other, it would all be worth it.

Day 2- Man in the sketch || Day 4-Coming home

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Coming Home

Day 4 - Fireplace/ floo 

The low hymn of the music played, the wine already set on the table and the food ready out of kitchen and over to the dinning table. Harry set up the laptop on the table, an evident but perfect distance from the plate and himself. He shuddered a breath, fixing his collar one last time then just for a good measure turned on the camera to see how he looked and how did the lighting look.

Apparently not so good.

He got up and set a fire in the fire place behind him which immediately enlightened the room and he checked the lighting in the camera once again. Satisfied this time, he settled down into the chair and logged into his skype and called Draco.

The bud-boop sound continued for a while until finally Draco picked up the call.

" Hi- Draco-uh- Dray- your camera's off" Harry said first.

" oh- shit- right " and the screen immediately lit up after that and Draco became visible on the screen.

Draco paused for a while just smiling at Harry that he was almost scared that his video was stuck but soon he spoke up " Hi " it was a content smile that made Harry smile himself.

" Hey " Harry grinned.

" Ready for the date ?" Draco asked lightly chuckling.

Harry nodded " I made sausage and kale lasagna "

Draco smiled knowing it was his favourite " I made Indian- your favourite- chicken curry and rice "

He smiled and without any further delay they started acting out how they did when they weren't on a virtual date, talking about all sorts of things, even thing's that didn't make sense and the most random complaint about people the other didn't know exist.

45 minutes later they had pushed aside the food and Harry was leaning over the table with one of how elbow on the table drinking his wine with the other hand.

" and so I told him he can take his tiny rats ass and work with someone else who gave him attention like a baby- I mean we were supposed to be working together and he completely relied on me for all of the things- it's like being with baby only much worse " Draco groaned.

Harry let out a low chuckle " I mean what did you expect from Tyler anyways- remember the time when he cracked up a joke about a baby and nobody laughed and he was pissed at everyone because no one did-"

" I know- He really needs to grow up. It's just annoying at this point and you won't believe there's two of them" Draco gave a big eye roll.

Harry eyes widened in a surprise " there's two of them " he laughed

" Yes- wasn't one enough, now I have to work with stupid Miller too- he's even got an annoying voice " Draco added.

Harry shook his head laughing " Oh Dray, poor you"

" exactly- pity me, poor me" Draco sighed.

A little while later after Harry was done talking about the new album of the backstreet boys and how they had really outdid themselves but Harry's favourite was still Incomplete by backstree and a bit more of how Harry only liked slow song's like those while Draco liked more the stuff of Fall out boys and Beatles or Greenday, that was until Draco caught sight behind Harry and saw the newly built fireplace.

" you got it repaired?"

" actually- I repaired it myself- well ever since you're gone, I don't have much to do so I have ample time on the weekend's- so- I did it myself- I had nothing better to do and nothing special happened at work" Harry explained shrugging right after.

Draco sighed then leaned back in his chair " Well it looks great"

Harry sensed his tone and added " And ?"

" And what ?" Draco questioned back

" you know there's more to that sentence, you know I know it too " Harry replied.

Draco sighed then leaned forward over his own table and slumped down, his chin over his crossed arms in a soft look " it's just sometimes I worry"

" Worry, about what?" Harry asked frowning.

" about us- you- it's not like I'm insecure or anything but it's just I worry that we won't have enough time for each other or how I'm not there with you worries every second of everyday-"

" but I'm absolutely fine- there's nothing going on-"

" I know " Draco dragged on " I just- I want us to be together- I'm afraid I won't be home for Christmas. With the way everything is going around I feel like I'll have to stay around a bit longer"

Harry remained silent for a while. They had been doing long distance relationship for about 3 month's ever since Draco had to work at the countryside of Britain on some other case. They understood the work was important but this distance was killing both of them, not being able to see each other was just too much.

" it'll be fine- we'll spend some other time together- let's say when you come back home that is whenever you do we'll do a Christmas theme date" Harry said as a compensation

" it still won't be Christmas and it won't be the same Harry- I- I want to be with you- like all the time. I know I say we'll work through it and that I can do the long distance but I can't"

" but you said you could ?" Harry countered.

" I know I said I could and I can but I don't want to Harry. I promised myself I wouldn't tell you this but this is killing me- not being able to see you is ripping me apart, knowing that I don't go back home to your arms frustrates me and over everything it upsets me that I can't be there for you in anything- literally like last month when you got sick and couldn't move from the bed for 4 days- it broke me- I know you told me not to worry but I swear I was thinking only of you. It was killing me then and it's still killing me and I'm always Afraid you'll get sick or something would happen to you and I won't be there- fuck- I love you so much that it's just making it so difficult for me to not being able to see you " Draco inhaled sharply after that.

Harry stared at him through the screen, he Never knew Draco was bottling up so much. He knew the long distance must be as hard on him as it's on Harry but he didn't know that not being with each other worried him so much that he didn't focus on anything but Harry even if there was nothing. He didn't like to admit but it was true for him too. He wanted to be supportive of Draco, to his job and everything else but he never wanted to do long distance not because he didn't have faith in their relationship but not being with each other for whole 6 month's or more just messed up with his functioning. Whether he believed it or not, Draco was the reason for his survival.

" I miss you too Dray but it is what it is- no matter how much it's kills you or me- its something we have to do- I want to be supportive of every decision you make as long as it benefits you-"

" benefit me at the cost of being away from you- not worth it- fuck it I'm coming Home-"

" wait what- No- Draco-" but he had already disconnected. He knew Draco could be very impulsive at times, he could be irrational even but something like this had never happened before and it worried Harry more than the sane amount that he started pacing back and forth across the room biting his nail trying to think of how he could make up an excuse for Draco's absence at work because Draco definitely wouldn't explain well but his rail of thoughts came to an end as soon as the fire place lit up with emerald green sparks and Draco ran across and immediately hugged Harry, who didn't hug back.

" Are you out of your head ?" Harry snapped pushing Draco away a Little bit to look at him.

" yes- I'm out of my head-"

" Draco this isn't the time for a joke- go back and we'll work on making an excuse for your communication- and-"

" No harry-"

" yes "

" No " Draco said louder this time meaning he felt strongly about this.

" but your work?" Harry sounded defeated.

" can wait. I don't care if that stupid job benefits me or not or if it would do me any good or would work for my promotion or if it was the one thing I wanted to do my whole life- I- don't- care " Draco explained

" you don't ?"

" No I don't- nothing is worth this Harry. I don't want to choose to be away from you. I meant it when I said that the distance was killing me, it was, so much. I don't want to be away from you no matter how much better a job might be- nothing is worth losing you or being away from or seeing you only a stupid screen. Work might've been my priority once but now- it's you- it's been you for a very long time now so the world could fuck itself but I'll stay right here with you and I won't leave- because- you're my safe place Harry, the only one I want to come back home to, and not some gray coloured hotel room" Draco explained.

Harry gazed at him, his expression changing from worried one to soft look of love. He chose to stay, with Harry. Was there anything more he could ever want in his life.

" so you'll stay ?" He asked smiling.

" for always " Draco smiled back.

Harry finally hugged Draco and just in time kissed him over the lips confessing his love for him. At the end of the day, they could be world's apart but there was nowhere else they would rather be but with each other, even if that meant getting fired from your dream job.

Day 3- All I Want For Christmas Is You || Day 5- Some unsaid lovestories

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Some unsaid love Stories

Day 5- Holiday shopping (late edition) - @hpdestress

“ How about this ?” Harry asked taking the ornament in his hand and showing it to Draco. 

He turned his attention to Harry then shook his head “ Too much for someone like Owen- go for something plain ” 

Harry nodded and kept the ornament back on the shelf moving forward to the next shelf, a basket of gifts in his hand. 

“ How about a brochè for Martha ?” Draco asked from behind him. 

Harry turned immediately at his voice taking the brochè in his hand then looking at all its side “ Its pretty- she’ll love it” he smiled

“ Do you think we’re doing too much for them ?” Draco asked talking about their coworkers. 

“ I think they deserve it, a little bit ” Harry replied 

“ Really ?” Draco quizzically asked clearly knowing the sarcasm in his own voice. 

Harry chuckled “ Well no, but they expect from us ” 

Draco shook his head agreeing “ I don’t understand this, just because we’re their bosses” 

“ Yes and they expect it from us- How about this for Mike ?” Harry asked showing him the black cup with a small santa drawn over it riding a sleigh. 

“ Seems right enough ” Draco agreed and he too strolled forward picking up another thing and showing it to Harry and adding Merlin’s name to it. 

They went through shelf after shelf discussing which one to gift to whom and making jokes every once in a while about the people they worked with. It was hard as their bosses to find something decent enough to gift someone they hardly even knew, they thought they did but apparently not so much. However they had managed to buy every employee who worked with them they wanted to gift at least one or the other thing, some they might gift as a contribution together and some as individual, if they meant something to them.

They were on the billing counter waiting for every item to be covered in the bill when Harry asked suddenly " I never asked, what are your Christmas plans ?"

" oh-" he smiled " you know me- not so much. After your family basically packs your stuff and send em away by parcel one by one, you know it definitely can't mean you're invited- I'll go solo this Christmas"

" Geez- that bad huh" Harry clicked his tongue

" oh no- have you spent a Christmas with my family- I'm lucky to be alive right now" Draco replied sarcastically.

Harry chuckled paying for the gifts and picking them up from the counter along with Draco " you know- we do a dinner before Christmas day and spend the rest of the day just watching Christmas movies and apparently going to the church then setting a barbeque outside- with the Weasley's, you can join if you want, they won't mind?" He offered.

" oh no- I wouldn't want to intrude- I'm happy with my own sappy version of Christmas movie and Chinese take over. It's better that way" Draco smiled, denying sweetly.

" are you sure ?"

" sure, don't worry Potter, I won't die if for one day you won't be there " Draco teased.

Harry chuckled shaking his head then dropping him at his place before going to his own.

Just in a few days there was increasing craze of Christmas. The office ran a little wild with party before Christmas and tiny bit of booze and too many speeches by former Auror's and old man's, praising Everyone; altogether it was nice but a little too much for Harry to be around for long enough so he took a detour and went back to his office. He had almost unlocked the door when it opened from the inside and he was instantly welcomed by Draco.

" too much? " He scrunched his face, opening the door wide enough for Harry to walk inside.

" if I hear one more story about Christmas and kids, I'll actually die" Harry whined.

Draco laughed closing the door behind them and pouring a glass a champagne for Harry and himself.

" I took my cue half an hour ago, this party, definitely not my scene " Draco admitted.

" ah- it's boring anyways. What are you doing here, except taking a break from the party ?" Harry asked leaning back over the front of his table with his arms crossed.

" promise you won't lecture me ?" Draco asked Bringing his glass to Harry.

" I won't " Harry crossed his heart.

" working on some details of the case-"

" seriously ?" Harry smiled, amused.

" well- call me a nerd or whatever but this is my party " Draco shrugged.

Harry laughed setting his drink down on the table then getting hold of Draco's arms on his sides, forcing him to look at Harry.

" you're an incredible auror and you don't give yourself enough credit alright. You're only given this life once, you're too young, too handsome to be locked away Behind this door. Go out there, have fun, make friends, go on dates- stop this alright. I know Robin fucked you up a little bit but he wasn't your last shot at love Draco- there are going to be plenty, give u-them a chance" Harry smiled softly at him, an encouraging one.

" it's not about Robin- I'm over him-"

" oh yeah- why do you still wear the ring ? Come on, move on Draco- it's been so long, you're worth it alright and Robin was an idiot " Harry stepped closer to him, pushing a strand of hair behind his ear, still lingering his hand around his ear " you deserve to be treated so much more better, you deserve to be taken out on fancy dates and movie nights in the Middle of the night and to be spoilt, to be taken on surprise good adventures and to be held in arms closely and to be kissed every hour of everyday. You deserve someone who appreciates you for who you are- for how good you are and tells you everyday how much he loves you, you deserve to be reminded that you're too good to be true- you deserve someone who won't leave you, Someone who would hold you hand and never leave it- you deserve to be loved " He knew he got carried away but it was worth looking at Draco who looked back at him in awe and complete shock. Draco didn't try to step back at all, even with Harry's lingering hand around his ear or move his hand on his other arm or try to create a distance, instead he was breathing heavily and his gaze shifting often from Harry's eyes to his lips but nothing happened when it should've. Harry stepped away.

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When the Christmas day arrived Harry's offer for Draco to spend Christmas with him was still open and it was tempting enough especially after what happened between them after the Christmas party but he denied every single time the thought raced across in his head.

It wasn't until he was ready to spend his Christmas the same old sappy way, with a sappy Christmas movie and a Chinese takeover when his eyes fell on his ring in his finger and Harry's word ran like a wildfire In his head. Robin fucked him up very much, but Harry was right, he wasn't his last shot at love. The truth was what he felt with Harry the other day was far from what he ever even felt for Robin, maybe it was stronger or maybe it was different but the utter desperation to kiss Harry that day had been stronger than he liked to admit and he hated that Harry had such an effect on him but day and night, he was the only thing he thought about.

It took far too Long to decide but the ring thrown away back in the box and a nice jumper and jeans thrown over himself he disapparated to where the offer stood still.

He walked dead and fast, pacing back and forth, chewing his nail out of nervousness right outside the door wondering whether he should knock or not, but soon the door opened and just the man he needed walked right out.

" I was hoping you'd come " Harry smiled shutting the door behind him.

" I-i don't know-"

" I'm glad you're here " Harry cut him off with a smile. Draco genuinely smiled back.

" I'm running down to the market to get something for the dinner, you want to come ?" Harry offered.

Draco nodded, agreeing to go along with him and just as they went he added " I hope all you said in the office, you implied your own self"

Harry shook his head laughing softly " I'd be a fool to deny"

Day 4- coming home || Day 6- In "that" phase

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Day 6- Holiday cards @hpdestress

Harry grumbled lightly as he rubbed his eyes then opening them to find an empty bed. He got up sleepily, yawning then taking his feet off the bed and finally walking out of the room. He padded across the hallway, hearing the faint singing in the shower meaning Draco was using the washroom and he decided to get the newspaper and prepare the breakfast while he waits. Like a usual morning in the mid December, he walked out of the door in a lose robe then picked up the newspaper from the front door and walked right into the kitchen, setting coffee in the making and bread in the toaster and finally opening the newspaper to read the headlines. Typical morning, he realized, a robbery at the fifth, a new opening for a job, a new cafe being opened down the leaky cauldron, another muggle news, typical news, he grumbled to himself. 

The kettle whined and he took it off the stove then suddenly remembered he didn’t check the post and went out in the cold and fetched the post’s. After bringing them in, Harry assumed it must be the same typical messages he received daily until he was holding his coffee mug to his lip ready to drink when he came across an envelope addressed to both Harry and Draco. 

“ Morning, Love” Draco greeted, entering the kitchen in a red robe Harry had bought for him a couple of months ago. He kissed him on the cheek quickly and took a cup of coffee himself and bread out of the toaster. 

But Harry didn’t greet him yet. 

“ Babe?” Draco announced but still had Harry’s minimal attention. He rolled his eyes then wrapped his arms around his beloved’s torso “ I said good morning “ He said kissing his neck. 

“ We got a holiday card “ Harry said 

“ Then why are you telling me like its a divorce paper “ Draco chuckled. 

Harry rolled his eyes then dropped it on the counter and turned to face Draco whose arms were still wrapped around his own. 

“ I’m just saying cause its new for us, It was from Blaise and Ron “ Harry told him 

“ Really ?” Draco asked in complete surprise, picking up the holiday card from behind Harry “ Didn’t they just started dating like a couple months ago, they’re already on the holiday card stage” 

“ Exactly what I thought. They’d only been dating for- well almost an year but still, that’s a huge step to take don’t you think. In our first year, we didn’t even properly tell people who we were dating" Harry's expression dangled somewhere between him being proud and kind of shook at the same time.

" well- I guess then when you know, you know. Maybe they're really serious about each other and really are the ones for each other you know " Draco shrugged.

Harry smiled at him then ran his finger's through Draco's hair " do you think we are the holiday card sort of couple ?"

Draco thought for a moment then shook his head " Not really, I don't think it's our thing you know"

Harry gazed at him for a moment, contemplating what he had just said and also taken a back for a moment but forbade it to reflect on his face and instantly agreed with Draco " for sure- we aren't that couple "

His boyfriend then smiled at him, kissed him chastily over his lips and left the kitchen taking the coffee mug with him while Harry remained there watching the moving photograph of Ron and Blaise on a Christmas holiday card.

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" it didn't seem weird to you ?" Harry asked taking the plate of croissant with him while Ron collected the cup of Espresso's to the table.

" you know what was weird, knowing I had an erection for Blaise-"

" oh for Christ's sake Ron" Harry gagged.

Ron let out a laugh sitting down on the chair " works everytime "

" you've got to stop bringing this up. I know you're bisexual and stuff but please for the love of all that is good stop talking about your erection " Harry complained.

Ron stooped laughing taking the croissant from Harry's plate " I'm sorry but it's just your reaction is worth it "

" everytime ?"

" yep everytime. Anyways you were asking ?" He asked stuffing the croissant in his mouth.

" yeah- I mean you and Blaise have only been dating for what like 10 month's-"

" 11-"

"- right 11 months and you already know you're at the holiday card phase ?"

" what do you mean?" Ron asked genuinely confused

" you know what I mean. Every relationship have like it's stages you know, like giving your door keys, getting a mixed casette or the honeymoon phase and that finally fancy dinner phase where you know it's headed somewhere. So like you guys are already in the holiday card phase, didn't it feel fast to you guys? Like you're sending it out to families and stuff, it's like making it very official " Harry explained.

Ron smiled weirdly at him like he didn't get his point then shifted forward " Harry- we're not in a romantic comedy, it's all real. I get it there are stages in a relationship but it doesn't mean you have to do it in certain amount of months. When me and Blaise started going out it was already weird and awkward but fantastic at the same time, it didn't feel like our relationship had to have stages. We really like each other, hell we love each other and whether we end up together forever or not doesn't matter because we're here right now and honestly nothing has felt more right than doing that with him. It's like the most perfect thing"

Harry gazed at him for a few moments, letting his word's sink in. It made sense. All of it. Relationships doesn't necessarily have to have stages or steps for how fast or how slow it's going, it just have to keep going, that's all that matters.

" so you think me and Draco should-"

" nope, too soon" Ron replies stuffing Harry's left-over croissant.

" but it's been more than 2 years, almost 3 in a few weeks, how is it soon ? It feels right with him too you know- it's not just your relationship that's bloody perfect " Harry mumbled the last part.

" not a competition mate" Ron incoherently replied but years after being with him, Harry knew every word.

" really, soon?"

" see, it's not just soon- it's about whether Draco is in that place too or not and I don't think he is " Ron explained.

No matter how much it hurt Harry to even think that Draco was not there, he tried not to let it effect him or even think of it but seeing couples after couples all day and receiving holiday cards from all around the office, world even, it was hard not thinking of Draco, his boyfriend of over 2 years wasn't in that place yet and it frustrated him because he had no right to be frustrated with Draco because he had his right to think that way. It should not have mattered so much to Harry but he had known Draco for all his life, been great friends/ flirtatious friends before they even started dating, how were they not in the holiday card phase? The more Harry thought of it, the more it made him angry and upset making him ramble on to random people about they were in the phase of moving in together literally an year after they started dating and sleeping together on first date but they were not yet to the holiday card-

"- it's just a sweet gesture, how could he not be there ?" Harry asked, stressed.

" I don't know sir, I'm just here to deliver the parcel and I know this isn't the right place for me anymore" the courier guy replied. Harry stared at him and groaned and asked him to leave straight away after that.

He spent the rest of his day disappointed, frustrated, agitated, upset and in desperation to know in his office until it was time for him to leave and he went home as soon as possible without knowing why.

Upon reaching home he found out that Draco was running a couple minutes late and would be back after a few minutes or more so he had the flat to himself and he decided to use that time to take a bath, think about Draco and the phase, then get out of the bath and think about it again. This went for a long time, even after Draco had come home and they were sitting for dinner and Draco was talking about something that happened at work today, that's when Harry realised he couldn't take it anymore. He had to break the ice.

He immediately stopped eating, pushed his plate away and turned to Draco " we're not in the holiday card phase ?"

" what ?" Draco asked confused out of his mind.

" we're not in the holiday card phase. Sure Ron and Blaise can be in the holiday card after only 10 months-"

" 11 "

"- you- 11 months of dating but we can't be. Why is it so hard? Why are we not in that phase when it was perfectly fine when we slept on the first date or it was perfectly fine for you to give me a promise necklace 6 month's into dating or it perfectly fine when talked about me to your mother really early on in the relationship or it was perfectly fine when we ran away together for a while when we had only been together for few months. We've done all sort of random bullshit at the most irrational times without caring whether we should've done it or not or not even thinking whether it's slow or fast then why think of it now? Why aren't we an holiday card couple when we're so fucking serious about our relationship that I'd much rather die than being alone or without you, and I know you love me as much as I do, then why aren't we sending out holiday cards to family or friends ?" Harry rambled on in one breath and Draco did all and stared.

He raised his eyebrows and softly pushed his plate away and stood up from the table, walking away.

" what ? So you're not going to reply to me now ?" Harry interjected but it seemed from his point of view that Draco was searching something in his work bag and when he finally did, he Returned back to the table with a small envelope in his hand.

" open it " Draco commanded.

Despite the irrationally that ran wild in Harry's mind, he took the envelope and opened it.

"- holiday card" he looked at the card with Harry and Draco's picture from their first Christmas together in awe " you got it made "

" yeah- now if you weren't going to throw a temper at me I'd had kept it a surprise but apparently you're not very good with them so be ready for an already planned proposal " Draco replied casually gulping his water.

Harry immediately looked up, morbid shock over his face "pr-proposal ?"

" what? There isn't going to be one? Don't tell me you're wasting my time-"

" No- it's just-"

" you never expected it ?" Draco smiled and Harry shook his head.

Draco got up from his own seat and sat down on Harry's lap, running his hand behind his ear " you really thought we weren't in that phase when I've always been ready to give my heart out to you. I love you Harry, more than anyone or anything I've ever loved in my life before, even my own self- you really think I'm going to let you- an absolute delicious man walk away from me, hell no"

They chuckled together. Harry took hold of Draco's waist and turned him so he was straddling him and kissed him over the lips " I'm sorry I doubted you"

" it's okay- it's only fair, I'm hard to read" Draco shrugged.

" or you're really good with surprises ?" Harry praised him.

" yeah that too " Draco agreed and laughed along with Harry.

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Day 7 - Ice skating for hp de-stress feat @hpdestress

It was a start.

I knew it. Watching you with lingering glances was just a start but I told my traitorous heart to keep itself shut and move on with it but I knew it was just a start. A start of all.

I knew I shouldn't had watched you like a crow, noticing every hour of your every day but I kept telling my heart to put shut but it only induced in me more adrenaline to see you, every second of every hour. I wasn't watching you a creepy way as someone would misunderstand, I was merely curious, at first at least. Watching you watch the book shelf attentively, your eyes going down like a ladder for the book of just your choice or while you were watching your teammates fly in the air so high, I could see you yearned for it but you had lost your incredible confidence or while you were reading the notice board looking for something new like a new letter would be posted for you there or just watching you walk across the hall with your hands in your pocket tucked away in the warmth. Here's the strange trick though, I didn't want to watch you, never by choice in the beginning but it was as though I had a sense everytime you were around me and I would not be able to help myself from watching you, so when I eventually gave up from trying to ignore my heart, I watched you and it was just a start, a start to knowing there's so much more to you than I had ever cared to venture.

I knew you didn't hate me anymore, you smiled at me like you never used to before, I knew you didn't hate me but I didn't know if you liked me either. I could sense that you knew that I was watching you or maybe it was just Paranoia who kept telling me that you knew that I was watching but if you did know that I was watching you, then I think maybe you enjoyed it, not the attention but just being cared enough to be looked at. I know it now. And if you didn't know I was watching you, then I think maybe you should've.

Until the days when I first started realising that I was watching you more than doing any other thing, I never really thought about it or I didn't allow myself to think about it but seeing you do the littlest of things and smiling after small achievements made my heart beat faster in my chest even though I tried to avoid it. I thought that would be the most of it, my heart skipping a beat when I watched you smile but I didn't know there were so many levels of heart skipping faster and I only knew of it then when I followed you to the forest one late night after having being welcomed into a Narnia of insomnia. I carefully followed you without your knowledge and saw you like I did everyday but that night it was different. It left me curious as to what you would be doing at the lake in the Middle of the night but soon enough from shelter of the tree I saw you walk into the river, but not into, Over the river. I stared more carefully until I didn't need to anymore when you slid through graciously over the lake. You were ice skating and it was perhaps the most perfect thing I had laid my eyes upon, you ice skating. The way you slid over the lake with your shoes Making the scratching sound and your arms open to feel the air pass through you. I knew that you liked it because I had never seen you smile that much. It made you so happy, as if it made you feel alive. It made you happy to just be there and I was happy knowing I was seeing your happiness until it suddenly Struck me that I was watching you, not just tonight but everyday and perhaps you still didn't have a knowledge of it which made it more upsetting because I was watching you feel alive, feeling happier than you do in a day and maybe there's a reason why you keep your smile hidden all day so no-one would see but Only yourself, but I was breaking the boundaries and watching you be happy when maybe it could've so easily been a thing that you didn't want me to know it. So I walked away that night, hoping it would be the last but it had just been the start of something so tragically beautiful that I yet don't know where it's headed but the feeling of being around you and skating with you over thin ice had made me feel more alive that I ever had, even with the air in my lungs and heart beating loudly in my chest.

So you make me feel alive Draco Malfoy, I don't know why or how yet, but it's just a start I suppose and I'll stay till the end.

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Day 8- snowball fights for HP de-stress December fest @hpdestress

The weight on the bed suddenly felt heavier, like somebody extra had decided to come lay over it but sooner the spring's of the bed started screeching and Draco had to pull his head from under the blanket because of the noise.

" Daddy, Daddy, Daddy- wake up" Draco's son of 5 years whined, no demanded sharply jumping up and down over the bed and even hitting Draco with a pillow to get him out of the bed.

" Scorp- please" Draco groaned

"But daddy- it's snowing outside" he squealed and kept jumping on the bed. He was soon joined by their dog getting on the bed and licking Draco's face. There goes his sleep.

He admittedly groaned and got up, pushing the covers away and taking scorpius in his arms "aren't you one a maniac ?" He teased pinching his chubby cheeks lightly.

" Can we go out now?" Scorpius pouted. Draco wanted to refuse since it'd be very cold outside specially since it was around Christmas and cold winds had picked up but his son had absolutely mastered his way of getting things done by a simple expression of plucked out bottom lip and sparkling eyes. That face was very very hard to say no to. And as Draco expected he lost and found himself outside within the next 15 minutes and 5 more minutes later he was already going crazy with acting like wiper blades in the snow.

" Dragged you out of bed, didn't he ?" Draco heard while he was trying to cover Scorpius's ear with his warm beanie.

" well that's life with kids" Draco shrugged getting up from the ground.

" I'd know it too- he's currently trying to shake the snow off the tree" Harry, his front door neighbour smiled at him. It'd be lie if Draco said he didn't like his smile, it was a heart wrenching smile.

Draco looked over Harry's shoulder and as said his son James was desperately trying to shake the tree.

" Well- my son is currently trying to be wiper blade so I'll know all about it too" Draco chuckled.

They talked of a few more things, discussing their single parenthood more so of Draco than Harry ( shared custody in divorce) and about the muggle education system they had to provide until they could send their sons off to Hogwarts. They remained in their boring Dad conversation until Harry was face planted with snow and Draco broke out laughing until he too was hit by the snowball.

" not funny anymore is it ?" Harry teased rubbing his red nose. Draco rolled his eyes, obviously.

Harry and Draco were hit a few more times until they had enough and they started throwing back snowball's at their son. It was Father's against sons and a complete disaster at that with shouts and laughter echoing in the alley until during the small absolutely brain wracking snowball fight Harry accidentally hit Draco. It amused Harry to see his neighbours reaction and he did it again.

" I thought it was us against them " Draco gasped.

" well sometimes rules change with games, Draco Malfoy" Harry smirked.

Draco squinted his eyes then picked up a ball of snow, cupping it in his hand " you are so dead Harry Potter"

" Scared ?" Draco added

Harry smiled then winked " you wish" and picked up a ball of snow and threw it at the same time as Draco and hitting both of them equally hard.

Their little session of snowball fight escalated quickly with much more efficient teams and Fathers using their sons to throw a perfect shot and it became all the more serious while fun at the very same time. Harry even used James as his shield, pathetic move, he still got hit. Harry was almost about to throw another ball when suddenly a ball hit him hard right over the crotch and he fell down groaning.

Draco immediately ran towards him leaving their sons to their enjoyment to check on Harry and He leaned down to him " you alright ?"

" really ? Crotch? That was supposed to be off the boundary" Harry groaned

" well I wasn't looking where it hit- it was mistake- accident" Draco corrected and gave Harry a hand to get up who instead of taking support to get up Just held his hand.

" you don't look there ?" Harry quite visibly teased but with the cold weather and bright day Draco was unable to hide his crimson blush even though he blamed it on the winters.

" I- I normally don't" Draco stammered, his cheeks still burning red.

" normally don't!? Does that mean that you do sometimes-"

But Draco cut off his teasing and decided to get up but it wasn't upto him and just as he tried to, Harry pulled him down towards making him fall over his hand by Harry's head and almost face plant against his face.

" I was just pulling your leg" Harry smiled, his face inches away from Draco.

" Nothing new about that" Draco rolled his eyes and tried to get away again but instead this time Harry pulled him further closer, wrapping his arm around his waist keeping him from getting up.

" Harry- we shouldn't-"

" we haven't even started yet " Harry replied.

" And that's why we shouldn't " Draco replied.

" Come on-"

" Your divorce haven't even been finalised yet" Draco cut him off.

" you and I both know that it's not the actual reason " Harry raised his eyebrows at him.

Draco sighed, shaking his head " Too much would change- Scorpius and James-"

" They are having fun- it will fine Draco. Those days of us just doing it for fun are long gone. I am serious this time and I want to be" Harry told him, truthfully.

Draco looked at him from mere few Inches apart and he knew Harry wasn't lying, he would know he was but it's been ages since they've been together and he was so afraid of the change.

" But-"

" You could have everything you've ever wanted since you were 19" Harry offered.

Draco groaned, this bastard always knew what to say and when to say.

" it's too hard- to difficult- there's a lot of things involved-"

" It would be just fine " Harry cut him off.

" how can you promise that this time we won't break apart ?" Draco asked seriously considering Harry's offer after a few moments of silence.

" Because this time I have nothing more left to break " Harry replied smiling then intertwining his fingers with those of Draco's.

" it'll be very real this time and I promise I would do anything to make this work" He added.

He looked at him for a few more seconds, getting lost in those emerald eyes he had often slept dreaming about. He could have everything he ever wanted since he was 19. He dropped his head over his chest, nodding, not believing himself at the same time.

" I must be stupid" Draco mumbled.

Harry chuckled, forcing Draco to look at him then kissing his cheeks " that you are "

Draco rolled his eyes.

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Meanwhile James and Scorpius were already planning their Dad's wedding and debating who would wear a much better suit.

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Day 9 Christmas Tree

“ Coming through people- out of my way” Ginny yelled as she walked down the stairs with boxes in her hands. The crowded hallway of people made space for her as she continued making honking noise to get the attention and knocking along the way few ornaments kept over the side tables. 

She walked through the sliding door and soon kept the boxes on the floor and cracking her back up as she arched “ You- two idiots- move your asses and help with the boxes” She yelled at a sitting gossiping couple over the coffee table.

Harry reluctantly got up, Draco getting up after him and followed Harry as they walked through with Harry complaining about this being typical Ginny around christmas, trying to get everyone involved into the whole decoration process. 

They both went up the stairs of the cabin they had managed to get around the heavily packed Christmas booking to spend a Christmas with just friends and be away from the everyone else as much as possible and somehow everyone else was looking for the same, hence the packed cabin with Harry, Draco, Ron, Hermione, Ginny, Pansy, Blaise and Luna, Neville wanted to join but unfortunately his banabarawuet sapling that just bloomed up in his Garden after 5 years needed his care. It was understandable.

" She's always so bossy " Harry mumbled.

" at least someone is " Draco mumbled from behind him as he followed him up the stairs.

" What do you mean ?" Harry gasped

" Well you all just had plans to swamp around like apes so it makes sense that at least someone is taking charge " Draco explained.

Harry walked through the door and turned a little to his side to see Draco " We were not lying around like apes- you and I were having a much important conversation-"

" about consistency of pancakes batter-"

" which is very important for someone who likes pancakes" Harry added.

Draco shook his head smiling and pointed the box for Harry to pick up and so he did.

" I am sure you'd love a conversation about the Immanuel Kant's hypothesis over the origin of the universe " Harry rolled his eyes

" well he did actually give out a good hypotheses which later was named into nebula hypotheses claiming that the Universe-"

But he was cut off by Harry's fake snoring sounds against the door.

" you're not worth it anyways- I'll talk about it with Malek from work about it- he actually went to study muggle geography and- he's a good guy- not to mention he's hot" And he finally got Harry's drooling attention

" hot ? Perhaps you would want add annoying to the sentence ?" Harry suggested

" No" he hummed frowning " he's actually really really interesting- he even got me a cup of coffee the other day " Draco replied with a plastered smile.

Harry raised a challenging eyebrow at him and kept the box back down he picked up and reduced the distance between him and Draco.

" I'm sure he was great but he can't make you hot like I do-" Harry pushed Draco lightly against the closet with his hands going under Draco's jumper.

" Harry- the door is open" Draco stammered.

" don't care- welcome to watch the show" Harry whispered closing the distance between him and Draco so his own leg adjusted between Draco's and his eyes met Draco's own steely grey eyes and lips bare Inches away from being touched.

" they'll find out about us" Draco hoarsely said then cleared his voice trying to get his voice back.

" they'll find out eventually- tell me about this guy though- hot you say, hotter than me ?" Harry asked in a dangerously low tone, his hands not dropping from Draco's stomach, holding him in place.

If Draco had to be honest, this had never happened in the four month's relationship that they've been, by this he meant Harry being even remotely jealous of someone he didn't even know, it Infact didn't even make sense for Harry to even be jealous at all but given the moment Draco threw all his sanity out of the window as he felt Harry's fingers doing a circle while the door was far too open for anyone to walk in and find out about them.

Draco raised his arms to push Harry away to create some distance and finally catch his held on breath but figuring out his intentions, Harry already pinned then to his sides.

" What are you two doing up there ?" They heard the voice coming up the stairs and Draco's heart beat rose frantically while Harry's smirk only quirked up more in a challenging and his fun seeking dangerous playgames way. Draco tried to wrestle free before Ginny would've come upstairs and find them in a position but Harry's hold was entirely too strong and as a good measure, to make it more enthralling Harry kissed over Draco's exposed neck, kissing it fevrently to sucking lightly for him to fight back a moan.

And just time Harry stepped away and picked up the box winking at Draco all at the same time.

" what's taking you so long ?" Ginny conferred.

" Nothing important thing- just discussing some work issue " Harry shrugged.

That bastard.

Draco caught his breath along the way and hiding through his jumper where Harry might've possibly left a mark and picked the box himself and took it downstairs.

Hours later when the teams had been divided into two with Harry and Draco being incharge of decorating the Christmas tree Harry risked his chance to brush his hands away with Draco behind the tree and even walking by too closely to him leaving Draco if anything but entirely greedy and desperate for touch, any touch.

Done with the tree, they were proud of themselves and decided to reward themselves with a glass of apple juice and piece of cake when Harry risked it all again and sqeezed Draco's ass behind the counter so no one would see but it made him jump up, squealing with his mouth shut and he decided he had enough and dragged Harry to his room he was staying in when no one was looking and pushed him against the door.

" What is wrong with you ?" Draco asked not trying to sound excited at all.

" Nothing- just you" Harry tried to reach for Draco again but he stopped him, raising an eyebrow for explanation and Harry gave up " it's hard- not being with you while we're here. Trying to hide my relationship with you from everyone. I don't want to and it's making me crazy not being able to hold your hand and I know it sounds shitty or very desperate of me but I've never felt what I'm feeling for you and I want everyone to know but I'm not ready yet- I just- I just wish it were easier but holding your hand is the only thing that makes sense " he sighed.

Draco looked at him in awe, pulling him closer and then hugged him " I know it's hard but it'll only be a few more days or weeks. We can come out to them as soon as you want you. I feel the same way about you Harry and I'm damned I do but I wouldn't have it any other way-"

" Open up this damn door or I'll knock it down"

Draco's head dropped down in exhaustion then yelled back " Privacy Ron- can I get any "

There was a pause before the knocking stopped " No " and the footsteps faded away.

Harry looked at Draco then smiled " You got rid of him "

Draco Chuckled shaking his head " Well if it's only way I'm getting to spend time with you I'm not gonna to let anyone ruin it for me "

Draco kissed his lips softly beholding in some moment where they weren't disturbed by other's the time of happiest season. Maybe it'll be some cliche Christmas story to tell one day, one trip, too many friends and a secret relationship.

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Day 10- Christmas parties @hpdestress

" How many more of these ?" Harry groaned putting on his wrist watch and locking it up.

Hermione gave him a sympathetic look " I'm sorry Harry- if only Ron were here, I promise tonight's the last- I won't trouble you after this one "

Harry sighed then nodded " promise me it's the last one ?"

" cross my heart " Hermione smiled. Harry nodded understandably.

" you look beautiful though. Red really is your colour " Harry complimented.

" thank you, although you do know that you don't have to compliment me like Ron does. I won't kill you If you don't " Hermione replied, her lips curled up at the edge in a small smirk.

" I know, I know but I really need to fill in some good shoes you know. Besides I'd never not appreciate you " Harry replied truthfully.

Hermione nodded at him, acknowledging his compliment while accepting at the same time then resumed giving herself the final touch.

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" wow this one really seems a closed up party" Harry mumbled as he walked next to Hermione through the doors and into the hall.

" yeah this is just my office party- you won't find a lot of outsider here " Hermione Whispered and within a few seconds both of them were dragged into conversation they thoroughly didn't enjoy especially with people they didn't even know, but then that's life of fame. More of Hermione than of Harry himself but still being acknowledged as the boy-who-lived runs well in keeping him popular, even now after years.

Exhausting from talking with people Harry took a drink and decided to stay in the corner rather than the front circle which by now after going to so many Christmas parties with Hermione, he knew were for the up frontier or the rich, wealthy or the popular people because there it was easier to approach, the Inner secluded circle was for the people who happen to have a lot of good connections with different people and these parties are just another way to make more relations, the third and the outermost circle was for the people who are normally forgotten at the party or the one's who's been dragged to these places. Harry unfortunately being the last one but he was happy right where he was with way too less people even coming up to meet him and less of a spotlight, it worked pretty well for him. The less noise and the peace to be able to drink his champagne alone was the best until quite recently his eyes followed to the bar and saw the lean figure standing against the counter with his elbow resting behind him over the counter, the same hand holding his glass of neat Scotch and other hand free for physical touch he needed to perform every now and then. He looked ethereal in every way. The way the shirt cling to his body yet not the same time and the legs interlocked underneath with the coat over the counter, Harry would say he looked more hotter than anyone he had laid an eye on here.

It had to be Draco Malfoy of course. Only he could stand in such a glorious way while maintaining a conversation. Harry might've been looking at him for far too long that Draco might've sensed it and before he could even make sense that Draco was watching him from afar, he pulled one of his famous playful smirk and the perfectly timed wink before he left the counter when the the light dimmed and went for a dance. Unfortunately that was also the last he saw of him that specific night before he was dragged back home.

Despite Hermione's offer to not tag along with to anymore parties, Harry did, in hopes of finding Draco. He didn't know why exactly but he knew one thing that every night his wink and his smirk played on a loop before he went to bed with some dangerously sexy song playing in the background which left him yearning and perhaps to fill his empty tea pot for one glance he went with Hermione to the rest of the parties which, resulted in disappointment almost every time that even Hermione understood that Harry was going to see someone but dared not to ask until it happened, mistakenly when Harry had almost cancelled on Hermione but went to the party at the last moment when he finally saw him, leaning against the bar, jacket kept by side, the same pose with a drink in his hand, only this time he was alone.

" Go " he heard. Harry turned and saw Hermione pushing him lightly "Go, talk to him"

Harry gulped in nervousness, fixing his collar and Shaking his hands.

" Fancy seeing you here " Draco said before Harry could have even said Hello.

" It's- Hermione " Harry stammered.

" so just Hermione then ?" Draco suggested finally turning to Harry giving him the same playful smirk.

" what- no - no " Harry interjected

" So there's another reason why you're here then ?" Draco teased. He knew he was pulling his leg, teasing him but he really couldn't blame anything, Harry was cute when he was nervous.

" I- no- I mean yeah- I guess, I wanted to see you " he stuttered.

Draco let out a low laugh and squeezed Harry's shoulder lightly " Relax- it's just me, you're not meeting me for the first time and certainly not the last "

Harry finally calmed down a little and gave him a smile " So I'll see you again ?"

" if you want to " Draco shrugged.

" I want to " Harry replied suggestively.

" I'd like to see you again too- perhaps over a dinner?" Draco asked.

Harry looked down the nodded " that'd be nice"

" so then can I ask you for a dance now ? This song is banger and I really don't want to dance with a stranger tonight " Draco asked.

Harry laughed softly then nodded and took Draco's hand to accompany him to the center of the stage.

So according to Harry's hypothesis in future, there were 4 circles - one or the front circle, the wealthy, Riches and the popular with the organisers of the party, second- the one acquainted with the first circle, the outermost and the 3rd circle- the circle for the unknowns, the ones dragged into the party and last which he figured later in his life and probably the best circle, only reserved for Harry, was in Draco's arms.

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Ron huffed as he picked up the last of the grocery bag while Harry took one from his hand to make it more convenient for him. 

“ So how’d your online hot date go last night ?” Ron asked walking out of the store. 

“ Rancid” Harry complained, rolling his eyes “ He went too far with everything. And more so he lied about his age and occupation which really didn’t work well for me but even then I tried to make it work and I was working on it until the end of the night when he suddenly saw his girlfriend and I got pissed, threw glass of champagne at him, who threw the plate of ravioli on me- so i’d say a 10 on 10″ 

Ron started to laugh juggling his bag of grocery into another hand “ Told you “ 

“ What ? You didn’t tell me anything- You actually did the opposite of telling me- you didn’t even listen properly “ Harry shrilled 

“ Well- that’s because I know the whole online dating thing is shit- it never works- “ 

“ Exactly why. I don’t want a serious type of relationship, I’m not a man of commitment “ Harry  retorted 

“ For how long are you going to run away from commitment Harry? If you never try, you’ll never know “ Ron bitterly said, shaking his head. 

“ But I know myself- I cannot do serious relationships-” 

“ Think all you want. I know one day you’ll meet a banger guy and he’s going to break every standards of yours, every misconception that you have of yourself and make you believe in love once again” Ron interjected and wisely professed, which frankly Harry only took seriously for a second then ended up laughing all the way back home. 

“ You’re watching too many romance shows with Hermione” 

Ron rolled his eyes, imitating Harry in a terrible voice. 

He knew that Ron was right no matter how funny it may have sounded. Harry had been afraid of commitment for so long, tying to run away from everything that may bind him that he had stopped thinking that he might actually be capable of maintaining a relationship with someone. Its not like Harry had never been in love, he had been, ages ago and that was the reason why he doesn’t believe in love anymore. Back in those days he would have risked it all for him but he didn’t, nor did the man he loved did and that was what it took for Harry to entirely give up on the idea of love. He didn’t hate the idea of love but just thought he wasn’t the one who’d have his own lovestory and that saddened him many nights more than often. Maybe Ron was right, maybe he’d meet someone again who would make him fall in love once again but who would it be ? 

Harry shook his hand so his hand jingled the bell in order to attract people for the Christmas carolers but apparently it wasn’t working as well as he thought it would. It was more funny for people to see someone wrapped up in fairy lights than listening to someone singing silent night, yet Harry kept going, jingling his bell in his hand. It was all boring and rather unpleasant just standing there while the carolers gossiped away. To heck with good deeds. He wanted to unpack himself and go away until he turned to his side in hopes to scowl and imitate people when his eyes fell upon the man in the black trench coat, not just any man in a black trench coat, a very familiar man in a very familiar trench coat. Harry immediately turned around for his back to face the man but this wasn’t his lucky day because even though he tried to avoid him, the Gods/makers above were sitting with popcorn in hands enjoying the misery Harry was about to face. 

“ Really- I’m not going to eat you alive “ the man chuckled. 

Harry huffed and finally turned to a tall and slender Draco Malfoy he hadn’t seen in a very long time “ Hi “ 

“ Something tells me you’re not so happy to see me” Draco smiled, not just any smile but his famous sly, mischievous smile Harry threw his hearts at ages ago. 

“ Why ? I’m so glad to see you- happier than ever” Harry monotonously replied. 

Draco chuckled shaking his head “ You walked by yesterday night ignoring me after your much failed date” 

“ Well clearly that didn’t keep you away from contacting the man covered in ravioli” Harry mumbled. 

Draco let out a soft laugh “ You’re still the same” 

And for the first time Harry allowed himself to look at Draco more than just cunning looks, he was still the same too. 

“ You look cute wrapped up in fairy lights” 

“ Oh yeah- tease me all about it. Make fun of me if you would do so” Harry rolled his eyes. 

Draco looked at him as if he couldn’t believe the absurdity “ Since when is complimenting someone an insult or teasing if you must say so ”

“ Since it came out of your mouth” Harry replied raising an eyebrow at him. 

Draco slumped down his shoulder, sighing “ You really haven’t changed” 

“ Like you have” Harry dared. 

Draco shook his head “ I have- I really have” 

He really had, Harry thought. 

Draco huffed out a breath then looked at Harry with the same eyes he once used to “ My offer still stands still”

And it seemed as if the hands of the clock tower stopped right there. The offer still stood? 

“ What offer?” Harry lied. 

“ You know what offer “ Draco countered. 

Harry closed his eyes for a moment then finally allowed himself to talk without throwing a quip “ It’ll never work.You and I are very different, we used to be best friends and it’d be very weird, besides you and I belong to very different sides of the society now” 

“ If you know anything about me, You’d know I stopped caring about the society long time ago and you know you’re just trying to make an excuse, again but I didn’t force you then, I won’t force you now- For all I know we could’ve been great together “ Draco smiled lightly “ See you around, Harry” 

And he let him go, again. For the second time in his life he was making the same mistake again, letting him walk away again after making up an excuse that they probably didn’t belong together because that’s the best he could come up with but the truth was Draco was and is the only man he had ever loved, ever learnt to love and there could exist no other no matter what because maybe his life stopped there in the time when he held his hand before departing away, his hand still lingers with his touch like he left a magic right in his hands, It still existed and that magic was perhaps love, not just any love but His love. It still ran in his veins, it still ran to his heart and it still made him insane. If Love was insanity then Harry was happy to be insane but he had always been afraid of loving Draco more than he did because he was always afraid of the possibility of an end. He knew Draco was someone to him that nobody else could ever be, he knew if he let himself love Draco more than he already did then that would be the best thing in his life but he didn’t want to even imagine the end of it. He can’t see a life of loving Draco one day and losing him the next. The probability ran mile high and yet right now for once he wanted to something he might regret. He turned around and shout for Draco. He knew he might regret it one day but if he never tries, he’ll never know and maybe being with Draco even for numbered days wouldn’t be the worst idea in the world. 

“ yeah?” Draco asked back. 

“ Does your offer still stands?” Harry asked. 

Draco smiled and walked back towards Harry “ why ? You want to give it a shot?” 

Harry shook his head smiling “ I’d be damned if I lied. Yeah, I want to give us a shot” 

“ I’m glad you want to, I’ll pick you up tonight” Draco smiled.

Harry nodded and was about to turn back to bell jingling when Draco called him. 

“ Yeah ?” 

“You look cute in fairy lights, like an angel” Draco winked. 

Yeah, he was damned. 

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Harry groans as his head hit the the pillar by the bed at the Weasley's and finally rakes his hand under the bed to find his glasses. 

“ Every time “ He heard a small laugh. It was in the next second when he found the glasses and put it on that he turned and saw Ron had came into his room. 

“ The position of this pillar is totally inaccurate” Harry grumbled. He next wore his slippers and slipped on a jumper and decided to go downstairs after Ron himself while discussing the Christmas festivities left to be done and the plan of the day. 

“ Harry “ Molly squealed and immediately wrapped her arms around him. 

Harry forcefully chuckled, hugging her. 

“ You should’ve told us sooner that you’d be coming for Christmas” Molly grinned after having taken her arms back to herself. 

Harry tried fixing his atrocious hair as he settled at the table “ I didn’t know I was going to- someone dragged me “ He replied looking at Ron “ I’m sorry for last minute trouble” 

“ Trouble, nonsense ” He heard. Arthur had came into the room with his bag of work and ready to leave. Harry immediately got up and hugged Arthur as the family tradition went “How are you, Mr. Weasley?” 

“ As bright as the star” Arthur laughed. Harry never really got his jokes but he laughed at them nonetheless. 

“ Mum, We still need decoration to do outside, it’d be fine if Harry and I do it ?” Ron asked chewing down his apple pie. 

“ Of course dear, of course” Molly grinned.

And that’s how Harry’s rest of day was occupied and later that evening when Hermione too came there, the evening became wilder than it originally had been. Apparently the Weasley’s took a great fun in doing karaokes and singing at the top of their lungs, literally any of them. Harry laughed all along video taping them even as they sang and danced, doing back vocals in between too. It had been so fun yet tiring all at the same time that by the time it was 10 in the night everyone was tired of screaming and had sore throats so they just hummed along. Harry was smiling at the sight of the family, the jokes that were being shared in the corner between Bill and Fleur, Hermione and Ron talking about something which Harry could’ve joined but some days it was nice just watching them from afar and smiling at them and Arthur and Molly dancing to Molly’s favorite song. It was a sight to behold, It was all so nice and so overwhelming and yet his heart clenched in his chest every beating second when he thought that he could've been doing all of this with a boy he loved but couldn’t spend the Christmas with for several reasons. Harry would do anything right now to go to where he was, wrap him in his own arms and dance the same way Arthur and Molly were dancing. He could have it all but he’s here and not with him. Only if he could go to him. 

He felt the couch sunk under and looked over his shoulder to see Ginny joined him on the couch with a muffin in her hand. 

“ Want ?” she asked. Harry refused, smiling. 

They remained in silence watching them for so long, enjoying the incandescent happiness blooming in front of their eyes and the beauty of the relationships in its own until Harry leaned back and turned to face Ginny. 

“ Can I ask you something ?” Harry asked. 

Ginny gave him a smile “ Anything” 

“ If there was someone you could spend all your Christmases with, your new years, all the other holidays with who would it be and it cannot be family ?” 

Ginny scoffed, smiling “It’s obvious isn’t it, with someone I love” 

Harry nodded then turned momentarily to front “ And what if that someone you love is the one you’re not supposed to love ?” 

He heard Ginny exhale a sharp breath and the seat just next to him sinking further and he turned again to Ginny. 

“ Then I wouldn’t care about the world or anyone else. I would tell myself that I love them and the rest of the world doesn’t have to” 

Harry smiled, then his expressions turned into amusement “ You’ve always been the wise one” 

Ginny let out a soft chuckle then as the silence dragged on again, she put her hand over Harry’s to get his attention “ Go. You love him and that’s what matters. Spend your christmas with him, I’m sure everyone else would understand” 

Harry could’ve lied, could’ve pretended that Ginny’s word meant nothing but he knew there was no point in denying. He knew even if he tried, she’d see right through him, this was always something he liked about Ginny. The two had been through so much together and everyone thought they were meant to be, even Harry and Ginny themselves but now, he knows they weren’t meant to be and even if they were, Harry’s meant to be was someone else. He knew Ginny still hoped that they would get back together but he knew her flicker of hope was dying like a candle reaching its end until now when the wind could not bear so much and blew the candle out immediately, leaving just wax behind. 

“ You know who he is ?” Harry found himself asking 

“ I knew it before you even knew yourself” Ginny smirked. 

Harry chuckled then as it died he asked again “ How did you know ?” 

“Lets just say I’m wise” Ginny smiled. He looked at her for a moment longer than a few thinking of what they could’ve been but couldn’t be and the reason was back at Diagon alley and somehow he wouldn’t change it for the world. 

“ Seriously go, stop thinking about it too much. He’s more perfect for you than anyone could ever be, in all of the lives- Go before it’s too late. Ron would understand and I’ll handle” Ginny said, egging him on. 

Harry still waited until Ginny gave him a nod of affirmation which meant more to him than her encouragements all combined and immediately ran upto the room, packed his bag and ran outside through the back door and disapparating after having a last look of Ginny by the window giving him a nod, again. 

Within minutes Harry was knocking the poorly structured door of Palace Dè Elite. There was shuffling on the other side and some incoherent phrases while Harry waited this side and finally it came to a halt when he opened the door. 

“ Ha- Harry” He gasped in surprise. 

“ I want to spend it with you, this christmas, this eve, this new year, this holiday before we go back to school and pretend we hate each other, I want it just one time. I want to hold you and decorate our own christmas tree together even if it’s a shitty one, I want it and I want it with you wherever you are” Harry shrugged smiling as if he was a hopeless man in love dropping his bags to the ground. 

The other man awe-d and pulled Harry in a hug “ I love you” 

“ I love you too, Draco ” Harry replied in his neck, his arms holding him tight in his embrace. 

“ What about the Weasleys?” Draco asked after breaking away. 

Harry thought for a moment then remembered Ginny by the window “They’ll be alright. I just want to be you right now” 

Draco smiled and hugged him once again dragging him inside with him “ Come on you sap, lets have our own shitty version of Christmas” 

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Harry relaxed back in his chair, his finger playing the forward button then replay button over and over again trying to find a clue, any clue but it was all just a video, nothing more. The videos played on loop on the projector, questions after questions being asked and none met with an actual answer. It frustrated him, this entire case did but he was waiting for that one calling that hadn’t made it to him yet. He knew there was something to the case that he was missing or something that was kept concealed but days after trying to find out, he had reached nowhere, a dead end if he must say so. 

So he replayed the video like he had done several times, this time focusing on Draco’s facial expression and somewhere along the way pitying him for the horrid condition he must be in. Azkaban wasn’t people’s favorite place to be in and he was there for a crime Harry was convinced he didn’t commit. 

“ Killers don’t always use weapon, murder isn’t always murder and death isn’t always met. I did not kill Ben Codsworth, someone did and that’s not me ”

He stopped the video right at that second, feeling too exhausted to go on, just looking at the shade of pale screen and his expressions that looked defeated, like he lost at something, maybe convincing that he was infact innocent, shame Harry didn’t know, yet.  

“ What am I not able to find?” Harry whispered in the air then picked up the file and stared at Draco’s face. Looking between the Draco on the screen and on the file seemed like two entirely different people, different yet alike at all time. It was weird how the same person could look so different in such a small span of time, it felt so unreal but it was more real than everything had ever been. It was weird to think of how Draco might’ve possibly thought that he was going to be there only for a short span of time, a couple of days until he would’ve been found innocent like it should’ve gone but little had he seen this coming, little would he had thought about wasting his youth in prison and above that everyone being convinced that he was the murderer, it was like the world was convinced he was a murderer and nobody wanted to hear his story but Harry. It was like living in a tin box, with the same grey painted walls everywhere with the opaqueness of the world convincing that there was no world outside those 4 walls, outside that cruelty.  

Harry stared at the screen for a long time, then picture of Draco in his hand wondering what move should be his next, who to go to, who to believe until he heard the door knob twisting and he immediately unplugged the projector and hastily put the picture in a file. 

“ Harry “ the door opened and in the shadow cast Ginny’s silhouette.

“ yeah ?” Harry asked putting his case stuff away. 

“ Dinner ?” She asked 

“ i’ll be right out “ Harry answered. Ginny nodded and left. He cleared up the mess he made, putting the videos back in the bag along with the files and just as he was about to walk out, he had a good look of the room, his thoughts still running in wonderment. 

Within a few minutes he was at the table and listening to Ginny and filling her in about the new case he received at the same time yet keeping the name confidential. 

“ Seems like some case” Ginny commented 

“ Yeah- I constantly feel like there’s something i’m not seeing. There are just too many loopholes” Harry explained 

“ Of course there are, if how you’re saying this person didn’t kill him, then somebody else did who definitely had a problem with the person who’s in prison, its like he’s being framed” Ginny stated “ Wow- this fish isn’t as boneless as it was supposed to be “ she added but all Harry thought of how Draco could possibly be framed, who would do it?

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Harry was running out of people to reach out to, anyone he possibly could’ve thought of was either dead, disappeared, had lost touch, or currently low in existence as he would like to put it. He was entirely frustrated as he walked into his office and was met with John sitting over his chair. Good thinking of Harry to put the question pin board away last night. 

“ Hello, Harry “ John greeted. Even the small hello seemed to have caused a bubble of blood to rise inside of him. 

“ Hello, John. I think you might be invading my personal space- well office that is” Harry raised his eyebrows as he set his bag he bought over the table and walked behind to sit in his chair. 

The audacity John had to keep his legs over Harry’s table but then again John wasn’t the best guy. 

“ My office Harry- I gave you this office if you can recall- but- I can understand. I’m only here to know your progress on the case, don’t you think that perhaps the case have been dragged on for a little longer than you normally do it, say a week or two more than you would have normally finished the case in ?” John asked with his tone laced with challenge and suspicion. 

Harry huffed then leaned forward over the table, pouring a glass of water for himself “ I would say you are not wrong. The case have been dragged on for longer than usual- almost a week over than i’d normally do it but you see the case isn’t as simple as I thought it was. I have to make sure that there is absolutely nothing which could be questioned later in any inquiry. I want to make sure that Draco Malfoy stays put in there and for that I need to do an intensive study over the files and people who might think he’s innocent “ Harry wished that a door to hell would open up underneath his chair and drag him downright because right now he hated himself more than he hated John for what he said and how he said with a smirk plastered over his face. 

John looked at Harry impressively “ Well- I did not expect you to get so involved but I like your spirit- its as I’d like to put it very impressive. Finally thinking like a true auror “ He got up from the chair and was ready to leave, Harry himself being thankful for that but in the last moment John turned around and looked at Harry in a way he couldn’t himself explain, it was some sort of an unambiguous look that seemed as if John was looking through him and into his soul. Harry didn’t like that look, it left him mildly disturbed. 

And he left the office. Harry soon locked it after him and took out the question board from beneath his table and pinned another post. 

“ Pansy Parkinson? ” 

“ Narcissa Malfoy ?” 

And added a few more question marks after John’s name. 

Thinking upon the conversation he had with Theodore a couple of days ago, Harry couldn’t help but note down everything he could remember from the conversation on a piece of paper and stuck it to the pinboard as well. 

“ The botanist farm “ Harry frowned. How come it was never mentioned before that the botanist farm where Ben worked even existed? That led him to Ben’s investigatory file and doing his background search but reading lines over lines he realised it wasn’t mentioned anywhere when Ben was away for almost an year to the Botanist farm to study. Maybe it could be a start but Harry was afraid that going to find out about that Botanist farm would again be a dead end and if not more so a useless one, what possibly could he even get from there ? Or was it even really connected to the case as such which led him to another thing as why didn’t that come up in any inquiries with Draco about Ben’s disappearance especially about the farm for a while even though it was clear that Draco knew Ben the best. 

Harry was still reading through file hastily when suddenly his eyes laid upon the word Marital status, which was scratched several times then left blank. Harry picked up that piece of paper and put it before the table lamp trying to find the words beneath the ink. He bought his specks closer to his eyes, squinting and underneath the scraping was just one to two letter he could see at the end “ an ” and after that was another scratch. Clearly someone didn’t want anyone to know Ben’s marital status. Harry noted it down and left it over the table to later figure out what it was while he tried running around the office library to find a file on Pansy Parkinson, if that even existed. Apparently not and the reason was clear, despite being a hefty supporter of Voldemort during the second war, she was never really put behind bars and only the people who were put behind bars in Azkaban were the ones who had a file and since Pansy was only presented in the court for a short while and found guilty she was free. If Harry really thinks upon it he can recall sitting in the winzegamot while Pansy’s hearing was in process, she was very nervous and she kept bouncing her leg up and down whilst she was sitting on the chair. It was probably the first time he had ever even seen her that nervous but when your life changing sentence is a minute away, you would be scared. He can’t remember what happened next, perhaps he never really could paid attention or he was sent out of there for something and only returned during the final statement hour, the rest was just a fast blur. 

“ Harry-” Someone called from behind him and he turned around to notice the fellow he works with but had hardly ever been keen enough to remember his name. Harry assumed it started with a M. 

“ How are you doing ?” he asked. Harry smiled at him, answering his question vaguely. 

“ Been noticing you coming here a lot “ He smiled. 

“ Working on some cold sort of case- unfortunately the evidences are very less-” 

“ You’re looking here for evidence’s? Thought you’d know better than trying find them here, its a complete waste- John keeps the actual evidences- Why don’t you ask him ?” He asked frowning. 

“ Can’t ” Harry muttered to himself then gave him a fake smile “ I’ll try that, Thanks” 

And Harry left after that, going back to his office and waiting for the the hole of hell to open up under his chair. 

He was again running in his nuisance of unavailable hints, even thinking of giving up the case but the innocence in Draco’s face called him towards himself. Harry thought of it all and at the end he realised that he was afraid of knowing why he wanted to free Draco. He thought earlier that maybe it was all for a cause, or a sense to prove that innocent people are put into Azkaban without consent but now maybe it was more than that, maybe it always had been, he still doesn’t know why he was so attached to the case, all he knew that this wasn’t just any framed up case, it was so much more than that but if Harry was sure of one thing was that Draco could not have been a murderer.

The annoying clock on his table ticked louder than his thoughts he decided he needed at least something, he couldn’t waste his days away. If he needed to solve the case he needed to know everything about Draco’s life, his past life, his life in general away from school, his family, his relationship with Ben, he needed to know everything to find answers.

And so despite low chances, he was stirring in the pensieve every memory he ever held of Draco. Memories after memories transformed from one to another, some foul and unpleasant to some completely unnecessary but it was enough to prove that Harry knew absolutely nothing of Draco, absolutely nothing. He doesn’t want to blame his own self but it was true that he never really gave himself a chance to take the veil of mask off Draco’s face and look behind it. All the memories he had of Draco from 6th year now were more than just memories, his face was always a cry for help and it was unfathomable how Harry looked past all that and tried to look for suspicious things. He wonders what would have happened if he had ever gave him a chance to prove himself or What would had happened if for once he would had risen from more than just himself and trying to make plans to defeat Voldemort and had lurked a thought over Draco, what would’ve happened ?

Harry was on the last of the memories, the one from the day Dumbledore was on the porch after they had came back to the astronomy tower and Draco was standing with his wand pointed at Dumbledore. Harry walked nearer to Draco and looked at the helplessness in his face, the cry in his eyes, the tremor of his lips. He was hopeless, helpless and broken even back then, more then than ever. He was too young for someone to know what pain was but looking at Draco in his memory with his wand held in his trembling hands Harry felt pity and a strange whim of sadness. He stood right before Draco as he cried to Dumbledore and looked through his eyes but they were dim, closed down, shut off from him because Harry never really had tried to look beyond it but even then he knew it, he knew that he could be anything but a murderer.  

“ you couldn’t had done it ” Harry whispered and pulled out of the memory. He pushed the pensieve away a little and let out a long harsh breath. It had been too overwhelming to watch all the memories more than he could’ve thought of. It had left him estranged and guilty of a lot of things but they were just kids weren’t they. Kids who made too many mistakes and had came too far to apologize for them. 

Harry startled as soon as the door opened behind him and then shut off by whoever entered. He turned around and noticed Ron had came in and was watching his question pin board he had created.

“ You’re still here- thought you would’ve packed your stuff away” Ron commented 

Harry frowned looking at the ticking clock on his table “ Its just 4″ 

“ Yeah but the dinner is at 6 “ Ron shook his head making a point. 

“ What dinner ?” Harry asked confused. 

“ Dinner, At my place. Remember Hermione is hosting our usual dinners- something for the wedding to be discussed. Seriously how did you forget, I just told you yesterday while leaving work” Ron frowned. 

It struck him then, yesterday while leaving work Ron had said something about the dinner but his mind was making plans to cross by the bakery to check Boyce was there, he wasn’t. 

“ Yeah- must’ve slipped my mind- I’ll pack “ Harry retaliated. 

Ron sighed then opened the door to walk out of the door “ I’ll see you at dinner then- oh and try not to bring up the case in between with Hermione” 

Harry nodded and Ron left. 

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In Harry’s opinion the dinner was going pleasantly but in everyone else’s opinion, the dinner was everything but fine. The entire dinner Harry kept playing with his fork more than listening and when called out over it, he responded with ‘he’s not that hungry’ and it wasn’t even just that, when he was asked about the wedding preparations he was only half a mind present there and ended up being silent which for the sake Ron answered. Harry was very disturbed, dreaming in his own world, he didn’t like it but he was always thinking of ways to pin any clue or a hint in his head for the case and currently in dinner he was thinking of any memories he might’ve missed about Draco while watching the memories in pensieve but he couldn’t pin any memory he might’ve forgotten. 

But lost in his world, Ron finally lost his mind and dragged Harry into the balcony. 

“ What is up with you ?” Ron almost yelled. 

“ What ?” Harry questioned back confused.

“ You know what “ Ron replied crossing his arms in his front. 

“ Nothing is up Ron, I’m good” Harry shook his head for emphasis. 

“ You’re far from good Harry, don’t you see you’re losing your mind over that guy who for all you might actually be the murderer and I know you have faith in him and you believe he’s innocent and everything and he might be but Harry you have a wedding coming up, you have your friends and family here and you are being ignorant of them. I don’t know why this case is so important to you or if this have anything to do with your life or people or if its even just about justice but what you’re doing here and everywhere else except your office isn’t valid. You can’t ignore us, your fiance, the rest of the world for that one guy” Ron scolded. With the way he scolded him off Harry knew that it must’ve been something serious or he must’ve done something very wrong, he might even be entirely wrong for all he knew but if there was anything Harry knew about Ron was that if he was yelling at him or if he was calling Harry out on his shit then he had definitely not been a good friend.  

Harry sighed then nodded “ I- I am sorry, I didn’t realize I was being such a terrible friend-” 

“ Its not about being a terrible friend- it- its just that you’ve been so lost and all of us wish that you were just a little bit present” Ron admitted. 

Harry looked at Ron apologetically “I know- I wish I knew why this meant so much to me but I don’t and I know you think I do but I don’t- You know what- you are right, I’ve been very inconsiderate about everything even you guys and you people who mean the world to me- I’ll make it upto you all I promise I will, starting right now. I’ll run down and i’ll bring us guys some good cake and we’ll celebrate, alright” 

Ron huffed then nodded “ Do you want me to go along with you ?” 

“ I’ll be fine “ Harry replied patting his back and left the flat to run down to the nearest bakery but unfortunately the nearest bakery was closed, so was the other, then the other and the next one until he decided to go to Boyce’s bakery at his last resort which was fortunately open and about to be closed. He ran through the door, reaching for air and made it to the counter with little breath running into his system. 

“ I need- “ 

“ You again- Let me stop you- I know why you’re here, I knew it all along but its- it just didn’t make sense but nobody comes as often as you do and I can see you clearly have a reason with all your absurd questions ” Boyce cut him off. 

“ Oh? “ Harry asked in a single syllable. 

“ I know you who you need"  

“ Its Pansy, isn’t it ?” 

PART 1 TO 4 

I’m so so so incredibly sorry for anyone who was actually waiting for this update but a lot of factors contributed to this very specific late update and also as noticed I’ve started december fluff fest, I’ve barely been able to juggle with writing that, updating and my own life as well. 

I’d also apologize for this one being a shitty chapter, I barely had any motivation and headspace to think through it, clearly I do now. Again, Incredibly sorry. I’ll try to update sooner this time. Much Love. 

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5,6,19 in one single fic of draco being in azkaban

The Butterfly Effect

It lacks my skill to make it into a one shot and I apologize for it. This will be continued in parts. 

Dialogue Prompts - 5 - “ Why are you doing that ?” “Doing what ?” “ Treating me like a person” //6. “Sometimes memories are the worst form of torture” // 19. “ I lo–” “ No, please.. Don’t say that. You love her/him, not me” 

Cold stirred inside the cell, a heavy cloud of mist settling in and the grey walls screeched as he scratched another day over the walls. Day 150. He dropped the stone over the ground making sure to make no noise but the rustling of the door awakened the beast and it crawled towards him. He shimmied back into the corner until no corner was left to fit into and he whimpered begging the mercy from the beast to let him go but what a deaf beast would know.

The beast took its bite, sucked his memory and left over the ground was a filled with tears Draco Malfoy waiting for the numbness to settle in. His life was becoming more meaningless than it ever had been, only now, he didn’t had anything more left to offer.

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Day 13 Secret Santa @hpdestress

He still have them all.

When Harry was in his first year at Hogwarts, away from his home, with people he barely knew and some he found strange, he had spent his Christmas at Hogwarts. Back then Harry was happier than he had been in a long time and was glad for a lot of givings he was given even if he didn't want some of them , he took them with grace and their love in those givings and kept it safe in a case or in his heart. It was then on his first Christmas at Hogwarts when he recieved an anonymous gift resting over his bed waiting to be opened. He had already opened the invisibility cloak before so he knew it couldn't be that, so, when he did open it and threw the wrappings aside he discovered it was a gift by a child, not more older than he was. The gift had been a paper Santa decorated with all sorts of glitter and a card with "Maybe one day", just that. Harry had kept it safely.

The next year when he had returned back from his Christmas break, there had been a box sitting over his pillow. He knew it then it was from the same Secret Santa as last year when he had opened the card and it was the same inscription. This time there were cookies in a box ( secret Santa had made it themself).

The next year Harry had been excited to see his gift from the secret santa even though he didn't who it was but when he came back from the Christmas strolling with Ron and Hermione, there wasn't a gift on his bed, underneath it, or around it or even his fellow mates bed. He looked for 3 days straight until it showed up the next day, a card with the same inscription and nothing more and a Stocking with Harry Potter crocheted over it. Harry found those customized presents cute.

The next year, that was 4th year he yet again was met with his present on the pillow right after he had returned from the break. At this point he didn't bother reading the card but did it anyways and found it extremely impressive how whoever it was had a beautiful calligraphy. That year he had received ear muffs with Christmas tree stitched over them. He wore them often.

During his 5th year after things had turned pretty upsetting, the gift was all he looked forward to upon returning to school and like the 3rd year the gift came in late and this time with an apology " Sorry, I had things " the apology card read. He left the same inscripted card at the bottom of the box and picked up the gift. That year he had recieved a handkerchief with Harry weaved over it riding the broomstick and a small Draco getting knocked over by him around the corner. It was a hilarious gift. It certainly kept him going a lot.

But when the 6th year happened, Harry had to wait an entire week before he received the present. There was no apology that time but the same card with the same inscription as every which Harry now felt bored off yet found it endearing at the same time and a mix tape of songs that claimed to have reminded whoever it was of Harry. He kept listening to them even after the war was over. It was a nice gesture.

The 7th year, he didn't recieve anything and plainly there was too much going on for him to either be worried about but the morning after Christmas Eve while they were in Dean's forest Harry had thought about it and late in the night when Hermione was asleep he had heard the mix tape again. It kept him sane.

The 8th year, he finally recieved a love letter signed by anonymous but vividly mentioned having been in love with Harry for so long; along with a sweater with H weaved over its front and the signature inscription card only this time there was a smile put after the words.

He still have them all, in a box that he looks at them every year and remembers his childhood and how it was among the best part of his childhood.

Today was one of those days when Harry was looking through the box of things again except for the H sweater which he was wearing and smiled at them. He suddenly felt two arms wrap around his Torso and a soft pair of lips attaching his neck and hummed.

" Old Christmas presents " His lover said.

Harry nodded smiling then after a moment of enjoying his embrace and silence he spoke up " you weren't very discrete you know"

Draco laughed softly behind him and pestered him with a kiss again " So you knew all along ?"

" Nope, around 3rd year. Only a post brat like you could've known how to crochet" Harry teased.

" At least appreciate my efforts" Draco complained playfully.

" thank you for these"

Harry turned just a little, kissing his cheek then gazed into his eyes " our one day came"

Draco smiled at him equally swooned and in love, nodded " Our one day came"

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